A/N: Thanks for the reviews everyone! And no I am not AJ or have inside information lol. That's very flattering though. It was just an educated guess based on her book synopsis and a theory I've had for a while. Anyways, super proud of her for coming out and being so honest about it & I'm really looking forward to the book as I'm sure you all are as well. Her diary entries are written so brilliantly! Anyways, enjoy! ;)

Stigma

Punk was in the basement relaxing in an ice bath after a long hard workout. He heard footsteps and saw AJ walking in with her I-Pad.

"I did it." AJ announced.

"Did what?" he asked as he closed his eyes again.

"I posted my diary entry." She said to him and he opened one eye and looked at her. "About having Bipolar disorder."

"You did?" he asked opening his other eye now. "You didn't tell me that's what you had been writing." he said grabbing a towel to dry his hands.

"I know. I wanted to surprise you too. You knew I'd write about it eventually." She pointed out.

"Let me see." he said holding his hand out for the I-Pad.

"You want to read it right now?" She asked anxiously.

"Yea I do." he smirked.

"I posted it an hour ago, I haven't dared to read the feedback." She said to him. "Maybe you should avoid it too."

"Since when do you care about negative feedback?" Punk asked her.

"I don't but I know you do." She said to him. "Especially when it comes to me. Maybe wait until later?" she suggested.

"I won't read the feedback but I don't know why anyone would be negative." Punk snorted. "This is such an important story for you to tell and nobody should say anything negative about it." He said reaching for the I-Pad but she held it out of his reach. "Let me see, Ape."

"No." She said. "Later."

"Now." He said and she just rolled her eyes.

"It didn't really delve into anything personal, that's for the book but it won't take long for people to pick on things." She said to him. "Soon they'll blame the Beadle incident on me being crazy, just like she said I was."

"You're not crazy." Punk said to her seriously. "And Beadle is a bitch."

"There was nothing wrong with me then." She reminded him Punk. "I was fine. I was taking my medication."

"Yea I know." he said sadly. "You were just defending me. You were always good at work."

"No I wasn't." She laughed. "But the worst was the incident right before your podcast and I got sent home."

"Oh, that." Punk remarked. "You were just pissed off."

"I went too far." She said to him. "Got sent home from live TV."

"Fuck them." Punk spat. "Vince knew what was up, he just had to save face."

"He always covered for me." AJ reminded him and Punk rolled his eyes.

"AJ." James, also known as Road Dogg greeted as AJ entered the makeshift office at the arena. "Everything ok?"

"No it's not." AJ said to him. "Why am I on Main Event losing to Eva Marie- again?"

"I'm not a writer, honey." James smirked and AJ narrowed her eyes at him.

"What did you call me?" She asked and he became serious.

"I'm sorry, but look you're doing your part to put over the new talent." James reasoned.

"I'm all for putting over talent." AJ said to him. "I put over Nikki, I've put over every single Total Diva including Eva- months ago! But there's not a lot of talent in that body. I let you guys take the title I made relevant again off of me in under a minute and now this? Why am I being punished?"

"I'm not in charge of the matches AJ." James said standing up. "You want to talk to Hunter?"

"He never wants to talk to me." AJ snapped.

"Don't be like that, you're starting to sound like that husband of yours." James teased but AJ wasn't amused.

"Was anything he said a lie?" AJ asked seriously.

"I don't know AJ-" James began nervously.

"What the hell do you know?" AJ demanded. "What is your function here?"

"You maybe a talent here but don't forget you have to respect me." James reminded her.

"Respect you? That's all anyone says back here. Respect me, respect that one- who the hell respects me? Not you. Not Hunter. Not Stephanie. Certainly not any of the girls in that locker room and after you make me job to Eva again I'll lose the respect of the audience!" She yelled.

"Are you alright?" James asked quietly even though she was causing a small scene.

"No!" She yelled. "I want to know why you people hate me. I come to every show I'm scheduled for, I put up working for the people who tried to ruin my wedding day and anything that is asked of me gets done. Why am I being punished? Tell me!"

"You're not being punished AJ. This is how it goes here sometimes." James frowned. "You know this business better than most of the talent here-"

"Why are you humiliating me?" she demanded to know. "Don't I deserve at least an explanation?"

"You're not going to be here forever." James reminded her. "We need to build upon new talent. Which I thought you'd be more than happy to do since you were such an advocate for bringing Paige up and some of the other girls."

"Talented girls." AJ corrected. "Not ones that get half naked and parade around on the E network. Is this because I didn't do the show? Had I done Total Divas would I be getting that treatment?"

"You know we don't punish talents by compromising their matches." James reminded her sternly. "You're acting crazy."and with that word, she was triggered slightly.

"You don't know me." AJ snapped. "You have no right to call me that! Why are you even here? You were the lesser of a tag team! Nobody gave a shit about Road Dogg Jesse James and when you were rightfully fired you went on a tirade so brutal you should have never been mentioned again let alone welcomed back to work. But me and my husband are constantly taking shit!"

"That's enough out of you." James warned. "Don't even bring this up to Hunter, because I will." he threatened.

"Aw, did I hurt your feeling James?" She mocked. "Did I make you feel bad? Do you feel disrespected? Welcome to every fucking night I come to work!"

"You're done AJ." James said stunned by her outburst. "You get away with murder around here but you won't disrespect me or any other official here."

"I'm shaking." She spat. "And I won't wrestle the match so you can tell Hunter that too." She said then walked off.

Ten minutes later she was called into Vince's office who she also blames for Punk's situation but Vince always had a soft spot for her.

"AJ." Vince greeted waving her in and pointed to a chair for to sit in while he finished up on the phone.

"Need me in here?" Hunter asked as Vince hung up and AJ wouldn't even look at him. She had refused to look or speak to him since getting back after her wedding.

"That's alright." Vince said nodding for him to leave. "What happened?"

"You tell me." AJ said to him.

"You didn't like your match and acted out." Vince said to her simply. "You can't speak to anyone back here like this. We discussed this after the Beadle incident."

"If I don't stick up for me, who will?" AJ asked him.

"I stick up for you." Vince reminded her honestly. "I always have and I still do. You're an asset to this company. That's why you've remained so prominent."

"You have a funny way in showing it." She mocked.

"You're still upset about the title match." Vince frowned. "I understand that. But you need to talk to me and not James. You really upset him and he's to be respected backstage, same as we respect you."

"He called me crazy." AJ said to him and Vince just nodded.

"You know AJ, not everyone is aware of your situation." Vince reminded her. "I hear you went off on a producer and I know that's out of character and I'm immediately concerned. They don't see it that way. They see it as CM Punk's wife adapting his attitude."

"There's nothing wrong with me." AJ said folding her arms.

"There is." Vince said to her. "I know you well enough. Have you been taking your medication?"

"Of course." She said to him coldly. "I'm tired, I'm cranky and I can't believe I have to job to Eva- again. I did it twice for you already and you said that would be it until she improved."

"Things change." Vince said to her. "Are you having trouble with traveling?"

"It's not about the travel." AJ said annoyed. "I just-"

"You just what?" Vince asked calmly. "You have to talk to me here AJ."

"I just need some sleep. I don't sleep well on the road anymore." She mumbled. "I'm the only one who can't travel with their spouse."

"I understand that. It's still no excuse for your outburst. Apologize to James." Vince told her and AJ just shook her head slowly, but relented.

"Fine." She bit out.

"And pack up your bags and go home for the week." Vince told her.

"You're suspending me?" She asked.

"No. If I was suspending you I wouldn't be paying you." Vince pointed out. "I want you to go home and get some sleep."

"I was supposed to be filming SmackDown this week." She pointed out.

"Not anymore." Vince said to her. "You're making it very difficult for yourself here. You're irritable, rude, quiet- you need to warm up a bit."

"This is how I've always been." She argued.

"No it's not." Vince said to her. "And that's what concerns me."

"I'm not off my meds Vince." She reminded him. "Maybe I'm bitter about how things ended with my husband here. And maybe working here puts a huge strain on my marriage. Do you know how difficult it is to leave my home and come to a place where everyone whispers and gossips about me? Takes their anger on Punk out on me?"

"I'm sorry you feel that way but you're an adult. I assumed you'd be able to make the best of this situation." Vince said to her.

"You fired him on our wedding day. That was my day too." AJ reminded him.

"I told you there was a mixup with that." Vince said to her and AJ rolled her eyes. "I apologized the day you returned."

"An apology doesn't erase what you did. And you owe him the apology." AJ said to him.

"You really need to get some rest." Vince said to her and she stood up. "If this Punk-like attitude isn't adjusted before next week's TV then please let me know so I can find someone to replace you on TV."

"How nice." She remarked sarcastically.

"I try with you AJ, I really do but I can't do anything more for you. You're making not only yourself miserable while you're here at work, but everyone around you. It's toxic to the locker room and as much as I like and respect you I won't have it. Don't push me." Vince said to her.

"I'll see you next week." was all AJ said before storming out of the room.

AJ grabbed her bag and raced to her rental car. She was only two hours away from Chicago so she opted to drive home. She'd go in for the night and then drop the rental off tomorrow. She didn't even call Punk to tell him she'd be coming home. She ended up crying almost the entire way home. She felt so disrespected and alone. So belittled, she felt everything she worked for in the company was slowly being erased and handed off to a cast of a reality show. She didn't even apologize to James on her way out.

AJ arrived home at midnight and let herself in the front door. She didn't even bring her bags in. She was an absolute mess and she just wanted to go up to bed and sleep. Punk heard the door open and was at first stunned to see his wife who wasn't expect home until tomorrow but then shock turned to sadness upon seeing her face.

"Ape?" He asked and she walked over to him and wrapped her arms around his waist and cried into his chest. "What happened?"

"I don't want to talk about it." She sniffled.

"I do." he said pulling away and looking at her. "What happened? Why are you here?"

"I got into argument with James and sent home for the week." She told him. "I can't stand it anymore. I keep losing it there! It's so difficult to work there since everything happened. I feel my lowest when I'm there." she told him.

"Do you want me to call your doctor?" He offered and she pulled away from him.

"This has nothing to do with me being bipolar! I'm allowed to feel shitty in spite of having it. Vince tried that same shit with me earlier. I'm not upset because I'm sick, I'm upset because I have every right to be upset!" She cried out.

"You're right." Punk agreed calmly. "Talk to me."

"What's to say?" she asked. "I hated the match they had me on for, I flipped, I got called crazy which really made me flip and I got sent home." She shrugged.

"I'm sorry." he said to her.

"I feel like a ticking time bomb there." She admitted sitting on the couch. "That place used to be my safe and happy place and now my ulcer aches every time I step into an arena."

"I think you're tired." Punk said sitting next to her.

"I am tired." She admitted sadly.

"What about hungry?" He asked.

"No." She said to him using her hand to clean off her tears.

"I'm tired too." He said to her. "Let's go to bed. We'll sleep all day tomorrow and then we'll talk about this when you feel fresher."

"Ok." She nodded and he stood up and took her by the hand and lead her up the stairs.

"This is great." Punk said walking into AJ's office as she worked at her laptop.

"Yea?" She asked nervously.

"You write so beautifully." Punk said honestly. "I could read anything you write. And all of the feedback has been amazing."

"I feel better." She said relieved.

"You're a hero to people." Punk told her. "People needed to hear that they're not alone. I'm so fucking proud of you."

"Thank you. I want to make you proud." She said to him.

"Already am." He said simply. "So, what are you doing here? Working on the next book."

"Let's see how this book does first." She said to him.

"It's going to be a hit." he said to her. "You're going to be a New York Times Bestseller."

"Let's not got ahead of ourselves." She warned.

"Are you kidding me? I'm your biggest fan." He said seriously. "It's already my favorite book. Start writing another one so we can retire."

"Right, because we really need the extra cash." She teased.

"I want you to do what makes you happy." he said to her.

"I am happy. I'm nervous and anxious but I'm happy." She told him.

"That makes me happy." He said to her. "I'm going to re-read this blog entry again." he smirked holding up his I-Pad and walking out of the room.