And that is where I will end it for now. I want to give you more, but that will need more time and I've made you wait long enough. The next chapter will continue Selene's memory and tell more about her past and how it lines up with the present and the future. I hope you enjoyed this little piece of Selene's history. Sorry for the long wait on the update. I know I'm really inconsistent. Thanks to those of you who stick with me. Your reviews keep me going :)

Just FYI, this is still Selene's memories. Enjoy :)

Klorel took me to another one of his and Nut's hide outs to begin my instruction in acting as Nut the Goa'uld. It was difficult to play the part of a heartless ruler, and Klorel was less than kind in his criticism of my performance.

"You are doing it all wrong, Human! You will surely get all of us killed if that is the best you can do!"

I scowled and glared at him.

"How about you try it then, if you are so good!"

"I do not need to play the part of Nut. You must. You cannot even walk like her! Try it again!"

We had not even gotten to the personality part of my playing Nut. We were still working on the presence. Apparently we walk differently.

"You are walking too heavy footed! Stand up straight! Nut is a royal Goa'uld! Her presence demands respect! Act like it does!"

It was days before I was ever able to do something right. Slowly, tasks assigned to me became easier. Something clicked inside of me and I could hear a little voice inside of me telling me what I needed to do. After a few weeks of training to be Nut, Klorel was satisfied with my ability to act as his lover and allowed me to return to Nut's home world.

The night before Klorel was going to send me back, I lay awake on the bed that had been provided for me. Klorel was laying on one on the other side of the room, intensely reading some papers. After laying awake for hours and unable to sleep, I gathered up the courage to ask the one question that had been haunting me ever since Klorel had found me.

"Klorel, do you love Nut?"

He looked up from his reading. I expected him to be angry at me for the question, but instead, his face grew soft.

"Yes, I do," He answered softly, with great emotion in his voice and eyes.

"Why? I mean, how did you two meet? How did you fall in love? You are the son of Apophis after all and Nut is married to Geb."

Usually he was angry at me if I got too nosy, but he seemed happy to recall the tale.

"Nut has always been attracted to power and ambition. These are two qualities Geb lacks. Nut often did the opposite of what Ra wanted her to do. That is how he tricked her into marrying Geb. He thought that by tying her to her brother that her ambitions would be silenced and she would no longer be a treat to his rule. One night, she left her home to try to destroy mine. She thought that by destroying one of Ra's enemies, she might gain more power. I found her sneaking around my home that night and stopped her from doing any real damage. No, it was not that. She decided for herself not to continue with her mission after she saw me. I was instantly fascinated by her from the moment I saw her. Not only did she have great courage to come to the home of Apophis unaccompanied in the middle of the night, but she also had great beauty." I blushed at this statement since her beauty was also mine. "I made an effort to try to find her again after that night and I think she also made one to see me since my efforts were more successful than I thought they would be. After some time, we made plans to see each other. We would talk, discuss our dreams and ambitions. She often spoke of creating a strong empire of the Goa'uld. She thought that we would be stronger together than we would be always fighting amongst ourselves. I fell in love with her goals and desires, and eventually with her as well."

After he finished typing in the address into the Stargate, he turned to me.

"I will check on you often. Stay away from Geb and Ra at all costs. With any luck, you will not have to play this part very long and Nut will once again take control of your body."

I rolled my eyes and stepped through the stargate. I was happy to be rid of Klorel. He was bossy and arrogant and had no respect for me. The idea of playing the part of Nut was becoming less and less irritating. After hearing the story of Nut and Klorel, I wanted to help a little. Dressed in the fine clothes of the Goa'uld, I stepped through the Stargate and back to a palace where I would begin my charade. Once, I would have prayed to any God or Goddess that might have listened and begged them for guidance and protection, but now that the majority of "Gods" and "Goddesses" that I am familiar with would kill me if they found out that I wasn't who I was claiming to be, I choose instead to silently wish for luck.

If I had any idea what fate had in store for me in the months following my return to Nut's home, I would have fled. I would have never have returned, no matter how Klorel threatened me. I needed protection for the same reason I needed it now.

It had been several weeks-a little over a month-since I had spent my night with Skaara. Klorel rarely spoke with me anymore-he was still mad at me. Nut no longer spoke with me either. Life was lonely for me. I often found myself reading books or taking walks just to fill my days. One day I found myself feeling ill all of a sudden. Without warning, I emptied my lunch into a patch of bushes in the garden.

"Are you alright, my lady?" a near by servant girl asked me, coming to my aid.

"I am alright, I just..." A thought crossed my mind. My period hadn't come this month...and I was vomiting...and Nut was silent...Could I be... "Get Lord Klorel. Immediately."

The girl nodded quickly, sensing my urgency. Before long, the girl returned with Klorel.

"Selene, I hope this is important! I was supposed to meet with Zipacna to discuss-Selene, what is wrong?" His voice was now one of concern and was instantly at my side.

"I think I'm pregnant."

Well, I hope this was worth the wait. Thanks to my boyfriend for getting me unstuck when I was having trouble. Also, I am pleased to announce that I am now a proud high school graduate. Feel free to send me gifts in the form of cash. However, just know that if you send them to me at my house, that is extremely creepy since that means you know where I live.