Sorry for the shorter chapter. xx
Jeff stood there reading the letter, he couldn't believe what he was reading, the last thing Dixie wrote was an utter lie. She was right, Jeff didn't believe her, or love her and if she didn't make it he wouldn't live his life on regret or mourn. He wasn't crying for feeling sorry for Dixie, but he was crying because he thought she was lying. He picked up the bottle that had been smashed into pieces, and threw the pieces in the bin. Then paid attention to the empty boxes, with the missing pills he put those in the bin also, most of the pills were gone but there was the odd one that she missed, part of him annoyed that she missed them.
The letter was folded and crumpled in his pocket; he couldn't believe Dixie would accuse Mick of trying to rape her, or that it was him who attacked her and where would he get a gun to hold her at gunpoint?
Dixie had no leg to stand on, he walked in with Mick on the floor and Dixie standing over him, maybe she felt guilty and that is why she did what she did. He sat on the sofa, trying to remember what had happened last night, but he couldn't remember a thing.
Dixie was right in her letter, he didn't believe a word of what she wrote, and he was going to go out and find himself a flash bird, now that he didn't have Dixie to worry about. Either-way, he wanted nothing to do with her anymore if she survived he was going to divorce her, if she didn't make it he would go to her funeral, but that would be it. He never thought he would divorce Dixie, but after her lies, after what she did he wanted nothing to do with her anymore. Getting up, he decided to leave the ED, and head to the ambulance bay he didn't even look into resus where Dixie was. Wiping away his tears as he went outside, he wasn't crying about Dixie he no longer felt any concern or worry towards her.
He put the letter in his locker, not wanting to read the lies, so locked them away. Going to the kettle he put it on making himself a coffee, he sat whilst drinking. Before he would have been by Dixie's bedside, not wanting to leave her but now he couldn't get enough distance from her. He didn't feel no regret or guilt, Dixie had brought it on herself. Once hearing his stomach rumble, he got up going to the vending machine inserting his money and picking up the crisps that fell. Munching his way through the pack, he decided to read the letter again. Going to his locker, picking the folded letter from the darkest part of his locker, every time he read it he felt the same anger and frustration.
Turning around Tamzin was behind him,
"Why aren't you with Dixie?" she questioned, folding her arms showing she wasn't happy with Jeff.
"Because she is a lying cow" he spat back without hesitation.
"How dare you say that about her"
"Why not it's true" he stated, slaming his locker shut.
"How the hell can you think like that, she is lying in resus completely helpless," Jeff flung the letter at her, and she started to read it. She felt a lump form at the back of her throat, fully reading it until speaking again.
"So why aren't you with her?" She asked, wondering why Jeff was sat in the office binging on coffee and crisps, when he should be with his wife.
"Because Tamzin it's a load of shit" He exclaimed waving the piece of paper about,
"Whether it is or isn't she needs you!"
"Well I don't need her!"
"JEFFREY COLLIER, YOU GET IN RESUS WITH YOUR WIFE NOW!" This was the first time Tamzin shouted at Jeff, but he needed it.
"WHY, SHE IS LYING, IF SHE WANTS TO DIE, LET HER DIE!" Jeff, was fuming he didn't want to be with Dixie, he wanted to be as far away from her as possible.
"WHY WOULD SHE LIE, ABOUT THAT?!"
"BECAUSE, SHE IS A STUPID, JELOUS WOMAN!"
"DON'T YOU DARE SAY THAT, WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?" Tamzin couldn't understand why Jeff didn't believe Dixie, he had known her for so long, and had only known Mick for a few months.
"WRONG WITH ME? SHE IS THE ONE WITH MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES!"
"SHE HAS NOT GOT MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES! SHE WAS SUFFERING ALONE, AND FELT UNLOVED"
"WELL SHE IS UNLOVED!" Jeff fired back, making Tamzin's jaw drop, She couldn't believe he just said that, she grabbed hold of his arm tightly, and dragged him into the ED, and into resus where Dixie was being shocked, as she had stopped breathing, Tamzin let go off him in a way that he stumbled forwards, towards Dixie's bed. Now they were in resus where they could hear the long beep from the monitors,
"Are you going to tell me, you still don't love her" Tamzin muttered, as they watched on as the people in the ED were trying to bring back Dixie.