02/05/2015
Dear Baby,
I figured I'd use this diary for you and tell you more about your daddy and me. Before we started dating, we had fallen in love with each other. Your dad told me he loved me as I was dying from a gunshot to the heart. I felt the same at that time, but was so scared to tell him that. Earlier that year, your dad started using the word "always" in our daily conversations. It soon became our word. It was the word we used to tell each other we loved one another before we were ready to really say it. To me, that word means that through thick and thin, the good times and the bad, we will get through it because of our love for one another and we are in this together forever. Your dad and I love each other so much that it can't be quantified because even attempting to wouldn't be expressing how we feel properly nor doing it justice. I hope one day you experience a love so devoted that even the thought of them makes your heart flutter or having them wrap their arms around you and feeling like that that is exactly where you were meant to be. For over 5 years, long before we actually were together, I felt that your dad was the only person who truly knew me. He held my heart long before I officially gave it to him. He's the only person in the world who knows how to hurt me, but he never would. I trust him with everything, my life, my heart, my love, and of course you. I will always love your dad, just like I will always love you.
Love, Mom