*NOTE* I forgot to mention in the last chapter Christine's song was called I'm Gonna Love You by Jennifer Love-Hewitt in case you guys wanted to listen to the song, I encourage you but it's up to guys! :D

If I Lose You

Chapter Twenty-One

Christine's POV

I couldn't be more happier than I am now but at same time I was scared. I wasn't scared about marrying Erik, no, I was scared of being discovered by James Kevins. Thinking of his name or thinking of him made me flinch and made me feel dirty. I didn't want him to ruin my good mood, Erik and I leave for Reno tomorrow I wanted to be nothing but happy.

Erik went in today to make sure everything would be handled while we're away he called a few minutes ago saying he was on his way home. As soon as I got off the phone I rushed to make him dinner. I had set up the island where we usually ate and feeling a little romantic I dim the lights and lights two candles making our dinner look perfect.

He still hadn't pulled up yet so I rush to the bathroom to freshen up myself, walking out he walked in soon as he spotted the dinner his brows rose then turned his head a smile played at lips.

"Expecting someone?" he said teasingly.

"Yes and your just in time it's still hot." I said as I walked to him taking his jacket and bag "have a seat and I'll be right back." I suggested.

Putting his things in his room then returning to the kitchen to join him, being gentlemen he is waited till my return to start eating.

"Is everything squared away at the theatre?" I said after a few comfortable minutes of silence.

"Yes, my dear, everything is taking care of." he said "You make the best spaghetti I've ever tasted." he commented.

"Thank you." I could help but smile "Though I must admit I was worried you wouldn't like it." a sense of pride came over me.

"Well it's delicious." he said and continued eating.

"I took liberty of packing both of us so that way you got home you could relax." I said.

"Thank you Christine, you didn't have to do that." he said grateful.

"I know but I wanted too." I sweetly said.

We finished eating in silence and cleaned up afterward, he guided me to the sofa I went to sit next to him but he grabbed me by the waist making me sit in his lap.

Snaking my arms around his neck as his arms did the same at my waist pulling me closer to him.

Bringing my lips to his forehead "I love you." I whispered.

His lips made contact with my neck "I love you too." he whispered back.

I pulled back to look into his eyes, those smoky green eyes burned into mine they spoke of passion, longing, lust but most all they spoke of love. My hand found the edges of his mask, before I could remove it completely a knock came from the door.

Erik groaned in frustration gently pulling me off him he went for the door, he opened it and on the other side were police officers.

Before they started with questions I quietly rush for Erik's basement music studio. Once down there I listened the front door was directly above me and could hear everything.

"Good evening officers, what can I do for you?" Erik asked.

"Good evening sir," one of the officers replied "we've going around the neighborhood looking for this young woman, have you seen her?" they must have had a picture of me or something because they didn't give him any description.

"No, I can't say I have, I'm terribly sorry." Erik lied perfectly it almost sounded as if he'd never seen me.

"Well you have a good night then, sir." I heard them walk away I slow make my way back up stairs.

I wait by the door waiting for Erik to give me consent to come out.

"Their gone now." he said a bit harshly but I knew it wasn't directed towards me.

I cross over to the fire place and stare into the fire watching the flames do their hypnotic spell, Erik quietly came up behind me attempted to hold me but I moved away.

"This can't go on." I whispered.

"What do you mean?" he asked with a hit of worry in his voice.

"Erik I can't keep hiding! He will discover me and when he does he'll take me one way or another." I said anger raised and tears coming.

"He will not take you from me this I can assure you." he said in threatening voice.

I look at him then and his expression was unreadable "How? How can you be sure Erik?"

"I just know and if he ever comes near you he won't live to tell the tale." his voice now was dark and menacing. It frightened me a bit.

"Don't underestimate him Erik I admit your clever but rage sometimes will blind you." getting louder by the word.

"So your saying that my rage will blind me?" he hissed.

"That goes to anyone Erik, when people fly into rage they don't think clearly and before they know it it's too late!" I yelled angry now.

"I admire the faith you have in me." he said sarcastically.

"That's not what I'm saying and you know it!" I yelled again

"Then what are you saying!" he yelled back.

"I'm saying that your always one move ahead which is good but you also must have caution!" I said

"I know what I'm doing Christine, if he thinks he's ahead he's got another thing coming." he said.

"Your not gonna kill him are you?" I asked wearyingly.

"If has to come to that." he said plainly.

"Erik no!" I nearly screamed "You can't just kill him!"

"Why do you care whether he lives or dies?" he bellowed.

"That's not it at all Erik I could care less, it's you I'm worried for if you kill him you'll be put away and then who will I have? No one!" I yelled tears breaking lose at the thought of that happening.

"If you get put away I'll be heart broken entirely, I don't want to have a time limit on seeing you I want you by my side day and night." I said quietly.

He tried pull me in his arms but I refused "Don't touch me." I hissed turning towards my bedroom and shutting the door, my back pressed against door sliding down holding myself little sobs broke free.

If lose him I wouldn't know what to do.

Erik's POV

The urge to break some thing was powerful I've done this before but lately I've practicing breathing calmly as possible till the anger passes.

I knew she was right, rage does blind people and I need to watch my moves the police were the first but there will be more until James is put away or…dead.

I know by marrying her she will be free from him and he'll never prove that he's her real father even if they did DNA testing, if it came to that. But just the thought of him taking my beloved angel would kill me, it killed me when I saw the cut on her cheek months ago and when she told me of her life with that man pained me greatly.

Calm enough to face her now I walked to her bedroom door I could hear her sobbing, and it was my fault, I wanted nothing more than to break the door down and hold her, comfort her. Tell her I was wrong and she was right but she would probably tell me to leave her alone, I reluctantly walk away to my bedroom cursing myself for upsetting her.

Two hours of tossing and turning were not helping without Christine in the bed it didn't seem comfortable. I groaned in frustration wanting to go to her and apologize but I didn't want to make matters worse.

I felt the bed give way "Erik?" I heard Christine whisper "Are you awake?"

"Yes." I replied gently.

She reached for my hand I pull her to me snuggling close to me laying her on my bare chest, her hair was so soft against my skin. Putting my arms around her wanting her close as if to protect her.

"I'm sorry for earlier Erik I didn't mean to yell at you I just got scared." she said I could feel her tears drop on my chest.

"The fault is mine, Christine, you were right I was just being foolish and my anger tends to get the best of me." I chuckled as did she.

"Please that I am always being cautious about my next move." I told her.

"I know I have faith in you, like I said earlier your very clever I just don't want you to make one false move that will separate us." she said tightening her grip.

"I won't Christine I promise you." I vowed "Rest now, my love, you need it." kissing the top of her head.

She looked up at me then her hand gently removed my mask setting it on the bedside table.

Her eyes met mine again "I love you, Erik." laying her back down. Before a minute was up she was asleep "I love you too, Christine." I whispered back.

Then I let sleep come over me.

He couldn't take anymore! He had searched everywhere he could think of but she was no where to be found.

No one has seen her since the night she disappeared, how is that possible? He'd asked all her little friends and anyone else who knew her, nothing.

"I will find you." James hissed "I don't care what it takes your little ass is mine."

Yes he didn't care what it took he wanted her, mind, soul, and…body. It tortured him that didn't have her here to bring him pleasure cold showers and his hand were his only relief. He made a point that when he found her he would take her to church and marry her, the day he finds her the day she becomes his.

His mind had wondered to her body again he grew hard before his hand could bring him relief a knock came at the door. Groaning in frustration "Come in."

David come through the door looking nervous "Well," James asked "did you find anything?"

"I only found this and I put the room back the way it was before I left." David handed James an envelop titled Meg, it was one of Christine's stupid friends.

James opened the envelop reading it's message…

Meg,

There's no easy way of telling you this so here it goes. I ran away from home, I know what your thinking meg don't tell anyone, not my father, not even your mother. Meg as a friend just don't tell anyone, ok? And your probably wondering my reason for running away well let's just say that life at home was far from being normal. Ask yourself Meg where do really think all the bruises and scars came from. It was the best way, Meg, the only way. Please don't be mad at me =) When I'm safe and sound I'll write you again but probably won't be for a while. This is between us, remember.

Best Friend Forever,

Christine

He crumpled up the letter, she had run away but say where she was or how to find her!

He wasn't going to ask her little friend either it's possible she won't know anything or she'll go to the police. He couldn't have that.

All he has to do is wait but had a feeling he won't wait for long.