A/N: Hey everyone alright this is the next chapter. I know exactly where this is going so I think that I am going to be going in that direction. I might change where I am going, but don't worry the story isn't over yet. I think this is going to be my longest story ever…yea it seems that way. Well I would love to say something right here. I don't like Beth. I don't like her because of several reasons. I don't like her because she gives me weird vibes. It seems as though Jeff is restricted a little bit by her when she is around (or so it seems by T.H.S. DVD's). It's not that I don't like her because I love Jeff Hardy and I would love to bang him, but it's because she seems really weird to me. So if anyone has a problem with that they can shove that up their pipe hole. With that said please read on!

Chapter Twenty One: Down the Road of Father Hood

Slowly but surly I began to realize that I could actually do this father thing. I could be a good dad and still be able to do the things I needed to do to get back on the road. It was a month after Christmas and I hadn't answered any of Nicol's calls. In fact I had put all of her things out on the front porch and ignored the door bell when she came to the door. I didn't want anything to do with my brother either. He had once again taken one of my girlfriends from me and I didn't want to associate myself with him. Not when he would just be using me to get to other girls.

Beth and I never officially said we were back together. I didn't know if I was happy about that or not. In all honesty I really didn't want to go back out with her. I know she didn't want to burden me with the price of having children, but it seemed now that she was only back here because she needed the money. She had said herself that the only reason she didn't leave her old boyfriend was because she needed the money. Was it now my turn to give her money that she wouldn't even use for my own son?

I didn't know, but I knew that this little boy loved me. Orael Nero Hardy loved me and I would give him unconditional love in return. I would be a great father and I would make my own father and mother proud. I hadn't told my father about Orael yet, in fact I hadn't told anyone. I knew that I would have to tell them soon. I couldn't' keep Orael a secret from my family. Not only would that be stupid, but it would also be wrong.

Beth was sitting in the living room her face perfectly spotless of any wound. I could see her eyes light up when she would play with Orael. I sat down next to them and tussled Orael's hair. He plopped down into my lap and I smiled.

"Daddy can we go to the park today?" He asked. I smiled and looked out the window.

"It's still pretty wet outside Orael, maybe we should wait until it isn't so wet and then we can spend the whole day at the park.

"Would we eat lunch at the park too?" He asked fiddling with the arms of the action figure I got him.

"Of course, all your favorites." I poked his stomach which made him giggle. I put him down on the ground and tickled him until he was squealing for Beth to save him. Beth crawled over to me and picked Orael up from the floor.

"Wimp." I said jokingly as I smiled at Beth who was blowing raspberries into his stomach now. When ever I was with Orael it seemed that all my worries went away. I was like drinking though. It was like drugs and sleeping. You may be high or drunk for a while, but your problems are still there or even may get worse by the time that you come back down. Once Orael was settled down for his nap I sat down with a sigh and rubbed my tired legs. Beth had gone back into the bedroom to sleep as well and my mind wandered.

"Nicol." I said and let my head fall back onto the back of the couch. I hadn't answered any of her calls and she had called again today. She was still trying to get in touch with me even though what had happened had happened a month ago. I didn't know what to make of that. Matt had tried to call also. Both had come to the house and I hadn't answered the door.

Somewhere inside me I was holding back the hope that she hadn't cheated on me and this all was a big mistake. I wanted this all to be a mistake yes, but I knew that I had to be a father to Orael, and Nicol would only complicate things. I didn't know if I could pretend to still love Beth for thirteen more years, but I knew I had to try. Unless something big happened I wouldn't be able to leave Beth. Orael deserved a normal home. Well, as normal as it got with a father who was a wrestling God. I knew that I would never be able to get Beth and Orael apart. That was his mother and Orael was her son. My feelings would have to be put on the back burner for now.

Nicol's smiling face wouldn't leave me alone as I lay in bed next to Beth that night. Beth had curled up on my chest and I could smell the scent of Beth over taking Nicol's scent. It bothered me and I didn't want to forget about how Nicol smelled. Beth traced circles on my chest and I knew what she was thinking. I still hadn't had sex yet. After my operation I had been so hell bent on getting in shape so that I could get back into the ring I hadn't even had the strength to get a boner. Nicol had said that she was ready for our relationship to become something more. She had said she was ready to give herself to me, but I hadn't wanted for it to go that far yet.

"Jeff." Beth said looking up to me with those big brown eyes of hers. I swallowed before I answered her. I didn't want to have sex with her. Not that she wasn't a beautiful woman, but right now the only woman that I wanted was Nicol. If I was to have sex with Beth I didn't know if I would yell her name or Nicol's. I didn't need that on my mind while I was having sex with Beth. I would end up saying the wrong name because I was so nervous.

"Yes Beth?" I asked giving her the attention she wanted.

"Do you think we could?" She asked her hand trailing down my chest and toward the elastic of my boxers. I didn't know what to tell her. I didn't want to make her feel bad about herself and she has been feeling like that lately because of all the scars and bruises she had accumulated over the past couple of years. I sighed in frustration. My phone rang from across the room. I looked at it as if my prayers had been answered. Saved by the ring I guess. I stood up giving my best apologetic look to Beth and picked up my phone. I walked out into the living room and sat on the couch.

"Hello." I said into the receiver and I felt my anger rise at who was on the other side.

"Jeffrey." Nicol said with that light voice she said. There was something different though. Something scared and hurt about her.

A/N: Alright everyone there is the next chapter. I will be working immediately on the next chapter so you get a double when I post these. Sorry about my first A/N I was a little upset about people who call me a Beth hater because I want to do Jeff. Which isn't true. I have my reasons unlike most Beth Haters. Anyway here is the spot that I promised for the reviewers.

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