Chapter 20

Callie awoke the following morning and had no idea where she was. She looked around the hospital room and groaned as the events of the previous night came back to her. Her hands flew to her stomach where just yesterday she had been feeling for a slight swell, thinking it was her baby growing. Her baby, she had lost her baby. Tears filled her eyes. The door opened and she brushed the tears away. Miranda Bailey stood beside her bed, checking her IV.

"How are you feeling? Any physical pain" She asked softly

"No, nothing physical" Callie answered flatly.

Bailey nodded and sat by the bed.

"Is Clark dead?" she asked

Miranda nodded "Yes, luckily no-one else was killed. He shot 6 people but they are all going to be okay" she paused "including Arizona"

Callie squeezed her eyes shut at the name, tears leaking out and falling against the pillow.

"Hey, come on now Torres. I thought you were a bad ass. You are going to get through this" Miranda said with conviction. Her hand grasped Callie's.

"You have suffered a terrible loss Callie and it will take time but you will learn to be happy again"

"Do you think she'll ever forgive me" she whispered, looking at her friend. "Those terrible things I said." She shook her head. "Have you seen her today?" she asked.

Miranda looked at her as if she was contemplating her answer.

"What?" Callie asked "Is she okay?"

"She is , uh I tried to call her last night, you know , after everything but I couldn't get through to her. So I called Teddy and it looks like Arizona has gone to San Diego for a while"

Callie's heart plummeted "she's gone?, of course she is, why would she stay"

"It's only for a few days" Miranda assured her "She has been put on a week's mandatory leave like anyone else who came into contact with the shooter, like you. She'll be back next week"

"Do you think she'll ever forgive me? " Callie asked again "I know she didn't want the, uh, the baby" she whispered "but I think we could have made it work. You know I promised her I wouldn't hurt her. I don't think she will ever forgive me".

"Look Callie, I don't know if this will make you feel any better or worse but she had decided yesterday she was in. She loves you. I'm not going to lie, what you said to her was harsh but I think she'll understand it was the grief and the shock talking. You just need to let her know that."

"She was in?" Callie asked in surprise. Miranda nodded "Oh God, What have I done?" she whispered covering her face with her hands. After a few moments, she steeled herself, taking a deep breath" So I'll just wait until she's back next week and tell her I'm sorry and hope she forgives me" Callie decided.

"Or?" Miranda prompted. At Callie's blank look Miranda huffed " Or you get on a plane for San Diego and tell that woman you love her. God Torres, how did you ever get a woman in the first place?"

"Will I be discharged today?" Callie asked, ignoring the insult.

"Doctor Fields will be in to check on you shortly to make sure there is no bleeding after the procedure you had last night. But you should be out of here this evening. I would suggest you rest for a day or two before going anywhere" Miranda said as she checked Callie's chart.

Callie was dressed, ready to leave when the door opened and Teddy appeared with a wheelchair. Callie looked at the wheelchair and shook her head.

"Come on Cal, it's hospital policy, it's the only way you can leave" Teddy cajoled her friend.

"I'm surprised you are helping me, with everything that's happened" Callie looked at Teddy.

Teddy shrugged "Arizona may be my best friend Callie, but I also consider us to be good friends. You two have been through a terrible ordeal." She walked towards Callie "I'm so sorry for what happened to you Callie. I want to help you, help both of you" she pulled Callie into a hug.

Callie hugged her back, tightly. She cried quietly as Teddy comforted her.

"Doctor Fields said these things happen usually for no reason, nothing showed in the scan or the blood tests, just one of those things" Callie said as her tears dried up.

Teddy nodded in sympathy. "Let's get you home"

As she sat in the wheelchair she had to ask " Did you see her before she left?"

Teddy pushed the wheelchair, making her way to the exit. "Yes, I dropped her to the airport"

They stopped at the entrance. Teddy took Callie's bag and helped her from the chair. They exited together and at Callie's curious look Teddy said "I'm taking you home and making sure you are settled in". She linked her arm through Callie's as they walked towards the apartment.

Once inside the apartment, Teddy instructed Callie to relax on the sofa while she put away her bag and put a pot of coffee on.

Kicking off her shoes and wrapping a blanket around her legs Callie gratefully accepted the hot cup of coffee from Teddy. "I guess I can have as much coffee as I want again" she said sadly.

Teddy sat across from here with her own cup. "You know there's nothing you could have done Callie, the miscarriage wasn't your fault. It wasn't anyone's fault"

Callie nodded "I know. I blamed her. Did she tell you that? What was I thinking? As if she would ever deliberately hurt me?"

" You were in shock, in pain and you lashed out. Deep down she has to know that. But you have a lot work to do. She was already blaming herself before you did. She loves you Callie, you know that right?" Teddy asked the distraught woman across from her.

"Still, after this? I don't know. I love her Teddy, I do but I hurt her so much, you should have seen her face" Callie whispered, Arizona's heartbroken face as she left etched in her mind. Heartbroken because of her, her words. "I knew the minute I said them, I knew how awful it was but I just couldn't stop. I hoped she'd be here today so I could apologise and beg for her forgiveness but she's gone"

"I did see her face "Teddy responded leaning forward to make eye contact with Callie. "She just needed time . That's just her way of dealing with things Callie, she goes away and gets her thoughts together. Though I think the past week has taken its toll on her. I wouldn't be surprised if she sleeps for twenty four hours straight."

"I'm going to get her Teddy " Callie looked at Teddy, with a fierce determination in her eyes. "Can you give me her parents' address? I need to make this right and I can't wait a week."

Teddy hesitated, knowing how hurt her friend was. But she also knew Arizona loved Callie, and Teddy desperately wanted them to work. Both of them were good people who deserved to be happy. She stood up and pulled out her cell phone. Dialling a number she looked at Callie " I'd like to book two tickets from Seattle to San Diego for tomorrow please" she asked , returning Callie's smile.

The day after the shooting, Arizona was sitting in a lounge chair in her parents' back garden. She wore a tank top and shorts, sunglasses hiding her eyes. To anyone who didn't know her, she looked content and relaxed. Her brother Timothy knew her though and could see the shades hid eyes that were probably full of tears. His sister had arrived from the airport last night, pale and tear stricken, Teddy had rang Timothy to tell him about the shooting and that Callie and Arizona had had a fight.

He had never seen his sister so upset. His mother had enveloped Arizona in a hug and after checking her arm to make sure her injury wasn't serious, she had made her cocoa. Timothy and his father had watched in silence as his sister retold the story of the shooting. She told them about the shooter and how terrified she was as the gunman had targeted Callie. She didn't notice her parents' faces pale in horror as she told how she stepped in front of the gunman. She started crying as she told them about Callie's reaction and how they had fought. She did not mention why they had fought .

"After everything I just needed to get away. As soon as they stitched my arm I made Teddy take me to the airport. Is this okay?" She asked her parents, both nodding in response, Barbara wrapping her arms around her baby girl, thankful that she could.

Now Timothy sat beside his sister. Placing his crutches on the ground, he turned to her

" So what happened with you and Callie?" he asked. "I would have thought something like this would have brought you closer together, not separated you?"

Arizona brought fingers under the sunglasses, to squeeze her eyes and rid them of the tears that were threatening to fall. She looked at her brother with a shaky grin. She looked around to make sure they were alone.

"It probably would have if not for the fact that I caused her to have a miscarriage" she said

Timothy opened and closed his mouth "What?" he barked.

"Sssh, keep it down" Arizona shushed him, looking back towards the house to make sure her parents were not around.

"Long story short, she was with someone, a guy, just before we met. She got pregnant by him and found out last week. This past week has been a rollercoaster. I panicked and walked out on her. Then we've been talking it out, trying to decide what to do and basically trying to keep us together. Then last night.." she faltered . Timothy gripped her hand and gave it a comforting squeeze.

She swallowed "Last night, after the shooting , she had a miscarriage, and uh, she blamed me and said I was probably happy about it and she couldn't look at me" her voice broke as she removed her sunglasses "She couldn't look at me Tim, she thinks I caused the miscarriage and I don't know , maybe she's right. All the stress I caused her, instead of supporting her"

"Stop" Timothy said firmly "You know you didn't cause this. If she said those things to you after what you did for her maybe you are better off away from her" he said, angry for his sister.

"Don't blame her Timothy, she was scared and traumatised" Arizona didn't want him thinking badly of Calliope.

He took a breath to calm down "Okay so if she was all those things, she didn't know what she was saying. Do you know if she's okay now?"

Arizona nodded "I rang Bailey this afternoon. She is okay, they discharged her today and Teddy brought her home"

"Are you going to call her" Timothy asked

Arizona shook her head " No, I can't. I couldn't bear it if she refuses to talk with me or hangs up or , or if she really hates me." She heaved a frustrated sigh "Relationships suck, what was I thinking"

Timothy laughed throwing a cushion at his sister "You were thinking 'this is one hot doctor that I want all to myself"

"Hey" Arizona deflected the cushion and smiled "Yeah, I'm still thinking that" but her smile disappeared when she remembered Callie's angry words.

Noticing the change in her demeanour Timothy said "Give her time, she's suffered a loss. When you go back, you'll talk, and if she's as smart as you say then she won't let you go. Now come on , make yourself useful, you can drive me to my PT appointment".

A/N I think there is only a couple of chapters left in this as the 'unplanned surprise' is out in the open. I am contemplating a sequel to see how they deal with other challenges thrown at them in this relatively new relationship. Or maybe continue with this and just keep adding chapters, I don't know. Any thoughts or feedback, feel free to PM me.