A heart filled with more pain than love and a mind screaming to the heart on why it was so careless. Now the heart is in agony, almost breaking, because the owner can't have the person that he wants. The room was still dim. The sun had already risen and there was still time to sleep before the morning class would begin. Hakuren lied still under the covers next to Mikage who was still fast asleep. Hakuren felt their warm bodies close to one another and the slight pain in his lower body.
Thinking about the night before, Hakuren knew he allowed his emotions to fully take him over. There was hardly any thinking throughout the hours where he and Mikage shed clothing, kissed passionately and united as one. It was clumsy, it was new, but at the same time it was happiness. Sadly, that happiness wouldn't last long. Tears started to form in Hakuren's eyes. Love was a cruel emotion, one that made people do whatever to grasp it.
Mikage slowly started to open his eyes as Hakuren lifted himself up. Mikage looked up at Hakuren who was looking down with a gloomy look on his face. "Hakuren…"
"Now you have experience to go after Ayanami-sensei…This won't happen again Mikage."
Mikage lifted himself up and placed his hand on Hakuren's shoulder. It caused a slight shiver to run down Hakuren's back. "Are you mad at me? Did it hurt? Was it not good?"
"Stop asking stupid questions!" Hakuren yelled as he moved his shoulder away from Mikage's hold, "It doesn't matter anyway!" Mikage grabbed onto Hakuren's arm and moved a little closer to his friend.
"You're mad at me aren't you? Hakuren, if you didn't want to do it then you should have stopped me!"
"Stop you? You were unstoppable you idiot!"
"I didn't see you complaining!"
Hakuren looked back at Mikage with a deadly glare. He felt like punching the other male in the face. He would have too if the door hadn't opened and Teito wouldn't have walked inside. The look on Teito's face was priceless. He stared at his naked friends, trying to process why they were naked and why they were naked on his bed of all places.
"Don't tell me you two…And on my bed!" Teito nearly screamed.
"Oh crap! I forgot we were on Teito's bed!" Mikage yelled frantically. Hakuren pushed Mikage off of the bed and looked back at Teito.
"This was a mistake Teito. I'll clean your sheets for you."
"I don't think that's going to help…I'll just see you two in class," Teito replied as he grabbed his bag from his desk and left the room. Mikage rubbed his head as he stood up and looked over at Hakuren.
"Hakuren…"
"Let's hurry and get ready for class."
Hakuren stood up and grabbed his clothes from the floor. He started to put them on while Mikage stared at him with worry. He didn't understand why Hakuren had pulled a 360 from night to morning. Hakuren had been so passionate and willing just a few hours before, but now he seemed cold and distant. There was a tinge of guilt forming within Mikage. He thought it was better not to enrage Hakuren anymore than he was.
Sighing Mikage walked over to his drawer and took out a fresh pair of boxers. He put them on and grabbed his towel before walking out of the room and into the bathroom. Hakuren waited for the door to close before he sat back down on the bed. The tears he had been holding in were finally coming out. The pain was too much to bear. Unrequited love was just too painful.
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It was almost time for Frau's class to begin. He had taken the time before then to do some work in his office. There were a few times he had started to think about how he would tell Teito about meeting Bastien. He had already been forgiven for letting himself go with Mikhail, but he wasn't sure how Teito would take the news of having to meet his father.
A knock was heard at his door causing Frau to snap out of his thoughts and look over at who was standing at his doorway. "Ayanami, are you heading to your class?" Frau asked the other man.
"Yes, I'm sure you're about to head to yours."
"Yeah, I was just trying to get a few things done. I was also thinking of changing a few things on the syllabus to make the class more interesting."
"You're already a better professor than most of the professors here," Ayanami replied with a smile.
"I wouldn't say that. I'm just trying to do my best and keep things interesting. I know how hard it is to be in a class that bores you to death." Frau stood up and grabbed a few of his books. "My dad was the type to always make things interesting when he taught people. So I learned from him."
"Your father sounds like a great man. Does he live around here?"
"Yeah…but right now he's in the hospital. He's been sick for a while so it's better that he stay there until everything is okay."
"It must be hard on you. I admire how much you seem to care about him."
"Well I owe it all to him. Without him, I wouldn't know what it's like to feel loved and believe in myself."
Ayanami continued to smile, "Why don't we walk to our classes together? Yours is close to mine anyway. We can continue our chat."
"Sure," Frau replied as he walked out of the office with Ayanami.
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Teito sat quietly in his seat while he looked down at his notebook. He had arrived twenty minutes early to his class, wanting to take some time to himself and think things through. He was already worried about meeting the dean and professor Labrador outside of campus and in disguise, but he was also wondering what had happened between Mikage and Hakuren. Obviously the two had slept together, that was a definite, but why was what Teito wanted to know.
He started to doodle on the blank sheet of paper in front of him. He wondered if there was something he wasn't seeing in his friends. He knew how much Mikage liked Ayanami-sensei, but Hakuren wasn't as opened. It never occurred to him that Hakuren would feel something for Mikage, but perhaps there was a possibility.
The door to the classroom opened as Frau walked inside. He automatically noticed Teito since he was the only one in the room. He smirked a bit as he made his way over to his desk. "You're pretty early Mr. Klein. Are you that eager to be in my class?"
Teito looked up at the man and gave him a glare, "No. I've already seen your face too much today."
Frau glared back at the younger male, "Is that so? I thought you liked my face. You wouldn't stop kissing it last night."
"Don't say that so loud! Someone could walk in!"
"Are you still mad at me for what happened in the dressing room?"
"No, I'm over that."
"Then what's wrong? You look like you're thinking a lot about something. Is it about Friday night?"
"Yes…but there's also something else."
"Something else?"
Teito didn't want to say any more. He didn't want to put his friends business out there. The door to the classroom opened again as a few students walked in. They greeted Frau who greeted them back. Teito took the chance to put his attention back onto his notebook. He continued to doodle until he noticed Mikage sit next to him. He looked up and saw the gloomy look on his face.
"Where's Hakuren?" Teito asked. It was almost time for class and Hakuren wasn't the type to be late.
"I don't know. I thought he'd be here already…Damn, he really is mad at me."
"You're going to have to tell me everything after class. I'm not going to be in the middle of whatever is going on."
Mikage nodded his head. He looked over at Frau who was starting the lesson for the day. He glanced back over at Teito who was also paying attention to their professor. There was definitely love in Teito's eyes. Others wouldn't see it, but Mikage had grown accustomed to Teito that he could see passed his serious face. He could have sworn he saw a similar look in Hakuren's eyes when they were together. The look of desire, lust…and love.
Mikage's eyes went wide. He didn't want to believe it. It couldn't be true. Hakuren wasn't in love with him…That's what he wanted to believe, but something in him told him that that wasn't the case.
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Weirdly I'm feeling exactly what Hakuren is feeling so this chapter was a way for me to kind of vent on the whole unrequited like/love thing ;-; Love is tough. Anyway, I made sure to put some Frau x Teito in this chapter and bring Ayanami back! :D Hehe! I hope you liked it!
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