I opened my eyes to see if I could find what I hated the most, and it was there. The blinding light from the outside of a window. Birds chirping, mocking me and beckoning for me to join them… They reminded me of the outdoors… Fresh air… a place where I could ignore the screaming of prisoners and the stench of blood that was so thick you could taste it.

We had moved to a different hide-out. We were in the hidden Sound, Our hideout looked like a farm house, but it was anything but. This place was used for experimentation. Kabuto was creating a new medicine, because the medication he was giving Orochimaru was losing its effect. Kabuto was also developing a type of steroid so that Sasuke could get stronger faster than usual.

"What's wrong?" Sasuke asked, he had knocked me onto the floor during a sparring match.

"I'm just tired." I said, "I haven't fought anyone in a while… Wasn't the last time a few years ago?" I was trying to remember when I had rescued Sasuke from the rebel kidnappers that were trying to bring him back to the leaf.

Sasuke shivered at the memory, "You killed them back then.. Right?"

I looked down in shame, "I got carried away."

Sasuke assumed a sparring pose, "You ready?"

I nodded, "… Yeah," I stood and also assumed a battle pose.

He lunged forward, activating his chidori. I dodged his hand as he went for my throat. As I jumped back he grabbed my leg and forced me to the ground.

I pulled out a kunai, and threw it at his face. He caught it, and streamed the chidori through it.

"Damn," I whispered, as he let go of my leg, and tried to stab me with the chidori.

I used my size to my advantage, by jumping off his face and landing carefully on the ground.

"What was that for?" Sasuke groaned and rubbed his sore forehead.

"You were gonna stab me!" I exclaimed, "I had to!"

"Not by jumping on my face!" Sasuke looked annoyed.

"Sorry,"

Sasuke darted after me, again I took advantage of my size and sprang onto his back, jumping behind him and successfully hitting him in the shoulder with a kunai.

Sasuke pulled the kunai from the back of his shoulder and pulled out his snake blade.

I winked at him as he streamed the chidori through that too.

"Don't be so sure of yourself." Sasuke said, "I WILL win!"

I snorted, then covered my mouth in shock. Sasuke rolled his eyes and charged forward.

"You need to quit rushing," I said, "Analyze the situation… It may not seem so, but with my size I have the advantage." I jumped up in the air and threw another kunai.

"Have analyzed the situation, and you are right…" He sliced the kunai in half with the sword, "You have the advantage when you're in the air."

"I told you!"

Sasuke formed a set hand signs.

"Crap!" I said, I had jumped back into the air.

"Fire Ball Jutsu!" Sasuke blew out a stream of fire tat rolled into a giant ball in only a second.

"No!" I shouted as I started to fall back to the ground.

The skin on my ankles started to burn. I used a simple escape jutsu to avoid the flame.

"Uncle," I called, "You win already!"

"But I'm not done!" Sasuke said.

"But I need Kabuto to heal my ankles!" I protested, trying to stand up.

"You didn't dodge properly?" Sasuke asked.

"The fire got to close to me… I have a weaker pain tolerance than you do, you know."

Sasuke walked through the smoke, "Can you at least stand up? Let me see."

I winced as he touched my ankles, "Don't do that!"

Sasuke smiled, "Normally you're crying by now."

"Am not!" I protested.

"Can you walk?" Sasuke asked, and I shook my head 'no'.

"Want me to carry you?" Sasuke asked.

"Just go get Kabuto!" I hissed, "I'm not going anywhere near that room!"

Sasuke nodded, and left.

The room I was referring to was where all the screaming was coming from. It was where Kabuto did wicked and cruel experiments on people. The stench on blood was so abundant in that room, that I would get nauseous because of it.

'I'm going to puke' I thought to myself as the stench of blood increased.

"Where is she?" Kabuto snapped as he got closer to the door.

I sighed, as Kabuto ran to my side.

"You have a very weak pain tolerance for a ninja..." Kabuto automatically started healing my ankles.

"...I know," I rolled my eyes.

Kabuto looked at Sasuke, "You shouldn't use fire against her. She could get hurt."

"You are only concerned, because you want to cut me up some more!" I hissed.

"So what?" Kabuto adjusted his glasses, "I have 'Protection' from you."

"Kabuto," Sasuke was glaring, "Just heal her and leave."

"Lord Orochimaru said that I could study her healing powers and create a better growth steroid for you."

"I won't use drugs to get stronger." Sasuke didn't lift his glare.

Kabuto flinched, then showed Sasuke a menacing grin.

I cleared my throat, "How about we just call it a day... I can heal on my own now." I stood up and Sasuke chuckled.

"I told you I wasn't going to get stronger if I didn't break my limits."

I sighed, "Go train with someone else... I'm going to talk with my father."

"I'll come with you." Kabuto said, "Its almost time to give him his medication."

"Whatever." I muttered, starting to walk away.

"I'll see you when your shift starts." Sasuke said

I waved, and then walked out, following Kabuto.

We were walking for quite a long time... The stench of blood increased.

"Lord Orochimaru has been getting alot worse, he may use Sasuke anyday now, unless I use you to develop a new medication." Kabuto flashed a grin in my direction.

"I-I Can't!" I protested.

"What about Lord Orochimaru... Sasuke could die in a few days if you don't do anything about it."

"That place scares me!" I squeaked my words into the atmospere like a terror striken little girl.

"Now Now, Is that the real Ashi? Everyone thought you were stronger than this."

He was toying with my mind, and I was believing it.

"I am, I am!" I shouted, "It's just I ca-" He cut me off.

"Why won't you be strong... Wouldn't Sasuke want that."

"He does, Bu-"

"You aren't being very strong... Are you?"

"No, but I'-"

"A weak little girl? Or are you better than that?"

"I'm... I-I-"

"You don't know? How can you not? I find it a simple question," Kabuto grinned, "I am weak and will kill those I love by being a child, or i am strong ad will protect them by sacrificing myself... You must have an answer."

"I don-"

"You have no answer? So you are a child, aren't you."

"I didn't say that!"

"Why won't you give me an answer... Weak people don't answer,"

"I'm not weak! I will protect him!"

"...So what's your answer?"

"I'll do it... But.."

"I will tell Sasuke and send you love." Kabuto took my hand and opened the door that I was dreading.

"What's wrong... Change your mind?" I was feeling light-headed, and Kabuto's tricks made in yours.

"No!" I protested, "It stinks!"

Kabuto soon had me on an operating table out cold.

~Sasuke~

"Orochimaru?" He snapped, "Where's Ashi?"

Orochimaru coughed, "I don't know... Don't bother me."

"She isn't at her post!" Sasuke was only thinking of the worst.

'She was ambushed, A band Of perverts found her and over powered her...'

Orochimaru preformed a hand sign... Sasuke waited.

A second passed and then Orochimaru opened his eyes, "She's with Kabuto at the moment... Earlier he asked me if her could experiment using Ashi."

"Damn!" Sasuke burst through the doors, "He has her!"

He couldn't get there fast enough. At full speed, it felt like he was only walking. He prayed that he wasn't to late... He slammed open the door.

"Ashi?" He called, only to find Kabuto stepping out of a silver door carrying a tray of bloody scalpels.

"What?... Where's Ashi?" Sasuke snapped.

"Don't worry, she's okay... Should be waking up soon."

Sasuke grabbed Kabuto by the collar of his shirt, "I'll kill you if you've hurt her!"

"She's in there," Kabuto pointed to the door her had just walked out of.

Sasuke dropped Kabuto and ran through the door.

Kabuto chuckled, "Careful Uchiha-san, you may enjoy what you see!'" Soon after he spoke he broke into laughter.

Ashi was lying on a metal table, almost lifeless... Strapped down. Her stomach moved when she breathed.. but only faintly.

She was shirtless, and Sasuke rushed to her side.

"I healed her so she didn't receive stitches." Kabuto said, "She offered to be used for the sake of your progress."

Sasuke unbuckled the straps and pulled her into his arms, and swiftly left the room. Kabuto waved, before closing himself back in the room where horrors took place.

He sat on his bed, cradling her in his arms, humming slightly.

She warily opened her eyes, and looked into his, "I didn't choose heaven..."

He smiled and hugged her, "It feels more like hell."

Ashi smiled slightly back, "You're... angry with me?"

"...Yeah," Sasuke hid his happiness with his anger, "I didn't say you could do that."

"Sorry," She closed her eyes.

Sasuke leant down and kissed her forehead.

Ashi opened her eyes, "I'm beginning to like being chopped up."

~Ashi~

With the loss of blood I felt so weak... Sasuke was holding me in his arms like I was going to die, and I was SO~OO tired.

It took my a few seconds to realize that I was wearing no shirt. My eyes widened, and I started to squirm.

"Don't look!" I cried, and he just stared into my eyes.

"Why not?"

"I'm too tired to fight back."

Sasuke glared at me, "I have no intention of doing THAT!"

"But…" I whimpered.

"I couldn't do that… You're beautiful."

I closed my eyes, "I'm not…Your lying."

"No, I can't lie to you."

My mind wandered, and I drifted into a deep slumber.

'How can he not hate my ugly body, All I am is scars and bruises… Isoroku and Kimimaro detested looking at it.' I sighed as I sat on a boating dock, staring at the beautiful colors of the sky.

I laughed as my words echoed in my dream world, 'Kimimaro and I were the experimental test subjects… that was when Kimimaro embraced me for the first time..'

I remembered the words and recited them aloud, "Both Sasuke and Kimimaro said this to me" I smiled, 'I don't know I guess I'm just spoiling you…'

"Are you coming?" Kimimaru asked, standing before the light.

"As much as I want to… I have to stay with Sasuke." I smiled at him.

"I see.. So you are disobeying Orochimaru."

"My father is a demon… And Someday I might have to join him in the fiery pits of hell to burn for all eternity."

"Are you scared?"

"Not anymore." I stood and walked over to Kimimaro, who pulled me into a hug.

"Don't die yet… It's too late for me, but you can save Orochimaru."

"Thank you for giving me Sasuke…" Kimimaru faded with the light and I sat down.

I looked at the scar on my hand… Everything was unreal.

"Why won't I wake up?" I asked myself.