So since I am not able to sleep and someone out there by the name of noblegraces asked for another chapter, here I am, acquiescing the request. Shout out to you ng for continuing to support this story;) Many thanks to her and to all the rest of you loyal readers out there. Muchas gracias a maritexxam por ayudarme a poner mis pensamientos e ideas en orden y por darme más. Saw the Sox take the series tonight... GO RED SOX! without further ado, here's the next chapter.

Maura was released by the hospital, still against medical advice. Jane considered long and hard leaving her there for another couple of days but she couldn't do that to her friend. All she needed was time; Jane could see that. She had refused Jane's help and had instead left in a cab back to her house, asking to please be left alone. Though none of the Rizzolis agreed with her, they respected their wishes and decided against dinner. Jane would be staying with Angela in the guest house in the event she was needed; unbeknownst to Maura.

She paid the driver and headed back into her house, quickly locking the door behind her. She turned and leaned against the door, closed her eyes, and tried to take a deep breath. She opened her eyes to see the house as it had been left before everything had happened: festively decorated with a huge Christmas tree in the corner lighting up the living room. She hadn't really noticed anything the day before; she'd been thinking of other things… of her.

She made her way into the living room, towards the tree and the presents that surrounded it. There, in the middle were the presents that she and Kate had gotten one another. They'd been planning on having a private celebration on Christmas Day before the Rizzolis came over for the rest of the festivities from the night before. She grabbed the present with her name on in with trembling hands and sat on the sofa. She slowly undid the colorful red bow and set it aside before removing the wrapping, careful not to tear it as she always did.

She pulled away the wrapping to reveal a medium-sized, leather bound green book; the initials 'MDI' on the bottom right hand corner. Upon opening it, she realized it was a journal. The first page was already filled…

My dearest Maura,

This journal is specifically made for you. I've taken the liberty of adding some things myself that I thought you would enjoy and made it a little more 'you'. You mentioned to me once just how much you enjoy writing and I thought that you could use this for whenever you'd like... to write ideas, stories, poems, nonsense, anything you'd like. I truly hope you enjoy it.

I can't believe it's already been nearly 8 months since we met. I'm going to be completely honest with you and say that I fell for you the moment I met you in your mother's office that fateful Saturday. Never in my life did I think you would ever see something in me… but you have. These last months with you by my side have been the happiest of my life. I didn't think I could find true love, and deep in my heart I've known that I have found that in you. I hope that these 8 months are only the beginning of what's to come for us, and that I can enjoy many more Christmases to come with you.

All my love,

Kate

Maura carefully flipped through the book. Kate had added in quotes and sayings by authors or scientists Maura enjoyed. There were photos of paintings she'd mentioned as some of her favorites in it as well with random quotes of what love is. Memories of the conversations she had with Kate that led up to the contents of that journal flooded her mind. It proved to her just how attentive and thoughtful her girlfriend had been. Tears flowed as she read the dedication again. She closed the journal, having been careful not to damage it with her tears. She slowly rose from the sofa and made her way through her house and up the stairs in to her bedroom. She laid down on top of the covers, hugged the journal to herself, and wept.

Jane still sat in the guesthouse hours later, worried for Maura's state and well being. She didn't know how unstable the blonde would actually get. She had never thought Maura would react the way she did. That had just gone to prove that everyone just had a different breaking point and it seemed Maura had reached hers. Jane paced around the living area impatiently, wondering whether or not it was a good idea to go and check on Maura. A few minutes later, a text came in.

Can you come? Please?

She didn't even bother answering the text and instead ran out the guesthouse and into the main house.

"Maura?" she asked. No answer. She looked around the living room and the rest of downstairs with Maura nowhere to be found. She made her way up the stairs, checking every room on the way. She finally came to the master bedroom. She knocked, before opening it just a crack.

"Maura? Can I come in?"

She heard crying coming from the bed and quickly let herself in.

"Maura," she said softly as she lifted the blond from the bed and into her arms.

"She's gone Jane, she's really gone." Maura cried. "What am I going to do?" she asked as she held onto Jane as if her life depended on it.

"I know sweetie, I know. We're going to get you help, ok? You can't do this alone Maur. You've got me, you've got all of us behind you for whatever you need," she said as she embraced Maura.

"I'm so sorry about what I said in the hospital. You don't deserve that. You've been nothing but patient with me and I had no right to kick you out."

"I understand why you did it. But please Maura, you have to get help. This is too much for one person Maur, and I don't want you to go through this alone, I'm not going to let you. We're going to get you some help. Please, please promise me you're going to try?"

Maura nodded as she continued crying. "After the funeral… once the funeral has passed, I will seek help."

"Thank you Maur." Jane said as she continued hugging the blonde while she wept. "Thank you."

"Thank you Jane, for not giving up on me."

"That's never going to happen, you hear me? I'll be here for you, whenever you need me, and even when you don't. I'll always be here for you Maur, always."

That's it for tonight peeps. Now no more updates (mean it this time) until Friday at the earliest. Have a good night and let me know what you think!=)