Chapter 21

She woke up startled in the middle of the night. She was out of breath and tears were running down her face. She'd had that terrible dream again: she was losing Jack and there was nothing she could do to save him. But this time at the end of the dream they were showing her her newborn baby: a Gou'auld.

She tried to relax herself and took a sip of water to calm her racing heart.

Oh god please let this baby not be harmed from my and his father's recklessness. Had we known that this would happen and that we were meant to be like this we'd certainly done a lot of things differently, she thought to herself. Not that she regretted a single second of the past 12 years but she wished she could've been prepared for this. She always had her doubts that she'd ever be able to be a good mother and take care of a child. And now she's millions of light years away from home in charge of the most important city discovered- ever- on a far away galaxy with an extremely evolved baby in her stomach that will mature in only a few weeks, and with the father of her child- her fiancé- highly evolved to the highest plane of existence. She was allowed to have her doubt, didn't she?

She really wished this baby would be normal, not the normal normal of course given his history and theirs but their normal: the special, strange and different normal that made you care for people not enslave them and that made you modest no matter what you did and that made you loving, kind and considerate. She wished she hadn't done anything to ruin this baby's life, because she would never forget herself if she did, neither would Jack for that matter. She had high hopes for this baby. This baby is gonna get her through and help her deal with the loss of her love. This baby will fill the void. It's a part of Jack: Jack's final gift for her. She knew he sent her this baby and she was gonna do everything possible to protect this baby and do him good. She really loved this baby without even getting to know it. She loved her savior and she will forever be indebted to her child for saving her and making her wanna live on, for giving her a reason to live. Deep down she knew that even if the baby was a gou'uld or a Ruby or whatever they called them, she'd love it no matter what. And she'd risk her life for it no matter what, even if it tried to kill her. She really felt for Vala. No one ever really knew how she must have been feeling about Adria, no one gave her enough attention. She must've been all torn inside, must still be actually.

She felt her baby kick inside her a tender kick, calming and relaxing. It was as if it was patting her to calm her down and assure her that everything was gonna be fine. She was sure what the baby was trying to tell her, she understood its every kick and thought and the weird part it she totally believed it.

"I know baby! We're gonna be alright on our own, more than alright actually, we're gonna be great!" she said out loud with a smile to her baby.

It kicked again.

"You're right, maybe daddy will come back someday and we wont have to go through this all alone."

And again with the kicking

She chuckled "Ok, ok, daddy will most certainly come back to us. Is that better? I'm beginning to feel you like kicking me, where's your respect child!" she joked around with her belly.

Was she really that far gone, talking to an embryo in her stomach and interpreting its kicks as mature talking? Actually she didn't really care what the answer to that question was. Even if this meant she was now totally crazy, she was happy and she was positive the creature growing inside her was special and was talking to her. And she couldn't wait to see this child in person and hold it in her arms. She was gonna love it more than any mother ever loved her child. She was gonna love it just as much as she loved its father, as much as she is still loving its father.

Her thoughts and internal conversation was interrupted by a loud cracking sound. She was taken aback and forced to her feet by the gravity of the sound.

She immediately spoke through the radio: "Colonel Carter to the gate room: what was that sound?"

"What sound, ma'am?"

"That loud sound that almost took the place down, just a second ago. You mean you didn't hear it?"

"Negative, ma'am. Everything is completely normal down here ma'am."

"That's weird. Alright, I need you to check if there was a power surge or any kind of abnormal activity near my quarters."

"I'm on it ma'am."

"Thank you, Major."

"There was nothing ma'am. Maybe it was just something that fell or so."

"Maybe." She said not totally convinced "Still I need you to keep an eye out, just in case."

"Sure thing, ma'am."

As soon as the radio communication, a bright blinding light illuminated Sam's room. At first, she couldn't see from the strength of the light.

"Ummm, ma'am, I'm picking up some strange energy reading from your quarters. They're causing the system to go haywire ma'am. You need me to come check it out?"

By now Sam had regained sight and her eyes were opened wider that she ever knew they could, by what she saw. Her jaw was dropped and she was trembling.

"No Major, it's ok; I've got it under control."

"You sure, ma'am? I could…."

"Don't worry about it Major! Carter out." And with that she turned off her radio and let it fall to the ground.

She was numb and she couldn't move a muscle of her body. She just stood there looking at the figure emerging from the light. She had gone crazy again that's what this was.

"No mom you're not!" were the words that her baby's kick conveyed this time.

"Well apparently you're still just a child, cause am certain that now I'm crazy."

"Hey there sunshine!" the words came from the figure within the light.

She took a step back before she fell to the ground.

The figure rushed towards her and reached out for her

"It's ok Sam, it's all gonna be alright, I'm back now! I'm fully back with all my heart and quarks."

And with that everything went black