Sorry this took so long, i had a major case of writers block! For both stories, actually. but wow- 20th chapter! i didn't think it'd be this long!

Chapter 20- Welcome Back

I woke up to the feel of water lapping eagerly at the toes of my boots. Confusion and pain clouded my mind, and I struggled to think back to what had just happened. Killian and I climbed the beanstalk, defeated the giant, got the compass… Mulan chopped down the beanstalk! I bolted upright, regretting immediately as the world swam before my eyes and I passed out again, unaware of the large gash on my head that I was rapidly losing blood from.

Someone was tickling my cheek with something- a feather, maybe? I fluttered my eyes until I could take the blinding light that was streaming down over Killian's head. For just a moment, I was transfixed at how amazing he looked with the sun falling over his shoulders and he teased me awake with a piece of straw or something.

"'Ello, love." He purred, stroking my hair lovingly.

"What- where- why- Neverland? Really?" I finally managed to splutter out.

"I can get back the 10 years that I didn't get with you. Then we can go back. They'll only have lost an extra 30 hours or so." He sounded so confident and satisfied.

I gaped at him, then finally found my words, "You're insane, Killian. We can't just stay here like that! Snow, Mulan and Aurora won't be able to get back to Storybrooke now because we have the compass!" I shouted. He kissed my forehead,

"The dust will take us back to wherever we want to be, so if we want to go get Snow, Mulan and Aurora then go to Storybrooke we can. The dust can be used multiple times…. We just aren't leaving until it has been 10 years."

"Why don't we get them, go to Storybrooke, then leave to Neverland from there?" I asked him, confused.

"Because I didn't want anyone to try and stop me, including you. So, when the beanstalk was falling, it was the perfect opportunity. You won't have been gone that long, love."

I pinched the bridge of my nose, Man, if he gets any more crazy he'll be worse than Jefferson!

I tried to keep my voice calm and neutral, "Killian, I have a family I need to get back to. If it's that easy to leave, why not drop off my family at Storybrooke then go to Neverland? Why now?"

"Because you would've wanted to go to Storybrooke, not Neverland." Killian explained with a dismissive wave of his hand.

"Wait, I wanted to go back to Storybrooke when we were falling from the beanstalk- why didn't it work then?" I asked, confused.

"You were scared and not thinking clearly. So, the dust obeyed the only clear thought there was- mine, wanting to go to Neverland. Even if you had wanted to, I have more experience and could probably overridden your wish." He told me smugly, twisting a strand of hair around his hook.

I thought about what he had said. Even if I could get the dust from him, I wouldn't be able to leave Killian and Killian obviously won't take me back to Storybrooke until we've been here for 10 years, which would only be about two or three days in Storybrooke time, so I couldn't really see the harm in it. Only, some part of me that always told me to push people away and hide was hitting the 'flight' button 100 times a minute. I felt like I was slowly being ripped in half.

I sighed, "Fine."

I was struck by how familiar the Jolly Roger seemed. Large sails straining from the wind, polished wood, and the crew that seemed to have missed me more than all of us thought they would. I never realized that they were like my family until I had left them.

"Welcome back, love." Killian murmured in my ear, drawing me to his side. I smiled faintly as the gangplank was lowered for us. Killian tugged me onto the sturdy board and pulled me onto the deck when I hesitated. He immediately waved off the men, told them something about needing to talk to me in private, then dragged me towards his cabin. I stumbled inside, Killian standing behind me as he firmly closed –and locked- the cabin door.

I turned to face him, barely noticing how our chests brushed each other. I craned my neck up to look at him, a frown wrinkling my features, "Killian? Are you oka-" Killian suddenly spun me and slammed me against the door. To the door's credit, it didn't rattle at all.

"No, I am not okay." He growled in my ear. I opened my mouth to ask what was wrong when he pressed against me. A gasp fell out of my mouth as he rubbed wantonly against me.

"Ki-Killian, stop." I whined.

"I really don't think you want me to." He murmured in my ear. I shuddered, ashamed to say that it wasn't completely brought on by repulsion.

"Killian- not now. Please." I whimpered softly.

"It's alright, I know you. You're too scared right now to let me. You'll come around eventually. Remember, it wasn't me who left. You did. It was never me who left, you just couldn't trust me because of him. Right?"

My eyes drifted shut as Killian picked me up, pulled off my boots, and tucked me into the large bed, "Right." I breathed out, hoping he hadn't heard.

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