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A/N: Well here's the last chapter for this story...hope you enjoy it and thanks for following me on this journey even though i suck at updates! Thanks for all of you who did though it means the world...with out further delay. The final chapter
RPOV
It was a normal night for me…well a normal night since Jake left anyways, and I was floating in and out of consciousness. I woke up to a drenched pillow soaked from the sweat and tears evoked by my nightmare…or should I say the replays of the lonely desolate wasteland I call my life. The most vivid and frequent being the fight and Jake leaving me. I slid my eyes open and wanted nothing more than to roll over to Jacob looking back at me, but I had long ago let that fantasy die with all the rest of my hopes of having him back. I tossed the soaked pillow to the foot of my bed with more force than needed… and hit the stack of blu rays making them topple to the floor. I guess it was all of the anger, frustration, hurt and pain all raveled into one toss. I grunted hopelessly and grabbed another pillow, settling myself in for another few hours of restless tossing and turning. It was weird though this time. When I let the sleep encase me in its depths my dream was different…It was, happy. Since I was torn apart by Jake leaving, my dreams always seemed to be dark and shadowy forcing me to relive some of the most painful memories I had…and they were regrettably the last memories I had of him. But this one; it was brimming with light and La push beach was playing as our stage. Jake and I were tangled up together and I could feel the cold Olympic air nip at my exposed skin that Jake wasn't heating with his electrifying touch. We were simply talking and I was staring at his gorgeous face trying to etch in my mind every beautiful feature that constructed him in to the perfect person he was. He was reciting a story about his tribe when he stopped midsentence and turned to me. My heart sped up and I could feel his sweet breath caressing my face with his tantalizing lips just inches from mine. I felt like I was drowning in his deep brown gaze as our eyes locked in a captivating stare; and just that look alone sent a flare of warmth jetting through my body in a spiraling tornado. In a soft whisper he said the words that I would never get use to but longed to hear slip from his lips as often as possible. "I love you Nessie" it was so pure and beautiful that a tear skated its way down my icy face. He reached out and brushed the tear away leaving flames where he touched. "Nothing will ever change that." and with that he closed the little distance that was between us and wrapped his loving arms around me. In that moment it was like I could really feel him enveloping me in his warmth, pulling me close to him like he used to. I could feel my restlessness getting the best of me and I was skidding out of my beautiful dream world and in to the distorted reality of my life. I tried as hard as I could to will myself to stay here in the dream with the guy I loved so very much. But everything was slowly dimming and the shining light was becoming dull and murky. Just like that I was back to the darkness, but I could still feel the dream and Jake's arms resonating with me. I kept my eyes shut hoping I would slip back, but something was different. My heart...it was…whole. And then the world stopped as four simple words touched my soul.
"Wake up little one." They sang to my accelerated heart. I had to be having a flash back, or maybe I was still asleep? And then two more came jolting me up right. "Nessie baby." I couldn't breathe, I was so delusional I was creating Jake in the real world…Shit I was losing it. I found out on the nights when I was really on the brink of freaking out that if I pulled my knees to my chest, I could normally calm myself enough not to go over the edge. There was a touch…a warm familiar touch and I jumped back and searched the dark with my eyes for the source, stumbling upon a mountain of shadows. Fuck that was it, I had really lost it…I searched frenzied for the light not removing my eyes from the massive dark figure and when I flipped the light on he was there. My Jacob. But it couldn't be, the guy I loved had no idea who I was. He reached out and touched me sending a jolt through me, I flinched; not from the electric current, but from the memoires it dragged up. I stared at his charming face, making sure with all my might to avoid his eyes.
"Nessie?" he asked with worry flooding his beautiful face. I waited over a year to hear him call me that name and I lost it. I blubbered out something incomprehensible and fell to pieces in his massive chest. My heart was pounding in my ears so loud that I was surprised I could hear his soft apologies. Not to mention the uncontrollable sobbing that was stemming from the depths of my entire being. He just continued to say 'I'm sorry' as his caressed my head. I was almost feeling nauseous because I was sure that when I looked up into his eyes all I was going to see was a look that, the look I could be given by any stranger. Before the attack when Jake looked at me; it was like I was the only person in the whole entire world and I could feel so much emotion with just one glance in my direction, that it would make me shutter. And to open my eyes and look into his empty eyes made my stomach contract. I couldn't take that again… I mean when he came to new York and stood there looking at me with nothing more than the hollowed look I'd been given since he came out of the god forsaken coma; I wanted to die. I was surprised I didn't crumple into a heap on the floor right then and there. It tortured me and I was terrified that, that was what I was facing. I calmed myself and inhaled apprehensively. This was it, I was going to have to face it someday. The tears continued to fall obnoxiously blurring my vision but I finally plucked up enough courage to look at him. I slowly dragged my gaze to his and in that moment I felt like I was floating away. It was him…My imprint. My heart. My soul. My Jacob. I could see the apologetic look, but most of all I could see the love he had for me. Before I got ahead of myself I needed him to answer the questions my mind was screaming.
"What are you doing here? Are you leaving again?" The questions stumbled out of my mouth in a muddled mess.
"I'm not going anywhere ever again." He stated in a firm voice. My heart nearly stopped as his words penetrated my skin all the way to my soul and lit my world on fire.
"Oh Jake, please tell me this isn't a dream." I whispered as my breath caught. I stared at him thinking that any second I was going to wake up and feel the vortex of pain I've been in for far too long.
"Nessie baby I'm so sorry I put you through that. But it's not a dream, my memory came back…" He reached out and gently pushed a stray curl from my face, but before he pulled his hand back I leaned into his palm and let the warmth send a tingling jolt all the way to my toes. I continued to stare at him for a few seconds and finally voiced what I've been thinking for what seemed like an eternity.
"I've missed you so much." He looked deep into my eyes sending another wave of warmth crashing over me and then he kissed me. It was unlike any kiss we've had before but yet just the same. It was electrifying, mind-blowing, passionate, pure, beautiful and most of all…It was filled with love. I couldn't help myself I needed more, I had been craving his touch for so long that I got caught up in the moment…I pushed him back on the bed and straddled him somehow not breaking the kiss but deepening it. He kept pulling away from me, I'm sure to try and get me to stop, but I just could not get enough of him…That is, until he called me Renesmee. My whole body went stiff as a flood of painful memories threatened to drown me. As I stared into his eyes I knew everything was going to be okay, so I made one request. "Please don't ever call me that again."
"I think we owe the family an explanation?" he asked after a nod. I grinned and shook my head no. The perks of having a mind reader for a father meant all you had to do, was think.
"My dad's a mind reader remember?" I answered back not stopping my peppering of kissing.
"Yeah but Ness I'm not exactly thinking of what I should be." He replied with a chuckle. Shit neither was I. My mom's shield had to be up or I'm sure there would be a very unhappy Edward Cullen bursting through that door any second now. I got off of him and grabbed his hand. I had to be touching him was like this was all so unreal. He scooted off the bed and turned to look at me causing my heart to remain at its accelerated rate if not quicken a few beats.
"I love you so much." He said as he pulled me gently towards him making our lips begin the synchronized dance they memorized all so well. He drew away from me but I kept our heads together so I could tell him what was in my heart.
"I love you too. More than anything in this world." I gushed letting the words flow from the depths of my soul. He crushed his lips to mine only pulling away when I was breathless. He helped me off the bed and took me into my favorite place in the world… his arms. As he buried his face in my curls I heard him let out a sigh of contentment and I knew we were both where we wanted to be and were we needed to be.
After a minute or so he asked me a question that didn't even need to be asked. "Can you ever forgive me?"
I pushed away from him to make sure he understood I did and to feel the gravity of my answer. "As long as you promise to never ever leave me again."
"Never ever baby, no matter what…not even if you tell me to go. I'll always be right here." He poured out staring me in the eyes.
My knees were getting weak and I was losing my ability to speak, so all I said was "Good."
He pulled me as close as he could and nuzzled into my curls and I snuggled comfortably in his chest for what felt like forever and also not enough time, because soon enough Jake pulled away and inhaled a deep gulp of air as he ruffled his hair.
"Jake what's wrong?" I asked anxiously taking his hand. He stared out the window like he was watching a scene unfold before his eyes.
"I broke your heart and for that I'll never forgive myself… and I don't know if they will either." He answered softly finally looking into my eyes. I leaned up on my toes and pulled him to me so I could kiss him.
"All that matters is that you came back to me." I whispered. He gave me a small smile and kissed me on the forehead.
"I'm the biggest asshole in the world, will you ever forgive me?" He questioned again with a strained mumble. I sighed because I knew that he was going to continue to ask for forgiveness that was already granted. Jake had a relentless guilt streak and nothing I was going to be able to say was going to ease that.
"You're never going to drop this are you?" I shook my head and started pulling him towards the hallway; maybe someone else could help me rationalize this to him.
"Ness…" he trailed off as we reached the living room where everyone was sitting anticipating us.
"Uh hey." He grumbled awkwardly rubbing the back of his neck.
"Jacob we're so glad you're back." Grandma spilled pulling him into a hug. I could see the tension in his back relax and I could feel the release in his hand. He guided me to the chair, sat me down and then sat on the arm next to me before he said anything.
"Look I just want to say I'm really sorry…I'm a real idiot." He said staring down at our hands.
"Jacob, we all make mistakes and you weren't exactly you…"Dad commented.
"Yeah Jake we're just glad your back and Renesmee is happy again." Mom added on soothingly. He looked up and caught my eye and my breath hitched in my chest. Happy couldn't even being to come close to the emotions I was feeling right now.
"Now I really feel safe with our guard dog back again, all you have to do is howl when we have an intruder and you'll be rewarded with a biscuit." Uncle Emmett grinned. Jake bellowed a laugh and I nearly started to cry, it was insane how much I missed him and now that he was here I was never going to let him go.
"It felt so odd not having you around." Aunt Alice chimed in from her spot on the floor.
"Yeah as much as I hate to say it, you add a certain dynamic to this family." Aunt Rose stated, all eyes shot to her and she shrugged. "I said I hated to say it." We all laughed and everything felt right. Everyone eventually dispersed and it was just Jake and I left. He looked down at me and pulled our intertwined hands to his lips where he placed a soft warm kiss.
"I can't believe I missed a year without you. I'm so sorry." He muttered not taking his eyes from mine. I sighed and rolled my eyes.
"Jacob Black, What is it going to take for you to stop with this whole feeling guilty thing?" I replied exasperated.
"I don't know time…until I know you've forgiven me, and I can forgive myself." He answered back honestly.
"One thing you do have is my forgiveness." I assured him with a smile.
"That's too easy." He replied with a sigh. I huffed out grunt and sank into the overstuffed arm chair.
"What if I tell you I can rationalize why you did it?" I questioned under my breath.
"What do you mean?" his eyes searched my face curiously.
"Well uh, there was this guy who was falling for me in my summer program. But I obviously didn't feel the same way…and he knew that. Seeing that look in his eyes was enough to make me wanna wretch." I babbled.
"That doesn't justify my leaving." He groaned. It was hopeless I could talk to him about this until I was blue in the face and it wouldn't change a damn thing…I knew him to well.
"Well you know what you can do?" I inquired softly staring into his deep brown eyes.
"What?" he wondered trapped in my gaze.
"You can come cuddle with me until I fall asleep." I stated. He nodded his head pulled me up, and guided me to his room. As soon as we were at the bed he pushed the covers down and I slid into them and waited for him to get in before snuggling into his chest. It was a one in one thousand night because the moon was making an appearance over the clouds and I could just make out his face in the pale light. I pushed away from his chest, looked into his molten eyes and instantly I turned to liquid in his arms.
"I love you." he whispered not taking his eyes from mine.
"I love you." I echoed softly before bringing my lips to his. He kissed me gently until I couldn't breathe and then he drew me back to his chest. The soft rhythmic hum of our hearts beating in total synchronization lulled me to sleep in seconds. I awoke to Jake shifting his arm from under me to grab his phone off the night stand.
"Hello?" he croaked. I could hear a low frenzied voice spilling into the night and I was suddenly on high alert. I laid there as still as I could not letting Jake know I was awake.
"Shit I totally forgot about Ally." He moaned. I immediately stiffened at the girl's name. Who the fuck was she?
"Alright, alright um, just tell her a family emergency came up, and that she should go to bed and I'll be there in the morning." He replied with a loud exhale. He clicked the phone off dropped it on the table and dragged his hands down his face.
"Fuck." He grunted before turning to wrap his arms back around me.
"Who's Ally?" I questioned trying to keep the jealousy out of my voice.
"She's the girl I've been seeing since the beginning of fall semester." He answered his voice steady and cool.
"You were dating?" I inquired in a broken tone. He turned me over so I was facing him and looked directly at me.
"I told you I was the world's biggest asshole. I was trying to do whatever I could do to ease the pain." He said back anxiously. "I'm so sorry baby." I was just as guilty of that too though. I had been taking visits pretty often to see Levi in California, but I wouldn't say we were together. Jake could see the guilt on my face because he asked me what was wrong.
"Uh well we think a like because I've been seeing, and I use the term loosely. But I've been seeing a guy I met in my summer art program." He swallowed hard and inhaled deeply before answering.
"I know and I only have myself to blame." I rolled my eyes because I really didn't want to go there.
"So you have to go see her?" I asked the jealousy peaking again.
"Yeah I have to do this in person, will you come with me?" He wondered like a little boy asking his crush for ice-cream. His eyes were rounded as he looked at my face in the moon light.
"Of course, did you really think I'd let you go without me?" I questioned knowingly. He grinned and kissed me softly.
"I love you." he gushed when he pulled away.
"Oh Jake you have no idea how much I love you." I said brushing his shaggy hair from his eyes.
"I think I do." He replied before kissing me again and sitting up in the bed. "If we're gonna be there by morning we have to leave now."
"I'll grab a few things and then we can tell my parents." Twenty minutes later I was holding his hand as we cruised down the highway towards our home.
"I think I want my parents to withdraw me from school." I stated as I watched the random lights of the town flicker by.
"Why?" he interrogated with genuine interest.
"Because I don't want to be away from you, I want to go to college with you." I shrugged like it was so obvious.
"But you really only have a semester left, just graduate and then you should be able to make a decision about what path you want to take after."
I groaned. "Yeah I can stick it out for six more months, but it's the after part that makes me cringe."
"Why what's wrong?" he probed as he continued to split his attention between the road and I.
"My parents are going to try to force a degree on me…" I grumbled.
He sighed and answered with what seemed to always be the damn answer to things regarding my life. "But baby they're just trying to do what's best for you."
I grumbled "I know, but really no matter how normal they want me to feel, I'm not normal and I never will be."
"Yeah you're freakishly abnormal." He shot jokingly. I giggled and looked at him.
"All joking aside I'm not normal and I think it's about time they stop trying to force me to be."
"They're just doing it for your own good." He commented again. I grunted in reply to that stupid ass answer.
"Yeah but it's my life and it's time they accept that I'm not a child anymore. I'm in love and I'm ready to start living my life with the guy I'm in love with." I stated firmly.
"What?! You're in love! I'm gonna have to kick this guy's ass because you're all mine!" he wailed in mock outrage. I laughed at him and hit him in the side with my free hand.
"Yeah I'm in love with a Jackass named Jacob." I chuckled. "And yes sir, you are correct. I am all yours." I leaned over the arm rest and placed a kiss on his cheek as he pulled into our old driveway. He shifted to park and turned to look at me. His eyes were on fire as his penetrating stare met mine.
"You Miss Cullen are the light and center of my universe I am fully and eternally yours." He expelled before crushing his lips to mine. I could feel things between us shift…I wanted more. I wanted him completely and fully. Being away from him for so long and craving his touch made me realize this. The conversation I had with my mom over a year ago floated back into my mind, And that's when it hit me…he had been 'seeing' this Ally girl for more than a few months how far had they gone? I stopped abruptly and pulled away from him.
"What's wrong?" he asked shocked.
"You and Ally…" I trailed off hoping he would catch my insinuation.
"What about us?" he probed confused.
"Didyoutwohavesex?" I rushed out in an incoherent sentence before holding my breath. It took him a second to get what I said, but when he comprehended it realization washed over his face and I felt mine beginning to burn.
"Oh no. no, no,no it was never like that between us. The most we did was make out…and every time we did all I could think about was you." he rambled out. I exhaled and bit my lip. Was he ready? Was I ready?
"Nessie?" he questioned anxiously when I didn't say anything.
"Let's go break up with a girl." I commented before pushing the door to his truck open and sprinting towards the stairs. He was right on my heels as he caught my wrist and softly turned me to him before I could unlock the door.
"What's wrong?" he asked concern etched all over his face. I sucked in a breath and nibbled anxiously on the bottom of my lip trying to think of ways to get out of this conversation. He was just about to say something when his phone started going off in his pocket. Phew saved by the bell. I shoved the key into the door leaving him on the porch. What if he didn't want me like that yet… after all the rejection I had faced in the past year with him I don't think I could handle that rejection too. I flopped down on the couch trying to come up with something.
"Ness we gotta go Ally's freaking out." he stated irritably.
"What do you mean?" I investigated as I followed him back out to the Range Rover.
"She thinks I'm cheating on her…" He said once we were in the car. He threw it into reverse and sped down the driveway to the street. "Fuck this is going to be a lot harder than I anticipated." He grumbled under his breath. I let him focus on the impending break up to keep his mind off of our conversation we had. So when we pulled up in front of Embry's moms' house he was more rational.
"Will you be okay in here? I don't really want you to have to hear us." he stated as he turned the truck off. "I guess you don't have a choice you get to see this first hand." He added as he looked past me out of the midnight dark tinted windows. A pretty, tall, black haired girl was walking slowly out of the house and I could tell it was taking all she had not to burst into tears. Jake inhaled, pecked me on the cheek and got out closing the door behind him. I sat quiet and still letting my vampire senses take over.
"Hey Ally." Jake started awkwardly.
"Jake, what's going on? I heard your sister talking about how you're in love with another girl named Renesmee?" she babbled trying to keep her voice steady. I could see Jakes stress signs coming out as he rubbed the back of his neck.
"Uh yeah, I am."
"What do you mean you are?" she spat with hurt and anger spilling out.
"I told you I was damaged, I told you I shouldn't be in a relationship." Jake answered back sympathetically. That did it; the dam broke and the tears started spilling down her cheeks. I could see Jake visibly cringe.
"So this is my fault?" she asked as she tried to wipe the tears away.
"No not at all. But I've come to see what an asshole I've been…and I… I uh…I went to get her back." He stuttered. She took a quick intake of breath like someone had just kicked her in the stomach. "I'm so sorry Ally; I never meant to hurt you."
"So you left me last night to be with her and you lied about it? I would say you did mean to hurt me because if you didn't mean to you wouldn't have."
"You have to understand it wasn't my intention to hurt you. But my mind, my mind has been in a fog for the past year and the fog was lifted last night and I finally realized she's the girl I'm meant to be with for the rest of my life." I smiled at that. I heard her let out a sob and I knew what she was going through, no one should know what it feels like to have your heart torn out and stomped on. I winced having vivid flashbacks of when Jake left me…until his soothing voice pulled me back.
"I'm sorry Ally, but I love her."
"And there's nothing I can do to change your mind?" he shook his head slowly.
"She's the only one who makes my heart beat; she's the love of my life, and my soul mate." My heart began racing. He was so amazing it was obvious why I love him so much.
"So then why did you leave her in the first place?"
"Because my mind was in a fucked up place, I didn't know who I was…but I know now, I'm hers. And I'm sorry for leading you on in the process." He replied gently.
"Oh Jacob, I was really starting to fall for you." she sniffled running her hand through her long black locks.
"All I can really say is that I really am genuinely sorry." He replied putting his arms out for her. She slumped into him and sniffled for a minute before letting him go.
"Look I have family that lives in Seattle. I'm gonna take a bus there and spend the holidays with them." She said with a steady voice.
"Let me at least drive you to the bus station?"
"Okay. But I have to go get my stuff from your sisters."
"Let me. You say goodbye to Jordan and Embry and I'll be right back." She nodded and walked back to the house. Jake heaved a sigh before coming back to the car. As soon as he got in my lips were all over him.
"I love you so much!" I radiated as he pulled back smiling.
"I love you more." He replied with a chuckle. I was one hundred percent sure neither of us could live without the other, so we were even…he pecked me the cheek making my pulse speed up to an impossible rate.
"So are you ready to meet Sarah?" he questioned as he pulled away from the house.
"I absolutely am. I feel so bad that I haven't yet, it was just too hard for me to face this place without you." I answered back as I watched the dark blurs of the trees fly by.
"I know, I know." He mumbled taking my hand. I shifted my attention from the window to his face. My stomach fluttered and my heart melted as I really took him in…he was mine and we could finally begin to be the imprint couple I've always longed for but thought we could never be. He took his eyes from the road for a quick second and gave me a warm smile.
"What baby?" he questioned as he tossed his gaze back to the familiar streets we called home.
"I'm just so lucky to have you." I casually answered with a shrug. He pulled our intertwined hands to his lips and placed an electrifying kiss upon them.
"I love you." he whispered, his breath tickling the back of my hand before he pulled it close for another kiss. I smiled at him as the car glided to a smooth halt. Rachel was sitting on the porch while a small bundle rolled around in the snow giggling with Paul. I flung the door open and fumbled out in a hurry. Rachel looked up and her eyes grew eight sizes as she took me in.
"Nessie? Is that you?" she wondered walking towards me slowly.
"You haven't heard?" Jake answered coming to my side. "I got my memory back." He added looking down at me making my heart skip a few beats. A smile spread across Rachel's face as she pulled the two of us in for a hug.
"Oh my gosh finally!" she squealed with delight.
"What's all the excitement about?" Paul asked coming over carrying the round ball.
"Jake got his memory back!" Rachel informed him reaching out for the baby who in turn put her arms out for her. "Let's go inside and we can all catch up." Jake looked at me and swallowed.
"Uh you guys go ahead I have to take Ally to the bus station…I just gotta grab her stuff." Rachel nodded and led us into the quaint house. I kicked my boots off at the door and waited for Jake to come back out of the spare bedroom. He rounded the corner with a vomit inducing pink suitcase and set it down next to me as he pulled me into his arms.
"Are you going to be okay for an hour or so?" he questioned softly into my ear. It was my turn to swallow hard as I took the time to answer. As much as I didn't want to let him out of my sight; it would be like a punch in the face to open the door and see the girl that your boyfriend is leaving you for in the back seat.
"Yeah I'll play with Sarah and catch up with Rachel…you go and hurry back to me." I replied rubbing his arms that were tightly wrapped around my waist. I reached up as far as I could on my toes and he met me for a kiss that had my head spinning.
"I love you and I'll be back as fast as I can." I nodded; he placed a soft kiss on my forehead and slipped out the door taking my heart with him. Even though I knew he was coming back it was so hard to let him go; I'd just got him back. I swallowed a cry back and brushed away the tears that managed to slide down my face. Things were still the same when we were apart; my heart felt like it was violently ripped from my chest. But I was a little more used to it now, and knowing that he was coming back made all the difference in the world. Taking a deep breath I made my way over to the couch where Rachel was unbundling the baby.
"Okay little one." She ogled placing Sarah on her feet. I took a quick intake of breath, Jake had shown me a few pictures of his mom throughout the years and she was almost a spitting image of her.
"She's beautiful." I whispered not taking my eyes from her. She waddled over to me and reached out for me to pick her up. I lifted her into my lap and pushed a stray hair from her eyes.
"Hi Sarah."I murmured.
"This is your Auntie Nessie." Rachel said from the couch across from us.
"Aunnessie." She cooed playing with one of my curls that was hanging over my shoulder.
"She looks just like your mom." I commented looking at Rachel. Rachel gave me a warm smile and nodded.
"She has her demeanor, and Paul's temper." Rachel chuckled.
"What about me? Are we talking about how good looking I am again?" Paul investigated as he flopped down on the couch next Rachel with a bag of chips.
"Of course we were sweetie." Rachel shot back rolling her eyes. "Are you hungry Nessie?"
"Yeah and I'm sure Jake is too. I could help you make something if you'd like?" I questioned.
"Sure that'd be great, you can give Sarah to Paul she loves watching sports with him." She shook her head as she walked towards the kitchen. "And I wanted a girl so bad." I snickered as I set Sarah down next to Paul who cuddled into his side. I realized that this was what I wanted...a family and a life with Jake. A baby who had the best attributes of the both of us. I went into the kitchen and caught up on all of the pack news and life since I'd been away. Everything was pretty much the same except that Ashley and Brady had eloped and were expecting a baby. Jake finally bustled through the door shaking stray snowflakes from his hair. It took all I had not to bolt from the stool I was sitting in and tackle him, but I controlled myself and waited until he came and spun me around bending down to kiss me.
"How was it?" I questioned innocently.
"It was a little awkward but we agreed to stay friends." He shrugged dipping his finger in the mashed potatoes. Rachel popped his hand and rolled her eyes as she grabbed the bowl off the counter to bring it to the small table.
"That's good." I replied trying not to let the jealousy edge into my voice.
Which I apparently didn't do a very good job of, judging by his next comment; He leaned down next to my ear and whispered. "You're too cute, but you have absolutely nothing to be worried about. I only have eyes for you and only you." and then he kissed me on the cheek as he grabbed my hand to lead me to the table.
I had managed to survive the six months I had left of high school and it was finally my graduation day. Things with Jake were even better than I could have asked for…I hadn't gotten the nerve up to talk to him about sex but I'm not going to lie and say we didn't come close a few times. Come to think of it we hadn't talked much about our future at all. I was too fragile and I knew I couldn't take the rejection if he didn't want what I wanted. I was signed up for the fall semester at the same college Jake went to. I was following in my grandfather's footsteps by going into premed and paving my own path with a minor in performance art. But I wasn't completely sure if that was what I wanted. I mean Jake and I had an eternity to be together but I wanted to start a life and a family with him now. I would give up my education for that…but my parents on the other hand were not willing to let me. The downside of having a father as a mind reader was that he knew what I wanted, and he did not agree to say the least.
I was lying in bed facing the windows focusing on Jakes heart beat in the next room...a few weeks after things started going back to normal so did the rules which meant I was forced to sleep alone. I heard a door open and the soft footsteps of someone, I knew immediately it was Jake. He continued to creep soundlessly across my room my only detection of him being my vampire senses honing in on his beating heart. He crawled into my bed and slipped under the covers pulling me close to him. I kept my eyes shut and absorbed his warmth and the electricity coursing rapidly through my whole body. A smile flowed on my face as I heard our hearts synchronize.
"When did you know I was here?" he questioned quietly into my ear.
"When you opened the door, I was focusing on you." I replied softly, turning towards him in his arms.
"I love you." he whispered kissing me gently.
"And I you." I sighed and buried my face in his chest in contentment. We laid like this for an undetermined amount of time until he reminded me that I had a big day ahead of me.
"Are you ready for this?" I continued not to say anything and simply nodded from my favorite place in the world. "The devil pixie is on her way up here to start your preparation." I snorted into his chest and pulled myself back into the daylight. Right on cue there was a knock on the door.
"Nessie we have t-minus two hours to get you ready come on!" Aunt Alice wailed through the door. Jake and I both laughed as I stumbled out of bed to open it.
"Okay, okay I'm getting in the shower now." I chuckled.
"Good, I'll go get the room ready for you!" she sang as she bounced away. I looked back at Jake who was sitting on the edge of my bed shaking his head.
"You'd think it was your wedding day for crying out loud." He grumbled amused as he got up to walk towards me. My stomach dropped at his comment. I really needed to talk to him about our life together. I wanted him to be mine in every way possible…but did he? My mind cleared at his touch as he pulled our bodies together.
"I'll see you when you're all ready and we're leaving." And with that he placed a breath taking kiss on my lips and vanished leaving me wanting more. I trekked to the bathroom ready to start this monumental day.
Two hours later I was looking at myself in the full length mirror in my room. I was wearing a strapless baby blue dress that was bunched in the chest and fell just below my knees. I had silver heels that matched the random pops throughout the dress and my hair was loosely flowing down my back in my natural curls. Jake came up behind me wrapped his arms around me and kissed me on my cheek.
"You look breath taking." He whispered in my ear sending a chill up my spine. I turned in his arms so I was facing him and drew him down to kiss me. A throat clearing at the door alerted me we weren't alone. We quickly pulled away to find my parents in the doorway.
"It's time to go." My dad sighed out. He was getting used to Jake and me… I mean he hardly got angry anymore. But the sighing was his usual reaction. Jake and I both nodded and he took my hand and led me down to the cars.
As I sat next to Kenzie I listened to her rambling on about how exciting USC was going to be, and how much she was going to miss me, and how I had to come visit her. But to be honest I wasn't very fond of that idea because I had spent many weekends in southern California visiting Levi. Though I knew that he was all the way across the country at Julliard, it just wasn't a time I cared to drag up. I really wasn't a part of the conversation like I knew I should have been, but today was such a pivotal day that I couldn't pull myself from my own thoughts. Kenzie of course didn't know that I wasn't paying attention because I knew when to chime in with a nod or a simple answer to keep her going. After today I would have no reason to really be away from Jake. The only thing that would separate us would be a few measly classrooms or a campus, and that was a hell of a lot better than miles and towns apart. And knowing that gave me a relief I didn't know I needed as much as I wanted.
The ceremony began and my stomach began to flutter as the names were called…after all I was the world biggest klutz and I'm sure I would fall at some point. I heard my name Echo through the auditorium and my heart began pounding in my ears drowning nearly everything out but the cheering. I stood slowly and ventured up to the stage cautiously trying not to fall. I made it in one piece and upon receiving my diploma I threw my family a blinding smile and held up the small paper of freedom in my hands. I could see all of their faces through the crowd but I zoned in on Jakes. He was smiling his best Jacob smile clapping and my heart leapt…I was done.
The ceremony came and went and my friends and I were all standing in the lawn looking for our families. I noticed that Lance's sidekick Tayvien hadn't gone up to get his diploma. As much as I hated to ask I was curious.
"Hey Lance where's Tayvien?" I inquired.
He shrugged. "Said he was sick, I told him he would only graduate once, but he refused to go."
"What an idiot." Kenzie commented. Just then I felt a cold hand clasp around my wrist and a low frantic whisper.
"Say goodbye to your friends we have to go immediately." My mom informed me. I nodded and tried to keep the panic off my face.
"Look guys I'm going to have catch up with you later, my family just texted me where they are." I lied smoothly. I rounded them with hugs and made my way through the crowd to where we parked. I fumbled into the car took Jake's hand and the second the door was closed I started demanding answers.
"What's going on?" I spewed instantly.
"Not now Renesmee, wait until we're home." My dad shot back shortly letting me know this was more serious than I predicted. I looked at Jake who shrugged and continued to hold my hand. We were home in no time and everyone was on edge as we gathered in the living room.
"Well?" I voiced into the tension filled air.
"I know who the vixen is that had Tomas and Samson try to kill Jake." My dad stated looking at Jake and me.
"What?! How, Who?" I babbled out shocked and confused.
"It's Tayvien's mother."
"Wait what?" I investigated still mixed up.
"There's a picture of them in the hallway of the school with a caption that says; 'Cassandra, Victor and Octayvein Martin the donors of the new library.'"
"So why the hell are they after Jake and Nessie?" Uncle Emmett roared.
"I'm not sure, but I think we need to really think about what we're going to do about this." Grandpa chimed in.
"I agree. Maybe we should move? Now would be the perfect time." Dad commented.
"Move where?" Jake asked concerned.
"We've been contemplating Buffalo New York for our next move." Grandpa answered back cautiously.
"That far?" Jake groaned dropping his head in his hands.
"We could buy a jet Jacob, if that would help?" Grandma replied anxiously trying to ease Jakes ill feelings. Jake chuckled from his palms.
"Look I'm going where ever Nessie goes, I'll be fine. You don't have to buy a plane for me." He commented back taking my hand and looking at me with that look. My heart started pounding in my ears as I nearly melted in my seat.
"I don't see why we're running!" Uncle Emmett bellowed voicing what I had yet to say.
"Because Emmett we don't know what they're plotting…and the last thing we want is another war." Grandpa commented calmly.
"So that's it then? We're moving to Buffalo?" Aunt Rosalie inquired.
"If everyone's in agreement." Grandpa answered. "And New York has some amazing school as well. Jacob you and Renesmee could have you're pick of anyone of them…Cornell, NYU, Syracuse, Colombia."
"I guess I should start looking at schools in New York then huh?" Jake asked.
"If we all agree." Grandma said looking around the room getting nods from everyone. So that was it. We we're moving to New York.
A/N: well...That's it. I know it was a bit of a cliff hanger but i promise if you follow the next story it will answer all the questions. Thanks so much for all the reviews and sticking in there for it. Until next time! :)