Hi there, sorry for the lack of updates. I've just not felt like posting, and I'm still experiencing the worst case of writers block ever, so I'm trying to make the chapters I have done, last for a while.
I've been a bit lazy this time, not done proof reading, so this is what I wrote on the day that I wrote it, no corrections no nothing, just what was in my head that particular day.
Craig
Now I'm not entirely sure, but I think he might have done the entire sex thing to show Kieron he wanted him to get lost. It didn't feel like it, it didn't feel like his head was anywhere else than focused on pleasuring me, but who knows, and honestly who cares. I'd gotten a nice round of sex and a great blowjob out of it, if he gets like that when he wants people to get lost, then he can use me whenever he wants.
He'd gotten this slightly smug expression on his face when we'd come downstairs and Myra and Kieron had walked in from the kitchen, but then he'd just chuckled, shrugged and walked us out the house. I'd noticed that Myra had problems with looking at us, but given how loud we… well I was, then no wonder, I doubt any mother would want to hear her son having sex with anyone, let alone his boyfriend, while she's sat downstairs with the local priest, who slept with her son, but she doesn't know this. But yeah JP didn't seem to be too bothered about it, and I've decided to follow his example.
He won't tell me where we're going, but judging by the direction we're walking, I'm suspecting us to go to Il Gnosh, and I dunno why, but I am slightly disappointed, I mean it's a lovely place and I love being with John Paul regardless of where we are, but it's our anniversary and Il Gnosh isn't really that special a place, is it now. I am slightly shocked though when instead of heading for the restaurant he takes us up the stairs, past Sarah's house, and inside of where his sisters live, "John Paul what…" he winks and shakes his head as he knocks and moments later Tina opens the door welcoming us inside, kissing his cheek and then mine too, which just makes me blush, cause I didn't really expect this sort of welcome.
"I hope this is okay John Paul," she tells her brother and as I follow the direction of her hand I see a table that is set in the middle of the room, with candles, flowers and everything, looking questioningly at him I see him nod his head.
"Yeah, it's perfect Teen," he smiles to her.
"The food is in the oven, all plated so you just have to take it out, and dessert is in the freezer, oh and the appetizers will be done in a minute," Tina tells us as John Paul walks us over to the table and holds out my chair, bidding me to sit down, which I do, and smile as he sits down opposite me. Tina brings out a bottle of wine, for John Paul to taste and when he nods approvingly she pours us both a glass. She leaves us for a moment to go check on something in the kitchen and I lean in to look at John Paul.
"She's going to be here all the time?" he chuckles and shakes his head, reaching out to take hold of my hand.
"No sweetheart, she'll leave soon, it's just you and me, our private date of sorts," he informs me making me smile and press a soft kiss to the palm of his hand.
Tina comes back with our appetizers, shrimp salad, placing it on our plates she steps back and looks proudly at us, before heading for the door, "You two enjoy your evening, and plates go in the dishwasher, yeah?" she says with a laugh making John Paul chuckle and tell her that yeah we'd do that, and with that she leaves us.
"I hope you don't mind me doing this in private," John Paul tells me just as I dig in into my shrimp salad and before I can react he continues, "It's just, I dunno feels right to do this privately, just you and me since what we're celebrating was just for you and me, that entire day, everything that happened it's private, you know." He blushes slightly and it warms my heart.
"I don't mind at all John Paul, this is perfect, just you and me, no interruptions no nothing, and everything has been cooked for us, so all we need to do is get it, eat it and have a good time."
He nods his head happily as he begins to eat his food, and it's a good salad, "This is good," I tell him and he nods his head, telling me that Tina had gotten Dom to make everything for us, and that the salad was one of her specialties, something Dom had taught her to make. It's a good thing we only had a light lunch, cause well this salad would fill most people right up, I suspect this was made especially for us, and that they don't use that many shrimps in this thing when making it in the restaurant, but hey if this is one of the perks of being John Paul's boyfriend then I'm all for it.
Looking over at him I see he's beaming, the joy in him is infectious and I am pretty sure I'm grinning like an idiot too while I eat my food, but how can I not with him sat right there looking so beautiful. I reach out to him and gently brush away some of the dressing that's got on his chin, smiling as he sighs happily, leans in to my touch and closes his eyes. "You're so beautiful, you know that?" I tell him as he opens his eyes to look at me and instantly he blushes and looks down, clearly not used to hearing such things, and that's my fault really, I don't say it enough, but I know he knows that I think them, but I'll make an effort of saying them more. "You are John Paul, no need to blush, you mean the world to me and I can't wait for us to start our lives together."
He looks up then and the smile on his face is wider than wide, the joy is shining out of him and I am glad that I got such a reaction out of him, because I know that I hurt him last year, I know I kept making promises and kept breaking them, but now, everything I tell him, I truly mean it, I know, finally I know what I really want and even though we've barely been back together for a month I know that what we have is for keeps, I can't ever love anyone as much as I love him, my everything belongs to him, I'm his for as long as he wants me, and I hope he wants me forever. I sigh happily and smile at him as I take a sip of my wine.
John Paul
As we finish the rather delicious steak meal, Craig excuses himself, going to the bathroom and I clear our plates, loading them into the dishwasher, before sitting back down and topping up our glasses of wine. It's been a really wonderful evening and meal so far, it's as if he's trying to show me that he is really committed to this, to us, but he doesn't have to, because I know he is, I can tell from the way he's been behaving ever since we got back together. He really caught me off guard earlier though, when he said I was beautiful, I don't get that much, I mean blokes don't really say that to each other do they now? I've said it to him a couple of times and he's said it back too, and meant it, but it was just more meaningful today, made me feel loved, really loved, maybe it's because last year we'd just slept together and then he hurled abuse at me before legging it, while now we're both at a stage in our lives where we know what we want, where we're secure enough in our own skin to go out and get it, he secure enough to walk down the street holding hands and not feel embarrassed and I am secure enough to know that we don't need that display of affection to know that we have a proper relationship to know that he loves me.
It was all new to me last year too, I mean I had only had Spike as a boyfriend and he was used to all the holding hands stuff, and I figured that maybe that was what a relationship was all about, cause it was somewhat the same with Hannah, but I'd not had relationships before those two, and well turns out that you don't need all that to be in a proper relationship. I tried to force things with Craig when he wasn't ready, I know that now, he explained his side of the story to me and I respect him for it, he also knows why I was pushing forward like that in the airport and he understands, I suppose despite the love we had for each other, because I don't doubt for a minute that he really did love me back then, despite it though, we just had different views on what our relationship was supposed to look like back then, he wanted it to go slowly, wanted to be in control in a way, and I just wanted to scream from the rooftops that he was mine.
Well as we both know that broke us apart, but I'm glad that we have this second chance, we both did some growing up while apart and it's done us a lot of good. I can honestly say I have never been happier with my life than I am currently, I have the love of my life back in my life, I'm going to live with him soon, I've landed what can only be described as the job of a lifetime and best of all, we're both happy to be together, there isn't the slightest hint of shame or insecurity with regards to our relationship from either one of us, I trust him completely and I know he trusts me completely.
"Hey," he whispers as he comes up behind me and kisses my cheek, I turn my head and smile as I take him in, he's so perfect and he is mine, sometimes I pinch myself because I can't believe it, but he really is mine, all of him is mine and it'll stay like that if I have any say about it.
"Hey," I return and watch as he sits down and drinks some of his wine, "Dessert?" I wonder making him smile and nod his head, "Let's see what we're getting," I say with a chuckle, I'd told Tina that Craig likes chocolate and then she'd said that was enough information and had left the house, I hadn't heard anything from her afterwards so I was looking forward to finding out what her and Dom had decided to make for us. Opening the freezer I chuckle as I see some homemade chocolate ice cream and four chocolate mousse desserts. I look at it for a minute then decide to take out two of the chocolate mousses first.
I can almost hear Craig's mouth water as I place the dessert in front of him, he's beaming bless him, literally beaming at the chocolate treat in front of him. "I wonder what type of chocolate that's been used," he says as he picks up his spoon and then moments later he lets out a groan, which I only usually hear when he's in bed with me, raising my eyebrow I look at him, making him blush and bite his lip adorably, "It's heavenly," he mumbles as he looks shyly at me.
I taste our dessert and can understand his reaction, it is good, really good, and judging by his reaction this is something he'd like to have more of in the future, I make a mental note of asking for the recipe so that I can try to make it for him sometimes in Dublin. Looking over at him I see he's finished his dessert and just looks so sad, I chuckle to myself and shake my head as I finish up the treat in front of me and then get up, kiss him on the cheek and carry the dishes out to the kitchen, before addressing him, "Ready for the next dessert?" he looks up then, clearly not anticipating this, but I smile as I look at him and he nods his head eagerly. I take out the chocolate ice cream and carry it over to him, his eyes widen at this, "It's home made," I tell him, and I am sure that it is, Dom isn't the type of person who'd buy chocolate ice cream.
Craig nods his head and digs in even before I've managed to sit down, but I don't mind, it's chocolate, it's his weakness and it's wonderful for me to see him enjoying something this much, it's as if he's on cloud nine and for me it's a joy to watch him. He licks his spoon clean after each bite, and I find myself getting envious of the blasted thing, wanting to feel his tongue on me. He looks up and flashes me his smile, making me smile too, before returning his attention to the treat in front of him.
I can't sit and watch his tongue work that spoon anymore, so I get up, turn his chair around, straddle his lap and then stick my tongue down his throat in a deep hard snog making sure to prod his tongue with mine, and after the initial shock of me just doing that he reciprocates, and we end up sitting like that kissing for a couple of minutes, me with my arms wrapped around his body and him with his wrapped around mine.
"What was that for?" he wonders as I pull back and rest my forehead against his, looking into his eyes I simply smile and then shrug my shoulders.
"Just wanted to kiss you is all," I press a feather light kiss to his cheek and then move to get up, but he holds me tighter, not letting me go, and seeks out my mouth, kissing me this time, his tongue in my mouth, tasting me and wrestling with mine, until we both pull back in need of air.
"I just wanted to kiss you too," he says with a wink, and then lets me get up and retake my seat as he continues to look at me with a smile on his lips. We carry on eating our ice cream until there is none left, I decide to save the last of the dessert for later, knowing he'd love to be surprised in an hour or so.
"Sweetheart, can you go over and find us something to watch on the TV?" I ask him and he nods his head, heading over to the sofa to do just that, as I clear the table, blow out the candles, and put the dirty dishes in the dishwasher, "Tea?" I ask and he simply smiles so I fill and then flick the kettle, and set up two mugs with tea bags.
I carry the two mugs with me back to the sofa once the tea has been made, and place them on the coffee table and sit down next to him, gripping his hand, and letting my thumb run over his knuckles. "This has been perfect," he tells me quietly as he wraps his arm around my shoulder, pulling me closer to himself as he leans back on the sofa, we both shuffle a bit making ourselves comfortable and when we are, me with my head resting on his shoulder, we watch the TV in silence, he's found us some movie to watch, but ask me what it's about and I won't be able to answer, I'm just glad to be able to be with him in this way.
"This feels like it's our own place," I sigh happily, "Will it be like this at some point, you think?" I wonder as I rub my hand over his stomach, making him moan softly.
"I'd love it if it was like this at some point in the future," he tells me as he looks down at me, "It will be soon enough JP, next month yeah?"
I smile and nod my head, "I meant just the two of us sweetheart, our place, our flat you know." I chuckle and then shake my head, "It's too soon to talk about that, forget about it I'm just being silly,"
"No you're not, and it will happen JP, one day we'll have our own flat, maybe once I'm done with school, eh?"
I look up at him and see he's being serious and I just nod my head, "Yeah… I'd love that, just you and me, coming home to our flat, cooking our dinner, just living together properly without housemates, without people bothering us when we want to be left alone."
He kisses my forehead and smiles widely, "It'll happen, we just need to save up for it so that we have couple of months worth of rent paid from the beginning, so that we are free to save up and not worry about the rent for a while,"
"Mhm sounds like a plan," I press a kiss to his cheek and look him in the eyes, "I thought you might freak out about this," I tell him, "You know cause we've barely tried living together yet and I don't want to push you into anything…" he stops me then, kissing me on the lips and shutting me up.
"Don't worry about it, we might just be getting started with our relationship, but we'll get to the having our own flat part, we love each other and we'll not let anything break us apart, I know what I want John Paul, I know that I want to share my life with you, it's simple as that, so don't worry and just relax, I'm not going to freak out or anything, I want this, okay?" he tells me with such certainty in his voice that and the look of pure love emitting from his eyes tells me that he really is fine about this. I smile shyly and kiss his cheek, before settling back down to watch the rest of the movie.