Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or company. I do own Zeinzu, Raiza and Aiko (means little loved one)
Chapter 21: Thinking Things Through
Darkness... that was what surrounded him. A void of nothing consuming his being and eating away the little life he was trying to hold on to. Inuyasha sat in his office. There was no light and the curtains were drawn together. He had been sitting in that dark room since Kagome and him talked. His head throbbed with pain just thinking about it. Kagome, his hot tempered kitten, wanted to leave him. There was nothing that could be down. Inuyasha tried to think of why she wanted to leave. Time and time again he told her that the past was the past. No matter what, he loved her, she was everything to him.
Inuyasha let out a heavy sigh. To be heartbroken was not fun. Kagome knew what happened with Kikyo yet she still wanted to leave. He shook his head, not trying to dwell on it. Kagome obviously had a reason and she technically didn't say she was leaving. That alone made him smile a bit. He still had a chance to change her mind. She deserved to be happy and damn it, she was going to be. Crying was not going to solve anything. Inuyasha began brainstorming. There had to be some way to get Kagome to understand just how much he felt about her.
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Kagome lay on her bed staring up at the ceiling. She didn't mean to hurt Inuyasha's feelings, but she needed time to think. 'What am I going to do?' She thought about all the times Inuyasha made her laugh. All the times he showed her care and affection, always putting her before him. Kagome slowly began to realize that he always made her happy. He always was there to dry her tears and kiss her to make the pain go away.
Kagome fingered the chocker she wore. Her smile turned into a grin as she remembered how she came to obtain the chocker. When Inuyasha gave it to her, it was a surprise. She loved it the moment he showed her. Of course she was never going to tell him that little bit of information. He would never let her live peacefully.
"Meow," Kagome turned to her side. Aiko, another gift from Inuyasha, stretched and begged for attention. Kagome laughed softly and picked her up, laying her on her stomach. She scratched her behind her ears and Aiko purred in bliss.
Kagome was happy to have her. She always wanted a kitten, but she could never afford one. Again, Inuyasha made her happy with something so simple.
'I feel like I'm being selfish.' and of course she was. She didn't know how to handle her feels for Inuyasha. She never felt loved by anyone. Never wanted to be with anyone so badly like she did with Inuyasha. So the question remained, why was she pushing him away?
A single tear drop fell from her right eye. She whipped it a quickly. Aiko meowed once more and licked Kagome's hand. "Thank you Aiko." Kagome decided to go consult the one person that knew her inside out. "I'll be back Aiko." She kissed her on the nose and placed her on the bed. "When I come back, I'll have made my decision." She pulled on her shoes and headed out. Kagome knew she was making the right choice. All she needed to do was believe.
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At least Inuyasha was done. He knew exactly what to do. Kagome was going to be his after he was down. Now all he had to do was set the plan into motion. He glanced at his clock, 4: 30 p.m. Grinning he got up, it was the perfect time to being.
'Now I just have to find Kagome.' Leaving his office, Inuyasha made his way down to Kagome's room. However, as he neared her room, her scent was very faint. He knocked on the door twice. When no answered followed, he let himself in. Aiko was curled up in the center of the bed. Hearing the door up, she lifted her head.
"Hey Aiko," Inuyasha walked over to the bed. Aiko got up and stretched and purred her way over to him. He smiled and scratched her behind the ears. "Can you tell me where your mother went." She just continued to purr. "I didn't think so." He sat on the bed for a while and continued to pet Aiko. After a few minutes, he got up and left the room to search for Zeinzu and Raiza.
He headed to the kitchen and found Raiza getting ready to prepare dinner. "Raiza."
She stopped and turned around. "Hello master Inuyasha, what can I do for you this evening?"
"I was wondering if you have seen Kagome. I need to speak with her."
"She is not here. She left about an hour ago and said she would be back as soon as possible."
"Did she tell you where she was heading?"
Raiza shook her head. "I'm sorry, but she didn't. Maybe Zeinzu knows. He is in the living room."
"Okay, thank you." He turned and left. He was puzzled. He wondered if she went to see her friends. It was possible, but Inuyasha didn't want to jump to conclusions. It was best to ask the man who never everything that was happening.
Just like Raiza said, Zeinzu was in the living room. He was straightening the pillows on the couch when Inuyasha approached him. "Master Inuyasha." He bowed.
"Do you know where Kagome is? Raiza said she left an hour ago."
Zeinzu was silent for a while as he thought. "Well, she was on the phone as she was leaving. I heard her say something about visiting her mother."
"Her mother?"
"Yes sir."
"Thank you." Zeinzu bowed again and went back to his task. Now Inuyasha was confused. She was going to visit her mother, but her mother passed away. Then it hit him. She was going to visit her grave. "Zeinzu, I have another question for you. Did Kagome drive off?"
"No sir."
"Thank you again." There was only one cemetery in walking distance for his house, Sakura Valley. Inuyasha headed for the door, but stopped. He wondered if it was a good idea to go follow her. After all, she wanted some time away from him and yet, he didn't want her to have to face things alone. Making up his mind, Inuyasha headed out.
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Kagome sat across from her mother's grave. A fresh white lily lay next to it. She talked to her mother for about what recently happened in her life. From the time she met Inuyasha to the present. There was a mixture of laughs and tears. As she talked, she realized how stupid she had been acting.
"All he does is care about me mom." Kagome whipped the lone tear sliding down her cheek. "He makes me happy and cares for me deeply. I'm just scared." The tears just continued to flow. "I am an embarrassment. Tainted. Just filth and yet he still loves me." She gave a bitter laugh. "Maybe he's just lost his mind." Kagome whipped the last of her tears. "Mom, I don't know what to do. Should I give in? Do I even deserve a second chance?" she was quiet for a while.
The wind picked up and the white lily tumbled away. Kagome turned to get it, but stopped. Standing several feet away was Inuyasha. The lily was by his feet. He leaned down and picked it up and began to walk over towards her. Kagome turned back around and waited. Inuyasha sat next to her and placed the lily back in its original spot.
Never one spoke for. Both just sat quietly, afraid to say a word. The silence was becoming unbearable for Kagome and she was about to speak when Inuyasha moved. He touched the grave stone.
"Hello Mrs. Higurashi. My name is Inuyasha Takahashi. It's an honor to finally meet the woman that has brought Kagome into this world." Kagome herself was shocked. She did not expect Inuyasha to do anything like that. "I know it is late, but I want to let you know that I am deeply in love with your daughter. She has changed my life in many ways." He paused to look at Kagome. Her eyes were wide and glistened. "She has given me a reason to live. I never thought I would ever find love again, but I guess I was wrong." He turned back to the grave stone. "With your permission, I would like to date Kagome Higurashi."
A small gasp escaped her lips. Kagome was not expecting to hear those words come out of Inuyasha's mouth. "I…Inuyasha…."
"Kagome, I know what you're thinking. I know you don't think it is right to be with me, but I love you. I don't want you to leave. I don't want to be without you ever." He touched her cheek. "The past is the past and we both need to move on. Will you give us a chance?"
This was what she had been waiting on. This moment that would help her make the decision that would change her life forever.
TBC
A/N: Sorry for ending it like this, but if I continued then it would have threw me off. I am alive fellow readers and I am sorry for taking so long to update. I am currently preparing for college (my first year). I will try and update faster. Please continue to read my fanfics and review. Please don't hate me!