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A/N: Only one more chapter for this one and then I'll start, To Kill a Legend: The Randy Orton Story. It will be a spin-off with Serendipity returning to fill you in on the Randy case that she's been talking about throughout this one. I haven't started it yet, but Randy's constantly talking to me, so I hope that you'll like it.

Oh, and DX Chick...you are my new idol, you took the time to fill out the survey; you are so cool!

Immaculata...your shout out meant so much to me. You're wrong, Confide in Me is the BEST slash out there!

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Chapter 21

As promised, today I will share with you how I possibly ruined my career. But before I get into that, let me first explain what can and can't be done by muses. For this, I'll need to refer back to the Inspiration.

I really can't narrow down a passage, because it's spread throughout, but here a few rules that CAN NOT be broken.

Charges: Under no circumstances is a Virtue ever to reveal themselves or make their presence known.

Finalization: A Virtue is a guider of humans. Because humans are a lesser species, you must take pity on them. A Virtue must never give up on a charge; just as God will never give up on you.

Realization: Virtues must not tell a charge what decision to make. Their job is to lead their charges and help them make their own decision. Expressing your own opinion is cause for immediate suspension.

Can you see where I'm going with this?

Anyway, just so you're caught up…John tried to show Adam he loved him, which made Mark cry and then Hunter went all Gay-Basher on them. John became a coward and left Adam to alone to apologize to Shannon, Jay and Mark. Randy had a date with Ashley where he was going to use his mouth for more than cunilingus…and Adam ditched work.

If you weren't up with the story so far, I'm sure I just confused the hell out of you! No matter, here's what happened next…

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Adam walked through his hotel room solemnly. All he wanted to do was pack up his shit and leave. He had enough of Kentucky, enough of having his feelings see-saw, enough of John and Mark. He just wanted out. He opened the door to see none other than Rey Mysterio standing there. Of course Rey would be there…it was a fucked up ending to a fucked up day.

"I just came to see if you were ok." Rey said standing in the middle of Adam's room.

Adam looked at Rey and lowered his eyes. He held no contempt for the man, but on the same token, he wasn't in the mood to deal with him either. "Yeah…I'm fucking great Rey." He rolled his eye out of the shear stupidity of the statement.

Rey walked further into room and looked at Adam intently. "I know this ain't my business. But, John ain't gonna change."

Adam looked blankly. "What?"

"John ain't gonna change. I don't care how much you want him to." Rey rounded the couch and sat, followed by Adam close behind. "You got your life and he got his. You're ok with who you are, but him…it's new to him. He can't wake up tomorrow and be all 'I'm in love with a man and I don't care who knows it.'" Rey leaned back and studied Adam's face. "It's gonna take him time, but even then, he might never come around. You need to ask yourself, is it worth it? Can you live not having an open relationship? Cause if you can't, move on. That's who he is. You need to love him enough to respect that."

Adam didn't know what to say. But in a lot of ways Rey made sense. I always did like Rey…he's so cute.

"Well, like I said…I just came here to see if you were ok." Rey smiled at Adam as he stood to leave.

"Rey…" Adam called after him. "What happened to us? We used to be friends."

"You happened." Rey laughed. "You always do."

I knew that Rey was speaking of Adam's knack of always fucking up. But he'd lost so much already. I wouldn't be doing my job if I let him lose any more. I had really hoped that Adam let Rey's words sink in. For every action there is a reaction. Adam had hurt two people who cared about him deeply, now he was hurting because two people loved him again.

"Thanks Rey."

Rey smiled once more. "Anytime, ese."

"Hey Rey?" Rey stopped in the hallway and turned back to Adam. "Be good to Jay. He deserves it. Just be better than I was."

My heart swelled with so much pride for Adam at that moment. He finally understood what being in love was all about.

"I wouldn't have it any other way." Rey said before walking down the hall.

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I watched as Adam sat on his couch and started whining about how fucked up his life was. I saw him dial Mark's number and I read the thoughts in his mind. He was going to take Mark to bed, to comfort him from the loss of John. He was going to use him and frankly, I'd had enough. All the pride I had for him a few moments ago, quickly left. How dare he?

I broke all the rules…it had to be done. I wasn't going to take pity on him anymore.

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Adam looked at the half of bottle of Jack Daniels on the table and then back up at the vision in white in front of him. He was sure he was hallucinating. But there I was, in all my glory, hair flapping in the breeze, eyes a blaze of fire…I was pissed.

"I am so sick of listening to you whine! Do you have any idea of what I've been through these past five months with you?"

Adam stared blankly, he was sure he lost his mind.

"And don't look at me like that. For months, I've been listening to you talk about how much you love John. You talk about how selfish he is, how unfairly he treated you…and what are you doing to Mark? You treat him the same way that John treats you!" I was going to lay it all out for Adam whether he wanted to listen it or not.

I watched as he put his head down like a scowled child. I listened to every excuse he made in his mind. "I came to you because you asked for help in finding love. If you wanted help in how to get laid, you should have asked for fucking Libido to be your muse. But I took this job because I believed that you deserved to be happy. Now I fucking regret it."

"I don't know what you want me to do. I love him, but he can't love me."

"Well Mark loves you. If you want to feel the type of love that makes your heart burst, then you should be with him. Because let me tell you, no matter how John tries, he will never love you as much. But if you choose him, don't you dare compare him to John. He will never be John."

I was really getting into it. It's been a long time since I told someone off. "If you want to second guess yourself for the rest of your life, always wonder if you'll be enough, have to watch who you're around before you can hold hands, then by all means go for John." I sat in front of him and looked him in the eye. "Can you do that? You claim to love him; that means despite his faults. He can't be what you want him to be…all he can be is what he is. Is that enough for you? Or does he have to completely change to be good enough for Mr. Adam Copeland?"

I watched Adam's eyes fill with tears. He thought about it before he spoke. "I just want to be happy."

"Well what about them? You are so fucking selfish! One the one hand, you have an amazing friend, who adores you. And you've done nothing but manage to break his heart. You knew that you couldn't love him like you love John. But did that stop you from using him? No…it didn't. Because all you could think about was easing your own pain. On the other hand, you have a former lover, who you vowed if he didn't change to suit your needs, you were leaving him. But did you stop at that? No, you had to enlist your friends to make him jealous. He gave up so much for you tonight. Do you how hard it was for him to tell you that he loves you? All you can think about was that he embarrassed you by walking away!"

"Love isn't supposed to be this hard." He started to cry.

"Where the fuck is that written? Look, it's this simple, make a choice…choose Mark or John or leave them both alone! I won't watch you hurt either of them anymore. I can't. It makes me fucking sick. You wanted John to change for you…well he did. But what have you done to change for him? You want Mark to stay your friend, well stop fucking taking him to bed."

John stood up, with his back arched. I could tell he was in attack mode. "You think this is fun for me? I don't want to hurt anybody. I love John, I do…I love him with everything that I have! But Mark is safe; he makes me feel special…"

"Well fuck me. You deserve every bit of misery that you have right now. You want to be in a physical relationship with John and have him fill all your sexual needs, but you want an emotional one with Mark? You can't them both…you just can't."

It was at this point that I sealed my fate. I broke the Cardinal Rule. "I give up on you; you're on your own. I hope you figure it out, Adam…I really do, but I refuse to stand by and watch as two men's lives are destroyed because you're too wrapped up in your own happiness to give a shit about theirs!"

"Tell me what to do!" He yelled at me.

I stood before him and glared at him one final time. "Fucking grow up!"

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Well, I don't need to tell you that I was sitting the Director's chair before I had a chance to teleport myself to turn in Adam's file. They had heard those five little words, I give up on you.

You really must understand, for Divinity to give up on human, breaks the balance. It allows evil to win. I had shifted the balance between good and evil, between light and dark, between love and destruction.

I didn't do it to out of malice; I did it hoping that Adam would finally make the right choice. I didn't know what that choice was, but I just prayed that whatever it was, he did it with his heart.

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From the Director's office, I watch on the big screen TV as Adam sat on his floor, staring at the TV screen. Mark had let himself in and silently sat down next to him. They didn't talk to each other, neither one acknowledged that the other was there. They just both watched the TV as if it were the only thing between them.

After what must have been ten minutes, without words, Adam handed Mark a beer. Mark smirked and opened the bottle. He looked over at Adam, who refused to meet his eyes. And being the remarkable man that he was, he reached over and pulled Adam's head to his shoulder.

"I'm so sorry." Adam whispered, letting tears roll from his eyes.

Mark sighed, he knew what he had to do. "Go after him Smiles. He makes you happy."

"I don't want to give you up."

"I've had you in my life for so long; even if we're only friends, that's enough for me. It has to be." Mark said stroking Adam's face and closing his eyes against those golden locks. "But just know this; if he ever fucks up again, I'll be here."

Adam leaned into Mark's embrace and kissed him, with every ounce of love that he had for him.

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Randy sat on John's bed and sighed. "I told you to save the good shit until I got back." He ran his fingers through his hair. "You really told him? And you really punched Hunter? Man, I wished I could have seen that shit."

John flopped down next to Randy. "Yeah, well, a lot of good it did me. I fucking ran out like a little bitch. I just can't live with everybody knowing."

Randy looked at John and scrunched his brow, "Well why not? Don't they know now? I mean, you told him you loved him in front of the locker-room…that was the hard part. What's so tough now?"

John looked at Randy and smiled. He was right, the hard part was over. All he had to now was stay with Adam. But it was too late, he had walked out. With his eyes fixed on the ceiling he asked Randy a hard question. "Do you think that I could ever be good enough for him?"

Randy shrugged. "Don't know. Just be good enough for you. Copeland said that the best relationships start as friendships. Is he your friend?"

John smiled. "Yeah…my best friend."

"Well what the fuck about me? I thought I was your best friend."

John laughed. "You are, but I thought you gave up on me. You kept running to Adam and Copani with that whole 'gay' thing."

"Oh, I didn't tell you…I'm going to be straight now. I just want someone that will be crazy about me, like Copeland is about you." Randy sat up. "You're lucky, you know that, right?"

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I still didn't know what Adam was going to do. But I did know that it was officially pulled off the case, with strict instructions not to check on him again. But let's be honest, when have I ever followed the rules?

I've really got to get going now…but when we meet again, I'll tell you how it ends. I hope you won't be disappointed, but since I've already gotten sworn affidavits from those of you testifying, it's really too late to change your testimony anyway.

Author's Note: Ok, the next chapter will be the epilogue. I've taken your advice into consideration and I made a choice. I hope you like it...but I know some of you won't. Thanks for the reviews...

Shanny