AN: Ohmyholymoogles! An update! Yeah, it's a short chapter, and ends with a cliffhanger, sorry. I think I may be ending this story soon. I'm thinking no more than four more chapters, probably less. This feels like the climax of the story to me, so it only seems natural to end it. There might be a sequel, I have an idea for one, but I haven't decided if I want to write it.
Very small recap: Roxas and Zexion went to get Chinese for dinner. On the way to the restaurant Xemnas grabbed Roxas and Zexion got shot in the process of rescuing him. Demyx and Zexion are in the hospital. Axel is not happy; he's about ready to kill everyone on the planet. Armed with two guns and a knife, he entered one of Xemnas' mansions and found Jackson, Xemnas second in command. With mention of castration Axel convinced Jackson to give him Roxas' location and now he is on his way to rescue his blond…
Chapter 21 – He Doesn't Look A Thing Like Jesus
I fought madly against the restraints that were tying me naked, to a chair in the middle of a cold empty room. My legs were trembling both from fear and from the chill on the metal chair, chained to the floor, I was tied to. It sent shivers shooting through my whole body, while the acidic taste of fear filled my mouth. The only light it the room came from under the door shut tightly ten feet in front of me and my eyes were glued to it. Nothing good ever happened when that door opened.
I let an irritated breath leave my lips as I pulled harder against the ropes shackling my wrists to the chair. With every move I made, the fibers of the rope burned and buried themselves deeper into my skin. My teeth were sinking deeper into my abused lower lip, filling my mouth with blood, as I continued to deeply concentrate on how to get out of this situation. Maybe if I just let him rape me he'll go away and I can go find out if Zexion was okay.
I had tried to save him. When h e jumped forward to save me, I saw Xemnas was ready to shoot and I bit down on his arm as hard as I could. But despite my attempt to save him, Zexion still ended up on the ground and in this eerie blackness, I had no way of finding out what happened to him. Was he alive, or did he die? Did the witnesses call an ambulance or did they just keep walking so their beloved drug dealer didn't get in trouble? What if Demyx and Axel are still waiting for us to show up with dinner? What's going to happen to Demyx if Zexion dies? What will happen to Axel if Xemnas kills me? What will happen to me? I had to get out of here. I'm not done yet. I still have things to experience, with Axel by my side. I still need to get to know my father and his boyfriend. I want to see what happens between Sora and Riku. I still have so much left to do, I am not done.
When I realized my heart was threatening to jump out of my chest I began to calm myself. A panic attack could not help me right now. I started to picture Axel holding me close at night, laying on his chest while we watch TV, our bastard kitchen battles, all the amazing talks about nothing and about everything. As I thought of all these happy memories my chest began to slow down, leaving my head free to think up a plan. Then the dreaded door opened and a blinding light filled the cement room.
"Roxas," Xemnas remarked as he stepped closer, "You and me are going to have some fun." My pulse started racing and fear filled me once again as he smirked. He was wearing a floor length coat that reminded me of a zebra and he had a needle in his hand.
"I said I have the money to pay you." I pleaded. Yeah, I know there's not much pride in begging, but he has a needle in his hand. I'm willing to try anything to keep him from sticking things in me. I really didn't want to be hooked on drugs again, and Axel is the only person I might, someday, ever want in me. In this case, begging was perfectly fine with me.
"And I said I didn't want your money. Are you familiar with wanting something you can't have? You see Axel seems to think I can't have you, but he is wrong. I always take what I can't have, just to prove that I can have everything, nothing is out of reach for me. They said I couldn't have Axel. They said he was too young, but I had him sucking my cock every day. He begged me Roxas, he begged, 'Xemnas, please let me, I'll be everything you need.' And he was everything I needed, to a certain point, but eventually I wanted more. I was nice and asked him, but Axel said 'no'. My Axel, the one who begged to share my bed with me wouldn't go all the way with me. That didn't please me, so I threw him on the floor and I just took it." He made a gesture like he was catching a fly as a smirk filled his face at the memory of taking my boyfriend's virginity. "Because I always get what I want."
"What does that mean?" I asked, fearing that my assumption was correct.
"It means, I was your boyfriends first, and I'll be yours as well. Don't worry Roxas, Axel loved it, and you will too."
My arms began to work with even more effort, trying desperately to release my wrists. I could feel the blood trickling down my hand, and the brutal sting of the rope digging into me, but I didn't' care. I had to get out. Axel was the only man I could imagine touching me in that way, and Mr. Ithinkzebraisalovelyfashionstatement was the last person I wanted near me.
"Roxas, you can't escape." Xemnas chided as he stopped closer to me. I wanted to spit in his face at the disturbing tone he was using with me. It was like he was telling a toddler that Peter Pan is not real and happy thoughts don't make you fly. Actually, he's probably enough of a bastard that he'd just say 'yeah go ahead and do it Johnny, fly. Let's see what happens.' Yep, that's what he'd do. "Roxas," Xemnas said a mere inches from my face and grasped my jaw in his cold and incredibly strong hand, "Hmm…I like the way that slides off my tongue, Roxassssss. Mmm, yes indeed, that is nice." Then the most disgusting thing imaginable happened. His repulsive, filthy lips were pressed against mine and his tongue was forcing its way into my mouth.
Oh no you don't, you bastard! That's an Axel and food only area. With as much force as I could muster up, I bit down on that wretched intruding tongue, and immediately felt blood gush into my mouth filling it with a metallic taste. "Ahhh…fuck!" Xemnas pulled back screaming and I smirked. With a furious glint in his eyes, Xemnas backhanded me, but I didn't mind. Backhanding was certainly better than his tongue invading Axel's personal space. Xemnas stormed out of the room slamming the door behind him, and I spit out the lingering blood in my mouth.
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After a tiny pit stop to a miniscule convenience store in the middle of nowhere I continued on my journey to find Roxas. I swear if Jackson lied to me he'll be castrated. My foot was pressed to the floor of my Lambo, and there was no way I was turning back. Roxas was my only destination, my only thought, he was my life, and I needed to have him back in my arms.
Despite my anger issues, I'd never killed anyone before, and before Saíx I never could have imagined killing Xemnas. But today, I was sure of what had to be done. I could live with the guilt as long as Roxas was safe. The guns in my pockets were light as a feather, the gasoline, matches, and various other items lying next to me didn't pull on my conscience in the least. This was happening, and it was happening today, there was no question about it. You don't touch my Roxas and live…twice.
The anger burning inside my body fueled me the entire drive to the address Jackson had given me. I pulled into the hidden driveway, after passing it once because I failed to notice it, and parked next to Xemnas' assorted vehicles. The building was certainly as impressive as he demanded all of his possessions to be, but I didn't have time to pay much attention, I had one goal and one goal only. With great control, on my part, I silently walked up the steps of the mansion and silently opened the door. I wasn't too surprised to find that there were no guards in this hideout. Jackson was probably the only person who knew about it and therefore Xemnas had no need for reinforcement.
I had two options, move forward down the dark foreboding hallway, or go up the inviting spiral staircase. Somehow I doubt Roxas will be anywhere inviting. My boots didn't even make the tiniest bit of a clack against the checkered tile floors as I moved forward, pass the stairs, and into the hallway. I made my way through the maze of hallways and opened every door I came across. Unfortunately, none of the doors I opened led me to Roxas and my anger was growing tenfold. How many fucking rooms does one mansion need?
After about fifteen minute of frustrated searching and random vandalism, I heard a familiar voice yell out, "He bit me! That fucking brat bit me! Axel never bit, not unless I asked it of him. This one's going to be difficult to break. He doesn't rely on me as much as Axel did."
"Umm Xemnas, Sir, do you think that wise?" A new voice joined Xemnas', and I peered around the corner. Good God, what the hell is he wearing? He's a drug dealer, not a pimp. What did I ever see in that man? I decided to remain hidden so that I might get a hint as to where they were hiding. Either mystery voice or Xemnas would spill the beans; I just knew it, which means I need to be patient. As long as they're standing here, Roxas isn't being hurt, hopefully. "I've never met Axel, but I've been told he's a little insane, and has quite the temper."
"Axel is no problem; he doesn't even know about this place."
"And do you trust your men not to tell him when he murderously charges into any of the thirteen hideouts he knows about?"
"I'm not scared of Axel, Seph."
"I think you're forgetting that I'm the one who took care of you after your last run in with that bastard. And does that mean you don't trust your men?"
"I do remember you taking care of me; don't ever mention that shit again! I can take care of myself! And no, I don't trust most of them, but I do trust Jackson, and he's the only one besides you that know about this place."
"Fine, I just don't want you to get hurt again." The man called Seph said in a soft voice. Hmm…does someone have a crush?
"Stop being a faggot Sephiroth."
"Says the man who's attempting to rape the teenage boy tied to a chair in the other room." Sephiroth pointed to a door not too far behind them. Bingo, I now have Roxy's location.
"You're just jealous that you're not my type." Xemnas gave a rare smile. One I noticed as his real smile. Well that…that is quite interesting.
"I'm not a fag. And I'm happy I'm not a tiny little teenager with no experience and pimples." Sephiroth raised his voice, which is a no-no with Xemnas. He was in trouble now. "And how coul you think I would ever want to be with a pedophile like you? I'm here for business, and that's all."
"You better be careful with your words, I've murdered for less."
"And I've said worse to you, without any sort of reprimand from you. I find that quite interesting Xem."
"Leave me Sephiroth. I am no longer in need of your company." Xemnas murmured in a cruel voice, "Leave!"
"I'm just speaking the truth." Sephiroth spoke sadly, "I'll see you later Xem." Then he walked away from Xemnas, down one of the many foreboding hallways. I found it quite interesting that Xemnas watched him even after he was long gone. He didn't even look at me with that sort of longing. I almost felt bad, almost, that he would never get to explore those possible feelings.
After snapping himself out of the trance like state he had fallen into as he watched Sephiroth stalk away, Xemnas turned around and I had to move quickly to keep him from seeing me. As soon as I heard a door shut I peered around the corner again. When I knew the coast was clear I moved forward and headed straight towards the door they had been pointing at earlier. And because my day hadn't been bad enough, the fucking door was locked. Goddamnfuckingbitchass life! I'm going to kill everyone on this goddamn planet 'til it's just me, my Roxy, and our friends and family. I placed my ear against the door so I could hear what was happening, while my incredibly pissed off head formulated a plan. This door will be sawdust when I'm through with it.
"Roxas," I heard Xemnas' voice, "Axel gave into me. A strong man like Axel allowed me to do whatever the fuck I wanted to him. What makes you think a weak little drug addict like yourself has a chance."
"I may be weak, in some areas, but as you said Axel is strong. The way I see it, Axel is half of me, therefore over fifty percent of me is strong. Plus, I have no doubt that he's found you already, and when he gets here he's going to be seriously pissed. You do remember, had it not been for me, he would have killed you the last time you threatened me?" Go Roxy I thought. Then I heard the unmistakable sound of a face being slapped.
Oh no he didn't! My hand fervently twisted the knob in every direction until I found out I had been turning it the wrong way the whole time. If I wasn't worried about being weakened I would've slapped myself. Oh you're a fucking genius Axel. I slowly pushed the door open until it revealed Roxas, tied naked to a chair in the middle of the room. Xemnas was kneeling between his open and trembling legs and caressing my Roxas' chest. I felt like a volcano about to explode.
"I'll make you scream Roxas, and you'll enjoy every minute of it." He spoke before bringing his head down on Roxas, very near the lower region of his body. Slowly, I reached into my pocket and grabbed my knife. I would have preferred one of the guns, but the risk of shooting Roxas was too great. I stepped into the room, bloody murder written all over my face, and knife raised. My movements stopped when Xemnas pulled back from Roxas, "See, I promise you'll love it." Roxas' scowl quickly turned into a smirk when his eyes caught sight of me. "After today, you won't be a virgin anymore." Xemnas continued before he licked a line down Roxas' bare stomach again.
"Xemnas, I'm not a virgin." The licking abruptly stopped when the words left Roxas' mouth and I continued to walk closer and closer.
"Nonsense, you have virgin written all over you. Added to that, Axel wouldn't know what to do with a virgin, Saíx, as far as I know, was much too forceful to have allowed Axel to be…dominant, if you will. So you are lying to me, Axel loves you too much to risk hurting you."
"I didn't say I lost my virginity to Axel." Roxas stated scowling at Xemnas again, "So Xemy, I'm sorry but this time you just won't be able to take what you want, because my virginity has already been taken."
I could only see the back of Xemnas' head, but I could imagine that his eyes were getting narrow, and his face was probably turning red with popping veins. "I will make you scream, no matter how much of a whore you've been in the past!"
"No you won't!" I spoke right behind him, with my knife raised.
AN: Godsmack and Rammstein were used as my mood music for this chapter. I used Godsmack while Axel was in his car and Rammstein while he was in the mansion, and no, I don't speak German and understand basically nothing of Rammstein's lyrics, but the music worked for the scene. I find the suspense that often builds in their music really works well with Axel walking down the hallway in search of Roxas.
Sorry for leaving you on another cliffhanger, that's just how it worked out. I'm also sorry about not updating as much. I've actually been updating about once a week, but it's not for this story, it's for a story called "Details", and I've been updating that one because that's the story that I've been having ideas for.
I'll try to update this story as soon as I can, thanks for all reviews, favs, alerts, and for continuing to read even though it took longer than usual for me to update.