Title: With Death Comes Sadness
Author: Cheska
Chapter 21
Pg – 13
Disclaimer: Hoy, I don't own Sailor Moon and/or Gundam Wing so quit it!
Author's Notes: Take note that I've actually decided on something with the information I've received about the pilots and on Sailor Moon. I think…I shall be writing about certain parts throughout the episodes! Especially on how they actually became pilots! ^_~ I believe…I've just been inspired once more. Although as for the pairings would most likely be my usual favorite couple. But as for the story line, I'm still unsure on the full outcome. Demo…I have a feeling I shall enjoy writing the new story.
I've also taken to account for those that enjoy a non-Heero/Usa pairing and so, I plan to make a different long chaptered story as well. But I'm still in debate for the pairings. My ultimate thought would be someone other than Duo since I've already used him in one ultimate storyline: Because of You. So far I've done one-shots on Trowa/Usa. So maybe I shall create either Milli-chan or Trowa-chan. Give me thoughts okay? On whether my other thought should be between those two.
As for this one, do not give hope. Because I haven't fully given up on a story as of yet, so I plan on finishing this one first and starting the next two ones. But it may not be fully operational for awhile since school will be still in session during these times. I've also had a notion on making a Lotr/SM crossover and possibly a Slayers story. ^^;; So I'm spinning around these things to decide on which one I should do first or both at the same time. *ahem*
Now then, in regards to this story I believe it will either be 8 chapters more or less. And yes, this is still a Heero/Usa pairing and I won't be backing down. Gomen nasai people, but I have stated that it will be since Chapter 1. What else? Ahh yes, I'm still wondering on how to end this and this chapter will contain only information so far and slight Heero/Usa moment…okay, it's not really a moment more like more on wrestling around within Heero Yuy's mind. ^^;;
*shrugs*
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Pluto's Realm:
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"I don't understand, why must we do this to her just to benefit for everyone's cause?" Rei questioned the Senshi of the planet Pluto.
"It is because of that that this must happen to her," Pluto shook her head.
"But why?"
"You should know why, it is Fate and Destiny. It is because she's Sailor Moon and the Princess and our Future Queen, her destiny is to protect those around her and she will suffer for everyone if she has to," Pluto uttered and then with a swish of her Time Staff, a small watery substance appeared before them and through it, the three of them saw the one they were sworn to protect.
"Hime," Hotaru uttered and her eyes watered at seeing her princess in so much pain.
Through the 'looking glass' all saw a dull eyed girl wearing a long white gown lying on a bed. Her hair was wet and strewn around, appearing lively in color yet the girl herself appeared troubled and lifeless.
"Is this what she must pay for carrying such a burden as the Crystal itself?" Rei turned to the wise senshi.
"No, it is the burden she carries for befriending such as the one called Quatre Winner. And it is the burden she carries for ever having to come and mix herself with the one called Relena Darlian Peacecraft," Pluto murmured.
"What? I thought all that has happened was because of Jedite coming into power once more. That he is out there looking for revenge against us for getting himself in trouble with Queen Beryl!" Rei exclaimed.
"Hai, Jedite will look for revenge against Serena now that he knows she is here and that she knows Quatre. Demo…if she didn't appear, he wouldn't have known and would not have bothered as much until he finishes his first objective," Pluto stated.
"I don't understand…why would he want to go up against that boy?" Rei turned her head around from Pluto and to the substance to see Serena still mourning and with Quatre there by her side, holding on to her hand and his face filled with worry and sorrow.
"It is a long story indeed…do you recall in your fire reading the woman that stood by Jedite's side?" Pluto regarded the senshi of fire.
"Hai, why do you know her?"
"In some ways…I do," Pluto nodded her head in response, "her name was and is Sally Po. She worked as a Preventor out in outer space, where we are or was. Her job was to prevent the coming of another possible war but along the way she came against a crystallized tomb and in that tomb was…"
"Jedite," Hotaru guessed and a nod of reply came from Pluto.
"She released him and at the first release, Jedite manipulated her to serve under his allegiance. Along the way, she came to tell him about five boys with five special machines called Gundams that could destroy a single colony with one blast, if used correctly."
"What does this have to do with Quatre himself?" Rei grew confused.
"You see one of those boys is Quatre…"Pluto uttered quietly.
"Him? Them?" Rei's eyes grew wide as she stared from the blonde boy to all the others that surrounded Serena with an additional man and woman.
"Hai, they are the Gundam Pilots…"
"Why just him, then? What does Serena have to play in this if we're causing her more pain?" Rei could almost feel the release of her confusion yet it grew as well.
"Her beloved 'Quat-chan' is deemed as a leader for all of them. And out of all, he has the most political and social power as well. He also carries a special ability around him that Serena shares as well, called empathy. Quatre can feel other's pain and suffering. Also those people around him can't help but grow attached to him and develop a sense of fondness for the boy. Serena, as well, carries that power around her. Which is also probably why we care for her so much as well, even if we have pledged an allegiance long ago to protect her," Pluto sighed but continued to gaze at the substance that revealed to them what was happening to their princess.
"And so…?" Rei urged the woman to continue.
"Sally Po revealed to Jedite all of this, and this was also stated in the letter that was inside the envelope I left behind for our hime. He grew more curious about Gundam Pilot 04 ((AN: is that the right number?)) and gradually grew to the point that he wants nothing more but to see to his destruction and possibly obtain the power that he has," Pluto paused.
"What power? His empathy?" Rei queried.
"No; his power of authority over the Winner Corporation and the Maguanac Corporation: he believed that if he sought the destruction and elimination of Quatre Raberba Winner he can replace him with himself. The man does have the power to manipulate and disguise himself as any of those he wishes, does he not?" Pluto left her gaze from the princess to a silent Rei and Hotaru.
"Why would he want that power? I still don't understand," Rei muttered softly.
"It could also be that if he has that power, he has control on the creation of the Gundams themselves. Quatre Winner has a large amount of money, if you haven't forgotten. He is also praised by mostly everyone after serving in Operation: Meteor and the Eve Wars. He, also has the friendship of Milliardo and Relena Peacecraft; the heirs to the Sanq Kingdom. With all of that influential nobility, he doesn't have much to do except lay back and wallow in his own supreme power. Not to mention, his newfound knowledge that Quatre Winner knows Serena Tsukino, otherwise known as Sailor Moon," Pluto stated.
"Hai; that would be something wouldn't it? But isn't it a bit too late now for him to do this discreetly if they found out that he's after one of the Gundam Pilots? And that they probably all know now who he is after?" Rei surmised.
""Hai, but he must try and if all else fails…he has the Silver Crystal to aide him with all of this if he just wishes hard enough," Pluto sighed.
"He has the Silver Crystal?!" Rei cried out, shock and bewilderment apparent on her face.
"Hai, he does which also explains why our dear princess is so distressed…without the crystal and the locket she can't help but break down now after her last view of a recent death," Pluto sighed.
"The locket, he also has the locket…Darien gave that to her," Rei said with sadness.
"Shouldn't we go down there and comfort her, Pluto-mama?" Hotaru inquired.
"Not yet, little one," Pluto shook her head, "Right now we must wait and watch what happens."
"I guess that explains why Jedite also caused Serena harm, ne? After Sally Po revealed to him the relationship he has with Serena he had all these thoughts of making her suffer. And so…Serena was a way to get to Quatre without making too many things obvious. And possibly, beforehand, he hoped of luring Relena to reveal where Quatre was and throughout those assassination attempts of Relena had occurred her only choice was to hide out with all the other pilots. Am I right?" Rei revealed her assumptions and it was proven correct by a simple nod from Pluto.
"Well practically all is cleared to me now…although this was a bit confusing…" Rei sighed.
"It is, I agree…but in a way it does make sense. The only thing that he feels is the real threat at the moment is the senshi and the Gundam Pilots. This is probably why…." Hotaru trailed off as Rei got the hint and a wave of horrible memories rose up once more within her mind.
"Jupiter…Mako-chan," Rei murmured, "He sought the elimination of Jupiter because she was by herself inside the mall at the time. We were too late to save her, we weren't fast enough…I was not fast enough."
"She has served the world well. She died, not in vain, and with that…we must respect her death. She was a warrior to the end," Hotaru comforted the sad girl and Rei welcomed it.
"Time is drawing near…our purpose throughout all of this is to watch and wait…and help out in ways that we can but without their knowledge, at least…not yet," Pluto stated.
"Why not?" Rei questioned.
"Because it is not…what the time stream wishes. We shall abide to their wishes until the chosen time comes for us. But I feel that it draws near….very near and when that time comes…we shall fight," Pluto nodded her head thoughtfully and then turned to watch once more with the two others by her side, watching and waiting as well.
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"Serena, I'm so sorry I couldn't be there for you. I'm so sorry…I wasn't the brother that was expected of me. I was supposed to protect you!" Quatre berated himself, hanging his head low and shamefully while the others remained silent, knowing that this wasn't their place to say or do anything but observe.
Serena was silent; she didn't face him nor pay him any heed as all she did was stare dully at the wall in the corner. Her eyes, distant and clouded over with her face twisted with solemnity and sadness.
"Serena…I…" Quatre started but couldn't say anything more; he didn't know how to comfort her at all.
(It shouldn't have happened….the pain she feels should not be there. I never wanted this to happen. Why couldn't I foresee this? If only…if only…) Quatre trailed off as he glanced back at the manila envelope that Heero carried with him.
At the moment, the 'Perfect Soldier' was silent as always but his eyes were studying the pictures that were inside the envelope and re-reading the white paper that was in his hand.
(He shouldn't read or even look at it, it would only bring sad memories but…I have no power or authority over it. It is our only link to see who had done this to her family…to my…family…) Quatre sighed inwardly and stroked her friend's hand, hoping that it would bring her comfort more than it did to him.
Seeing that picture that she held awhile back only brought back bad memories and new ones, considering that he considered her family as his as well. The horror-stricken faces and the decapitation in there made him want to cry out in anguish and pain but he couldn't…for some reason he couldn't bring himself to do that. He wanted to break down and cry as well, but he didn't.
(Now isn't the time to do so, she needs me…as much as I need her.) Quatre stated in his head and reached over with his free hand and pushed a lock of hair back so that it didn't get in the way of her eyes. As he did so, he noticed her red eyes and the tears that still willingly flowed down her face.
"I guess…it's only us in the world now, ne?" Quatre whispered softly and a whimper escaped from her lips.
"Okaa-san…otou-san…Shingo…Shingo…." Serena whimpered and curled up tighter, and her hand that was clasped in Quatre's hand tightened.
(Onna…you weak...) Wufei trailed off in his head, not wishing to continue longer. He knew that he should frown down upon the crying girl, that he should be berating her for doing so and acting weak and helpless in front of all of them, but he couldn't bring himself to do so because he knew that she wasn't weak.
(No, not weak…not anymore: you've kept all these emotions in yourself for some time now.) Wufei concluded and carried out a façade of grimness, his onyx black eyes twinkling with strength and justice but for a flicker of moment that hold fell down to let out an emotion of love.
(Merian…Nataku…I still fight for you to this day…May you protect over her as well with your aura of justice…) Wufei murmured, knowing that he won't just fight for his wife any longer.
(I shall avenge your family, onna. I will see to it.) Wufei nodded his head demurely before taking one last glance and leaving the room without a word of good-bye to the others.
(Now where did he go?) Duo chanced a glance towards the retreating back of Chang Wufei and decided to leave as well.
The others only merely noticed but said nothing, their minds still on the troubled girl that lay on her bed in the Winner mansion.
(Her family…all these pictures and this paper…who took notes on Quatre, 04?) Heero wondered glancing from time to time between the white sheet of paper and then at the pictures. Shaking his head, he left the room as well followed by Trowa.
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Sitting down, Heero took out his laptop and placed the paraphernalia on his desk. Trowa came in soon after and closed the door behind him, taking small steps before reaching a quiet and wondering Heero Yuy.
"What have you figured out so far?" Trowa quietly questioned as he leaned next to the desk and fiddled around with the papers and snap shots.
"I have my guesses but that's about it," Heero answered shortly.
"I have as well, it seems that our enemy is quite fond of Quatre and my guesses are only so far," Trowa answered.
"Hnh," Heero focused his attention on his laptop, feeding it the information he had gathered so far but after awhile, he stopped and closed it.
"Not much has been gathered, but I believe it could be Jedite. There's a sign on the end of this paper and it clearly says Jedite," Heero guessed out his thoughts so his silent friend to hear.
"He seemed to know Serena," Trowa bluntly put out as a way of confirmation that he agreed with Heero.
"Hai, but I heard him back then during the latest attack. He said he's not after her, but one of us and it's obviously 04," Heero remarked.
Trowa nodded in understanding and was silent before he remarked on something else.
"So it would only mean that he would hurt Serena in order to get to 04,"
Heero nodded in answer, seemingly that their guesses has hit the mark and then a knock came upon the door and Milliardo's head popped in followed by Relena.
"Hnh," Heero acknowledged them before staring back at the papers.
"We've never seen the pictures that came next to her body," Milliardo bluntly put out his reason for being in the room.
"It shouldn't be shown to innocent minds," Heero gazed at the flushing Relena, his stare solid and filled with a blazing amount of unknown emotions directed at Relena.
"If it concerns Serena, then I should see it," Milliardo strode forward and opened the envelope and gazed at it, his eyes hardening.
(Who are these people…?) Milliardo questioned within his mind.
As if answering his silent question, Heero said only one word, "family."
"You're right, Relena shouldn't see these," Milliardo nodded before placing the pictures down and leading Relena out without another word.
"Heero…" Relena stopped at the doorway with Milliardo preparing to step out of the room.
Heero didn't gaze back at her, only at the pictures lying scattered on the table with Trowa by his side.
"Please…find a way to make Serena better. I...I don't really know what to do in this situation. Please, onegai…?" Relena requested from him but he didn't reply; only silence reigned on. So with a sigh, Relena nodded her head towards the two of them before exiting the door and shutting it in back of her.
(I know you'll find a way to make Serena better…one way or another. I shall still try to make her feel herself again.) Relena vowed inside her heart before heading out with her brother by her side.
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The day was wearing out and the sun had begun to set, yet the blonde haired blue eyed boy wouldn't leave her side. His hands were clasped around the younger girl and after much time, she still refused to stop crying. He could feel her emotions soaring, it wasn't of happiness but of sadness as if she was being tortured internally through mental strength than physically.
His heart pained by just the sight of her. He didn't know what to do, there was nothing he could do except be there for her and offer her his strength and friendship.
"Serena…" Quatre laid his chin upon his hand and gazed at her with sadness flaring in his kind blue eyes.
After a few moments, she turned around. Her eyes were still filled with tears and instead of those lovely crystalline blue eyes; it was now replaced by a clouded version with marks of red from crying so much. They weren't the same, it was different…everything about her was different now than what he had known from her.
"Quat-chan, all that I have known and all that I have done has been in vain. I shouldn't have even left…should not have…even…" Serena stopped when Quatre shook his head and clasped her hand tighter with his.
"No, Serena. There was nothing you could do and it's too late now…"
"I should have died…with them…" Serena murmured.
At this, Quatre stood up and his eyes darkened, but Serena didn't even seem phase by his reaction.
"NO! Never, ever say that! You're all that I have left and I know your parents wouldn't have wanted you to die with them. Yes, it wasn't an accident and that there was a reason behind their death but don't blame yourself! I'm as much to blame as you are," Quatre stated.
"You know something…don't you, Quat-chan?"
"…"
"You're probably thinking what the others are at this time. Jedite is after you…and he probably is demo…it shouldn't be your fight. It's mine now, a fight that…" Serena trailed off as she shifted in her bed and turned away, not wanting to stare at him any more.
"What do you mean, Serena?" Quatre questioned, feeling that she had something important to say but only silent responded to her.
"You should go, Quat-chan, will you go?" Serena murmured and only the sound of feet replied to her as a door opened and closed, signaling his exit.
(I should've ended that fight…if I had the power to do so. Jedite is an enemy not to be messed with, now that I know that he's serious: more serious than I have ever deemed so to be. And when I see him he will pay!) Serena's thoughts clouded over and her eyes hardened, despite the pain she felt within her heart as images replayed over in her mind of what she has heard, felt, and seen so far in the means of death and suffering.
"Jedite, I will get my revenge," Serena mumbled in her mind before sleep claimed her.
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Wufei strolled down the hall and down the steps before finally reaching his destination: to his Gundam. And as he opened the door that would lead him to his beloved machine, he was stopped by a hand that was placed on his shoulder.
"Going somewhere?" a familiar voice sounded out.
"I'm going to find that baka who did this to her and kill him myself," Wufei grounded out.
"Not without me and the others you won't. You know that we want to do this as much as you do. It's only been awhile since we met her and Hee-man and Quatre know her more than we do, but you know as well as I do that we've gotten ourselves attached to her as we are with each other," Duo stated.
"You braided baka," Wufei couldn't help but say, he knew what Duo said to him was right, he did feel responsible for her now even though they hadn't had that much time together.
"So what do you say and come back with me and figure this out. I'm sure we can find that bakayaro and get ourselves some ass-kicking!" Duo winked.
"We all know who did this to her, don't we?" Wufei commented as he relented and went back to the others.
"Hai, Jedite. Who else would do this when the proof is all there for us to see? That stupid paper that has all the information of Quatre and the ending signature on the end, I've seen it," Duo nodded in agreement.
"hnh," Wufei scoffed and entered a room where Heero and Trowa were at.
"No clue yet as to where he could be?" Duo gazed around the room and no reply came out of it.
"Iie," Heero stood up and left the room without a word to the others.
"Man, and we just came in," Duo frowned but settled down and went online, trying to see if he can find something in there.
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The silent, mysterious 'Perfect Soldier' went to the only room he could think of, to her room.
"01?" a crystalline blue eye popped open to the sound of a silent door opening and closing, and her guess was right as Heero stood there staring back down at her without an ounce of emotion apparent on his face.
"Same as always, I gathered. If only I had your strength…during the war you probably saw a lot of deaths yet you seemed to have come up all right. But for me, here I am breaking down already in just a short while," Serena mumbled with disgust for herself.
Heero merely stepped on over and settled himself where Quatre sat just moments ago.
"I thought you were Sailor Moon," Heero commented.
"Being Sailor Moon and being a Gundam Pilot is different. We kill but not innocent people…we kill youmas; monsters and evil people," Serena remarked.
"Whenever they were destroyed, their body would either disappear or turn to ashes so that there would be no other evidence left for governmental officials to pick up on. It's magic that kills them, not in the hand of guns or lasers or any of those devices. It's a…'clean kill' you could say," Serena continued.
"It's still death, isn't it?"
"No! Never the same! They weren't innocents, 01. They were killers and destroyers! Never an innocent…never…someone that I…knew so well," Serena sobbed and then felt a wave of other emotions sweep upon her as old memories resurfaced. Ones that she felt compelled to cry for at the sight of Diamond and Sapphire at their noble deaths.
"Even evil can have emotions, don't you agree?" Heero remarked and only a silent stifle of a sob could be heard.
Heero watched her cry and his heart felt as if it would break at her sight. So he did what he could do at that moment. He reached his hand over and touched her cheek that faced his way and dried up a tear. The watery substance fell on his finger and he continued on as he leaned forward and focused on the other one, drying it up as well. A gasp escaped from Serena's lips at his show of affection towards her, innocent as it may be.
(He never did this for me…before…then again, I haven't cried in front of him before…) Serena wondered to herself as she felt the sadness and grief flow away from her, even if it is for a little while as all her thoughts focused on his innocent gesture of being a friend towards her.
"Even a soldier…a killer like me can be kind, emotionless as I may be," Heero commented softly, his monotone wavering a bit at a hind of emotion that she couldn't finger at the moment.
"You were never emotionless thoroughly, 01…never to me," Serena murmured, her thoughts seemingly have vanished at that moment.
"Hnh," Heero saw what he had done at that moment and looked down at his hand and saw the wet tears that had recently fallen from Serena's eyes and it finally registered in his mind what had happened.
(Damn it, 01! You've shown an act of emotion again for her!) Heero berated himself and dried the tears on his pants before preparing to leave but a hand shot out and held him in place.
"Onegai, 01…Stay awhile longer? For some reason, I feel better when you're close by since Quat-chan isn't here." Serena quietly requested a favor for him and a hesitant nod came by and so he settled himself to sit by her side.
"Arigatou," Serena's eyes gazed silently up at him and as he gazed at her crystalline blue eyes he noticed that some of the sorrow and anguish seemed to have washed away for the moment but he knew that it would come back at any moment if a reminder came on its way.
(Then I guess I won't mention it, now will I?) A thought fleeted across his head and his eyes hardened.
(You're getting soft for some reason and it shouldn't be…even if she is your friend…) another thought came by as soon as the last one trailed off.
"Sleep now," Heero roughly commanded and she could only nod before her eyes closed and prepared to drift off.
As a strand of hair came across her face, Heero instinctively reached out and brushed it away, his hand coming into contact with her smooth skin in contrast to his callous one. She stirred only a little bit and as he guided the strand away. And after accomplishing that task he prepared to go but recalled her request and complied once more as a sigh came out of his lips and he settled himself on the chair once more. He noticed that her hands unconsciously reached out and grabbed his and a contented smile appeared on her lips, signaling her happiness and he felt compelled to smile but suppressed it.
(You really are getting weak, Yuy and it's because of her.) Heero's subconscious teased and berated at the same time.
"That's right, I am…" Heero couldn't help but say.
(Try as I might, I can't help but grow attached to her ever since I've laid eyes on her.) Heero revealed to himself.
(Then leave!) Another thought shouted out.
(That's the only solution to this and I shall…but not yet, not after I finish one last mission: to kill Jedite and Sally Po.) Heero concluded and nodded his head.
"Hnh." The hand around his tightened its grip, trying to reassure itself that he was still there.
"I'll make sure you're safe first," Heero murmured to himself as he leaned his head down to stare at her sleeping face.
His Prussian blue eyes gazed at her, studying her…observing her. He stayed hovering over her for awhile, wondering to himself…
What about?
He couldn't say nor could he express it, all he knew was that as he stared at her he couldn't help but admire her face and think about all these unexpected things that he couldn't voice out at the moment.
(Damn this girl…) Heero grumbled inwardly and then he noticed that his face was nears her now, it would only take a small amount of effort before his lips would be upon hers it seemed.
(So close…should I?) Another thought lingered through but he erased it as he began to pull himself up from her and did so.
(Damn her for making me feel this way…) Heero cursed and proceeded to leave and as he escaped her grasp a whimper came out of her lips and her face was scrunched up with a troublesome expression that caused him to frown.
He began debating over whether or not to leave then and there. He was free to do so but a part of him was telling him to stay by her side and that side won over as he settled himself to sit once more and hold her hand in his.
As her face smoothed down and fears were apparently laid to rest for the moment he placed up an annoyed glare.
(Why do I have to do this?) Heero glared at the sleeping girl and sighed inwardly as he bowed his head in defeat.
To be continued…
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Hai, hai…not much but hey, he did show some emotion even if it is only to himself and not as much towards her. ^^;; Gomen ne, I didn't bother to re-read this so there may be errors!