Hey, I'm back, to resolve the cliffhanger I left you in the last chapter. I guess I'm finally getting the hang of this schedule thing, hopefully. Wow, I'm proud!

Title from the song Me In You by Kings Of Convenience. I used it for my only one shot already and it's magic. Listen to this band someday, please!

Okay, enough for now, the chapter speaks for itself, I suppose. Enjoy!

Chapter 21 – There's A Little Bit Of Me Inside You

Meredith was feeling queasy even the next day, so Derek forced her to stay one more day at home, despite how much it drove her crazy. It hadn't been as bad as the day before, around lunchtime she was already feeling great and she decided to go in for a late shift, completely ignoring Derek's overbearing attitude. She couldn't stay home anymore because if so, she was going to be alone all day and she was going to think and thinking was bad when she was almost positive that she was pregnant.

She didn't know how it could have happened, she hadn't had a lot of sex lately and even before, with Finn things weren't going so smoothly to have sex. She was sure it wasn't Finn's, but how could it be Derek's?

If there was a 'it' in the first place.

Her phone ringing on the coffee table was her cue to stop thinking and she was so glad for the interruption that she didn't even looked at the ID.

"Hey you're still alive!" Cristina's voice reached her and she sighed audibly

"Thank God you called, I was going crazy"

"Okay" replied Cristina with a hint of her her proverbial sarcasm in her voice

"Tell me you have an hour to keep me company" Meredith almost begged

"Actually I was calling to ask if you weren't contagious. I can't stand my apartment anymore and I have nothing to do on my day off."

"Not even grocery shopping?" she asked, out of curiosity than anything else

"I order out. You go grocery shopping Mer?" she could see her friend frown over the phone

"Not really"

"Then why asking?"

"Well..." A second of silence stretched mercilessly in their conversation until Meredith finally asked "Couldyougobuyapregnancytest?"

"What?" confusion filled Cristina's mind and for a second she thought she had heard her ramble wrong.

"A pregnancy test, could you buy one on your way here?" Meredith sighed deeply, her eyes falling shut at the mere thought of her last sentence. She asked and it felt even worse knowing that it could become real rather than this fleeting hypothesis in her head. It felt freaking scary.

"A what? Why?" surprise dripping from every word she uttered

"Cristina" she sighed

"For...Oh"

"Yes, oh. I'm saying please here"

She was begging and she hated begging. Cristina hated hearing people beg and she was begging her, feeling utterly hopeless and a tiny bit stupid.

"Okay, I'll be there in fifteen, thirty minutes tops"

Meredith sighed in the emptiness of her house. She couldn't be pregnant, could she? Except that she could and it was a very big mess.

She had her career to think about, her and Derek had been together from barely a few weeks and he has already Eden to take care of. How could they tell her that she's having a sibling when her mother is somewhere else?

If he wanted to have a baby with her in the first place. People tended to walk away from her when things became tough so she wasn't expecting anything from Derek. She wanted him to be different, but she couldn't blame him if he decided to move to Alaska and forget all about her. He wasn't that type of father, she knew he would like to keep up with the progresses of their baby, but she knew he had no obligation to stay.

If there was a baby.

The door flung open and Cristina walked in with her usual grace, interrupting her mental rambling.

"Hey Mer!" she called

"Living room" she shouted back.

Cristina walked in the room with an unreadable expression on her face, giving her a small bag with her request, even if somehow Meredith needed to peek in the bag to see if it was really what she had asked.

"I still had one in my bathroom" she shrugged off when Meredith noticed the bag belonged to a Thai take out.

"Thanks" at least Cristina had made her smile for a second.

"Are you taking it now or you wait for Shepherd?" Cristina wondered

"He has a long shift and I decided to go in later tonight and cover the night pulling off a double shift, I have lost too many hours already"

"So basically you won't see him 'till tomorrow?" Cristina pointed out

"Yep"

"Plenty of time to decide what to do"

"What do you mean?" Meredith frowned

"Are you seriously considering keeping the probable thing?" Cristina's eyes widened

"I..I don't..." she stuttered and suddenly, replying negatively at Cristina's question seemed almost unbearable. "Maybe?"

"Oh, you are so screwed" her friend shook her head

"Cristina"

"Say goodbye to Chief Resident Mer. Head of Neuro? In your dreams. I'll marvel if you can become an attending in the first place"

"I..." Cristina was right. She knew she was going to lose all this things if she wanted to be a good mother, she had to. But still, could she manage everything and have a kid as well? "I...There's Derek"

"With his own spawn. You'll play mommy all day while he will be busy cutting"

"It's a baby Cristina, not a monster, so is Eden. Children!" she hissed angrily, standing up and walking upstairs.

She couldn't believe how much her friend could hate kids. She had never been a huge fan of children, but since Eden walked in her way -literally, she had grown to like the tiny humans. Somehow thinking about her own tiny human with Derek didn't seemed all that scary at this point. Okay, maybe not so okay, but not even this horrific change. It was just change, right? A tiny, screaming, pooping change, but whatever.

Meredith was fuming when she entered in the bathroom and took the tests, not fully realizing what was going on until a blue line appeared where it was supposed to be white on both sticks and her whole world stopped. Right then it became scary.

She expected the line to appear, but actually seeing it was another story entirely. And probably Cristina was right, she was so screwed.

"What's the verdict?" said Cristina, strangely knocking on the bathroom door before entering uninvited anyway and sitting next to Meredith who was clutching the two sticks with her eyes wide open in shock. "I see" Cristina mumbled then, peeking over Meredith's hands to see by herself when her friend didn't answered.

Finally Meredith lowered the sticks and looked at Cristina directly in the eyes, almost like a deer caught in the headlights of a truck in a country road.

"I...I'm pregnant" she said, still in shock to process more, her mouth opening to add something more but her voice stuck in her throat.

"What do you want to do?" Cristina asked again

She finally shook herself out of the shock and mumbled "Tell Derek"

"Are you sure it's his?" Cristina asked out loud the question that had been plaguing her since her friend had called.

"We slept together before he got shot" her cheeks assumed a rosy hue from the revelation "Twice" then she was a deep shade of red.

"Seriously? When I thought you were boring, you rise" smirked Cristina

"Cristina, so not the point here! I'm pregnant. As in having a baby, being a mother!"

Cristina knew this moment was going to arrive, she knew her person too well after all, and her freaking out were usually predictable in those kind of situations.

"You want to keep the munchkin then" she tried to state the facts and made her clear her mind a little. She was going to support every decision she was going to make, even if it meant that her person was going to be an housewife.

"I'm gonna be a terrible mother" she sighed, hiding her face in her hands

"Oh, the tiny Shepherd loves you so much is almost disgusting seeing you together"

"You think?" Meredith knew that being bitter for Cristina was like approving, so she didn't mind much her bad choice of words.

"If you tell Eden let's jump from a cliff she'll take your hand without even thinking Mer. You haven't screwed her up, the fact that you converted her to pizza it's a huge bonus for the freakish lifestyle Shepherd had grown her accustomed to"

Meredith had to let out a small smile when she realized how Eden was really attached to her. And at the same time how attached she was to the girl. She didn't felt like a mother yet, but she knew that she wanted to be a role model for her at some point. And mostly, keep her safe; it still broke her heart when she woke up in the middle of the night screaming after nightmares.

"See, I'm always right" snorted Cristina.

"It's big Cristina"

"I know, but you know what to do Mer. Shepherd is full of himself but he's a good guy."

"I'm gonna end up with five chatty children with perfect hair while he'll be in the OR cutting!" she sighed, letting her head fall in her hands in defeat once again.

"No you won't. You might have five children though, seeing how much you two go at it since he's up and running"

"Cristina!" she reproached, blushing.

"Meredith!" she said back, winning a slap on her forearm "Ouch, that hurt"

"Sorry" she lowered her head and suddenly a tear fell down her cheek "I'm a mess" she sniffled.

"It's gonna be okay" Cristina tried to calm her, running her hand up and down her arm "But that's the closest thing to a hug you are gonna get"

Finally Meredith was able to smile and for a moment, she let herself believe that everything was going to be all right.

AN: Most of you guessed right. Meredith is pregnant. I know, I wrote too many baby stories but they are so sweet and cute and...you get it why I write them, right?

More implications of this scene in the next chapter. I really liked how this chapter unfolded by itself, I hope you liked it too.

I put Cristina in this scene with Meredith because I love their friendship and she's a great character. A bit hard to write, but worth every line.

A thank you for my Beta sparkxx because it's been a while and deserves a praise for her work, then well, thank you to the readers and the reviewers, I hit 150 and wow, it blows me away. See you next chapter, stay tuned, because I loved writing it.