I know that I haven't updated in a while! And I'm sorry for that but I just had writer's block and I usually write my stories before I type them but with this story I just sit down and type it off from the top of my head. But yeah I hope you enjoy this chapter!

Also, I don't know anything about Bipolar people and I tried so don't hate me if I got any of the information wrong!

Carly POV

I can't believe Alison was at my door, and we were about to get into another fight.

"Look, did you just come here to fight because I really don't want to do that right now, so feel free to leave." I said starting to close the door but she stops it with her hand.

"Okay, I came here to talk. I feel terrible about what happen at the hotel I honestly don't know what came over me, well actually I do. Can I please come in and talk to you, I don't feel like telling you all this outside in the hall it's kinda personal." I weighed my options, maybe she was ready to open up and talk to me about what happen and why she acted that way.

"Fine, come in." I said and moved out of the way as she walked in. "Let's go in to my room."

We walked into my room and sat on the bed and patted on the spot next to me. She sat down.

"So, what is it?" I asked starting the conversation.

She took a deep breath. "I'm going to start off saying I'm sorry that I put my hands on you, I didn't mean to. But it wasn't me, well it was me but I wasn't in my right state of mind at that time. And there is a reason for that." she said. I was mentally preparing myself for what she was about to say I mean it could be anything really. "When I was younger, like, 13 years old. My mother died. She died of cancer and I was devastated I was so depressed. And my behavior started to change drastically all the time, there was times where I felt sad and depressed and I had suicidal thoughts, low energy, poor concentration, I wasn't paying attention to anybody. I was oversleeping, tired all the time. My father just thought I was acting like that because of my mom's death, but there was other things that didn't seem right I had different set of emotions. I was also very hyper in a way….. I was always jumping from idea to another I had racing thoughts, sometimes I wouldn't even sleep, like, I didn't feel the need too, I didn't want to, I just wasn't sleeping. I was also very irritable, I would get very anger over the smallest things to the point where I'd get very violent. And I'm a very violent person to began with so it was very bad. I'd throw things, I'd swear at everyone, threaten to kill them if they bothered me or made me mad." I was just listening to her, I wasn't saying anything. But I didn't understand what she was trying to tell me.

She continued. "My dad got worried and took me to see a psychiatrist, he just thought that my mom's death had everything to do with my sudden change of behavior, but that wasn't it at all. She actually told me that I have a Bipolar disorder." She said. I didn't even know what to say. I was mad at her for absolutely no reason I felt so bad.

"I'm so so-" she cut me off.

"I haven't had an episode like that at all, in the longest time but if I do it was never as bad I was last week. But the reason I was acting like that in California was because before we went I stopped taking my pills. I stopped taking my pills because I wanted to be myself when we went. When I take my pills I feel like I'm being controlled, my emotions are being controlled and I don't like it but I have to deal with it or learn to deal with it. The time in that club, where I was all over that girl it was one of the symptoms of my disorder I swear I would have never done that, when I don't take them I act and feel like a completely different person like I don't even know what I'm doing. The whole time in California I was in my mania stage because I was so happy to be away from home with you and I had so many emotions that it triggered my disorder . And don't get me started on what happen in the hotel room. I'm just sorry about all that happened this past week. None of it I meant to say or do. I never want to hurt you." That's when my stomach dropped. She told me loved me, did she even mean it? And we had sex, did she even mean for that to happen also?

"Alison, when you said you didn't mean anything you said or did this past week…" I started

"Oh shit. No. Carly when I said I loved you I meant every word, I do I love you with all my heart and that's why I was so mad at my self and hurt because I couldn't believe how I treated you. And when we made love it was so special and important to me. I don't regret any moment of it." I smiled and kissed her. "Oh my gosh! You don't know how bad I missed those lips!" She grabbed my head and kissed me. She sighed. "Ohh, those kisses!" she said and giggled.

"I missed you!" Alison said.

"Haha! We weren't away from each other for that long!"

"I know but you are so easy to miss!"

"I know!" I said acting very vain.

"I'm so glad that we fixed what happen!" she said. And smiled.

"So all of this is behind us right ?" I asked.

"Exactly. I think I'm going to talk my psychiatrist again." She said.

"That's good, I'm happy for you." I said and smiled.

"Here's some other good news." She said.

"What?"

"I talked to my dad and it was actually a good talk. So good that he wants you to come over for dinner tonight!" She said. I got so happy and I was very surprise and I was totally not prepared for it at all!

"OMG! For real?" I almost yelled.

"Yes!" This is like the happiest time of my life right now I can't believe it.

"So, like, what should I wear, should I just dress up or go real dressy?" I asked.

"Carly! You don't have to panic you can wear whatever you want." she said laughing.

"Okay, how should I act?" I asked.

"Carly! The way you act naturally is perfect. Why are you being like this?" she asked still laughing.

"Ally, I just want your dad to like me!" I said.

"He is. Because I love you and if I love you he should too!" She said and kissed me.

I'm so glad I have my girl back. But I'm so nervous about tonight.

I hope you enjoyed this chapter!

Also, I'm writing another story a SEDDIE story and I feel like it's going to be a great story! So look forward to that !

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