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Letter 21
23, September, 2010
371 Days
Edward,
Jake….Edward….Jacob…Edward…
Both immortal…
Both unnatural…
Both Loved…
Warmth….Coldness…Jacob…Edward…
You two are the same in many ways; you both love…loved me, both fought for me, you're the same in ways, but one…
Jake's not afraid. He knows he can hurt me, but yet he doesn't hold back. You held back; I could have given you this kind of love, but you didn't let me.
Our love was spiritual, mental, emotional, but with Jake I get all of that and physical love. You have to have physical love to know just how much that someone means to you. We didn't have that, but I'm not saying I love you any less than I did before, Edward, you will always be my first love. I will never forget you, nor will I try purposely to remember you. If you stop by in my thoughts then you will be the small smile that graces my lips or the twinkle in my eye as I remember how you used to hold me. You will also start the train of thought that leads me to thinking of my true love, Jacob. You did lead me to the love of my life. I thank you for that.
You'll always be my first love,
Isabella Swan