Chapter 20:

We layed there with the sheets over us. Jacob had his legs sticking out of the sheets near the foot of the bed.

"Are you tired?" He asked as I looked at him.

"Not really."

"Don't people normally just roll over and sleep after?" I giggled.

"Not always, I think." He laughed.

He looked serious as he looked into my eyes for a moment. He was thinking about something.

"Bells, you said you felt bad about time, about us not being together.." I nodded I hated myself for wasting so much time away from him.

"I regret a lot of times really... " I trailed off.

"Well, like when?" He propped his head on his arm looking at me as I moved my head onto a pillow.

"Well, the one I really regret was before Edward even came back the first time.." I hated mentioning Edward's name in front of him. It always bothered him.

"When we were about to kiss that one night?" He guessed. I shook my head.

"No, actually before that." He seemed confused.

"Remember when you came into my room and you couldn't tell me what was going on? You tried to get me to guess that you were a werewolf." It stunned him that I had though that far back for a regret. I could see it in his face.

"Why that time?" He asked curiously.

"Because, we should've just ran away together. None of the drama that happened over the last year or so would've happened. I would've given into loving you eventually and probably sooner then this..." I felt my heart breaking, just thinking about it. He put his hands in mine and brought them up to his face and kissed them.

"Bella honestly, I know this sounds weird but I'd rather have it this way." Now I was the one confused.

"Why?" He smiled.

"Because Bells, you picked living over, well.. that..You chose to be with me instead of him." I smirked a smile for a moment that I could finally say that Jacob and I were together.

"I saw how you were Bella, if he were to show up at that point after we ran away, I'd lose you again, I know it. It was best it happened this way." I was speechless. I couldn't believe that now he thought was the best time when I could find so many times before we could've been like this.

"To be honest, I didn't think any of this would happen this weekend. I just wanted you to get some rest and relax for a while you deserved it after all you had been put through. All I wanted you to do is live Bella, that was good enough for me." I couldn't think of anything to say. It really touched me that he just wanted me to be how I was now. I smiled and leaned in and kissed his lips again.

"Well I for one, am glad this happened." he ran his fingers gently across my cheek.

"Don't get me wrong Bells, I am too." I giggled. I looked out of the window and realized it was getting a bit lighter out.

"What time is it?" He got up and grabbed the watch off of the nightstand.

"four fourty five." He cringed, realizing we were up all day and all night.

"Are you sure you don't want to get any sleep?"

"I"m not tired, but you can sleep if you want." He shook his head.

"Long as you're up, I'll be up." Just then I thought of something. I got out of bed and put my sweatpants on. He looked at me curiously.

"Bells? What are you doing?" I smiled and grabbed his hand.

"Get some pants on wolf boy, I know what would make this weekend even better." He smiled and got up. I almost had to divert my eyes. I didn't need temptation again otherwise this thought of mine was definitely not going to happen.

I threw my shirt on and I slipped on my sandles. I grabbed his hand as he just finished putting his shorts back on. I pulled him outside where it was beginning to lighten up. I walked towards the dim light that was beginning.

"We have to hurry!" I yelled giggling.

"Bella.. what has gotten into you?" He asked following me, almost even having to catch up with me as we ran through a part of the woods. We finally broke through a small opening near the beach. I sat down while Jacob looked at me for a moment and then sat next to me.

He looked at me, then looked out towards the ocean.

"I haven't watched the sun rise in such a long time." He smiled at me. "Neither have I."

"It's funny, at one time I used to love the twilight between when the day ended and the night began." Jacob looked at me curiously as I spoke. I smiled at him and layed my head against his shoulder.

"But now, I think I love the dawn more." He wrapped his arm around me.

"Why is that?" He asked kissing my forehead.

"Because when you see the dawn, you know the sun is coming up, that the darkness will end and another day will begin." He gave out a sigh.

"The sun's always there Bella, just like I said before. Just like I am always going to be here." I kissed him. We sat there in silence as the sun began to rise.

The sun was halfway over the horizon of the water when I gave out my first yawn. I then saw Jacob yawn and I laughed.

"Uh oh I think it's finally our bed time." I nuzzled myself up against his chest.

"But I don't want this weekend to end Jake." He ran his fingers through my hair and kissed my head.

"I know Bells, we'll come back again soon, I promise." I smiled at him and we got up. He held my hand as we walked back to the cabin.

When we reached the cabin I headed straight to the bedroom. I kicked off my sandles and opened the covers. I climbed in bed and layed on my side as Jake followed. I watched the sun come up a bit more and closed my eyes. I felt his warm arms wrap around me.

"Sweet dreams Bella." he whispered in my ear as he grazed his fingers against my arm, and kissed my cheek. He snuggled up against me, his arms around me and his nose against the back of my neck. His hot breath breathing against my skin. It was the safest feeling I had ever felt. Sleep finally swept over me and I dreamed about our entire weekend over and over in my head.