Songs for this chapter : Bubbly- Colbie Colliat
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You all need to thank Tina (rangernstephfan) My Beta, for this chapter. I was torn and almost went another way but she gave me some great ideas and basically this chapter was born right after! Thanks for reading.
BPOV (Bubbly)
I woke up around eight in the evening. I was completely relaxed and I had felt so rested. I tried to turn my body but I was being pulled back in the opposite direction by a set of strong arms securely around my middle. It hurt a little and I barely made a noise indicating it did.
"Ouch..." I whispered. I felt Edward pull away from my body and then sit up in a panic.
"Oh god, Bella...are you okay? Did I hurt you?" He looked like he was about to lose it and his face now contorted into pain. I was shocked to say the least. His expression just became more pained with every second that passed and mine in return was getting more amused.
"Edward...i'm fine. Stop it." He closed his eyes and shook his head slowly from side to side then pinched the bridge of his nose.
"Im sorry, Bella. I just dont want anything to happen to you...I would never forgive myself if I hurt you or the ba...well you know."
He looked embarassed now and I thought there was no better sight than the man in front of me overheating his cheeks with blush. I smiled wide and moved over him for a kiss.
"You need to take it easy, Edward. We dont even know for sure if I am..." I was kissing his face as I said it. He seemed to relax and then his arms were around me again as I melted into his chest for a long while.
"We should find out...dont you think?" He sounded so hopeful and nervouse at the same time. His excitement and anxiousness was begining to rub off on me, because I honestly wanted nothing more than to get some clothes on and run to the store for a test.
He must have seen it in my face when he looked down at me, because the next thing I knew he was jumping out of bed and throwing his scrubs back on with fervor. I started laughing as I watched him run around looking like a cartoon character.
When he looked up at me and saw me laughing he jumped back on the bed and gently pulled me into a kiss. It was innocent but it took my breath away all the same. He pulled back and held my face in his hands.
"I've never seen a smile that could light a room like yours...your simply radiant." He never looked away from me and I could see his words shining through like a light in his eyes. He meant it...he meant it all. This baby, if there was one...would be wanted and loved already. I saw it all clearly now, he really wanted all these things and he wanted them with me.
I kissed him back just like he had me, and spoke of my love to the only man who had ever touched my heart.
"Are you going to get what I think you are?" I smiled gently to him with a bit of excitement. He just nodded to me while wearing the biggest smile I had ever seen him wear.
"Okay...will you grab me something to eat while your out? " He looked back excited and started laughing.
"Defineatly Bella...I actually brought food from portofinos, but I think its bad now that I didnt put it away when I got here...I was a bit preoccupied."
"Come here..." I whispered to him. I wanted another kiss from him before he would be away again.
He leaned down and kissed me softly before pulling away and exiting the room.
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I layed back down on the bed and just stared out at the city lights that were drifting in the room. I was calm and relaxed as I thought of the very real possibility of having a baby inside me right now.
I didnt have the scared or nervouse feelings that had invaded me earlier that day, and I knew it was because I now knew that Edward was happy.
When we made love earlier that night the realization that we were still unprotected and unsure of our pregnancy came to flood my mind. But just as quick as it came, it left. I had smiled and let the tears of peace take me over because I realized then that I didnt care...I wanted it too.
I stretched for a moment and made my way into the shower to get cleaned up. As I stepped into the bathroom and faced the mirror, I turned my body to the side and began imagining what it would be like to have the round belly that would accompany me for at least six months.
I made my way into the shower and let my body relax agains the hot water. I was still surprised at how calm and relxed I felt about everything as I washed my hair and the rest of my body. When I had fully lost myself in the thoughts of a little baby, I heard the door to the bathroom open.
Edward was peeking his head through the glass door now and grinning.
"What's got you all excited?" I played along. Edward rolled his eyes dramatically and scoffed playfully at me.
"Come on, Bella...you know what." I blew him a kiss and flicked water at his face before he shut the glass again.
"Just leave it on the counter...I'll do it when I get out okay?" I heard him sigh and then listened as he placed it on the sink area.
"Are you done yet, baby? The suspense is killing me." I inwardly laughed and rolled my eyes. I shut the water and reached for a towel. I felt Edwards hand over my own when I reached the hook.
"Let me, love." He kissed my hand and took the towel from the hook. I stood still as he wrapped me up and pulled me to his body. I was choked up by the amount of care he was bestowing upon me and I could feel the tears begin to sting my eyes. Suddenly my worries revolved around how he would feel if it werent positive.
"Edward...can we talk first?" He kissed my nose and nodded his head. Before I could move he lifted me up and walked me to the bed.
When we were both laying down, I rolled into his side and began.
"If this is real...then what?" I kept my face in his chest and let his scent saturate my senses while he held me and I awaited his answer.
I could feel him kissing my head over and over again before he spoke.
"Well...I would like very much to buy a home sooner rather than later. My hope would be that the two of us could get comfortable and settled before you get too far along so that way when the baby gets here...we"ll all feel at home." He paused for a moment before asking, "What do you want Bella?"
That was a good question. Edward had just painted a wonderful picture in my head, but the only thing missing was that he hadnt mentioned marriage. Dont get me wrong, I didnt want to be one of those people who felt they had to get married once pregnant, but he hadnt even mentioned the option later in the years.
I was still a bit self conscious and I did not really want to have to be the one to come out and say it, but there really was not much time to waste at this point. Our relationship had developed instantly and grew at an even faster rate.
I took in a deep breath and put the words out there.
"What about marriage?"
I said it low. I'm not sure if I said it for him to hear, but all the same it was said and there would not be any going back now.
Before I could regret the words Edward had flipped over to his side and was propped up on his elbow facing me. His face was excited and he looked almost giddy.
"Of course baby...god yes! I know you may not believe this, but I actually talked to my dad today before you called me with the news. I was just coming back from lunch with him when you called. Anyway, I asked him there to get his opinion on me asking you that very question..."
My face was frozen in a state of shock. I couldnt believe the words I had just heard. Edward had already wanted to marry me before any of this happened? I felt my eyes filling with tears and when his face went blurry from my vision, I felt his lips on my ear.
"I was just waiting to find out where your father lived so that I could get his blessing. I have every intention of making you mine, Bella. I really cant wait."
I pulled together what I could of my composure and clutched him to me.
"I didnt mean that I expected you to, but...really? You want me?"
He pulled me back and looked me square in the eyes with chin in his hand. "Your all I have ever wanted, Bella. Your all that matters, love."
He kissed me slowly and then pulled back and looked at me again with an almost apologetic expression.
"I didnt mean that..." I felt my heart tighten and I gasped from the shock of it. I didnt think there was worse pain than the one consuming my heart at the very moment.
"No No No...I mean...I just mean that..you and the baby...you both are all that matters."
He peppered me with kisses and held me close as he rubbed the length of my back. I instantly felt better about it and relaxed into the embrace. Soon though, it was time to get the show on the road.
I whispered into his neck as we were still joined, "Well, we dont even know if there is a baby yet...I guess I should find out huh?".
After he processed my words I received one last lingering kiss and he walked me to the door.
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EPOV
I stood at the door just waiting for Bella to emerge. I was trying to find things to distract me from what was happening at this very moment. I walked to the window and looked out over the city lights.
I tried to take their beauty in, but all I could see was the vision of Bella holding our precious baby. I saw sleepless nights and tired days ahead, and I smiled. I smiled because in each vision I got to be with Bella and our baby everyday. God, just the thought of our baby was enough to send me soaring. I wanted it...I wanted it so bad.
My mind was racing a mile a minute and in those laps I had thought of everything from the best physicans to houses and the roomiest luxary vehicles. It was all for Bella. She would need the best care and I would see to it that she received it...that they both did. I envisioned our home and the fact that I hadnt seen one to my dreams standards led me to the avenue of having it designed and then built. My mother would be of great assistance in that department. Then the car, Bella would need plenty of room and something attractive and safe. I was still tossing the Volvo Toureg and a Mercedes ML320 when I heard the door to the bathroom open.
I turned quickly to find Bella leaning against the wall watching me. I walked to her and kissed her gently before pulling back.
"Five minutes..." I nodded at her words and took a deep breath.
"Either way love...this will happen for us." I kissed her head and hugged her to me. Bella just laughed lightly and kissed my chest before saying,"Well if we continue on the way we did this afternoon, it will be sooner rather than later."
I looked down at her and the realization dawned on me that we hadnt used protection. Bella was not protected any more either and that meant that even if this test didnt turn out positive, then there was still a possibility that we could be having a baby.
I started laughing and hugged her tighter. I was trying to be mindful of the fact that she may be pregnant, so I contained it to her arms and back. She giggled and pulled me to the window by my hands. When we were directly in front of the view, I wrapped my arms around her and rested them on her belly while we both stared out the window in silence.
My mind was still racing with what I would need to get done for us before the baby arrived, and it didnt take me long to find out where Bella's silence had taken her.
"I want us to live together, Edward...no matter what the results say." She clasped her hands with mine and I smiled over her shoulder to me. I just returned her gaze with a matching one on my face and whispered, "Me too, Bella."
I kissed her head and continued to stare out the window. Not many minutes later, Bella turned in my arms and her face held a look of shame. It caught me off guard and my heart tightened from the look of pain she held.
"I want this Edward, but I cant afford any of those houses that you picked out...even with us splitting the mortgage." She dropped her head a little and was biting her lip. I knew it took a lot for her to say that to me, and I hated the way it obviously made her feel.
She had apparantly not understood that I would be the provider. Maybe it was a bit of a cavemanish thought, but in my mind and world a man's greatest accomplishment was to give his wife her home. To ensure that she was happy and lived a good life. Bella would never want for anything again and I would make it my lifes goal to provide her anything her heart desired.
I saw my father do it for my mother...I had recently just become aware of Jasper doing it for Alice, and now I would do it for Bella.
I shook my head no to her and then pulled her to the bed. I sat her down and knealed beneath her.
"Love, I'm having our home built. It's going to be my job to provide for you Bella...and it starts with a house." She looked up at me from beneath her lashes and confusion was on her face so I tried to make it more clear.
"Bella, I am going to marry you...you just dont know when I am going to ask...now, I obviously only figured on you saying yes."
I felt a little embarassed by my over confidence now, and the fact that I had just admitted to it was even worse.
Bella was shaking her head again and she set her gaze on the wood floor. " I cant let you do that Edward." her voice was breaking and she wouldnt meet my eyes as she continued.
"I know you are used to the nicer things in life, and..well..I am not. I was raised on a Kindergarten teachers salary, and my dad isnt getting any richer as the chief of police in his small town. I'm not about to let you foot the bill for me. It wouldnt be right...I have nothing to offer you in return."
I was shocked by her words and stayed quiet. I had no idea how to come back from that.
"I make a good living and I can honestly say I live comfortably. I worked hard to earn all that you see around us, but I honestly cannot see me working hard enough in the near future to earn what I would need to even put a down payment on a house like those you printed.
I stopped her then. This had gone on long enough.
"Bella, stop." She looked at me and I could see tears in her eyes as she bit on her bottom lip.
"I am the one who is going to be providing...it's what my role is...do you think I would ever want something like that if you werent in the picture? Hell Bella, It wouldnt even be a thought in my mind if I hadnt met you, baby."
I lifted her chin again because she kept dropping it.
"Bella, your giving me you! No house, car or anyother materialistic thing could compare to the value in that...Your giving me life from you! That my love is priceless."
It was right after I said that that we both turned to the bathroom door and then back to eachother. Five minutes had come and gone and we both knew it.
I stood and held bella to me for a long kiss and then led her through the door to see what our future had in store.
I let Bella lead and then slowly made my way behind her as she grabbed the little white stick. When I leaned over her shoulder I grabbed on to her hips and held my breath. She held it up and I exhaled as I saw two little pink lines form a plus.