Trusting Starlight
Series presented by: Pink-Green-White-4ever
Challenge:Why
Last Revised: July 3, 2007

Summary: He just wanted to know why…
Disclaimer: I don't own 'em, wish I did.
Ship: Tommy/Kimberly

AN: This is set after the Turbo Movie, and is from Tommy's POV. From here on out, the chapters are the flipsides to the first 20 I posted. Hopefully, some of these will go a little faster, as I have about half of these already pre-written. This one…didn't turn out as well as I would have liked, but I also got to the point where I didn't want to beat an already dead animal to death further.

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I can't help but let my eyes take her in. I shouldn't feel the way I do, but I feel like a man starved at the mere sight of her. It's been a few short months since I received the letter that ended our relationship, and in that time I thought I'd gotten over her, gotten over us. Kat and I have been dating for a few weeks now, since about the time Jason lost the Gold Ranger powers, and I had thought that I was past what had happened between her and I, but I knew, the moment I saw her on the viewing globe in Divatox's ship that until I get the answer to the one question that has been burning a hole through my heart, I'll never have closure. I just want to know why.

She's standing close to Jason and Rocky, the latter introducing the two of them to Justin, the newest member of our team. I watch her smile at Justin's obvious instant infatuation, but even from here, I can see the smile doesn't reach her eyes. Part me wonders why that is, when she obviously has everything she wants – a place on the Pan Global team, her friends surrounding her, someone waiting at home for her with open arms.

"You should go talk to her," a voice whispers softly from my left. Turning, my eyes land on my teammate, who looks a bit worried. "You're not going to be able to rest until you know why, and we're not going to be able to make it past this if you don't, because it's always going to be a ghost in the background."

I shake my head as I reach out to take Kat's hand. "I can't. She's happy, and that's all I've ever really wanted. Bringing up the past will only make this harder in the long run." I know what Kat says is true, and part of me really does want to know why, but the part of me that has always loved and cherished Kimberly can't bare the thought of hearing, not reading but hearing, her say she's found someone else and she doesn't love me anymore. Even after all the hurt she's inflicted on me, I can't help but wonder why I don't just march right over there, spin her around and demand to know what the hell happened to us, but I just can't seem to move.

"Tommy," Kat tries to smile at me, lifting her hand to touch my cheek.

I lean into her hand and try to smile. "Dance with me?" I ask her.

She smiles and nods as I take her hand and lead her out onto the dance floor. Even while we're dancing, my eyes occasionally wander to Kim, who's watching us. The look on her face has me once again wondering the big question – why? I'm surprised to see her talking to Skull, before they step out onto the dance floor with us and start dancing. As long as she's happy, I can deal with not knowing all the details behind why we ended.