A/N Well here we are. The BIG "talk". LOVE IT!! Hope ya'll do to!
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JPOV
"Well, Whitlock. I have a few things I want to say to you. So you better listen up."
Mother. Fucker.
Here we go.
The floodgates opened and I was hit with every emotion that was careening through her. Anger. Love. Curiosity. Lust. Fear. Confusion.
Each one taking over the other and lasting only seconds. I couldn't keep up. I wanted to try and calm her down but as I got a handle on one emotion, she would switch again.
This had to stop.
The one fucking time I wished I couldn't feel her and she chooses to slap me across the face with her emotions. I needed her to get a handle on herself or I would never be able to concentrate on what she was saying. She needed to fucking make up her mind. Did she hate me or love me? My head was spinning and I knew just how to make her stop.
Piss her right the fuck off.
I knew that she had every right to pissed; I had acted like a huge fucking dick. She deserved to yell at me, and if I went the other route, she wouldn't get to do that.
"Jesus Bella. Can you decided if you want to hit me or fuck me? This is getting out of hand."
That did it.
She opened her mouth to answer. But thought against it and just stared deep into my eyes, her face turning multiple shades of crimson.
With her fists so tight that her knuckles looked like they were going to slice right through she skin, she walked up to me and got right in my face.
I actually thought that she was going to hit me.
"It would not be wise to hit me Bella." I said through my smile.
If looks could kill, I would be a pile of ash at her feet.
"I think it best for you to not say anything else Jasper or I won't hesitate to call Charlie and have him make you tear your own limbs off and bury them." She crossed her arms and waited for my response.
I locked my lips and threw away the invisible key. Then I mimicked her stance and waited for her to begin.
I don't think that she had an actual plan of attack because she started pacing and I could tell she was trying to come up with what to say first.
I had to admit…Pissed off Bella was undeniably sexy. The way her lips parted and her chest heaved up and down as she took deep breaths to calm herself. The way her hot little ass swayed as she paced back and forth. And her eyes. Even when they burned with her anger, they still drew me in.
The pacing must have helped because she started to calm down and I could feel determination overtaking her anger. There was no doubt that she was still mad, but she seemed to have better control of it now.
She finally stopped back in front of me.
"I know that you were listening to my conversation with Rose. That is a really shitty thing to do. Vampire hearing or not, you shouldn't listen to other peoples conversations; you might not like what you hear."
A small smile formed on her perfect lips.
"And apparently you didn't." The smile faded and she turned away from me.
"Jasper, you have to understand where I am coming from. My life has been turned upside down in the last week. You know, you've been here through it all." She paused and looked back at me. "And the one thing, the one person, that I thought about the most was you."
I didn't know if I she wanted me to say anything back, so I didn't.
"I expected you to understand that. YOU." Her anger flared again.
"I do underst…"
"You understand?!?! How do you think that throwing a fucking hissy fit and running out of the house translates to understanding? I don't see that as being understanding. I see that as being a fucking selfish bastard." The venom in her voice seared through me.
"Bella you are right I am a bastard…"
"A fucking bastard, Jasper."
"Alright, a fucking bastard. But I never meant for you to hear me. I was pissed when I heard you say that you wanted to slow things down. I couldn't believe that you were thinking that. I was being selfish. I was only thinking about what I wanted. I took off to clear my head."
I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair.
"Fine. I get that. But you should have talked to me about it. Like I told Rose, I am not a kid. If you really want us to continue this…this relationship you have to talk to me." She blushed and looked away from me over her stumble and I realized I had never told her how I felt. No wonder she was confused. I hadn't told her I loved her too.
And I did. I wanted to be with her, always. I wanted to see every sunrise and sunset with her. To spend the rest of my existence with her. She was my mate. My soul.
I thought about telling her right there and then. Declaring my love to her. But there was still something I needed her to hear before I did. She needed to know about my life before the Cullens, my life in the South. And Maria. She needed to know all of the disturbing and vile things that I did for years on a daily basis.
I focused back on her and couldn't believe that she thought that I thought she was a kid. There was no way that this incredibly hot woman before me could ever be mistaken for a child. I shook my head. It was time to end this little argument and move on.
"Bella, I am sorry that I acted the way I did. I was crazy mad that you wanted to slow things down and you are right, I should have talked to you about it. I don't think that you are a child." I moved towards her and put my hand around her waist. I pulled her flush to my body and heard her breath catch in her throat.
"When I look at you I see a beautiful, smart, sexy woman." I ran my hand under her shirt, tracing my fingers up and down her spine. I could feel the goose bumps rising on her skin under my touch. I leaned in and took in her heavenly scent. "Can you forgive me, Darlin'?" Her heart began to race and I felt her knees go weak.
She brushed my lips with hers. As she lingered there I felt lust slowly creep in over her anger. "Don't think your forgiven that easy, Major." She pulled herself away from me and turned in the direction of the cottage.
"Its getting cold. And I know that Rose set up the cottage, so lets go."
Well, shit.
I guess I wasn't getting off that easily. I could feel how proud of herself she was for pulling away from my attempts to seduce her.
We walked in silence for a while. And I decided that it might be a good time to tell her about my past. I didn't want to waste too much time on it and was definitely hoping that we could finish the conversation before we got to the cottage.
About halfway there she shut herself down again and I wondered if it was so that I couldn't tell that she was slowly starting to calm down. I figured now was as good as time as any to talk.
"Bella, there is something we need to talk about. I wanted to tell you that day by the river, but I got distracted…for lack of a better word." We had stopped now and I motioned for her to have a seat on an old tree stump.
Fuck, I hope she doesn't run from me. I wasn't going to hide anything from her, though. She needed to know.
"Okay, I am going to start from the beginning and I am not going to leave anything out. So, please, bear with me." I closed my eyes and began to talk.
I decided to start at the very beginning, with my years in the army, but it seemed as if she already knew that part so I skipped past most of it.
She sat silently, never taking her eyes off me as I told her about meeting Maria on the side of the road and how she was my sire. I was glad that she wasn't sharing her emotions when I got to the parts about the Southern wars. I didn't think that I could handle feeling them.
I didn't miss a beat when telling her about training newborns and destroying them when they had outlived their usefulness. She needed to know about it all. I wasn't going to hide anything from her. I couldn't believe it when she looked up and spoke. "Vampires have an expiration date when fighting in a war?"
I couldn't help the chuckled the escaped my lips. "That is an interesting way of putting it but, yes, they do. Vampires are the strongest in their first year. Brute strength. If you can train them, then you have fierce warriors. And that was where I came in. I hadn't yet figured out my ability but I was able to control them. Put that together with the fact that I was a skilled fighter and I created some of the best warriors out there."
She nodded, so I continued.
"Because of this I became Maria's favourite. She was the closest thing to family that I had. As fucked up as it sounds, it was the truth. I wanted to please her, and I did. I was rewarded often. Either with sex, or with humans to feed on. Sometimes both." I paused as the next words came from my mouth. "I would fuck them before I would drain them." I whispered, my throat raw with shame. "It was her reward for being a 'good soldier boy'. I enjoyed every one of them, Bella, and I hate myself for it." My voice was barely audible as I finished, my eyes closed against the disgust that must show on her face.
I paused to let her process all the fucked up shit I had just unloaded on her.
When I finally opened my eyes her face was stone, a single tear on her cheek.
"That is how you met Peter? In the South?" She spoke in barely a whisper.
What!?! She was asking me about Peter? I couldn't believe she was she was still sitting here, let alone asking me questions. She really was an amazing woman.
"Yes, I was Peter and Charlotte's sire. When Maria thought they, too, had outlived their usefulness, she ordered me to kill them. But I couldn't. I had grown very fond of both of them. I hadn't had a friend in over a hundred years. And in the middle of hell I managed to find my best friends. I told them to run. To leave and never come back. For a moment, I felt a flicker of hope. Maybe I wasn't the soulless monster I had become. I had never disobeyed an order to kill. Maria was fucking livid. I stayed with her another year, until Peter came back for me. He told me about another way to live. I left with him right away and never looked back. I stayed with Peter and Charlotte for five years before I decided that I need to figure out who I was. I wandered the continent depressed and alone. And that was when I found her… well you know the rest."
She nodded as she stood up from the stump. She didn't move for what felt like forever. I assumed she was getting ready to walk away. Hell, I wouldn't try to stop her if she did. She started closing the gap that I had made between us while telling her about my past. She looked me straight in the eye as her emotions came crashing down on me.
Compassion. Sadness. Love. Lust and longing.
How she could possibly be feeling any sort of love towards me, let alone lust, after the horrific things I had shared.
My curiosity didn't last long as she pressed her lips to mine. Pure bliss. I didn't hesitate in reciprocating and she wound her fingers up my neck into my hair as she parted her lips and invited me in. She tasted amazing. Although I never wanted this to stop I had to figure out what was going through her head. Had she lost her mind? I just told her that I fucked my food and she was kissing me.
I pulled back ever so slightly, not wanting her to think I didn't want this. She sighed into my open mouth and I felt her frustration. She let her arms drop from my neck but kept them around my waist.
"Bella, please don't be upset. I 'm just wondering about your reaction. I never in a million years would have thought that you would respond to all that fucked up mess with a kiss." I didn't let her go as she looked up and met my gaze. I was searching her amazing chocolate eyes for her reason when she spoke.
"I wanted you to know that I don't care. That is your past. Not who you are now. You aren't that man anymore. You are not a soulless monster Jasper." She laid her head on my chest. "I could not love a soulless monster." I felt her arms tighten around me and I kissed the top of her head, lingering in the softness of her hair.
"Thank you." I felt like a massive weight had been lifted. She knew everything about me and she still loved me. "Bella?"
"Mhmm?"
"I want you to know that I am sorry. I should have been more sympathetic to what you are going through. Its just…"
Here we go.
"…I love you with my whole being and when you told Rose you wanted to slow things down…I couldn't stand the thought. I want to be with you, always. Side by side. Hand in hand. You know the worst parts of me and you are still here."
I lifted her chin with my finger and captured her mouth in mine once again.
Without breaking our kiss I lifted her and she wrapped her legs around my waist. Once again her hands found their way to my hair as I tried to make our way to the cottage. But my head was spinning from the woman in my arms. She pulled back panting for air.
"Jasper?" she said as her lips made their way to my neck.
"Yes Sugar?" The sensation of her warm lips on my cold skin aroused me instantly.
"Can you get us to the cottage a little faster?" She asked in a husky, lust filled voice. "Please."
I took off running without even answering. She lowered her face to the crook of my neck and began sucking and nibbling. Fuck, I was hard, and it took everything I had to not throw her down on the forest floor and fuck her senseless.
Although it took less than three minutes to arrive at the cottage, it still wasn't fast enough. She was driving me insane with her lips. The were soft and luscious. And they were mine.
She was mine.
Its time to make her yours, Major.
I shook that thought from my head as fast as it entered. She was not a conquest. She was not just some piece of human flesh to satiate my hunger. She was Bella. The woman I loved. My Mate.
She abruptly stop kissing me when I entered the cottage, fear and nervousness taking over. She stiffened in my arms as I headed straight to the master bedroom. I tried to set her down but she had such a tight grip on the back of my neck that I was slightly worried about ripping her arms clean off.
"Bella, relax, Darlin'. I thought that you might want a human moment and a bit of time for yourself. It has been a stressful evening to say the least." She loosened her grip and slid down me to the floor.
"I think that might be a good idea. Thank you, Jasper." She sighed and I could feel her relief as she made her way towards the huge ensuite attached to the master bedroom.
I turned and headed back to the main room. Rose had been here again. The fire was lit. A bottle of Jack and a pack of cigarettes lay on the coffee table. Beside them, on the floor, there was a bag with a giant 'B' on the side. I peeked inside. Rose really was amazing. I grabbed it and was standing outside the bathroom door in a flash.
"Bella?" I knocked lightly on the door. "Rose has left a bag of your things out here and she added a few things of her own. I'll leave it here for you."
"That's great Jas, thanks." She said through the door.
I returned to the other room and poured myself drink and lit a smoke. I opened the glass doors that faced out toward the garden and small pond. I caught sight of a deer in the distance and realized that it had been a while since I hunted. And, if tonight went where I hoped it would, it might be a good idea for me to take the opportunity to calm the burning that was growing in my throat. I quickly threw back the rest of my drink, butted out the cigarette and left a quick note for Bella on the table.
I took off away from the cottage, hoping there would be more deer nearby. There were.
As I buried the last of my meal, I wondered about Bella's nervousness when we had entered the cottage. I knew that she didn't have much experience in the sex area thanks to Fuckward, but I could tell that there was a little sex kitten waiting to be released. She had liked it earlier today when I took charge, but if I wanted this to go well I knew that I would have to let her call the shots.
Fuck, what I wouldn't give to tie her down on that bed and make her scream my name..
No. This was not about me. It was about Bella. This was for her. And I planned on making it the most amazing night she had ever had.
I could smell her as I approached the cottage. She was standing in the doorway, glass of champagne in hand, staring up at the moon. She was an angel. A goddess. Her creamy, pale skin was almost shimmering in the moonlight.
I knew that she couldn't see me yet so I slowed my pace to take in all of her. Her hair was wound on top of her head and still a bit damp at the bottom from her bath. She had changed and was now in a little tank and sweats. I heard her sigh as she closed her eyes and took a bite of the strawberry that was perched on the side of her glass. She followed it with another sip of champagne and a smile formed and her lips.
Holy Hell. What I wouldn't give to be that strawberry.
It was then that I felt her. I had been so caught up in the sight of her that I hadn't registered her emotions.
She was happy, excited almost. Only a hint of nervousness made its way through.
She turned from the doorway and I lost sight of her. I ran the rest of the way to the cottage, slowing just before I entered the door. She was standing in front of the fire now, deep in thought. I didn't want to scare her so I made sure that she could hear my entrance.
"Good hunt?" She said with amusement in her voice.
"Ya, I figured I should have a vampire moment while you took your human one."
She turned and made her way to the table and filled my empty glass.
"Remind me to thank Rose later for her little care package. It was very nice of her. I am especially enjoying the champagne." She handed me my glass and clinked hers to mine.
"Cheers to honesty." She said as she finished off her glass.
"Cheers." I said, lifting my glass before taking a swig.
"Jasper. I need to say some things to you and I don't want you to interrupt me." She smiled and cocked her head. "You think you can do that?"
"Of course, Darlin." I made my way to the couch and sat while she continued to stand in front of the fire.
"I want to make sure that you know I am not going to judge you by your past. Like I said earlier, that was a long time ago. Yes, you did some awful things, but that was all you knew. And, in the end, you made it out. You helped Peter and Charlotte to get out. And, as for Maria, when the time comes for us to meet, she had better fucking stay away from you and watch her back. Actually no, scratch that. When the day comes for her and I to meet, she will not even be able to glance your way before I take that bitch down. She will never, ever lay her hands on you again…" She paused and jealousy filled the room.
"Bella?" I couldn't understand why in hells name she was jealous of that skanky bitch.
She turned away towards the fire again. "How the hell am I supposed to compete with her. With the others." she whispered. If I were not a vampire I never would have heard her. Her jealousy was overtaken by feelings of inadequacy. Fuck me. Is that where she was going with this? She was worried that she couldn't compete with Maria when it came to sex? Was she fucking crazy.
"Bella, of course you couldn't compete with her. Or the others…." She spun around on her heal, shock written all over her face. Oh shit. I stood up and walked over to her.
"Bella wait. That didn't come out right. What I meant was there is NO comparison. You have already left all of them in the dust and we are barely getting started." I smirked and sent all of my sincerity and lust filled feeling toward her. I cupped her cheek with my hand and she let out a small sigh and closed her eyes. "You are the only one I want. The only one that I will ever want. The few moments we have had together in the last few days were the best in my very long life. They can't compete with you, Darlin'."
She threw her arms around my neck and pulled my lips to hers. She didn't hesitate to invite me in. She gently bit on my lower lip and pulled it in to her mouth.
I scooped her up by her thighs and she moaned into my mouth as she wrapped her legs around me. Grinding herself in to my stomach.
We continued our assault on each others lips, and I could feel her becoming more and more heated. She pushed back from me with a sexy smile on her lips. "I want you Jasper. Now." She sent me all her want and desire. And it almost knocked me into the fire. I returned my feelings and she closed her eyes, moaning softly against my neck.
I knew that I should take her to the bedroom. That I should do this right. But I couldn't. I gently set her down, grabbed the blanket and a few of the oversized pillows from around the room and placed them on the floor in front of the fire. As I was crouched down laying out the blanket, she came up behind me and ran fingers through my hair. I turned on my heels and looked up at her. She was looking down at me with beautiful lust filled eyes and I was instantly hit with her amazing scent. I leaned in and brushed my lips across her stomach where her shirt met the top of her pants. I raised it slightly and kissed back and forth ever so gently, unsure of how ticklish she was. Apparently I was doing something right because I could feel her put the slightest pressure on the back of my neck, leading me down.
I think she liked the taste she got before.
I know I did. But I wasn't going to rush this. Bella didn't deserve that. She need to be worshiped, every part of her.
I placed each of my hands around her ankles and slowly began my ascent up the back of her legs. I watched as she closed her eyes and her breathing sped up. When I reached the curve of her ass, I slowly made my way around to the front with my left hand while my right firmly gripped her from behind. A light moan escaped her lips as I ran my finger over her heated core.
Wet. Even through her pants I could feel that she was ready. I gave myself a mental pat on the back knowing that I had that effect on her. I mean, fuck, I hadn't even gotten started yet.
She has that effect on you too Major.
Just then I was painfully aware of my rock hard dick. These jeans were going to have to go, and soon. I tucked my fingers under the waistband at the side of her pants and began to pulled them down. She placed her hands on my shoulders as I eased them past her knees. My eyes never left her as she stepped out of them. I flung them aside. I leaned in to place a kiss on her flat stomach when I caught the sight of what was under her pants.
Red. Lace.
I let out a low growl as I lean in and ran my tongue up her hot center. I could taste her through them, another growl coming from deep with in my chest.
"I'm guessing you like them?" Bella said with a light chuckle.
"Yes I do. But I would like them better off." I answered as I swiftly removed them, well tore them, from her body. She gasped at my urgency, but all was forgotten as I ran my finger up and down her slick pussy.
"Jasper…" she moaned as I dipped one of my fingers in to her. I could feel her knees giving away so I tightened my grasp around her.
I slowly added another digit, and began to suck on her swollen clit.
She began to sway her hips and soon I was having to hold her still so I could keep my mouth on her.
"Jas….oh…fuck…I'm gonna…." Her words escaped her as her walls began to tighten around my fingers. I sped up my movements and sent her all the lust and desire that was pouring off of her.
"Come for me Bella. I want to hear you scream. Now!" I bit down lightly on her clit as her orgasm and cries of pleasure rocked through us both. Her emotions were so intense that I nearly came myself.
As she came down I lowered her slowly to the blanket. Her cheeks were flushed and her neck and chest glistening lightly in the light glow of the flames.
I placed kisses all over her stomach as I raised her shirt over her head.
Again. Red lace.
Her perfect breasts were rising and falling with every breath she took. I parted her legs and moved between them. Slowly I lowered a strap as I placed open-mouth kisses from her ear to her shoulder and across her chest. Repeating the same motions on the other side, I felt her eyes on me as I reached for the clasp in the front of her bra.
She giggled as I popped it open and smiled at the sight of her.
"Fuck, Bella, you are stunning." I leaned in and place a chaste kiss on her lips before grazing my nose down her throat to her small but magical breasts. I ran my hand up and down her side as I licked and nibbled on her taut little nipple. Small moans and sighs were coming from her parted lips. As I made my lazily across her chest to the other one, I felt her hand on the hem of my shirt. She pulled it up to my shoulders and watched with eyes full of desire as I pulled it over my head.
"Pants too, Whitlock." She giggled as I saluted her.
"Yes Ma'am" I said as I stood to make quick work of them and my boxers.
She raised herself on her elbows to take me in as I stood there in the light of the fire. Her lust spiked as her eyes ran over my body. Apprehension making its way around the lust when she made her way down to my very prominent erection. I wasn't one to brag, but I knew I was large. I also knew that I would have to be very careful with her. She had flinched when I used two fingers yesterday, how is she going to handle little Major here.
I sent her a wave of calm as I knelt before her.
"Don't worry Darlin' we can go slow. I don't want to cause you any pain, but there will be some. I will help you if you will let me. And we can stop at anytime. Okay?" I didn't want her to be scared, so I sent her one more wave of calm.
She bit her lip and nodded as she sat up and made her way to her knees.
I watched intently as she placed her hand on my shoulder and began gently running her hand over my scarred skin. "You truly are beautiful, Jasper." She said as she leaned in and kissed me softly. I watched as her hand moved down over my chest. She bit her lip ever so gently. As she made her way to my stomach I felt her nerves break through again. I couldn't help but smile as she reined them in with a look of determination on her face. When she could go no further, she paused then reached out and took my rock hard cock in her tiny hand.
She closed her eyes and a small moan escaped her lips as she began to stroke me very slowly.
My eyes never left her face as I watched her. Her hand was soft and smooth. Perfection. I threw my head back as I moaned her name. "Bella…" I knew that I was close, as I shut my eyes and relished in her delicate touch. I was so caught up in her that I barely noticed that she stopped. I felt a shot of nervousness and I opened my eyes just as she wrapped her luscious lips around the tip of my cock.
I couldn't believe that this was happening. OH. MY. FUCK. She couldn't take me all in but made sure that she used her hand to make up the difference.
"Fuck Bella…." I moaned as I reached down and began rubbing her back. She was picking up her pace as I felt her nerves melt away. The scent of her arousal hit me like a freight train. She liked it. She was getting turned way the fuck on. The thought of her wet pussy sent me over the edge. I didn't have time to warn her that I was going to come, but she didn't stop when I filled her mouth. I watched as she gagged slightly and swallowed it down. She looked up at me through her dark lashes as a smile parted her lips.
Fuck, I love this woman.
I forgot to take it slow and before she could register what was happening I grabbed her by the hips and had her pinned to the floor. I crushed my lips to hers and I could still taste me in her mouth.
"I'm guessing that was okay?" She said I moved away to let her catch her breath.
"That was better than okay Darlin, it was fucking amazing." She giggled as I parted her legs with mine.
I kissed her passionately as my hand made its why down her stomach to her core. She was ready. She moaned in to my mouth as I ran my fingers gently up and down her folds.
"Jasper…I can't wait any longer…" She panted. "I need you now." She arched her back and cried out in pleasure. "Please."
Slowly I move my hand away and positioned myself at her entrance. I sent her a wave of calm. "I love you Bella." I spoke the words as I entered her slowly. I could feel her stretching to try and accommodate me. She was panting lightly and moaned as I stopped about half way. I could feel her barrier against my tip. I couldn't feel feeling of pain from her, just pure unadulterated lust.
She was so fucking tight. So warm. I moaned as I closed my eyes. I hadn't even made it all the way in yet and I didn't want to stop.
So without thinking I withdrew and entered her again. Fully this time.
Pain.
Blood.
Not a lot but enough to shake my from my fucking stupor. I can't believe I just force myself in to her like that.
FUCK.
I ignored the burning in my throat as I looked down to see a single tear dripping from the corner of each of her eyes.
SHIT.
I sent her a huge wave of calm and kissed away her tears. "Bella, I am sorry. Are you okay Darlin? I just got caught up in how fucking incredible you feel. Do you want me to stop?"
She let out the breath that she had been holding. "No… I'm okay. But are you okay? Your eyes just lost all hints of gold." I knew she knew I could smell the blood.
"No Bella I am fine. It's you that I am worried about. Can I help? Will you let me help?" She nodded slightly and I sent her all my feelings for her. Lust. Love. Anticipation. Desire. Along with calm.
I kissed her swollen mouth and nibbled on her lower lip. I could feel her begin to loosen around me slowly so I continued down her neck to her chest. I had made the circuit three times when I felt her pain melt away and she was once again full of lust. She lifted her hips to have me continue. Slowly I moved in and out of her. Even though she had just been in pain, she still was as wet as ever.
I let her set the pace and before long I was fully sheathed in her warmth. Her lips parted as she moaned my name. "Jasper…I…"
"What Darlin?" She stopped moving with me and opened her eyes.
She didn't say anything, she just gazed in to my eyes as if she was searching for something.
Finally she spoke.
"I want you to change me. I want you to do it now." I knew that this was what she wanted. I searched her emotions for any hint of doubt. But there was none.
"Are you sure, Darlin'? Do you not want the others here?"
She shook her head and placed her hands on my cheeks. "No, Jasper. It is you that I am going to be with. All that matters is that you are with me. I want this. This is how I want to be changed. Please."
I couldn't believe that she wanted me to change her now. The thought had crossed my mind. But I didn't want to scare her by bringing it up.
"Of course, Darlin'. If that is what you want."
"It is." She kissed me and her love covered over us like a warm blanket.
She wiggled below me and I didn't hesitate. The thought of changing now her made me harder than ever.
"Fuck, Bella, you are so tight and wet….perfect." She ran her fingers up and down my back. Adding more pressure with each pass.
For the slightest second I worried about losing control. What if I couldn't stop?
"Faster Jasper… harder….please."
When I heard her cry out I knew that I was being fucking stupid. I would never hurt her. She was the most incredible woman ever and I would never take her life.
She was moaning loudly now and I knew that she was close.
"Jasper… I… love … you." She said as through jagged breath, as I began making my way down to the sweet spot on her neck.
"Come for me Bella. I want you to call out my name this time…" I said against her neck. I felt her tighten around me and I knew that it was time.
I thrust deep inside of her… as I came.
"JASPER"…she panted as her second orgasm of the night rippled through her body.
"I Love you, Bella," I said as I licked her neck, "Forever."
I sent her waves of lust to keep her going as I sliced through her delicate skin with my teeth. I felt her tense below me but she was still coming down and all I could feel from her was love.
Lots and lots of love.
I couldn't help taking a taste of her sweet intoxicating blood. It was heaven.
I pushed as much venom into the wound before I sealed it up. I knew that I would have to bite her a few more times to speed up the process.
She was breathing deeply with her eyes closed as I explained that to her. "I'm sorry, Darlin'…it will be over soon." I sent not only calm but lethargy this time as I bit in to the crook of her elbow, followed by her wrist, and the back of her knee. I made my way back up the other side of her sealing each bite with a kiss before I moved on.
I lifted her carefully from the floor and moved her to the bed. She was shaking now. The venom making its way slowly through her body. I found another set of pyjamas and put her in them before dressing myself. I sat on the bed holding her hand and trying to keep her calm. I hoped to hell that Charlie was right. I prayed that he had 'willed' her change to be easy.
Only the next three days would tell.
A/N Whew that was a long as chappy... Was it worth it???!! Let me know!