Dreaming Of The Dead

My version of Season 4/Book 4: Sookie finds herself torn when she comes across a helpless vampire, the one she has come to hate. Follows the TB Finale, Rated M for language and adult themes, Eric/Sookie.

Chapter titles are songs and will be listed at the beginning of each chapter. They will relate and will enhance your reading experience if listened to, I swear!

DISLCAIMER: All characters are owned by Charlaine Harris and Alan Ball.

WARNING: La-La-Lemons!

AN: Ugh, last update today, I swear! I have spoiled you lovely readers! But it's okay, I love you all,...Finally, angst is ending! Let's see how these two work it out!

Chapter 21: Vermillion pt 2 (by Slipknot)

EPOV

I walked to her house. I didn't even know it, until I felt her in my blood. I looked up and saw her house, windows lit up. She was awake. I walked closer, slowly, drawn to her. I needed her,… I needed to see her and smell her, touch her,… I was desperate.

I got about 20 feet from her porch, when I felt her rush in the bond. She knew I was here,… her door swung open and she stood there, the light behind her, in her short, light pink night gown, looking fucking adorable. I wanted her.

"Eric?"

"I'm sorry," I said softly. I felt awful for how I treated her.

"Why did you run?" She asked, her voice cracking.

I shoved my hands into my pockets and looked down slightly, swallowing. I shrugged a little as I said, "I,… I was frightened."

"Of me?" Her lips trembled as she crossed her arms over her chest. She was cold, and upset, and nervous. I wanted to hold her.

"No,… no Sookie,…I was afraid of,… what may have happened,… what I did,… you understand that we,…"

"Bonded? I know,…"

I nodded and said softly, "Godric warned me to never bond myself to a human,… it would cause pain and suffering in the long run,… Sookie,… when you die,… I may die too, from losing you," I choked back my sadness at the idea of losing her. I couldn't lose her,… I would most definitely meet the sun if I did.

She shook her head and cried, "No, baby, no,… I'm not going anywhere,…" She came running to me then, crying and smiling softly. She called me baby?

"Sookie, you will grow old and die and I will be left without you,…the bond will tear me apart, I will not be able to control it-"

"No, Eric, you don't remember yet, but, I ain't gonna grow old and die,… I'm immortal, just like you. And you promised me we would be together forever,… we have forever," she cried and I stared at her, confused and in shock.

"But,… that's not possible,…"

"Eric, we have so much to talk about,… so much has happened and you don't remember any of it," she shook her head as she spoke, tears still falling.

"Dr. Ludwig said it would all come back within a few days,… in pieces,… like before?"

She nodded and said, "I will fill in the gaps again, baby, it's okay," she sniffled and smiled and I felt my heart burst. I was so in love with this girl, and I felt her love for me back. I was fucking floored! When did all of this happen? God damn, I wanted to remember!

"God, I wish it would all just come to me now,… I don't understand how any of this is happening,…I want to believe this is all real, that it isn't a dream,… " I said as I brought my hand to her face, wiping her tears with my fingers. They were still raw, and she noticed.

"Why are your hands so pink?" She asked, tilting her head, grabbing one to examine it. I didn't know what to say,… the guilt I felt tore through me, and she looked up.

"Guilt? What happened?" She asked, her eyes glistening still, her voice soft.

"The Queen came to the bar,… I had to do things for her which I would greatly not like to talk about,… ever." I shuddered at the memory, the hatred I felt for that woman.

Sookie nodded and said, "Does it hurt? Is it healing, or something?" I nodded and she caressed it softly. I watched her in awe as she gently ran her fingers over the raw skin, a sad look in her eyes.

She spoke softly again, amazing me with her words, "You did this to yourself, didn't you? Out of guilt,… and anger?" Her eyes met mine and my mouth hung open. She knew so much of me already, just from the bond. I nodded and closed my mouth, swallowing the lump there.

"I,… I think I felt your anger,… I kind of destroyed my house,… I didn't know why, but, this makes more sense I guess,…I can feel you like you feel me, because you are letting me. Before, you held it in, but now it's there,…"

"I'm sorry it affected you," I said softly.

"It's okay,… my living room is a wreck again though, which sucks," she sighed and I laughed.

"Great, I have to get another team out here to fix it then," I tell her, pretending to be annoyed but smiling softly.

"I'm sorry," she said, half smiling, half pouting.

"Oh, so you figured it out then?"

She nodded and said, "We both dreamed about it, it's how some of your memories came back,…"

"We both dreamed of it?" Did she know about that, too?

"Yeah,… you told me about how we do that sometimes,…"

I smirk and nod, and her face blushed red.

"So you are not angry that we share them occasionally?"

She shook her head no and bit her lip. I reached my thumb out to it and pulled it from her teeth, and then I heard my voice echo in my brain, 'Uh-uh, mine.' My eyes glazed over with the image of nipping her lip quickly, her giggling. I re-focused and saw her watching me, her eyes searching mine.

"Are you getting the flashes?" She whispered. I nodded and she smiled softly, saying, "Come inside?"

I nod and she grabs my hand and leads me into her home. I walk in, and my gods, it is indeed a mess.

"Shit, Sookie, what did you do in here?"

"Hey, it was your fault, you gotta control those emotions of yours, mister!" She began to pick up the pieces to a broken vase on the floor when suddenly she yelped and brought her finger to her mouth, sucking it.

"You cut it?" I ask her and she nods, frowning, her finger in her mouth.

I move to her, taking her hand from her mouth, and examine it. It is a pretty deep cut, and I look at her, questioning with my eyes. She nods and I gently lick the wound. I can not help it when a soft moan escapes my mouth, as I continue to heal her finger. I feel her heartbeat speed up, and can feel her arousal and excitement. I give it one last lick, and look at her.

"Better?" I whisper, shakily.

She nods her head and licks her lips. I cannot control myself. I grab her face and kiss her, our lips joining magnificently, as if they were made for each other. Her tongue slips through my mouth and I moan into hers, feeling as if I was going to explode. I ran my fingers through her silky hair and held her at the nape of her neck. Her small hands traveled up my chest and grasped the lapels of my jacket, pulling me closer into her body. I felt like I was dreaming,… this wasn't real. She wasn't real, it was a dream,… it had to be! How could I be kissing her, feeling such love and passion coming from her,… I was desperate to know the exact moment she had fallen in love with me. I had to know,… the curiosity and disbelief was building up inside of me, I couldn't stop it.

She pulled away, gasping for air, whispering, "What's wrong, Eric?"

I put my forehead to hers and closed my eyes, murmuring, "Don't let me wake up, don't let me wake up, please,…"

"Shhh, shhh baby, this is real,… no more dreams baby, you have me now," she whispered, her voice cracking. I choked back a sob and clutched her hair in my grasp, wrapping my other arm around her, holding her tightly to me. I would never let her go.

"Sookie,… I am so sorry for how I treated you,… I was just afraid,… I don't know what has happened, and I don't understand anything that is happening now,… but I regret running from you. Fuck, I regret running, hiding myself from you, using you, putting you in danger,… everything. I'm so sorry," I was apologizing like a fucking whipped ass pussy. But it felt,… good? I felt relief? The weight I had felt for so long at hiding my emotions from others, at hiding any guilt I ever felt for hurting someone,… it all lifted from me.

"It's alright, Eric, I know,… you don't have to be sorry anymore, it's alright,… we all make mistakes," she said, tears falling now, smiling sadly.

"I won't make them anymore, I swear to you, Sookie, I will never do those things to you again,… I should have told you how I felt for you from the start,…I've always cared for you, Sookie. Always."

She cried, "I know baby, I know that now, and I'm sorry too, for not realizing,… for always being such a bitch to you! I'm so sorry!"

She sobbed and I couldn't help but chuckle a bit, through my own tears. She gave me a look and I said, "Sorry, lover, but you were kind of always a bitch," she scoffed and hit my chest, but snuggled herself into me once more, her warm breath against my chest.

"So, what do we do now?" I ask her, quietly. She lifts her face from my chest and sniffles, then looks up at me.

"It's almost morning,… are you tired?"

I look to the window, and see the sky starting to lighten. I had to get away from it.

"No, but,… the sun, can I stay somewhere? I won't be able to outrun it."

She smiles wide then and chuckles a little, "Oh, I forgot,…" I quirk my eyebrow up at her remark and she just shrugs and says, "I'll tell you later,… come on." She drags me to her bedroom, and all the windows are covered up with curtains and blankets. I smile to myself, thinking, I must have slept here, in her room.

"I didn't take them off, figured you would be back,… well, before you freaked out on me,…"

She plopped down on the bed and patted the side next to her, "Come on, I won't bite," giggling and smirking at me. I was surprised by her carefree nature. I had never seen her so giddy.

I sit next to her and she folds her legs under her and faces me. She moves a piece of hair from my forehead and speaks softly, "Ya know, I thought when you got better, you would turn back into the same old Eric,… and then when I had called you,… my fears came true,… but,… you're still my Eric,… I'm believing it even more that you've always just been a faker," she smiles and looks over my face. I watch her, and feel her happiness through the bond. I hear her heart racing, and I can't help but to smile back.

She yawned then and covered her mouth, then said, "Excuse me! Gosh, I still haven't caught up, I guess,… is it alright if I crash? I mean, you're not tired at all?"

"Sleep, Sookie, I'll be fine." She nodded and scooted up to the pillows. She stuck her feet under the covers and shimmied down, then looked at me, waiting.

"Come on! You're secret is already out that you are a monster-cuddler!" She smirks and I gape at her.

"Oh, just get your hot Viking ass over here and snuggle me, damn it, I miss you!" Her words were shocking the shit out of me, but I complied. I got up and moved to pull back the covers and started to get in.

"Whoa, whoa, not in your clothes, they'll get wrinkled!" I raised my brows, shocked.

"You would like me to remove them and snuggle you,… naked?"

"Ugh, just take the damn suit off!" She said throwing a pillow at me. I stripped down to my black boxers, feeling strange at having her wanting me naked in bed with her. I didn't want to overstep any boundaries, since I wasn't sure what those boundaries were yet.

I got in the bed and laid next to her, and she snuggled into me, her head on my chest and her hand on my stomach. I hesitated at first, but then relaxed and curled my arms around her, holding her to me, inhaling her scent. She sighed and said softly, "Goodnight, Eric,… I love you."

I shut my eyes tight and prayed she actually said those words, and they weren't in my head.

"Goodnight, Sookie,… sweet dreams," I whispered back, not sure if I could say those three words and live to talk about it. With Sookie, you never know!

I felt her body relax into mine, as if it melted into me, and her breathing evened out. The second I felt she was asleep, I whispered into her hair, "I love you too,… so, so much."

SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!