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A New Family

Previously in chapter nineteen: "I don't know. It isn't anything that I specially do. I'm just me." He slid his head from her shoulder down to her lap, waiting for a second to see if she reacted before snuggling up and making himself comfortable on her lap and closing his eyes. She continued to stroke his hair as she started to hum a lullaby. Before she realized it, he was quietly snoring on her lap.

Chapter Twenty

Hearing the baby cry, Haruhi started to come to. She lifted her head up off the back of the couch, not realizing where she had fallen asleep. As she started to stand, she felt something heavy on her lap. As she finally remembered what had happened, she gently lifted Kyoya's head off of her lap and slid out from underneath. She started the bottle warming and then went to go get the princess out of the crib to feed her. When she walked out of Kyoya's room towards the kitchenette, she saw him sitting upright. Haruhi grabbed the bottle and went back next to Kyoya to feed the princess. "Did I wake you up? I'm sorry."

"No you didn't wake me up by moving me. I woke up because I was lonely. I no longer had your warmth to keep me company." Nothing more was said as the princess was fed her bottle. After she was burped, diaper changed, and ready for bed again, Kyoya followed Haruhi as she walked into his room to put the baby in her bed. As soon as the baby was laid in the crib, Kyoya instantly wrapped his arms around her waist as she turned around to face him. "Haruhi, stay with me, please."

"Kyoya, I can't do that."

"Why not?" I am not asking you to have sex. I only want to hold you.

"It wouldn't be right." It's only been 3 weeks since your wife died.

"Why not? No, never mind. I don't want to know why not. I don't want to find out that you hate me or something."

"I could never hate you, Kyoya. But I also can't just jump in bed with you. It wouldn't be right. You may not have loved Mitsumi, but that doesn't change the fact that she was your wife. Less than a month ago I was showing up at your house as your friend bringing some new dresses for her daughter. I just can't wrap my head around it. And, I know you're not going to believe me, but I can't just jump in bed with you because I care about you."

"I believe you. I don't understand it, but I don't think that you would lie to me about that. Not after what we've been through since getting here. But Haruhi, I am not asking you to have sex with me, I'm asking you to keep me company. Just someone for me to hold on to. I could put the baby in bed with me, but I would be afraid she would roll out of the bed. Or worse, I would roll over on top of her. If you would be more comfortable, I will sleep on top of the sheets while you sleep under them. I don't want to be alone. I haven't wanted to since last Friday."

"Friday? Why?"

"Haruhi, will you sit with me… just sit and listen? I have something that has been bothering me for a long time now. It might not be comfortable for you to hear what I have to say, but I really would like you to hear me out." He released her and took her hand and led her to the edge of the bed to sit down. He patted the edge next to him and she sat down.

"Kyoya, you're my friend. If you need me to listen, I will. Just talk to me."

"I've not wanted to be alone. I've done some stupid things when I was lonely. I have also wanted some reassurance. I just wanted someone to let me know that it was ok to occasionally allow myself to think about regretting the baby's conception. It was a stupid. I was stupid. On the night that my daughter was conceived I was drunk and had just watched the girl that I really love making out with some damn second class lawyer that worked with her. He wasn't worthy of her. I was so drunk that I saw someone other than who I was with. My wife… the one that I ended up marrying because the one I wanted wouldn't have me… she ended up pregnant that night. I had been feeling lonely for a long time before you won your first court case. In the past, when I was as lonely as I was at that time, I would usually seek you out. I'd ask you to lunch or dinner. I wanted to spend time alone with you. But after I could no longer convince my father that you were the right choice for me, after I was forced to either marry Mitsumi or lose everything, you wouldn't spend time alone with me anymore. I would even invite Tamaki so that you would meet with me, so I could spend time with you. For a long time, you have been what grounds me. You've been what I seek to lift my spirits. After visiting with you, even for a quick lunch, I could go on for a little while longer. I knew that no matter how lonely I was, you were still there.

"You were still there if I needed you, but you were less willing to meet me alone after I was made to marry Mitsumi. I was at one of those points in my life. I had planned to call you for lunch the next day when you called to tell me that you were inviting your friends over to help you celebrate. I thought if I went to your party that it would be just as good as lunch or dinner. But then just as I was walking over to you, you announced to everyone that you were dating that guy. He looked at your friends… at our friends, and me, like we were in the way. Several times, when I was walking over to you to talk, he would step in front of me and drag you over to talk to someone else. I don't think that he liked me. Like I said, I do stupid things when I am lonely. For example, drinking too much at that party. Every time your boyfriend cut me off from talking to you, I would slam back a few more drinks. I blacked out before you sent me home in my limo. When I got home, the driver had Mitsumi help me to my room, but I was still so drunk that I thought it was you. You had helped me to my dorm room a few times while I was still in college, so I guess I was having a flashback to those times or something. Any way about it, I thought it was you. As she undressed me, in my mind I was seeing you undress me. In the past, you never took my pants off of me when you would help me to my dorm. So when Mitsumi began taking off my pants to put me in bed, I thought that you had finally given in and accepted that I loved you. I started to kiss her, still thinking it was you. It built from there."

"Kyoya, I don't want to hear that. Please. It was marital relations, between a married people. I don't need the details."

"Haruhi, that's just it. It wasn't her that I was responding too. It wasn't until she ended up pregnant that I even considered that it hadn't been you who had brought me home. When I was with Mitsumi, I made sure to always use protection. I didn't want to have children with her. I figured if we had children, then she would have claim on my money if I ever divorced her. You have to understand, the good that marrying her did for father's business backfired. It ended up being a liability instead of an asset. In fact, father was toying with the idea of allowing me to divorce her until we found out that she was pregnant. Anyway, after we found out that she was pregnant and because I did not realize that I had been with her, I thought that she had taken me up on the offer to allow her to cheat on me.

"Well not cheat, so much as find love from someone else. I didn't love her, so I told her that if she wanted love she would have to discreetly find it from someone else. So I was sure that the baby wasn't mine, but I couldn't divorce her while she was pregnant. Haruhi, the day I returned home from my business trip in France to find Mitsumi dead, I took the baby to get DNA testing to see if she really was my child. But that isn't the issue.

"Like I said, lately I have been lonely. Normally when I am lonely, all I have to do is meet with you for a short while, and I am good again for a while longer. But having you so close is driving me crazy. The day of the incident, when I put you in bed with me, it was like… ah… it was like giving a recovering addict a free taste of his favorite drug. Once you do that, they are hooked again. I held you all night long. You're addicting, and I am hooked. Haruhi, I love you."