It was early afternoon and Serena stood in the lobby with a cranky Amy in her arms. Serena was trying to feed her some formula but she kept pushing the bottle away from her mouth and reaching for Serena's breast. It was an ongoing battle for Serena, but she had decided it was time to finally wean Amy, and she needed to stay strong.
"Ahhh!" Amy screamed flailing her arms out and pushing at the bottle. Serena had her cradled in her arms and had to sit down for fear of dropping her.
Serena shook her head, "Amy, that's all you're getting. You better eat some."
Carol was sitting next to her shaking her head, "She didn't put up that much of a fuss when you were gone." She said.
Serena shrugged, "Maybe she knew that she didn't have another option then." Amy was smart, and hard headed.
Carl was standing at the gated door that led into the rest of the prison. He started to open the door with the keys, opening it wide. Glenn, Daryl, and Merle came through the door each with a guard's vest on covered in guts and blood. Carl shut the door quickly behind them.
Glenn took of the helmet he'd been wearing and shook his head looking around at the group, "The tombs outside the boiler room are over run again."
Serena looked over at Merle and Daryl, who had opted not to wear helmets. Merle was pacing back and forth and Daryl was staring at the ground in front of him, probably hoping that Glenn would step up and take the leadership role on this task.
"That whole section had been cleared." Carl said. He was just chomping at the bit to get in there with the others and taste the action.
"They've gotta be getting in somewhere." Glenn said, shaking his head, "We're gunna have to find out where."
"I'm telling you that's a waste of time." Merle butted in, "The Governor is on his way with an army, I can promise you that. And when he gets here we will be stuck in here between them and the walkers out there." He pointed back at the door, "We should be packing up. We need to get out of here while we still have a chance."
Glenn glared at Merle, "Oh yeah, you'd love that wouldn't you. Get us to leave so your buddy can come in here and take over."
Merle shook his head and took a deep breath, "I'm trying to help you out here you hard headed little…" He trailed off, growling at Glenn through his teeth.
Hershel came out of the cell block with a backpack in his hands and wobbled towards the group, "Maybe Merle's right." He said to Glenn specifically, "If the Governor is on the way maybe its would be better to leave now."
Glenn looked at Hershel with surprise, "Running is not an option. This place is safe. We've made it our home."
"But how safe?" Craig asked, finally joining the conversation from where he stood by the door to outside. He was leaning in the doorway nonchalantly. "It sounds like walkers are streaming into this place from god knows where, and Merle is telling the truth when he says that the Governor is coming."
Glenn chuckled, "Sure, this coming from another one of his men."
Craig frowned, "My daughter is a part of this group. Do you honestly think I'd put her in jeopardy for the Governor's sake?"
"I don't know." Glenn shot back defensively, "We don't know you at all."
"Glenn," Serena spoke softly, trying to lower the intensity of the room, "he got me out of Woodbury safe, and he wanted us to come back here and warn the others. He's not one of them anymore."
"Fine." Glenn shot back, "He got you out safe. But he left Maggie and I there to be tortured by that sick fuck. Do you know what he did to us? To Maggie?" Glenn blurted, but then caught himself, stopping before he could say something that would really anger Maggie. He took a deep breath.
Serena didn't say anything. Her mind was racing. What about Maggie? She was still in her cell block sleeping. She'd been quiet and detached since she'd gotten back from Woodbury. She turned back to Amy and tried to put the bottle in her mouth once more. The room was too filled with egos anyways to try and give her input.
"Look, Rick is out there doing … whatever, and someone needs to be in charge." Glenn continued, "I think Rick would want Daryl or I to make this decision." He said, turning to look at Daryl.
At the mention of his name Daryl snapped out of his daze and looked over at Glenn. He quickly realized that not only Glenn but everyone was looked to him. "Huh?" He asked, looking around.
Glenn sighed at him in frustration, "What do you think? I think we need to stay here. We were on the road for months and this is that best place we've found. We cleared it out, and now we need to defend it from walkers and other humans."
Daryl blinked at Glenn for a minute. He nodded, "Going back out on the road with two babies now and Hershel with one leg could be a bad idea," He looked over at Hershel and gave him a sorry look for bringing his situation into consideration. But they had to be realistic, "if we can figure out where the walkers are getting in and close that off then we'd only have one threat to worry about." He glanced over at Craig. At least the group as a whole would only have one thing to worry about. He still had another.
"Good. Good." Glenn said, nodding at Daryl, "We could take a vehicle and scout the far side of the prison. It would probably be easier to find where they're getting in." He looked around that group who was just watching him now, deciding to keep their opinions to themselves, "We aren't going anywhere." He repeated.
"It's a bad idea man, I'm telling you." Merle said under his breath more to himself then to Glenn.
"If I want your opinion, Merle, I'll ask for it." Glenn said harshly before turning towards the cell block, "I'm gunna go tell Maggie where I'm going." He said, looking over at Daryl.
Daryl nodded, "I'll go out there with you. You shouldn't go alone." Glenn nodded back at him then walked away.
Serena sighed but didn't look up from Amy or say anything. What was the point? She felt like Daryl was trying to distance himself from her at this point. He'd been in his own little world, out of touch from her since he'd gotten back yesterday. He hadn't touched her last night, or even wrapped his arms around her while they slept. He'd barely spoken two words to her today unless it was about Amy, and she noticed he kept giving Craig these angry sideways glances.
It was like he was punishing her for having Craig around, like he was mad at her for it. She just didn't think it was fair. Deep down he'd known that Amy wasn't biologically his, and he'd never punished her for that before, but now that there was living, breathing proof of it right in the room it seemed to change everything for him. She didn't know what to do, or how to go about bringing him back to her. She'd just try to be patient and give him time.
Daryl turned and walked over to the corner where there was a cage that they were keeping all the weapons and ammo in. He picked up two hand guns and checked their chambers to make sure they both had full rounds. He tucked one of them down the back of his pants and put the other one on the table nearest to him for Glenn.
While he was picking trough the pile his brother approached him, "Hey little brother, you want me to come with?"
Daryl shook his head and looked over Merle's shoulder at Serena, who had her back to him at the table and was trying to give Amy a bottle, "No. I want you to stay here. Watch out for her," He asked, nodding in her direction, "If something happens you make sure she stays safe."
Merle turned and looked over at the two girls too, then back to his brother, "Sure man." He said, nodding, "You know I'm right, don't you? The Governor is coming."
Daryl nodded and sighed, tightening the string on his bow that he now had in front of him on the table, "Yeah, he's coming. That's why I want you here."
"Why didn't you speak up then?" Merle asked with frustration, "You saw how crazy the Governor is. You know I'm right."
Daryl shrugged and looked around that the gang of misfits that were in their group, "What do you want them to do? Rick is going crazy, Glenn is on a power trip, Hershel has one leg, and we have two babies whose cries will attract walkers for miles around. Either way, we are taking a huge risk. And you know what they say about the devil that you know and the one you don't, right?"
Merle let what Daryl had said run through his mind for a moment, "Fine, fine. But we should go. Bring your woman and your little girl and we'll go. You and me, we can make it. We'll keep them alive."
"Because brother, this is my family now," Daryl told him instinctively, "all of them. Not just Serena and Amy, but the old man, the Korean, little ass kicker, the guy going crazy and everyone else too. They are all my family. And we stand by family, right?"
Merle realized then that what he was trying to convince Daryl to do was a loss cause. He gave Daryl a dead smiled, "Ok brother, I hear ya." His brother was going to defend this place and these people against the Governor, walkers, and anything else that came their way. Or at least die trying.
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Serena and the others followed Glenn and Daryl out into the yard to see them off. Serena had gotten Amy to drink a little bit more, but she would probably be hungry again soon. She held the little girl on her hip and stood with Carol in the shade from the building watching the two men pack up the truck with weapons. Hershel was standing near by them probably trying to talk them out of going. But Serena knew that both of them were just trying to keep busy to keep from confronting what was going on with both their relationships.
Carol glanced over at Serena, "What do you think?"
"About what?" Serena asked with a sigh.
"About everything?" She answered, "You've been unusually quiet."
Serena chuckled, "Well everyone else is giving their input, I thought I'd just stay out of it. The last time I made a decision I ended up going out on a formula run, and look how that turned out." She admitted, "It's time to let the men run things."
Carol frowned, "You don't sound like yourself at all." She told her honestly. She then looked back over at Daryl, "How's he taking the whole Craig thing?" She asked, changing the subject.
Serena rolled her eyes, "Honestly, I wish I knew. He isn't really talking to me. I think he's just letting it process or something."
Carol shook her head, "Don't let him stew in his own anger and worries. You have to make him talk to you about it or you'll loose him."
The thought made Serena's stomach sink. She was afraid to admit that she might already be loosing him. She sighed and shook her head, not sure what to say.
"Look, I know I'm not one to give advice on healthy relationships considering mine, but I'd hate to see you two be torn apart but something as stupid as Amy's paternity. She's yours. Yours and his. And that's that." She smiled at her.
Serena looked back across the yard at her man, "I wish Daryl believed that as much as you do."
"Make him believe it." She told her, motioning for her to go see him off.
Serena nodded and then started to walk across the yard towards him with confidence. He had the passenger door open and was standing by it waiting for Glenn to finish talking to Hershel. She rounded the truck and smiled at him when their eyes met but he only watched her with a neutral look on his face and in an instant her confidence left her again.
"Hey." She said coming to a stop in front of him. Amy reached out for him but rather then take her from Serena's arms he just bent over and kissed the little girl on the top of her head, running his hand through her hair. Serena watched them closely. She wanted him to turn and kiss her too. She wanted them to embrace the way they had yesterday when they realized that each other was safe.
"Hey." He said looking down at Amy rather then her, "How much of that formula did she end up drinking?"
"Not enough." She told him with a shrug, "Maybe for dinner I'll let her breast feed again. We'll see."
Daryl nodded blankly, "It's up to you." He looked over at Glenn who was walking away from Hershel towards the truck. Daryl sighed, "Anyways, I guess we're headin' out."
Serena nodded looking over at Glenn too, who was at the driver's side door swinging it open, "Ok. Well … be safe." She told him reaching out and touching his chest, hoping to connect with him.
When she touched him he froze, looking down at her hand. He reached for it and placed his hand over hers and giving it a squeeze and smiling at her, "I always am." He said to her. The same words he'd told her hundreds of times by now. He then let go of her and got into the truck and shut the door.
She stepped away from the vehicle as Glenn started the engine and watched it pull away. She held the hand that he'd been gripping to her own chest. They'd connected, for that small amount of time she'd reached though to him. It wasn't much, but it gave her enough hope. She watched the truck peel down the drive and out the front gate. She watched it until it disappeared out of sight.
Then Amy started to cry. She rubbed her eyes and sobbed, "Daa? Daa?" She said watching where the truck had disappeared too.
Serena rubbed the back of her head, running her fingers through her soft curls, "Shhh." She said, bouncing her lightly on her hip, "It's Ok baby. He'll be back." She assured the little girl, "Daddy will come back to us." She repeated, for her own benefit as much as Amy's.
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