An: It's been a long time i know...
Chapter 21 reactions
Sirius blinked, not completely sure what had just happened. One minute Harry had been stood next to him with a look on his face that had frankly terrified him. Harry's eyes had been so full of fear and worry. It looked as if a tempest was raging inside of him; all his muscles had been taught like a bowstring ready to bolt at the first sign of danger. The teenager had bolted after practically throwing a piece of parchment at him and Remus. Remus looked at him, face muscles crunched in a look of intense worry, before bending down to pick up the parchment. Whatever was in it had obviously caused Harry a great deal of anxiety. Perhaps he had decided to tell them how he was feeling. Hands trembling slightly he opened the fold of the parchment to reveal the words written within. The lycanthrope smiled indulgently when he noticed that the letter was written in various different colours, from where Harry had started to write it, but had then left it and started with a new colour of ink.
"Shall I read it out loud do you think?" He asked leaning back in his seat and rubbing the back of his head softly, almost amber eyes piercing into Sirius's grey. Sirius nodded before standing up and casting several spells on the room. At his lovers bemused face, he smiled grimly.
Hi Sirius and Remus,
I'm writing this letter to, I suppose try and explain what's going on with me lately. I know, that I've probably been acting really weirdly it's just that … I don't know this is really hard to explain without sounding completely crazy and everything. I guess it's mostly because I don't want to disappoint you and stuff.
"Aw Harry you couldn't disappoint us if you tried you pilock. Remus I'm telling you now that boy is one funny onion." Sirius exclaimed breaking of Remus's reading of the letter. At his lovers upraised eyebrow he coughed and motioned him to continue with reading the letter.
But maybe if I stop trying to skirt the problem this will be easier. I've… well I've got some problems that I have no idea how to fix. Well the thing is, the thing is that well… I keep seeing things that, rationally I know can't be there but they ARE. I mean well I can't concentrate and I keep feeling really anxious for no apparent reason.
"That last sentence or so is crossed out." Remus whispered moving to sit next to his lover pointing to the appropriate area of the missive.
Yeah and it's kind of distracting when people others can't see keep chatting to you all day every day.
"I don't know what to do!" Sirius cried clutching at the lycanthropes shirt. He had never thought that something as serious as this could be wrong with the boy that he saw as a son. It was hard to believe that Harry was having hallucinations and that there was probably more going on than Harry was ever going to be willing to disclose to either of them. Harry just wasn't the sort of person that could trust others. Even his loved ones.
"We'll work this out love. We don't have any other choice!" Remus whispered into his ear tremulously, rubbing his hand up and down the firm back of his other half.
A/n: Ok erm… I'm none to good at explaining Sirius and Remus or their feelings. Rather like Harry I have problems imagining what other people are feeling so they do seem to be a bit flat . *SIGH* I have to try and think what it is that I would do in the situation, but if it isn't something that I have come across well… Anyway hope you like.