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Chapter 21

Hardest of Hearts

(Ella's P.O.V.)

It's my third day back from school and I feel like nothings changed...and that's just me trying to convince myself that today is gonna be such a "great" day. I woke up this morning throwing up (again) and then Chloe came in to check on me like always. I hated this feeling. They call it morning sickness and yet it still manages to hit you at almost every single second of the day and now I'm trying my hardest to not make it obvious to everyone else that I'm pregnant. Seth walks me to every single class now. We're never apart unless we have to be, for example when we have different classes. We have all the same class except for two which is nice seeing that being with him as much as possible is what's keeping me sane right now.

We're in this together and that's what he promised me. Not to mention the promise ring he gave me freshman year.

I feel so paranoid being back at school. I feel like everyone just stares at us when we walk down the hallways even though they don't know what's going on with our lives and they're not actually looking at us. It's been pretty quiet because we're just keeping our distance from the crowd. At lunch we'll just spend our time alone in a quiet hallway where no one can see us.

Lucky for me I have the greastest friends in the world who are doing what they can to keep everyone out of my face.

I have 1st semester finals in 2 weeks, I have 2 months till my auditions in March and then I have still haven't talked to parents or my brother or my sisters about this baby.

That's what's on my brain right now and it's been giving me a massive headache. I'm in the middle of calculus and all I can do to make me feel somewhat better is just lay my head on the desk and close my eyes.

"Ella May!" I heard the sound of a ruler hit the desk as my teacher said my name.

I snapped my head up and found Mr. Pierce standing right in front of me.

"Do you need to go to the health room?" He asked me.

"No—I'm fine. Really I am. I just have a headache." I assured him.

"Fall asleep in my class one more time and that's gonna be a detention on your permanent record...understand?"

"Yea." I rolled my eyes.

Honestly I don't wanna be here right now but I have no choice. I had to come to school today and I have to go to work today and I have to go to dance class day even if it means puking all over the dance floor after doing tons of jumps and twirls and lifts for a good two and half hours.

There are things that still need to be done regardless, unless I just give up completely and have this baby.

The bell rang for lunch five minutes later—Thank God.

Seth and I started walking towards the parking lot to his car. We were gonna go spend an hour at the beach before lunch ended since it's not suppost to rain today.

"Ella!"

I turned around to find Chloe walking towards us.

"Can it wait till later—"

"Realmente necesito hablar con usted." She told me.
(I really need to talk to you)

I glanced back and gave Seth a look. All he had to do was look me and the eye and he knew exactly what I meant to say.

"I'll wait for you in the car." He gave me a kiss on my forehead before walking away.

Chloe waited till Seth had walked a good distance away from us before she spoke,

"I just wanted to see how you're doing." Chloe said.

"Oh I couldn't have been better...actually I've been great!" I said sarcastically. "Oh and guess what? I've already thrown up 4 times today if that's what you wanted to know." I told her.

"I love how you keep acting like I don't know how you feel. Y'know I've been in your situation Elle. I know what it's like. Yo no soy tonto(I'm not stupid)."

"¿Cuál es su punto?" I said with an attitude.
(What's your point?)

"Stop it okay? I'm trying to help you here and if you don't need my help then fine. No need to act like such a bitch." Chloe snarled.

I flinched when she got right in my face. Tears intstantly began to form in my eyes.

"You happy now?" I sniffed trying to wipe away the tears before they began to roll down past my nose.

"I shouldn't have said that. I'm sorry..." Chloe put her bag on the ground so she could give me hug.

"It's just so hard and I don't know what to do." I whispered.

"I know abortion isn't what you don't wanna do but can consider something else...there's always adoption—"

"Yea so when I give up my kid, the adopted parents are gonna tell them that I gave it up all because I cared more about being a prima ballerina than being a mother." I said.

"Well do you?"

I had to stop and think about this for a mintue before opening my mouth and giving her an answer. Within seconds the answer had already hit me and I was crying again.

"No." I said bluntly.

"Well then there's your answer."

I didn't think it would be that simple. I told her what I was gonna do without actually saying it...sort of. But i'm still having my doubts about this.

"Oh, well then...that wasn't so hard." I admitted.

"Give it time. You're gonna change your mind a few times before you really know what you want to do."

"Ugh! I hate having all of this crammed into my brain." I whined.

"Well I have to get going—but hey are you gonna come to work today?" She asked me.

"Um yea...Seth's gonna drop me off. So I'll see you then." I mumbled.

"Sounds good. Take it easy Ella."

"Bye." I said as I watched her walk back inside.

Seth pulled up to the kirb shortly after she left and then I got into the car.

"You heard everything didn't you?" I asked him.

"Not if you didn't want me to."

Well atleast he told the truth. I just closed my eyes for second just so I could take a deeo breath and exhale.

"Are you sure you want to go through with this?"

"Just drive." I told him.

(Chloe's P.O.V.)

"Something's bothering you. It's written all over your face. What's wrong?" Gabe asked me.

"Nothing." I shook my head.

"It's Ella, am I right?"

"Ugh! She's scaring the hell out of me. I'm just so worried about her." I said.

"Whatever happens I'm sure they'll figure it out." He assured me.

"But how can you be so sure? She's making all the same mistakes I did and I don't want that for her. She's worked so hard—"

"Unless you wanna wake up Nora, you might wanna keep it down." Gabe whispered pointing at the baby monitor sitting on the kitchen counter.

"Right." I nodded. "Then again who am I kidding? Everything is completely backwards now! She was suppost to be keeping me out of trouble and it's like we've switched places only this time I'm too late. This is just way too much for me to handle right now and I still don't even know what I'm gonna do for Nora's birthday next weekend and then I have finals and all this other stuff—"

"Chloe," Gabe tried to get my attention and I ignored him.

"Ay dios mio I'm losing it here—"

"Chloe—" He said my name again.

"What?"

"Calm down okay?" Gabe held my hands.

"Mmmmm...you're so warm—no no I see what you're trying to do here." I caught him in his act of trying to distract me.

"Did I ever tell you that you're cute when you're mad?"

"Shut up." I rolled my eyes. Gabe just pulled me into a hug and I wrapped my arms around him. My day always gets even better once I see him. It's been like that since day one :).

(Unknown P.O.V.)

I didn't think it would actually take this long but I did it.

I finally tracked her down.

This is a start...a very good start.

Finally, I might actually get my way this time around. So maybe I have done a few things in my life that I'm not so proud of but either way I learned my lesson now...I just didn't think it was take this long to be forgiven.

(Chloe's P.O.V.)

Words cannot describe how much I love my baby.

It's nice to know to know that she loves me just as much I love her. She even woke up just to come downstairs so she could sleep in my arms yet again. I always loved watching her sleep. Elenore is such a mama's girl and I love it. My mom tells me she reminds me so much of myself when I was younger all the time.

Right now it's just the three of us in my parents house.

Nora, Me...and then Gabe. I liked having him here with me.

I liked having him here with us. My parents really like Gabe too...much more than Nora's father. I don't even say his name anymore so it's easier for me to forget about him.

Nora loves having Gabe around.

"This is going way too fast for me." I shook my head and whispered.

"I'm confused," Gabe scrunched his eyebrows together.

"I mean—she's gonna be three years old next monday and I'm not sure if I'm ready for that. She's growing up so fast." I told him.

"Ahhhh, I see what you mean. But you'll always be able to cherish these little moments of having her sleep in your arms."

"I will never get tired of this," I smiled before kissing the top of her head.

I leaned over and rested my head on his shoulder with Nora still sleeping in my arms.

"Chloe...don't fall asleep." He nudged me.

"Why?" I closed my eyes.

"Don't you have to be at work in an hour—"

"Oh shiiiiiiiiii—I mean crap." I didn't want to wake her up. That's the last thing I wanted to do.

"Okay I have to get up," I said.

"I'll take her, you go do what you need to do." I handed her to Gabe and Nora snuggled up right in his arms.

Nora fidgeted just a for quick second and I was hoping that she wouldn't wake up. Actually I don't think she noticed. She gets cranky when she doesn't wake up on her own, and I don't wanna deal with that today.

I ran upstairs quietly and changed into my dance clothes. Doing my hair is what i don't have paitience for. Naturally my hair is very wavy and it takes me a good 20 minutes to put it into a bun : P.

My hair is so long now it's taking even longer. It has to be atleast 5 or 6 inches above my waist and I'm beginning to consider cutting it...but i'm still unsure about cutting my hair,so that won't be happening for a while.

To my surprise I managed to get my hair up into a nice bun on the first try, usually it takes me atleast four tries.

I must have gone into hyper mode cause I still had 30 minutes to spare before I actually had to leave. I guess you could say I was a bit more eager to get back downstairs.

Quietly I went back downstairs only to find Elenore awake—I was a little loud upstairs so I must have woke her up :P—but she seemed fine. She was sitting in Gabe's lap and he was talking to her.

"Mama?" Nora asked him as she started to look around the room.

"Don't worry she's coming." He assured her.

"No wonder you've got your mom wrapped around your little finger...you're just the sweetest thing."

I watched as Nora sat there looking at him with the biggest smile on her face. She's been a lot happier these days, especially when she's around both Gabe and I. At first I wasn't so sure about Nora being around him because I haven't been in a relationship since I got pregnant and I wasn't sure if being in a relationship was a good idea in the first place knowing it would affect Nora if Gabe and I ever broke up.

"Y'know I probably have to be the luckiest guy in the world right now. Your mom is a keeper...I don't know what is about her but...no no let me rephrase this. I have never been this happy. We've only been together two months and I love her."

Whoa.

Did I really just hear him say that?

He loves me? ME?

Gabe loves me?

"It's true, I love her."

"Love Mama?" Nora asked him.

"That's right." He told her.

I didn't want to to interrupt this moment. It was just to sweet and I wanted to cry. Gabe's just a genuinely nice guy. I've never heard anyone say anything bad about him...and that's discluding Natalia—and she doesn't really like me anymore—but aside from that it's nice to know that I hit the jackpot with this one.

"You have no idea what I just said do you?" Gabe said after realizing he was trying to have a conversation with a 2 year old...almost 3 year old :D.

"Love Mama!" Elenore said.

"Oh," He raised his eyebrows. "Well atleast you understood that." Gabe chuckled to himself.

"For now that can be our little secret...okay?" He whispered. Elenore replied by simply nodding with the biggest smile on her face.

As much as I hate to, I had to come in and interrupt.

I have to go to work : P.

"Okay I'm done." I said trying to act casual as if I didn't over hear their conversation.

"Mama!" Nora screamed as she crawled off the couch and ran over to me so I could pick her up.

"Well that was a short nap." I chuckled.

"She woke up about 15 minutes ago." Gabe told me.

"That's fine." I reassured him.

"Mama leaving?" Nora pointed towards my duffle bag by the door.

"Yes, Mama is leaving...but you're coming with me." I told her. My parents weren't gonna be home till 8 o' clock so I have to take her to work with me today unless my parents come home early and pick Nora up from the studio.

I made sure that all the lights were turned off and the alarm was on before we all walked outside. Nora walked right in front of us and waited patiently for me to open the car door so I could put her in her carseat. I put my bag in the trunk and Gabe was kind enough to take care of Nora and put her in the backseat for me.

"Alright," I sighed. "We gotta go." I said.

Gabe gave me a quick kiss before I hopped into the car. "Call me later babe!"

"I will," I waved at him.

"Bye!" Nora yelled from the back seat and Gave waved right back at her before I pulled out of the driveway. Once I got on the road Nora was already distracted with a toy she got for christmas.

It's a teddy bear that Gabe got for her and it's become a neccessity to Nora's everyday activities. If she doesn't have it with her or if it's not in her hands she'll start crying, and then she won't stop until it's back in her hands.

She calls him Pépe...Pépe the bear.

Hopefully that will keep her entertained while I'm working.

I was only a few blocks away when Nora started screaming in the back seat causing me to hit the breaks. I hate it when that happens. Now I have people honking at me cause I wasn't moving.

"Mama, Pépe fall!" She cried.

She dropped him.

"Mama's driving, I can't get it right now." I told her. She started fussing in the back seat, trying to get her bear that fell on the floor.

"Pépe!" She screamed.

"Nora I can't. You're gonna have to wait." I said trying to get her to calm down.

It didn't help at all, she just started screaming even more. "Hold on we're almost there."

"I want Pépe!" Nora continued to cry.

Gotta love the temper tantrums of a cranky toddler : P.

FINALLY! There was a parking spot right in the front right behind Ella's car next to the kirb. I got out out the car and unbuckled Elenore out of her carseat and pulled her out of the car. As soon as she caught glimpse of the bear that I now had in my hands, a huge grin was on her face.

"Pépe!"

I handed it to her and she hugged it...you'd think that teddy bear would choke to death from her holding on to it so tightly. She walked into the studio holding my hand with her bear in the other. I lifted her up so she could sit on the bench.

"Stay right here." I said sternly. "Okay?"

Nora wasn't even look at me...better yet I think she's ignoring me cause she way to wired into that teddy bear. Dang it Gabe lol.

"Fine, ignore me." I mumbled under my breath.

"Hey Lo," I looked up to see Ella walk out of the hallway.

"You feeling better?" I asked her.

"I guess." Ella made her way towards the sound system and put on the music to the routine we've been working on in our night class.

"What are you doing..."

"What do you think I'm doing, I'm practicing my solo." She shrugged.

"Your gonna get sick from doing all those turns." I warned her.

Ella didn't even bother to respond. First my daughter, and then my best friend...ugh I hate being ignored.

I started to stretch, but kept my eyes glued on Ella.

In her solo she has to do 12 fouttes in a row and I'm pretty sure she wasn't gonna make through all of them this time around. Withina few counts after doing her 4th foutte...she stopped to catch her breath.

"Oh God." She made a run for it right back into the bathroom.

I warned her, and she's probably not gonna make through rehearsal tonight if she's gonna throw up after doing only a few turns

Poor Elle.

(Ella's P.O.V.)

I hate this!

I'm sick of being sick all the time.

Seriously, how the hell am I suppost to make it through dance rehersal when I end up getting dizzy everytime I try to do a decent frickin' turn.

Oh and I have officialy gone back to my decision of "I don't know what the hell I'm gonna do" after I convinced myself a few hours ago that I was actually going to keep this baby. Why do I have to be so indecisive?

Madame insisted that I sit out and let Chloe take care of teaching our class today while I took the time to just get some fresh air outside in the back. Well atleast I had atleast an hour and a half of alone time which is just what I needed.

My phone started ringing right as I walked back inside to find everyone starting to warm up.

It was Seth.

"Hey Ella I was thinking we should come early tomorrow so we could work on those lifts cause I feel like we're both still a little unstable on the—"

"I'm sorry Randy, can't we talk about this in a little bit—I-I-I—oh my head," My head was spinning again.

"Whoa, are you okay?" Randy asked me.

My phone started ringing again before I give him answer.

Seth was calling me again. "I'm sorry I have to take this, come get me when it's 10 minutes till." I started to make my way back out the back door.

"Are you sure everything's okay—"

"Yea, it's fine." I lied.

I waited till the door close before I answered the phone.

"Hi Seth," I muttered.

"You feeling better?"

"No not really. I can't even get do four solid turns without trying my best not throw up." I moaned.

"I don't think it's a good idea for you to be doing all this moving around, especially now with the baby—"

"Well I'm gonna have to deal with it for now." I cut him off.

"Acutally no you don't. You know you don't actually have to do this today. Chloe even told me your teacher said you could have the day off today and you said no."

Damn it. He wasn't suppost to find out about that...

"Look I don't have much time, class is starting in five minutes—"

"Ella I think you need go home and lie down. I'm not suppost to pick you up for another two hours but I can come right now and take you home—or since it's not raining we can just go to the beach and you can get some fresh air—"

"No Seth, I don't wanna go home right now. I have a two and half hour dance rehersal. My auditions are in March and I need to be ready." I told him.

"Well you probably have to cancel all of them and stop dancing if you're gonn have the baby—"

"Seth, I need more time to think things over okay?"

"It's my kid too!" He snapped.

"Oh so now it's an it instead of an baby? Great choice of words." Excuse my sarcasm :P.

"Well no Ella what I'm saying is that a few hours ago you told me you were gonna go through with having this baby—"

"Oh so now were back to calling 'it' a baby now. Make up your mind!"

"I'm waiting on you to make up your mind! You're having my baby!" He said.

"Yes Seth! I am having your baby and for the past few weeks, I have cried, I have barely gotten any sleep, I have been throwing up like it's nobody's business. Your parents, your sister, your pack brothers and even a few of my friends...they all know I'm pregnant. My parents, they don't know and Lord knows what's gonna happen when they find out. So it's either we tell them about this baby and suffer the consequences, or we just go to a clinic and I can get the pregnancy terminated so we don't have to carry all of this heavy weight on our shoulders anymore. You have it alot easier than I do. I'm the one who has to carry this baby for nine months and I—I don't think I can't do this—"

"Hey...Ella...Ella listen to me."

"I'm listening," I sniffed.

"I love you and you know that. The only thing I want right now is what's best for you. I know you're sick and I know you're tired. Right now I just want this decision to be less stressful for you. Me pressuring you into making a fast decision isn't helping, so how about this...I'll pick you up in 20 minutes and we can just go to the beach and get some fresh air...just you and me. We'll figure this out I promise...just take it easy and don't dance for a while...please Ella. I'm begging you. It's not good for you or the baby—"

"Bye Seth."

I'm so close to hanging up on him.

"May please don't shut me out like this. Not now—"

I hit the end call button before I could hear another word come from his mouth.

"Damn it!" I turned around and smacked the door only to find I saw someone duck down right behind the water fountain.

Anger shot right through me.

Someone was evesdropping in on my PRIVATE conversation. I walked back in and slowly made my way towards the water fountain and stopped when I finally got a good glimpse of who was crouched down in the corner right behind it.

Randy caught my death stare and he stood up and moved further into the corner.

"I can explain—"

"Save it." I snarled.

I grabbed him his shirt and pushed him into the janitor's closet and closed the door. Lucky for me I didn't have to worry about turning on the lights cause Randy nearly ran into the wall behind and turned them on by accident.

"Ella please let me explain—"

I started punching him. Continously throwing my fist at his chest.

"OW! Hey hey hey!" Randy yelped.

"How" punch "dare" punch "you" punch "listen" punch "in" punch "on MY PRIVATE CONVERSATION!" I yelled.

"Okay! Okay! Can you stop hitting me—" Randy got a hold of my arms.

"Let. Go. Of. ME!" I tried breaking free of his grip on me and once I managed to get a hold of one of my fist...I ended up hitting myself right in the stomach, and it hurt.

"Ahhhh," I doubled over in pain and leaned against the door for support.

That wasn't really a smart idea...now I hope I didn't do anything to hurt the baby.

"Oh my God I'm so sorry."

"Don't touch me." I hissed.

"I'm sorry okay? I wasn't purposely trying to snoop in on your phone call. You told me to come and get you and I was just doing what you asked. Plus I was just concerned because you've been upset these past few days...y'know maybe you should go home—"

"You know you're practically giving me another reason to hit you right?" I started to stand up.

"Just take it easy okay? I mean I don't want you to hurt yourself or the—"

"How much did you hear of my conversation with Seth?"

Randy didn't answer, but his decision to say nothing told me otherwise.

"So now you know." I cried.

"I won't tell anyone I promise." He assured me.

"Damn right you won't. It's none of your business and as far as this conversation goes—it never happened and you're gonna do your best to act like you know absolutely nothing. Let me worry about my body, you just focus on not trying to drop when you lift me up into the air."

I walked out the closet and Randy followed out right behind.

We still had 2 minutes to spare before we all had to be ready at the barre.

I took a seat on the bench by the window where a bunch of my friends were sitting.

It got very quiet as I sat down and everyone looked at me.

"What?" I snapped.

They all flinched at the sound of my voice and instantly they knew not to mess with me.

"Peutrova alert!" Someone yelled.

Everyone ran to their spots and I ended up being the last one to make it to the barre before Madame walked in.

The dizzy spell feeling came back and I felt like heavy amounts of pressure were trying to pull me down to the floor. You know that light headed feeling you get when you feel like you're about to pass out...that's exactly how I'm feeling right now...only I'm trying my hardest to keep my eyes open so I wouldn't draw an attention to myself.

Someone walked into the studio and everyone started whispering.

"Ella May" I heard Madame say my name.

"Yes?"

"Could you step into my office for a moment?" She asked.

Everyone kept looking at me as I followed Madame into her office. Right when I walked in, the person sitting down in one of the chairs at Madame's desk turned around.

Seth...in Madame's office.

"What are you doing here—" I began to say before Madame cut in.

"Ella I've noticed in these pass few days that your behavior is a little odd and it has also come to my attention by this young man and several other students that you haven't been well...I want you take the rest of the week off for health purposes and I don't want to see you in here till next Wednesday. Hopefully by then you will be doing alot better." She told me.

"Madame it's nothing—"

"No excuses. I want you to go home and rest. Understood?" Madame was more stern with me this time.

"But I—fine." I said through my teeth.

I walked back out into the studio and Seth trailed behind me like a silly little watch dog as shoved everything back into my bag and put on my slippers.

I hated having everyone look at me as if I just got in big trouble. I reached down for my duffle bag and Seth picked it up before I could even place my hand on the strap.

"Don't worry I'll get this for you." He said.

I gave him a very irritated look and was getting ready to open my mouth and go off at him, but since everyone was watching I chose not to argue with him and leave in silence.

There are so many things I could say to him right now, but I didn't say anything only because I'm not in the mood to argue with him again.

"I'm sorry Ella...but I had to. You mean too much to me."

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Much Love,

~Dazzler 916~