Disclaimer: Anyone you recognize, i don't own. The nobodys your never heard of... yep them bitches is mine lol.
Blah. I am bored. So if this chapter sucks. Blame the total lack of ANYTHING to do.
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AJ'S POV
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After Daniels had left, I returned to the bedroom and sat down on my bed, head in my hands, thinking about what Chris had said. He was right when he said she was the best thing to ever happen to me. This past year had been amazing. I loved her so much. I really did want to marry her.
But she tore my heart out. Just thinking aobu that letter she wrote to me, made me sick to my stomach. I couldn't believe she would just give it all up so quickly. She might be able to go on living like it never happened, but I wouldn't be able to.
I walked over to the trash bin, and picked up the ring box. I studied the rign for a few moments, before placing it on top of my dresser. Maybe I wasnt ready to give up quite yet.
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DANIELS POV
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"Good to see your keeping such a watchful eye on her" I chuckled as I slapped a sleeping Chris Harris in the back of the head.
"OW! What the hell Daniels!" He yelled sitting up right.
"Don't yell at me in my own house. Thats not being a polite guest." I laughed again, sitting down in my recliner.
"Let me guess, you killed Styles." Harris yawned, rubbing the sleep from his eyes.
"Nah. But I got through to him. He won't ever admit, but I can tell. I've spent enough time with that jackass to know. Won't be long now till he is stopping by for a visit." I smiled before adding
"Where's James?"
"He said he was going to check on Phili, never came back out, so I am guessing he would be in your room still."
I nodded before standing up and walking over to the door. I opened it slowly in case she was still sleeping.
She was in almost the same position as when I left her the first time, except now she was clinging to James and not the picture, and now she was awake. James on the other hand, was passed out. I smiled to myself, and walked in, making my presence known.
Phili gave a weak smile, which i returned with a large warm one. By this time I was next to the bed, tapping James on the shoulder.
He opened his eyes slowly, and yawned.
"Mind if I cut in?" I said with a smile.
"She's all yours." James said with another yawn before getting out of the bed and walking back into the main room.
"You want some comfier clothes?" I asked
Phili nodded and asked "Is it okay if I take a shower too?"
"Sure thing sweetie." I said with a smile before grabbing some clothes from my dresser.
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Phili's POV
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I stood in Chris's bathroom, my hair soaking we from shower, wearing his clothes, just staring at myself in the mirror.
What had I done
What had I become.
Did I not care about anyone, or was I just to stupid to see how my actions effected everyone around me. Maybe it was a little bit of both.
I dropped my eyes from the mirror, unable to look at myself anymore.
As I studied the counter ashamed of myself, my eyes rested on Chris's razor.The blades shined up at me, almost daring me to pick it up.
It could all end. It would be so easy. One quick movement with that razor, and all the pain would stop. It be over.
I thougth back to visiting Petey in the hospital. I thought about how alone he looked. I thought about how scared I was for him. I thought about Daniels, and James, and Chris, and the others that still cared about me. Could I really put them through that? Could I once again put the feelings of all those around me aside, and make the selfish choice?
I picked up the razor, and ran the cool metal of the handle through my fingers. The voices in my head screaming at me.
"Do it you coward. Just do it"
I ran the blade over my thumb drawing blood. I just watched as the blood started to flow, staring balnkly at it. I was too numb to feel any pain. Or maybe I was just heartless. Unable to feel any real pain.
Then I thought back to the look in AJ's eyes. I could definatly feel pain then.
One last silent tear fell down my face, and I promised my self right then and there it would be the last one to fall.
I set Daniels' razor back on the counter, and wiped the blood off my thumb before opening the bathroom door and walking back into Daniels bedroom, crawling into bed next to him, wrapping my arms around his upper body.
He wrapped one arm around me as well and kissed the top of my head.
" I love you sweetie." He said. And I couldn't help but smile.
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Its amazing what I get inspiration from. I was watching some gay ass show on MTV and I came up with this one. Strange huh? ANYWAYS. Reviews would be lovely. :)
-PA6