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" A Perfect Circle"

Chapter 21

" Gone"

Sakura

I am so excited today because later this evening, I am going to have my surgery done on my throat. At first my father was against it because he was afraid that something might happen to me but when I told him that I will be having this surgery, he silently agreed. I feel bad doing that to him, reminding him of what I had lost because of him but it was for a good cause. I am sick and tired of not able to talk and express myself. I want to be able to moan out Sasuke's name while he pleasures me. I want to be able to get in trouble in class for talking and I want to stick up for myself to Ami and her friends.

Sasuke wanted to do something special for me since today was my big day so we decided to go to a sushi bar after school. At first my father didn't want me to go today since I needed to rest for my big surgery tonight but I wanted to go because I know I won't be back for awhile since I will be recovering and I also wanted to say goodbye to everyone. In case that something might go wrong and I die or become a vegetable. I wonder if Sasuke would treat me like a princess if the surgery turns out bad. I wonder if he will miss me if I die.

" You know you want to blow me."

I snapped out of my own thoughts after hearing this comment and looked up at Sasuke while he was smirking at me. The certain kind of smirk that he shows to me and only me.

" That got your attention, are you thinking about your surgery?"

Sasuke asked me while I looked down at my California rolls and nodded my head. To say that I'm a little worried would be an understatement. I was terrified that something bad was going to happen.

" It's going to be alright. I promise I will stay by your side as long as the doctors let me."

Sasuke said in a serious tone of voice before taking a bite out of his shrimp tempura rolls. I smiled at him and noticed that he looks so cute whenever he eats. He noticed that I was staring at him and swallowed what was in his mouth before opening it up.

" What is it? Do I have something on my face?" Sasuke asked as he picked up his napkin and started to wipe his mouth off but I just silently laughed and shook my head.

No, I just never noticed how cute you are when you eat

Sasuke glared at me but I knew that he was only messing with my head.

" I'm not cute." Sasuke pouted out.

You are even cuter when you are pouting like a little boy

Sasuke was about to say something when he was interrupted.

" Hey guys!" We looked over to see Naruto and Hinata standing together.

I smiled and waved at them while Sasuke just stared at them. I could tell that Sasuke was pissed off that they were here. I was hoping it was because they were ruining our date. Sasuke and Naruto have become the best of friends again which I don't really mind since it didn't really affect me and Sasuke's relationship. At lunch it was back to their old ways so I didn't have to worry about Sasuke being by himself.

" What are you doing here dobe?" Sasuke raised an eyebrow but grunted when Naruto pushed him to the side and took a seat next to him. I scooted over and gestured to Hinata to come sit next to me.

" We wanted to eat some food and we saw you guys here so I figured that we would join you guys." Naruto chuckled out and I couldn't help but giggle out when I saw Sasuke's sour expression.

" So Sakura, Naruto told me that you are having surgery done on your throat tonight. Are you nervous or excited?"

" She has no reason to be nervous because everything is going to be great and she will start talking in no time."

Sasuke answered for me while I smiled at the girl and nodded my head. I glanced over at Sasuke who was now playing with his food like something was bothering him.

" Who would had known that Sasuke would be all emotional and shit." Naruto laughed out while Sasuke glared at his friend.

" Shut up." Sasuke hissed out.

" Leave him alone Naruto, he is probably just worried of Sakura. I know I was very worried when you told me that your father was in the hospital." Hinata explained which caused me to smile. Aw Sasuke was worried about me.

" Ha, I remember back when Sasuke acted like he hated Sakura, well he hated all females but especially Sakura. You remember that one time Sasuke when we saw Ami beating the crap out of her and you figured that she deserved it."

Naruto chuckled out while my smile vanished from my face. I shouldn't be mad that was in the past and he did acted like he hated me for the longest time. I looked back up at Sasuke who had just smacked Naruto in the head, staring at me like I was about to cry or something but I won't. I have enough problems to deal with at the moment. I decided to change the topic when the mood became silent.

Hey did you notice that Mr. Iruka seemed a lot happier than usual?

Naruto thought about it for a moment before grinning out.

" It's because Mr. Iruka has a date tonight!" Naruto said which surprised Sasuke and I.

" How do you know this information Naruto?" Hinata asked her boyfriend.

" Because I asked him myself." Naruto said with a confident smile on his face.

" You have to remember that Naruto and Mr. Iruka are pretty close." Sasuke spoke out while I nodded my head. I then looked down at my cell phone after I felt it buzz and my eyes widen to see a text message from Ino.

Ino: Hey Sakura, are you busy?

I quietly replied back while I could feel Sasuke's gaze on me, trying to figure out who I was talking to.

Sakura: Not really. I'm eating with Sasuke and Naruto. What's up?

A few seconds later I got a response.

Ino: Do you think I can come over to your house? I really need a friend right now

I looked up at Sasuke and the others to see Naruto and Sasuke arguing while Hinata remained silent.

Sakura: Sure, meet be over there in about 15 minutes

After I closed my phone up, I got Sasuke's attention.

Hey do you think it will be okay to go home now? I am going to meet up with Ino at the house

Sasuke had a weird look on his face when I told him Ino was coming over. He was still not a huge fan of hers.

" Why?" Sasuke questioned out then I replied.

Because we are going to hang out

" You can't be hanging out. You have surgery in a few hours and you will need you strength." Sasuke answered.

That makes no sense! We are hanging out right now.

God Sasuke could be so annoying at times being over protective.

" She does have a point teme." Naruto spoke out then Sasuke turned to glare at him.

" Fine." Sasuke mumbled out as we got out of our seats.

" Well we better be heading out anyway." Naruto said as he stretched out.

" But Naruto, we haven't even eaten yet." Hinata responded.

" Oh yeah. I forgot." Naruto said as he scratched the back of his head with his hand.

" Idiot, I'll call you later." Sasuke spoke out.

" Alright, good luck Sakura."

Naruto said while I waved back then we left the sushi bar. The walk to the car was silent which was fine by me because all I kept thinking about was what Naruto had said about Sasuke hating me. I know that he used to but it hurt to actually hear someone else say it. Deep down inside I was always wishing that he didn't hate but loved me instead.

" Are you okay?" Sasuke asked me as he got into his car. I looked up at him and smiled while nodding my head.

" Annoying. You are such a bad liar."

Sasuke spat out at me while I rolled my eyes. I turned my head back towards him when I felt his hand under my chin and his face up and close to mine. He leaned in to kiss me and I was eager to kiss him back. After a few minutes of making out, I could feel his hand roaming down to my skirt and his fingers digging underneath my underwear. I realized that we need to get home so I could meet up with Ino so I pushed him away, earning a hard glare from him.

" What is it?" Sasuke questioned me which his face turned from angry to confusion.

We need to go home now. I am going to meet Ino at the house

" Why? She is a bitch and we should spend the rest of your time left together, I want you." Sasuke hummed out then tried to kiss me again but I pushed him back.

Sasuke, it's going to be okay! Now we need to go home.

I had the feeling that he was being this way because he was thinking what if something happens to me. I rather not think about it at the moment.

" Fine." Sasuke mumbled out then started the car and drove off.

xXx

When we got back to the house, I could already see Ino's car parked out front. I was about to head in when Sasuke pulled on my wrist and I turned to give him a questionable look.

" Listen, I'm sorry about how I acted earlier. I'm just nervous about the surgery." Sasuke said while running his hand through his hair. I smiled at him then wanted to know something since it was still bugging me.

Can I ask you a personal question?

I have to know the truth. I needed to know if he actually did hate me at one point or did he just pretend so I wouldn't know how he really thought about me.

" What is it?" Sasuke asked me as he let go of my wrist.

Was it true what Naruto said at the sushi bar about you used to hate me?

Sasuke's eyes widen at my question the looked down at the floor. I already knew what my answer was it and hurts just knowing what it was.

" Yes." Sasuke mumbled out and before he had a chance to say anything else, I went inside. I saw Mikoto in the kitchen who just looked up and smiled at me.

" Hey Sakura, Ino is waiting for you in your room." Mikoto said then I smiled and waved at her before running off to my room. I was a little surprised that Sasuke hadn't made it back inside the house but it was his own problem and not mine. I opened up my room to see a crying Ino and I immediately felt bad and closed the door behind me and walked over to her.

" Sakura… Sai cheated on me." Ino sobbed out but then I stood at my spot after hearing her confession. I shook my head and sadly looked over at my friend. I took out my cell phone and went over to sit next to her.

Ino, I told you that I wouldn't be your crying shoulder if Sai hurt you

" I know but I didn't have anyone else to talk to. I called him earlier today because he is off in school and some bitch picked up and was saying all this crap that he had just got done fucking her and shit like that." Ino huffed out.

Ino, I fucking told you that he was going to break your heart. Why didn't you fucking listen to me?

I was more than pissed off. I have enough problems at it is and I'm supposed to be leaving for the hospital in awhile. I did feel very bad for my friend but at the same time I didn't because I had told her that he was going to cheat on her and if he broke her heart don't come crying to me. It's like she didn't listen to a single word that I said.

" I know but I love him Sakura. I loved him so much." Ino crushed me into a hug and I couldn't do anything but hug her back. After a few minutes, she pulled away from me and I typed up another message to her.

Well I loved him too but he broke my heart like he didn't even give a fuck about me.

I silently sighed out, remembering about our break up.

Flashback

I told Sai to meet me up at the bridge that was near our house. Ino had told me earlier that day that Sai had been cheating on me and I knew that Ino would never lie to me. I was going to confront Sai about this. I stared down at the river that was underneath the bridge and silently gasped out when I felt a pair of arms snaking around my waist.

" Miss me?" Sai whispered into my ear, making my heart break even more. I turned around and pushed him away, causing him to look at me with a confused look on his face.

" What's wrong honey?" Sai asked me as he tried to approach me again but I backed away then typed him a message on my phone.

Is it true that you are cheating on me?

My heart sank when I saw how guilty his eyes looked after reading my message. He sighed out then turned away from me. I began to feel wetness on my skin and looked up to see that it was starting to rain.

" I'm sorry Sakura, I was hoping that you weren't going to find out." Sai commented then turned his head back towards me to see the tears running down my face.

" It's just not working out anymore."

Sai said then began to walk away, leaving me all alone on the bridge. What the fucking hell? I figured that he would just lie about it saying it wasn't true or beg on his knees for forgiveness but no instead he just gave up and left me. I began to cry out harder, not caring that I was getting soaked. I hate myself and I want to die. My eyes widen when I felt that I wasn't getting rained on anymore and looked up to see that there was an umbrella over my head. I quickly turned my head and was shocked to see my step brother was standing behind me with a bored expression on his face.

" You are annoying. You will get sick if you stay out here much longer."

Sasuke stated out and I just needed somebody, anybody. I didn't care if he was going to get mad at me but I didn't anyway. I immedatly brought him into an embrace and began to cry in his chest. I stopped sobbing when I felt one of his hands being brought over to my back, making me go into his chest more. I looked up to see him looking down at me with an emotionless look on his face that he had on most of the time. He was being so different, I guess he had seen what had happened with me and Sai.

" Let's go home. Dinner is ready." Sasuke said then walked with me back to our home.

End of Flashback

I smiled at the memory because it was the first time that Sasuke was ever nice to me. The niceness didn't last but it still gave me hope that one day he would break away from his shell. I had enough of Ino and stood up and headed towards my door.

" But you didn't love him love him!" Ino yelled out which caused me to give her a confused look then turned back and started to open up the door.

" I know you were heartbroken by Sai but I know that you had loved Sasuke much longer and even more than Sai!"

Ino yelled out then I stopped at what I was doing when I noticed that someone was standing on the other side of my bedroom door and it was Sasuke. I knew he had heard what Ino just said because of his priceless expression.

" Sakura… you love me?" Sasuke asked me and I turned my head away to avoid his gaze but it was too late. He already figured out the answer.

" Shit Sakura I didn't know Sasuke was right there." Ino said as she got up from my bed. Great just kill me now why don't you.

" What's going on up here?"

I heard my father question out then I smiled at him and ran over to him once he was getting near us and hugged him. I love my daddy for interrupting this weird situation. I heard a door being shut and I looked over to see that Sasuke was no longer in the hallway but Ino who was walking over to us.

" Are you ready to go to the hospital?" My father asked me and I nodded my head. I have to get out of here.

" Why are you going to the hospital?" Ino asked out.

" Sakura is getting surgery on her throat tonight and if it's a huge success, she will start talking in a couple of months." My father said while patting me on the head.

" That is great news Sakura! Well I hope that it all turns out well. I'll text you tomorrow okay?"

Ino said as she gave me a hug then we all went downstairs. Ino left our house while I waited for my father to get ready while Mikoto sat in the living room.

" Well Sakura, I wish you the best of luck! It will go fine." Mikoto said with a smile on her face while I smiled back.

" Sasuke and I will show up before your surgery to give you support."

Mikoto said while I didn't want to know that. I doubt that Sasuke would come down after hearing that I was in love with him. My father came by and we left the house while I didn't even get the chance to say bye to Sasuke.

xXx

When we got to the hospital that was when I began to freak out. God I hate hospitals and it made me even more depressed at the fact that I didn't have Sasuke to comfort me. I had turned off my phone and got situated in my hospital room, getting ready for surgery. Dr. Tsunade came in with a nurse.

" Hey Sakura, are you ready to get your voice back?" Dr. Tsunade asked me and I nodded my head while the nurse began to inject some substance into my skin to make me sleep.

" Alright, we are ready to go." Dr. Tsunade said as they moved my bed out of my room and I looked around to see Mikoto standing by my father but Sasuke was nowhere in sight. Mikoto walked up to me and held on to my hand.

" Hey honey, how are you feeling?" Mikoto asked me while I was wondering where Sasuke was because I thought Mikoto said that he was coming with her.

" Where's Sasuke?" My father asked.

" He said that he was going to go hang out with Naruto so he's not coming up here." Mikoto said with a sad smile on her face.

" Well that's okay, I'm pretty sure Sakura wouldn't care if he showed up or not." My father said then looked down at me.

" You are going to do great."

My father said as he patted me on my head. I could feel the drugs starting to kick in and my eyes started to flutter. I closed my eyes then I could have sworn that I heard some running noises and Mikoto saying something. I then felt some breath on my ear and I knew it was Sasuke. I could recognize the feel of his breath and the smell of it from anywhere.

" I love you too."

I heard him whisper out and I had to see his face one last time and opened up my eyes but then I realized that Sasuke wasn't here. It was just the drugs kicking in as I felt like I was about to fall asleep. I guess he really didn't come.

xXx

Sorry for the rushed chapter! I just found out that I have to work on my day off! Ah!!!! Then I have to open in the morning so be happy that I updated today! So... do you guys think that there was a slim chance that Sasuke did show up? Or was it really her imagination? Anyways review, update again next week :) Please leave a review! Thanks!