A/N: This is going to seem a bit random. And short. Don't worry I'm already writing the next chapter, I just felt like confusing your brains some more. (;
Chapter 20
[Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy]
After Edward left that night, Bella struggled to find sleep. Her mind was swimming with thoughts of Damon. Her head was screaming that she hadn't known him long enough to have any feelings, but her heart yelled back in earnest that what she felt wasn't new. Downing a few of her dads sleeping tablets, she crawled into her bed, turning on her radio in the process. AC/DC's Highway To Hell finished and the silence was filled with the peaceful sound of a piano. Closing her eyes, Bella began to drift off.
Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
Visions of her and Damon lying on a beach filled her mind before she could stop them. Oddly enough it calmed her.
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
A stab of sadness ran through her heart. Her and Damon had walked to the waters edge, as they watched the sunset she felt the ring slip on Damon's hand. She cried in her sleep as Damon faded to nothing. An ache in her heart.
Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be
Flickers of memories of her and Damon riding horses, having picnics, even racing through trees tore through her mind.
So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
She could see herself trying to carry on with life. Trying to move on, find someone else but no one compared.
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
It was different. Damon's hair was longer, curlier. They were in a busy market square, laughing and joking. Everything was great. She could feel the happiness at the return of her love.
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never
Ever forget these images
No
This time they were in the woods, chasing fireflies and just smiling. Rolling around the floor, him kissing her neck, rubbing her arms, holding her close. And then he was gone. Another man stood in his place. He was telling her that Damon had died whilst at war. That she shouldn't be in the woods alone.
I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
But she wasn't alone… Was she?
Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be
So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
She was watching as two caskets were taken into a tomb. It read Salvatore. People all around her were crying for the loss of two of the towns great sons.
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning without you on my mind
It was different this time. Damon was in front of her, but she couldn't reach him. She was scared.
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I'll bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life
She couldn't stand to see him die again. But at the same time she felt like she'd never met him before. She watched as he drunk excessively and danced with two girls.
Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be
So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
Suddenly the girl clad Damon looked at her, a smirk on his face. He led her outside, they'd barely gone around the corner before he unleashed his fangs and sun them into her. Screaming, she felt the world fade around her. It was dark for the longest time before Bella sat bolt upright in her bed in Forks. Turning to her radio she heard the song end as her heart broke apart. She was confused. She hadn't dreamt since she'd left Forks, but this didn't feel like a dream, it felt real. Bella shook herself. She'd had dreams like this when she'd been with Edward, about which path she should take; Edward or Jacob. She knew what it meant. She had to choose between her head and her heart.
Bella couldn't help but feel that whatever choice she made would change her life completely.