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"SNAP I WIN WIN WIN WIN!" Seth's childish yell echoed around our tiny front room and I groaned again.
I would never get through this pile of homework if these idiots didn't get out of my house. They were always here.
"Not fair, I can't move very fast, broken body remember!" Jacobs own childish yell followed and I rolled my head back, no way would I ever concentrate in this house.
I tried looking back at the algebra in front of me, I had no hope. The boys let out another round of booming laughter and I chucked my pen across the room, hitting Jacob in the forehead.
"Jade!" Jacob moaned, it hadn't hurt him; he was a freaking super wolf. Such a diva.
"Guys, Jade's trying to do her school work"
My dad's voice spoke up now, I looked up behind me, and he was frowning at the group of over grown children who were huddled in our house playing card games.
"She has a room" Paul snapped back and shot me one of his "I'm trying to piss you off" looks.
"Yes Paul, just like you have your own house. So why don't you go there for once?" I glared at him and he poked his tongue out like a child, it was something I expected from Seth who was only 14, not Paul who was like 21.
"Because I just love seeing your grumpy little face everyday obviously" He smiled sarcastically so I flipped him off.
"Mature Jade" He narrowed his eyes at me and nodded dramatically.
"Say's the one arguing with a 16 year old girl, yeah, mature Paul"
"Give it a rest, you're giving me a headache" Rachel snapped from the kitchen and I looked over, her glare was firmly placed on me, she smiled when she looked at Paul.
Yeah because this was obviously started by me.
"Yeah Jade, you're giving her a headache" Paul smirked as he stood up and walked to Rachel kissing her temples as she smiled at him.
"Unbelievable" I muttered, slamming my school books down I stood up from my place on the floor and stormed toward the front door.
"Paul do you always need to wind her up?" Jacob's voice wafted through the open door behind me.
"Yeah dude, you're an ass to her" Seth's young voice piped up now and I smirked, he was right, Paul was an ass.
"I was only having fun" Paul whined like a kid.
"Yeah but you always do it, one day she's going to kill you, if she ever phases then that's it you will be ripped to shreds within seconds" Jacob sniped now and I smirked in appreciation as Paul got told of by his pack brothers.
I led myself down across the steps that led up to the front door. Letting the sun beat down on my face through the cloudy sky. I needed space, my life was controlled by this pack of wolves that I wanted nothing to do with. They knew nothing about me, not really anyway, but they still felt they could wind me up and judge me. I kept my eyes shut, trying to cool off from the anger that Paul stirred. He was an asshole. I hated him, he hated me. But he always had to start something.
"Scoot your toosh short stuff" A low males voice spoke out.
I opened an eye and looked up, Jared was stood awkwardly with Quil, and they were both staring at me as I lay on the steps. They could have stepped over me.
I sighed in annoyance and swung my legs around, letting them pass.
Not two seconds later Paul, Seth and Sam ran out, shooting past me. Seth looked back and gave me a toothy smile as he ran toward the tree line, I just frowned. They had been doing this for the past 24 hours, Jacob had been house ridden and all the guys had been coming and going at all hours of the day. Taking it in turns to sit with him and play stupid card games or on the games machine thing, and while doing so made sure they were making as much noise as possible.
The only one who hadn't been here was Embry, I suppose he was on the double shift Sam made him do. Coward, he could have said no. I think, maybe he couldn't have, I think dad mentioned something about them not being able to say no to their alpha, which was Sam. I would hate that. Poor Leah, she has to take orders from the idiot who broke her heart. Poor Leah? No Jade, you hate her too, she lied to you. I shook the pity from me, she could suck it up and deal with it with no pity from me because right now, I hate her.
I looked around the messy garden, it was full of random objects, half broken boat, old car parts, tools. It was messed up, just like my head. I needed to get out, but I still didn't have my phone, Jason had rang the house and said he would be over at some point but he hadn't come yet. So I was stuck here, no way of contacting people to come get me and no one to drive me anywhere, I could have asked one of the guys, but that would mean an awkward car ride that I did not want to sit through. So I left it, just staying in my room or sitting silently while they all played their stupid games.
I stood up, a painful growl ran through my stomach, I had hardly eaten; the boys had ate all our food. I rubbed it, trying to calm it down as I walked in to my house, Jacob was sat with Jared, playing on the game machine thing, I clocked the black box by the TV, PS3, I knew it was something like that.
I walked straight into the kitchen and opened the fridge, staring in at it hoping something exciting would pop out at me. It was an open planned living room and kitchen so I could hear the guys clearly as they bickered with one another over who was winning and who was cheating.
"Yo Jade, chuck me some food" A males voice spoke up again and I looked from behind the fridge door, Quil was staring at me hopefully as I rooted around the fridge.
"Yo Quil, get of your ass and get it yourself" I replied blankly.
"But please just this once?" He tried smiling sweetly at me but I just stared back. He groaned at me and mumbled something about being a bitch.
I needed to get out of here. They were doing my head in. I slammed the fridge shut and grabbed an apple, and launched it at Quil as I walked past him.
I needed to have one day, wolf free, just one stupid day where my life did not involve all this supernatural shit that I was only supposed to see or hear about when I watched TV.
I stormed to my room, I could hear the guys making snide comments about me PMS'ing as I went, they could be such assholes.
I flicked my laptop on and logged into my Facebook page, sending a message to Jason, it was the only way I could get hold of him, I hated Facebook, I never went on there unless I had too. This would class as having too.
The longest 20 minutes of my life passed by, his reply had taken ages, but he was coming to get me so I tried not to be to bitter about the sweet assed time he took. The boys had still been shouting to one another down the hall, making me even more annoyed than I was before. I just wanted my peaceful house back. Why couldn't they gather at someone else's house?
I grabbed a big bag and chucked a bunch of stuff in for tomorrow before walking back to the front room. I stopped suddenly as I entered, Embry was sat there, his head lifted and he smiled at me, his smile always confused me, it was as if I brightened up his whole life, like I was his only reason to smile. It was intense. I fought the urge to smile back, my heart was flying around inside, beating violently in my chest. I kept myself back, he had been breaking my walls, but I wouldn't let him anymore, I couldn't make myself vulnerable for heart break, especially not with Embry Call, a wolf.
"Where you off?" Jacob asked, his eyes still glued to the TV.
"Jason's houses for the night, your constant flow of wolves are doing my head in"
His head snapped from the TV and he shook his head.
"You are not staying at a boy's house overnight"
"You can't tell me what to do" I snapped back at him, he was such an ass sometimes.
"Dad tell her, she can't stay at his, she's only 16" Jacob looked to our dad who was sat quietly in the kitchen with Rachel.
He seemed a little confused for a second as he looked between us.
"I umm, she's stayed there before, if she stays in a separate room, I guess, I don't mind, Jake, she can stay out if she wants to now stop being stupid" My dad snapped the last bit out as my brother started growling.
I turned and poked my tongue out at him, Embry was shaking next to him, he looked pissed off as he looked at me. I hadn't even done anything wrong.
"What? Do you want her to become a teenage mom?" Jacob snapped again and Embry growled.
"Yes because I am such a massive slut that I won't be able to control myself with my best friend Jacob"
"I didn't say you were a slut" Jacob's voice softened and Embry growled again as he shook more.
"Well then, get over it" I snapped at him and he glared. Embry had started turning slightly red in the seat next to my brother, I frowned, that can't be healthy.
"Well when will you be back?" He snapped again, his anger back.
"Sunday, I have a party tomorrow night" Did he seriously need to know every little aspect of my life?
"Well you're not wearing that if you're going to Jason's, go put proper pants on" Jacob looked over at me, I was in a pair of shorts. This kid has serious issues, he had suddenly turned all protective, he had never been like that before.
"Stop it Jake, I will not change just because you and Embryo here have some issues with other men, stop being such a diva" I poked my tongue out at him, just because we were trying to get on better does not mean he could boss me around.
"Yeah Jake, stop trying to control her life" Jared tried mimicking my voice from his place on the floor. I rolled my eyes, such an ass.
"Are there going to be boys at this party" Embry was the one who said it, it was such a dad comment, I looked at my dad, he had his mouth slightly open like he was about to say something but Embry had beaten him to it.
"Yes Embry, my friends who happen to be male will be there. Is that ok or shall we ring master Sam to ask permission?"
Embry and I had gotten on ok the last couple of days, but it still annoyed me when he got all uptight and jealous about stuff I did. He had no say in my life, not one tiny little bit.
"No I was just wondering" He mumbled and looked down in his lap as Jacob laughed from beside him.
I just frowned at him and he stopped. These boys were strange as hell, even now I knew the secret thing, they still confused me.
"So now we bypassed the questions I was supposed to ask, and the clothes comment I was supposed to make, can I just ask what time Sunday?" My dad finally was able to get a word in.
"Like 12 I suppose" I stated it simply.
"And who will be driving you?" Dad asked again
"Jason" I sighed, this was getting boring now.
As usual, Embry growled again, his eyes were full of jealousy. This kid had serious jealously issues with other males.
"The one who drives after he's had a drink and smokes weed?" Quil's voice spoke out now. I looked at him, expecting to see a smirk that told me he was trying to ruin my plans, instead his face was crinkled in what looked like worry or confusion.
"Well I don't see you lot offering to come get me" I snapped back and he looked away from me.
"I'll come get you" Embry piped up again and I frowned, shaking my head. Hell no, no wolves would annoy me this weekend.
"Give me your phone, I'll put my number in just in case" He reached his hand out toward me and I frowned, Jacob was doing crazy head nods and eye movements from beside him, telling me to do it.
"I don't have my phone, Jason still has it"
"I'll give you hers then" Jacob smiled to widely at me, I groaned, now he would have my number too. Another way to stalk me.
"Jade, you want some food?" Rachel called out, I turned to look at her, she was giving me a glare, like she didn't actually want to be asking me.
"No" I answered quietly. She huffed as she was stood staring at me, blankly, as if unsure whether she should be pissed off with me or not.
"Jade, you really should eat before you go out drinking, line your stomach" Her tone of voice was sarcastic, like she was trying to bring up the fact that she thinks I am a raving alcoholic and drug addict again.
"I'm not drinking tonight Rachel, I'm just going to Jason's" I said it in my old blank tone of voice.
"Sure" She raised her eyebrows and rolled her eyes at me.
Any sign of the nice Rachel I had seen yesterday was gone, she was back to hating me.
"Go away" Annoyance was building up within me, she was so infuriating. She had hardly spoken to me for weeks and now she thinks she has the right to be all bitchy to me and judge what I do.
"Jade don't start with me, I am not in the mood for your immature performances tonight" She slammed a knife down on the counter and I laughed.
"I haven't started anything"
"Oh here we go" Jacob groaned from behind me. Her anger had come from nowhere, well, she had been bottling it up for months now, I could tell she always wanted to let loose on me but she never did. Now I guess she finally was.
"Yes because it is never you is it, daddy's little angel" She grabbed the knife again and started slamming it down onto a cucumber as if murdering it.
"Well I am sorry if I offended you by not wanted to eat a cucumber you hacked to pieces" My own bitchy tone of voice had come into play now, we were really quite alike.
"It's not the food, it's just your attitude, you have done my head in the last few days. It's like your scitzo, one minute your nice to people, the next you're not. Ever thought, oh maybe the reason everyone is so horrible to you, wasn't the fact that you were so misunderstood, but the fact that you were a bitch to us and we simply could not be assed to try with you?" She threw the knife down again, staring at me in bottled up anger that she had been dying to let lose for weeks.
"What are you on about?"
"You, I am on about you. Everyone else has been babying you and being all nice and cute with you because you told us all that shit about mom and feeling alone. And yes I feel sorry about that, yes I shouldn't have left you and yes, maybe I should have been more supportive after she died. But you only told us because you were high as a freaking kite on drugs. Yet still, no one said anything to you about that did they"
My dad was frozen by the fridge, unable to go anywhere as me and Rachel stood across the kitchen from each other.
"Rachel, just shut up" It was all I could think of to say back. What was this; pick on Jade week, first Jason now her.
I couldn't think of anything, her words just laid into me as I stood there watching her yell at me.
"No, you were a bitch to everyone from the moment mom died. Can you blame me for not wanting to be around you when all you did was bitch everyone out and be a horrible, spoilt little brat? I do love you and I do want to be there for you with the stuff you're going through, but I won't sit and act as if you played no part in the fact you felt so lonely. Because you played a big part in that shit"
She finished, we were silent. I had nothing to say back. I just wanted to leave. She was right, everything she said was right, I had pushed people away, I had done this shitty stuff to my family and friends and I had made everyone hate me. But I was hurt, I was alone and hurt, the only coping method I had was to continue being alone and hurt. No matter how much I hated being like it, I could never stop.
"Rachel that is enough" My dad's sad voice sounded and she shot her glare from me to him.
"Yeah sure, I'm the bitch here" She shook her head and stormed past me, slamming her bedroom door as she got in there.
My dad started shaking his head at the direction she had stormed off in.
A car beeped outside, Jason was here. I turned, Jacob and Embry were both watching me, both with pained expressions on their faces. Embry looked angry too though, Jacob just looked sad.
"Bye dad" I tried smiling at him, he looked upset, if I stayed he would make me cry. I turned and walked out of the door, trying to swallow the lump named Rachel that was eating at my throat.
"Jade" Embry's voice rang out behind me as I flew down the porch steps. Why was it always him that followed me?
"What?" I turned, shooting a glare at him, we were back to this.
"Don't listen to her, she's been stressed lately, she didn't mean it" His eyes were a little less sparkly as he tried soothing me.
"She did, she meant every word and every word was the truth" My throat closed over, stopping me from saying anymore.
"But we do all care about you, everyone cares" He tried again, but again it didn't make me feel any better.
"No everyone hates me" I squeaked again and Embry's eyes shut as if he was in slight pain.
"I don't hate you, I never could" He whispered it softly, meaningfully, shivers ran through me and I felt unsafe again, like he could tear me down any second.
I didn't say anything back; I just turned and made my way to Jason's car.
My heart was telling me to turn around, go back to the house, to my family. To start being a better person that people really did care for, Embry said they did but he was only trying to help. But I couldn't go back, I was too scared. Not by Rachel or her harsh words. But by me, by this vulnerable Jade who I was so unsure of. I had never felt so unsafe and small in my whole life.
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