Author's note- the long awaited honey moon night. Enjoy.

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BPOV

I then lost my breath. His cold lips pressed desperately against mine. I inhaled deeply and formed my silhouette against his, the scent of his skin made my vision go blurry for a couple seconds. His chilly hands caressed my chest and stomach before running over the tops of my inner thighs. My skin trembled exotically at his touch. I paused for a second and could feel my heated blush run beneath my neck all the way up to my cheeks. I wrapped my arms around his neck, my legs around his waist as he rose up from the couch. His mouth caressed over the strumming pulse in my neck and then the bed was beneath me. He threw the excess sheets and blankets away. We didn't need any more heat than what was fuming between us.

EPOV

Her body was delicate and tender beneath mine. I was desperate to calm the throbbing need at the bottom of my belly. There was this knot between the joining of my ribs that tightened every time she rose against me. I could feel her building beneath me as my mouth trailed down her bare form. I savored slowly, enjoying the different tastes the differing textures of Bella, of my wife. I knew deep down that I was prolonging these moments to draw an intimate sketch into my memory. She would never be like this again, it would never feel this way again, and subtle changes would alter the flawless body beneath mine. So I studied her, every curve, every inch of that porcelain skin, of degree in temperature that rose in her skin. I explored with my mouth, my tongue, my lips, I could feel her heating beneath me, rising towards her peak. I pushed her there slowly, pacing her pleasure. She bowed against me and went limp back onto the sheets. A soft smile crept up her lips, but as I slipped my hand between her, discovering the damp heat carefully, she bowed once more. Her moan was low and seductive; her weak whimpers and sharp intakes of breath only strengthened the hunger I felt for her. I could feel her go limp against my shoulder.

BPOV

His cold breath tingled against the underside of my exposed breast as he laid his head onto my stomach. His breaths were shaky and longing. As he lifted himself onto his arms he was quivering with anticipation. Without further delay he brought his cool tongue to my mouth and his body into mine. My back arched instinctively as he stared into my eyes. As I lost myself within the golden pools above me, I began to rock with him, his soft purrs and rolling growls making me push firmer against him. I moaned shyly as the cold between my hips made everything else in me hot. A tingle ran through my limbs and made my blood boil; a batch of butterflies tickled the lower part of my stomach as I smiled in ecstasy. If this wasn't heaven then I didn't know what was.

EPOV

I kept my vision locked with hers. I felt myself climbing towards my peak as I was steeped within her. Her intoxicating body rolling with me, her heart drumming in her chest. I could feel her trembling. By the time I released I was drowning in her eyes. I emptied everything I had to offer, everything in me into her then. Love and venom.

God, she deserved so much more.

BPOV

His tongue flicked over my neck as he began to slow and his hand ran down the side of my torso. He slicked the sweat off of my stomach and ran his mouth over my inner thighs.

After a few minutes of panting and holding each other I felt my heart rate returning to a normal pace.

"So you're ready for this?" Edward clasped his hand around the side of my neck and I knew he was referring to my forever. He stared worriedly into my eyes, the topaz of his swirling lazily.

"I think of it more as a readjustment." I smiled. He seemed far from amused.

"Well I guess this is your final goodnight then." He whispered and kissed me lightly on the forehead. He leaned his chest down onto mine and captured my lips within his. "Goodnight Bella."

I yawned a reply into his ear and curled into his chest. My sleep was heavy; my dreams were dark and indiscernible. I swayed gently in his arms as he rose from the bed. I peeled one of my eyes open and caught a glimpse of the time, 4:26 AM. The night was still breathing outside of the window as I felt the vibration of the car and the charming sound of Carlisle through the inactivity of my REM cycle. I jerked awake at the slam of a trunk.

"Oh, I'm sorry love, I didn't mean to wake you." Edward smiled apologetically as he lifted me from the leather seat and into his arms.

" 'tsokay." I murmured. "Wherrr, aaaaare we anyways?" I yawned hugely barely able to get the words off of my tongue.

He chuckled silently as he skipped up the stairs. "At one of the vacation homes, it's how Carlisle knew of that great hotel." I was tossed onto the bed as he slammed the door. "The family thought they'd join us. Just to make sure everything went okay, and so that you'd have everyone here helping." He added somberly.

"Edward I don't want to be made a big deal of."

"Bella, your death? Its kind of a big deal." His mouth twisted at the word death but didn't lessen the tone of heavy sarcasm. I shrugged simply.

"When are we going to do it?" It sounded so casual as it fell from my mouth. But I knew it was anything but. Charlie's face flashed in my mind, his rare smiles or quiet chuckles. I remembered the discomfort he clearly demonstrated around anything emotional, the sound of the baseball game announcements roaring from the den, and the way his face would light up when he came home to a delicious smelling dinner in the kitchen. A nauseating churning of my stomach made me shove myself into a sitting position.

My heart ached in throbs. Every beat, like a hammer against an anvil, was a pang of loss. Edward's arms encircled my torso and tugged me into his lap. But I didn't look up at him; my eyes were fixated on the blank wall ahead of me, my memories spilling out in front of me. Renee's jovial smile sprang to mind, her faerie like glee, her endearing scatter-brained ways, and the little jig she used to do around the kitchen when a song she liked came on the radio. I remembered with pain the look my mother gave me as I left her to come to Forks. That yearning in her eyes, that inexplicable love that a mother has for a daughter. Her words from the Cullen's kitchen echoed eerily in my ears. Look Bella you can still back out now. It's still not too late to avoid this mistake.

A sudden and powerful bolt of agony cut me down. Jacob. My Jacob. The hysteria beneath my chest was heaving my shoulders forward in pain. My beautiful, warm, russet wolf. My protector. My other angel, my guardian angel. The ache between my ribs was too much to bear as I tried to hold the tear in my heart that Jacob had left together. The pain was like ripping a rock from underneath the cliff it supported. I could feel his needy lips pressed against my own, moving against mine. Once the rock was out of place, the entire rock face crumbled to pieces. I could almost feel his too-warm arms around me, tugging me to him. It nearly made me shy away from the freezing ones holding me down. The sun that warmed my skin in a way no one else could. I could feel his hot breath against my neck, and the power of his hands as they pressed the small of my back into him. I could nearly taste him, the way I could back at the campsite. The image of his face crumpled in pain flickered behind my eyes. I could see his outstretched arms. I could see the shaking in his hands- not out of anger, out of desperation, out of love, and out of pain- as he begged me. I loved Jacob. I loved him to the end of the world.

It's still not too late to avoid this mistake.

But what I about the one I loved to the end of forever? He was rocking me, stroking my hair, and promising me the world. He hated seeing me upset. But this was like a trance, I could not pull myself from it, the images kept playing on the projection screen in my head, the words of my mother repeating. Over and over. My heartbeat seemed to slow. Every beat came with a second's longer pause than the one before it. My eyes went wide.

Not too late. Her voice rang clearly through my head. Avoid this mistake.

My eyes began to go misty as I shook from head to toe.

Back out now.

I could no longer see. My slowed heartbeat pounded each time against my eardrums. A steady rhythmic beat.

Tha-dum.

I wouldn't hear that soon.

Tha-dum.

The tears running down my cheeks, felt sticky. No tears soon.

Tha-dum.

Jacob. My chest heaved in a throaty sob, the tears still flowing. One was salty as it slid between my lips. Would I be able to taste anything other than blood soon?

Tha-dum. Soon. You can still back out now. Her voice vibrated through me. It ricocheted off the walls of my body and clashed against my heart.

Back out now. Back out now.

Tha-dum.

Now. Soon. Forever?

Author's note- sorry for the wait. i went to california for my birthday. i hope you like the update and im typing the next chapter as fast as possible. so leave me some encouragement cuz you know i always love to hear it :)