CHAPTER 21

When Shego awoke the next morning, she found that it was one o'clock in the afternoon. She sprang up and ran to see if Emma was still here. She was indeed, still sleeping in her bed. She went downstairs to see Drakken sitting in the dining room with his head in his hands. She went over to see what was wrong. She sat on the chair next to his and rubbed his arm. He looked up and seemed a bit surprised to see her.

"I thought you would be sleeping the day away. Not to sound rude, but I was actually counting on that."

"Am I that terrible?" She asked jokingly. He looked at her with sadness in his eyes. He motioned her to come and sit on his lap.

"No of course not, I just have a lot to think about. It was nice to have a quiet house for the time being. I'm just a little depressed right now."

"You too, I just can't believe he's gone? We didn't even get to meet him… but that's the past. I just want to move on to the future like I always do. The past is too painful." As she finished her sentence, there was a knock at the door. She peered through the pep whole. "Ugh, speaking of the past…" She said as she opened the door revealing her brothers standing there. "Guys listen we really aren't in the mood for visitors today, we just want to be alone."

"Shego we're here to help you guys, we heard about the baby and all of us are so sorry about that." Hego said. Shego hugged her brothers in a group hug as she tried to stop herself from crying in front of her brothers, there was no way she was going to show them the weakness they always wanted to see. "Shego, it is okay to cry. We know that you're holding back."

"No way, am I going to give you guys that satisfaction of knowing that I can be weak. Anyway since when do you guys care about how I feel?" Shego asked while trying her hardest to be strong and sat down on the couch. Mego went over and said,

"We've always cared Shelia; you just never let us in to show you." She threw her arms around her brother and hugged him tight.

"Thanks guys, but like I said before we really aren't in the mood for company I'll call you guys tomorrow." Her brothers understood and told her that they were only a phone call away if she needed them and left. Shego let herself fall onto the couch and cried hard. She buried her head in the pillow on the couch. Drakken for the first time had no idea what to do or say to her. He went over to her and pulled her up and held her close to him. She wiped her tears away and went up to see if Emma was awake. She was still asleep and Shego went over to make sure she was still alive. She was breathing and Shego knelt down and rubbed Emma's head. She stirred a little before waking up and looking at her mother. "Hi honey, I didn't mean to wake you. Go back to sleep."

"Mommy was yesterday a dream? I wish it was."

"Me too baby, but no I wasn't. I'm sorry sweetheart I know how much you wanted a little brother." Shego said in a shivering voice. Emma sat up and hugged her mom.

"It's not your fault. I still love you." Emma said in tired voice. Shego sniffed back some tears and hugged her daughter.

"I love you too, princess." Shego said she let go of her daughter and Emma slipped back into dream world. She kissed her daughter on the forehead before leaving the room. She closed the door behind her so she could sleep in peace. She went back downstairs and joined Drakken in the kitchen. He was looking out the window of the September afternoon. His face was red from crying and he wiped the rest of his tears. Shego came behind him and hugged him from behind.

"I wish there was something I could do for you." Drakken said as he turned to face his wife.

"Take me into the bedroom and I'll show you." Shego said in a sexy voice running her hands up his body. Drakken grabbed her hands and pushed them down to her sides and held them there. "What's wrong?"

"You're hurting and vulnerable and I'm not going to take advantage of you."

"Drakken, I'm a big girl and say when I'm being taken advantage of… right now is not one of those times." Shego said as he pulled her hands away, wrapped them around Drakken's neck and began to kiss him. He tried to pull away but he couldn't. He found himself kissing her back and picking up bridal style. Still kissing her, he brought her into the bedroom. As he placed her on the bed, he realized what was about to happen and broke the kiss and moved away from her. Shego sat up and said "Okay what gives? A few months ago you would have done anything to your hands on me, now you act as if you don't want to be anywhere near me. Is it something I did, did I make you mad… it's the baby isn't it?" Drakken didn't answer her; she crawled over the bed and wrapped her arms around his neck from behind. He patted her hands. "I feel bad too but we can't stop life. We have to move on. We can always try again." Shego said as she rested her head on his shoulder.

"That's not the point Shego. The point is that we should wait a while before we decide to do this."

"(Sigh) fine, see you later." Shego said as she let go of him and got off the bed and walked out the bedroom door. Drakken followed her with a hurt expression of his face.

"Shego come on don't do this. Where are you going?"

"OUT, I'M GOING FOR A WALK. IF YOU TRY AND FOLLOW ME I WILL LEAVE YOU!" Shego said as she slammed the door. She slammed it so hard that it woke Emma up. She walked out of her room to see her dad looking at the door as if it would open and Shego would be standing there.

"Daddy? Where's mommy?" Emma asked in a sleepy voice.

"Mommy's a little mad at me right now, so she decided to take a walk. She'll be back in little bit. You want to help me make dinner?" Emma gave a slight nod and followed her dad into the kitchen. She pushed a chair over to the counter and climbed up on it. After Drakken opened the can of sauce he gave it to Emma to carefully pour it into the pot. After doing that two times, Drakken put it on the stove and turned it on. He filled a larger pot with water and put it on the stove as well. He brought Emma into the living room and asked her if she wanted to watch TV. She said yes and they watched it until it was time to put the macaroni in the water. Emma took the box and gently poured it in the boiling water with Drakken watching closely obviously. He brought her back into the living room and they watched TV until dinner. Dinner came and went and still on sign of Shelia. After he cleaned up from dinner he gave her a call. She didn't answer her cell phone. At twelve, he decided to go to bed and she would come home when she felt like it. He put Emma in her bed; he didn't expect her to go to sleep since she literally slept the day away, so he put the TV in her room on and kissed her goodnight. Then he himself went to sleep, he hoped that Shego would come back home soon.