I began to shake and sweat as murphy looked at the test. I have never seen the look in his eyes before. It took a few minutes of dead silence until he finally looked at me. It wasn't the look I was hoping for though, it was a glare. A death glare. My face paled as he didn't say a word, but stormed out of the bathroom. I quickly ran after him,
"murphy!"
he just kept stormin through the house ignoring me. I ran after him, tears falling down my face,
"murphy please! Talk to me!"
once we reached the living room he stopped and spun to me with hard eyes. I stopped abruptly and starred at him fearfully. His eyes looked like I had just committed a crime, like I was the devil.
"What ya want me to say liv!" He yelled back.
i flinched and said,"I'm sorry murph"
"how long ya know!" He yelled.
"since yesterday" I cried.
"yesterday! And ya went on the fuckin job with us!" He yelled.
"I tried to stay! You made me go in the car!how the hell was I supposed to know some psycho was going to come out and start shooting us for no damn reason!" I screamed back.
connor and Rocco ran into the room when hey heard us screaming.
"ey! Wha da fuk is goin on!" Connor yelled trying to calm his brother down.
i remained silent as murphy snarled,"why don't ya tell em liv! Tell em how yer fuckin pregnant!"
all was quiet and I felt Connors eyes on me. I looked up and saw how shocked they were,"yer pregnant?"
i hesitated but nodded. He sighed and said, "dammit murph!"
murphy looked betrayed at his brother,"me! Why da hell ya blAmin me for dis!"
"cause it's not just her! Takes two!" Connor yelled at his brother.
the macmanus's started to size each other up. They were about to charge at each other when Rocco quickly interfered,
"hey hey stop it!" He turned to Connor,"we need to let them talk it out" he turned to murphy,"and you..you need to calm down and be a man"
murphy and connor were glaring at each other as Rocco led Connor into another room. Once we heard the door close, I looked back to murphy who was breathing heavily and had turned away from me. I slowly walked up behind him,
"murph?"
i got closer when he didn't respond. I set a hand on his shoulder, but he quickly shook it off. Right then my heart broke. I knew I had lost him,
"murphy please"
"go" I heard him whisper.
i stood there puzzled. Did I hear him right? "Murph?"
"I said go!" He turned back to me with hateful eyes,"get outta ere! I don't want it! Don't want ya either!"
my whole world came crashing down around me. I felt like I was being choked, I couldn't breathe,"you don't mean that"
"the hell I don't! I can't have a damn kid wit my job and I certainly don't need no damn woman slowin me down. Get outta ere now" he growled.
i just starred into his eyes. This wasn't the murphy I fell in love with. I didn't know who this was. I couldn't bring myself to beg him. If he really didn't want me or his child, we'd fend for ourselves. I wiped my tears and stormed past him grabbin my bag from our room. I looked at him one last time before leaving. He was still frozen in the spot where I had left him. I sighed and closed the door, leaving the apartment. I walked out into the cool night air and started down the street. I had no money with me so there wasn't gonna be no staying in a hotel. I thought of the only place I could go. Mcgintys. I walked into the bar which was deserted because of it being after hours. Doc immediately came down the steps and was shocked when he saw me,
"o..lol...Olivia?"
I smiled,"hey doc, ya mind if I stay here for the night?"
"of course...are ...are...da...boys...alr...alright?" He stuttered.
i smiled faintly,"ya they're fine"
he he sensed I didn't want to talk about it and said,"follow..me..."
i followed him up the steps and he showed me his guest room. I smiled and thanked him as he left. I sat my bag down on the bed and lay next to it. I wrapped my arms around my stomach as a tear came to my eyes. I thought of murphy, how I'd never get to hold him again. How our child won't know their father. I was alone in this.
"Don't worry little one. We're going to be ok" I whispered and fell asleep.