If you're uncomfortable with M/M intimacy, you shouldn't read the second half of the chapter.
Will's eyes traveled to the counter. His boyfriend was putting a cup down, grinning widely. Then he spotted Will and opened his mouth, his chest expanding for a shaky sigh. Will almost dropped the flower. He walked slowly and held the rose shyly. Sonny's smile came back even more beautiful than before.
"You're feeling better today?
- Yea. Sorry about yesterday. I went to sleep a few seconds after I hung up."
Sonny put down the rose and took Will's hands in his own
- Don't be sorry, sweetie. You're allowed to cancel stuff. As I'm allowed to whine about it. My job means I'll be much more likely to be unavailable and we'll have to deal with that. It's just...
- Yes?" Now Sonny was looking at the counter's top and Will had to lean to hear what he said.
- Last week... It was... soo good. I kind of... can't stop thinking about doing it again."
Will knew that but it was still making his stomach turn. He wondered if it was fear or if it was what being turned on felt like. It was his turn to answer but he wasn't sure. He closed his eyes, trying to recapture the ease he had felt after the fact, lying next to Sonny's naked body. And the pleasure, just before.
- Maybe tonight..." He opened his eyes again to see Sonny's lips coming at him. The kiss was soft. A finger was tracing his shoulder-blade. They stayed for a minute looking at each other until they heard a cough.
- If you don't mind, I'd like to order, sir." Will blushed and took a step back. Sonny didn't look embarrassed, he rarely did. Will wanted to become like him, strong and confident, unfazed.
He sat under the white bird's photograph. Sonny joined him fifteen minutes later, with his coffee and some lime pie. Will smiled as he remembered the time he had tasted the first one and written the fake review. Sonny smiled back and Will felt sure they were thinking the same thing. Being connected that way was like being just them alone in the world. They didn't talk, just ate and brushed each other's fingers.
As Sonny was finishing his shift, Will got a text from his mother. Her boyfriend Rafe was free Sunday evening. Will passed the message.
"Cool, I'm free tomorrow. Let's go grocery shopping so that I can cook you all a great meal.
- Grocery shopping? You're calling that a date?" Sonny laughed and tugged Will's hand
- Why, you want to go on a formal date tonight? With violin and candles in a fancy restaurant?"
Will shook his head.
- No, I just want to spend time with you. Remember that night when we watched the stars?"
Sonny nodded.
- One of the best night of my life... Well, along with the last one we had of course.
- Maybe...
- Yes?"
Will struggled with the words but he wanted to say it.
- We could go to the park. The air is warm enough and if it isn't, then we can warm up each other. And we can morph these two nights into one..."
Grocery shopping was hilarious. Sonny behaved like a frustrated artist, sighing at the quality of the vegetables, closing one eye to examine a fruit, changing his mind every five minutes. Will kept a smirk on his face all through it, making Sonny glare at him repeatedly. Will was so happy, he could hardly contain his laughter. Having sex with Sonny again frightened him but being near him also made him desire it more and more.
They took a blanket and walked to the park. It was empty but plenty wings were creasing past their head. The lay on the thick fabric, cuddling, their faces turned towards the black unending space. Sonny was lost into the contemplation, barely caressing Will's belly now and then.
Will was busy trying to recognize a nocturnal bird's hoot when he felt Sonny's nose burying itself in his neck. He passed a hand in the dark soft hair and asked
- You're sleepy?" There was a nod against his shoulder. Will took a big breath in and said, his voice trembling "We'd better go to your place, then. Your bed is much more comfortable to sleep in."
Sonny wasn't that sleepy afterward. He was kissing Will whenever he could, his tongue finding its way through Will's lips, tasting him thoroughly. When they reached the bedroom, he lay Will on the bed and paused.
"You liked it last time?" Will nodded slowly. "You want to do it the same way?"
- I don't know, Sonny... What can we do else?" They were both blushing now, both hearts beating way too fast, one in Will's chest, the other under his palm.
Sonny gently took out Will's clothes, his hand adoring and respectful. Will was trembling from head to toe. He let Sonny open him up, his mind focused on the new painful sensations, his breathing short, his eyes lost in Sonny's brown ones. He didn't move, didn't moan, not even when Sonny came inside him. He didn't know what to do, how to feel. His body was dull, the pain and the pleasure absent, his head empty. But Sonny wasn't silent, he was calling him, groaning and pressing in.
He didn't come. Tears were pooling under his eyelids, but he didn't let them fall. Sonny had finished and was now kissing Will gratefully. Will closed his eyes and wished him a good-night. Sleep came in fast, erasing the disappointment.
He woke up first and took his notebook from his bag. He sat on the bed and wrote for a while but it was too sad. So he went back to his restaurant review, the one he had started a while ago. He was frowning on naming one of the characters when he felt a hand on his knee. He jerked up, almost knocking Sonny's jaw.
"Sorry, honey, you startled me..." Sonny didn't answer and walked to the bathroom, without looking back. Will felt terrible. He knew he hadn't met his lover's expectations, even though he had been the one to ask. He pinched his lips and focused on his story. It was when Sonny came by and wiped his tears away that he realized he was weeping.
Sonny sat next to him and mumbled
"You forgive me, Will?" The pain in his eyes was too much to bear, so Will looked away.
- Forgive you for what? I asked you for it, for everything.
- Yes and I didn't manage. You didn't like it. I failed you." This wasn't Sonny, it couldn't be.
- I was the one who failed you. I didn't feel what I was supposed to. Does it mean I'm not gay? It barely hurt." Sonny looked slapped. Will wanted to reassure him, he loved that, but this morning they needed to communicate.
"Maybe we could try again, Sonny?" His boyfriend looked unsure. Will didn't like to beg but it was important "I mean, maybe it's because... I've never been much into it, you see, so my body is new to all this. After all the other night was great."
- Do you want to switch?" Will paused. He hadn't thought about that. Somehow he couldn't picture it.
- No. I just want to do it all over again. Until it works."
This time, Sonny caressed him even more. His tongue was everywhere on Will's skin. He kept asking "You like this" and Will answered truthfully every time. Sonny's fingers entered him again. Will felt a shock and moaned. And for the first time since he had woken up, Sonny grinned.
It wasn't mind-melting but it was definitely better. Slowly, Will felt his belly fill with pleasure and when Sonny stroke him, he reached his orgasm. He yelled "Yes!", his fingers digging into Sonny's back.
Sonny was back to normal. Which meant he made a sumptuous breakfast, kissed Will at every turn and finally put the TV on to watch a baseball match while they snuggled on the couch.
But he turned into a cooking tyrant when he entered Sami's kitchen. When Will started complaining, Sami poked him:
- Don't argue with my chef, Will!
- Well, why don't you help him, then?
- I would, but the children have been asking me to play with them all day." Will caught up the worried look underneath Sami's teasing. He knew how important this was to her, so he sent her to the garden, then walked to Sonny who was busy doing three things at the same time and put his chin on his man's shoulder
"Honey, I'm aware you're a perfectionist, but you know I can't do much in the kitchen. Remember when you were patient about it..." Sonny finished his task then took Will in his arms.
- I want to impress your mom, Will.
- She's already impressed. And it's early. Relax a little."
Sonny nodded. He had Will break the eggs and showed him how to beat the egg whites until stiff. Then he watched him lick what was left in the bowl, his mouth open, in a trance. Will felt stupidly attractive. Which was a good thing, because when Rafe came in, he saw immediately what Sami saw in him. The guy wasn't wearing a police suit but that was the only thing missing. Even Sonny eyed the guy up. He turned to kiss Will as an apology.
"Wow, Sami! I thought you said you couldn't cook?" Sami was beaming at Rafe. She gestured to Sonny.
- I still can't. Will's boyfriend is a wonder. I'm thinking of granting him Will's hand." The whole table laughed, even Syd who didn't understand and whispered to Allie for explanations.
Rafe looked nice and straightforward. He was attentive to Sami and seemed reasonable. All in all it allowed Will to give his mother an appreciative nod. When their guest left, Sami pushed the boys out of the house :
"Sonny lives a street away, you'll catch your bus anyway. You've been too busy with your exams, Will, you need to relax." Will agreed so that she would stop embarrassing him.
That night he tried to give Sonny some pleasure. He licked him, took the tip in his mouth, went as far as he could. It wasn't easy but he was getting there. Sonny was too great a boyfriend to let him slip from his fingers.