I'm going to be extremely busy for the rest of the week and I'm afraid that I won't be able to post on Sunday. So, I'm posting the chapters early. And if I have time, I would post new chapters on Sunday. There's only a couple chapters left until the story ends. Thank you all for your constant reviews and liking my stories. You guys are my motivation to keep writing these Brooke and Lucas stories. Thank you and enjoy :D
A million words clouded her mind, she didn't know what to say first. All she could think about is Lucas leaving, over and over again without saying good-bye. The heart breaking, disappointing look that she made when her mother told her that Lucas left. It was the same face that she was making now. There were tears whelming in her eyes, she couldn't control them. She felt like if she didn't speak, she was going to burst into a million pieces. Lucas continued to talk, not looking up at Brooke because he was afraid to look her in her eyes. There were moments that Lucas felt like she wasn't hearing what he had to say. There was so much that he had to tell her, so much that he had to say sorry for. Lucas placed the letter on the counter beside them, trying to make his words out. Lucas felt like he was saying everything right but felt like Brooke needed more.
"I'm sorry," Lucas said once more. Without thinking, Brooke quickly slapped Lucas. Sorry, she didn't care about that. She didn't care that he was sorry, he couldn't change what he did. Haley gasped, surprised that Brooke would slap Lucas. Haley forced herself to stay and watch, she feared that if she left; than Brooke would do something that she would regret. Lucas swallowed, feeling the sting on his cheek from where Brooke slapped him. "This whole time I've been trying to-" Lucas was interrupted by a furious Brooke.
"You've been trying to rekindle something that's not there anymore!" Brooke shouted. Haley was shocked that Brooke was brought of her character. Her usual kind, gentle deminar was consumed with anger and vengeance. Lucas stood there in silence, realizing that the love Brooke had for him was gone forever. He had damaged something in her that changed, her heart. He wished that he could turn back time, he was trying to focus on fixing things now but it wasn't going as planned. Brooke seemed apologetic for slapping Lucas, she took a step back from him before she slapped him again. Since Lucas was being honest with her, Brooke wanted to be honest with him. "I have CAD, Lucas." Brooke cried, confessing to him. Lucas felt remorse for her but Brooke didn't want his sympathy. She just wanted him to know why it hurt so bad that he left.
"Brooke-" Lucas tried to say but she didn't want to hear anything else. Brooke finally wanted to say what she had been waiting so long to do. She had been waiting five years to tell this to his face. Brooke took in a deep breath, looking into his eyes.
"You hurt me," Brooke began to say, her voice cracked from the pain that she felt. The way she spoke, you could hear the pain in her voice. "This was worse than before, you hurt me so bad-" Brooke sobbed, trying to stop herself from crying in front of Lucas. "I thought everything was fine, that we could be a family. I had the man of my dreams and now I was pregnant." Brooke placed a smile on her face, remembering how excited she felt once she heard the news. "And I thought I finally proved my mom wrong, that Lucas Scott was the man for me and we were going to live happily ever after. I'm now just realizing how foolish I was." Brooke confessed to Lucas. Lucas shook his head, she wasn't foolish. He had that dream as well, that's everything that he wanted since he was a child.
"You weren't foolish," Lucas informed her. Brooke didn't believe it because she was here, alone with her father's children. The dream that she had was gone.
"I was," Brooke argued. Lucas felt guilty for having Brooke feel this way, he didn't realize how much damaged that he caused her until now. "Out of everyone, everyone, I believed in you Lucas. I believed in us." Brooke cried, her anger was raising again. She couldn't control how much anger that she had against Lucas. "I tried...I really...tired..." Brooke confessed to him. Since Lucas was back, Brooke had been trying to forgive him and forget about what he had done.
"Brooke, I don't know what you want to me say!" Lucas shouted, not knowing what else he could do.
"I want you to say that you ran! You ran away from your family! Your problems! Your children! From me! I want you to admit that you ran away..." Brooke sobbed, all her emotions were pouring out and she couldn't stop them.
"Just remember everything that I told you, everything that has happened to me, you tell me who wouldn't run!" Lucas shot back.
"Jesus!" Brooke shouted, not knowing that Lucas was listening to her words. "You still don't get it."
"No, you don't. I've been trying to apologize-"
"No, you've been suffocating me!" Brooke yelled back. Since Lucas was here, he wouldn't leave Brooke's side and she could never have a chance to think. She never had a chance to be on her own and think for herself.
"I wasn't suffocating you, I was trying to show you that I love you." Lucas reminded her.
"You were trying to bring me back!" Brooke yelled.
"I was trying to be bring us back! I was trying to save US!" Lucas shouted back.
"THERE IS US! THERE IS NOTHING! THERE IS NO FUTURE!..." Brooke screamed. "Not anymore." Brooke whipped her tears away. Brooke and Lucas never had argued like this before, not this hard. "You don't understand how I was completely falling apart without you!"
"I know-" Lucas tried to say.
"No you don't!" Brooke shouted once more. "You weren't there! You weren't there when I cried at night thinking that I might lose my kids because of my CAD! I needed you, Lucas." Brooke sobbed. "I needed you more than I have ever did, even when you left, I still wished that you were there-" Brooke started to sob uncontrollably, trying to catch her breath. "...hoping that you would just...just hold me and tell everything was going to be alright." Brooke turned away, trying to catch her breath. Lucas was lost for words, there was nothing that he could say that could fix this now. "You missed it, every first step, their first word, their first smile, their first laugh," Brooke turned around, listing all the reasons why she could never forgive Lucas for leaving. "You missed everything because you were afraid of becoming your father. Well, congratulations...you became the person you hate the most." Brooke informed him. Lucas looked away from Brooke, hiding the tears in his eyes. "Look at me," Brooke cried but Lucas kept his head turned. "Look at me," Brooke shouted, pushing Lucas out of anger but her weak arms didn't move Lucas. "Look at me!" Brooke pushed him again, Lucas took a step back a little. He still didn't look her in her eyes, he couldn't bare seeing her like this. It was taking him everything not to turn away.
"Brooke," Lucas tried to stop her, he didn't even know what he would say if she stayed. Brooke turned around, looking into his blue eyes.
"I'm done," Brooke sobbed, confessing to him. Lucas could tell that Brooke meant the words that she said. "And I hate that I don't hate you, I hate that I still love you." Brooke continued to say.
"I'm sorry. I love you, Brooke."
"You have no idea what love is. You don't know what it means to love another person because when you love someone...you would...you would rather die than to hurt them. You have no idea how much I love you but I have to get over it." Brooke cried.
Lucas felt sick to his stomach, holding his breath. Lucas wished that Brooke didn't say that, he wished that she would have said that she hated him and never wanted to see him again. Brooke walked outside, seeing Peyton and Jake waiting curiously for her. Peyton held her wine glass close to her chest, wondering what happened between them. Haley walked up behind Peyton, as they stared curiously at Brooke.
"It was bad, Peyton. Really bad." Haley told Peyton. Peyton stared at Brooke as she whispered to her children, grabbing their hands. She was going to leave with her children. Peyton quickly put her glass down, rushing over to Brooke, making sure that she wasn't leaving for good. Peyton formed a fake smile on her face, trying not to show that she was worried for Brooke.
"Are you leaving so soon?" Peyton asked her, following her to her car. Everyone followed behind Peyton, wanting to see what happened next. Brooke couldn't think, all she wanted to do was to leave and clear her head. Peyton hoped that Brooke wasn't leaving, she just got her best friend back. "Brooke, please," Peyton begged her. "At least...keep the children here. Haley could take them home." Peyton looked behind her at Haley. Haley nodded, assuring Brooke that she would take care of her children. Brooke wasn't thinking, she couldn't stop crying and she didn't know where she was going. Brooke whipped her tears, looking down at her twin girls. Brooke could imagine that they had so many questions.
"Mommy needs you to spend the night with Aunt Haley," Brooke asked of them. Lydia opened her mouth, almost wanting to ask why her mother was crying. Brooke knew what Lydia was going to say and she couldn't explain it to her at the moment. "Please, Lydia," Brooke huffed, hoping that Lydia would grab her sister and walk over to Haley. And so Lydia did. Lydia closed her mouth, grabbing her sisters hand and walking towards Haley.
"I'm sorry, Peyton." Brooke turned around, Peyton didn't know what to say to keep Brooke to stay. Brooke quickly drove off without saying anything else. Peyton watched as Brooke disappeared down the street. Peyton was filled with anger, her best friend might be gone for the rest of her life and she couldn't say goodbye...again. . Peyton turned around to see Lucas and Haley talking, briefly. Lucas bent down, kissing the girls on the forehead. Lydia knew that something was going on with her parents and she wanted to know what. Lucas' face was completely red, flushed as if he was crying for hours. He had keys in his hand. Peyton walked up to them.
"What are you doing?" Peyton asked him.
"He's going after Brooke." Haley crossed her arms, disagreeing with Lucas' decision. He didn't care what they had to say, he lost Brooke once and he didn't want to lose her again. There was a chance that he could make everything right, even when he couldn't see it. There was something in him that told him that he should run after her. Lucas didn't want to lose anytime.
"What?" Peyton asked him. Lucas quickly ran into his car, not second thinking his decision. He didn't care that Brooke was angry with him, he wasn't going to leave her again. Peyton ran up to the car, not wanting him to leave just yet. "What are you thinking? Do you even know where she's going?" Peyton wanted to know.
"No, and I don't care. I can't leave them again." Lucas confessed to her. Lucas quickly backed out of the driveway, leaving Peyton there with a shocked look on her face. Haley was afraid that Lucas was going to do something that he would regret. Haley turned around to Nathan, giving him a worried look and he knew what to do. Nathan grabbed his keys from his pocket, and quickly raced to his car. Haley and Peyton watched as Nathan followed Lucas.