-Calyx POV-

I hide myself underneath the blankets.

Memories are endlessly flowing through my head, of Four- Tobias saving me from the extra pain that I didn't need. I feel rage and pain flooding through me.

And Six knew. She was talking to me about Triggers and she already knew that Four was right there in front of me.

At least I know he doesn't hate me. But he hid from me. Forget the memories I needed him when Via jumped, when my world fell apart. He just vanished like he always does.

But then there is the memories. All those lies, all those mistakes. They were mine but I trusted him.

I cant face him. I'll have to use his tactic and hide my expression. Just like I did before. I put my cold hands on my face.

Tobias where have you been?

-Six POV-

I slam the door behind me. I stop myself from sliding down it. I know he won't come looking for me. I feel tears sprouting in my eyes. I go to the only person I can think of.

Christina opens her apartment door almost instantly. Wordlessly she allows me to slip in. I sit on her black carpet. I stare in shock with my unshed tears glistening in my eyes.

How could he blame me? Nothing went wrong. She's just shocked.

I guessed that through my initiation he thought that I always had help, but to say it to my face… like that.

I wonder if he ever actually cared, or if it was a defense. I hear the clanking of the dinner alarm. Christina, again wordlessly, walks behind me into the hall. Zeke is sitting by Four who is talking in rapid whispers to him.

I see Zeke stand up abruptly. He is glaring down at Four who is giving him an alarmed and pained look. Zeke shakes his head and seems to heatedly be making a point.

Four's face begins to fall more and more. Zeke then turns away and switches tables. I see Four's head turn towards me and I look away before our eyes meet.

My heart is hammering as I feel his gaze burning into my face. I close my eyes and stand still for a moment, but continue walking when Christina nudges me forward to sit by Zeke.

I look back at Four who has his head down and I see his hand trembling slightly. I hear a clamber and look up. The initiates are entering. I look back at Four who stands up abruptly stony faced. He stares at the crowd.

Calyx enters last with Jackie by her side. Jackie only makes small words and Calyx answers calmly. Jackie gestures for her to join her and some Dauntless borns. I watch closely as she follows.

She sits in front of them and they all grin and offer their hands. She shakes them and looks up. She sends me a look so cold that I swear I would have frozen if I wasn't already shocked.

Then it hits me. She knows that I knew.

Her eyes fly to Four who is watching her closely. His face is almost too stony. My heart clenches tightly.

But my anger and pain overcome it. Calyx's eyes widen and she glares, eyes glistening everywhere but at us.

Four immediately stands up and leaves the hall. But I don't follow.

-Calyx-

Jackie is really understanding. I haven't told her everything, but I explained about Four and she doesn't even consider favoritism. She just kindly talks with me.

Tonight she introduced me to some Dauntless borns. Ren, Omar, and Alana. Alana is really calm but she is strong.

Omar is kind of quirky and I think he has an eye on Genevieve who was one of Candorface's followers.

Ren on the other hand, is calm but he gives off this aura of hilarity. I feel like when he isn't respecting others speaking, he is making jokes.

He gives me a nice smile, and I nod back. Jackie explains my predicament and his face hardens a little. He looks over to where Four was sitting but I notice he isn't there.

"Why is it so crazy that he left?" Asks Alana.

"Um… home stuff." I murmur coldly. She looks shocked for a second then nods.

"Where'd you get that crazy scar from? Here?"

I shake my head and repeat "Home stuff."

"But you are from Abnegation-" Ren breaks off mid-sentence. He looks shocked.

I stare at him for a moment. It can't be that obvious.