Last night at the Teen Choice Awards was filled with musical guests, star presenters and awards given out to the top contenders in their categories. Taking home Favorite Musical Group was once again the Eclipse. However the biggest talk of the night for the Eclipse was the fact that Edward Cullen showed up with his wife, Bella on his arm. The couple were both looking as normal and in love as ever with Edward wearing his usual slacks and dress shirt and Bella wearing a pink knee-length dress. The pair who has been in the media the past few months surrounding cheating rumors on both ends seemed perfectly happy with each other, even sharing a sweet kiss when the Eclipse won their award. Witnesses say "They looked happy all night and showed no signs of trouble in their relationship." The two have both been mum about the relationship and the details.
After the Teen Choice Awards Edward and I didn't mention this kiss to each other. We simply tried to act normal around each other, actually, normal doesn't really exist with us anymore. 'Normal' for us now is to say a few words and then start fighting with each other about either James or Tanya. Yesterday was a good day though, we managed to not fight and we managed to pull off the stint of acting like we were perfectly happy. I read articles this morning and no one mentioned that anything looked strained, forced or unrealistic. Management was very happy with us today.
Tonight is the show in San Diego and we are all at the venue already. Things have been weird between Edward and I. It seems like we both want to say something, we just don't know exactly what we want to say yet. I don't exactly want to go up to him and say "Hey, so how 'bout that kiss?" Could you say awkward?
"Hey" Seth said coming up to me at catering.
"Hey what's up?"
"Your in a good mood today."
"What made you think that?"
"Because that is Sprite" he said pointing to my cup "And you just seem much happier"
"Oh, yeah. It's an alright day. It could be better but it's pretty good"
"I heard about last night" he said smiling.
"What about it?" I said acting confused although I fully knew what he was talking about.
"He kissed you"
I rolled my eyes, "Yeah a very quick peck. Like you know when your in sixth grade and you kiss someone and it's so quick it's over before it started?" Seth nodded his head, "Yeah, it was like that."
"But that's progress. Your getting somewhere."
I laughed, "No, getting somewhere would be kissing each other then actually talking about it. Not going back to the house, sleeping in separate rooms and then totally ignoring each other except at breakfast to put a show on for the kids."
Seth rolled his eyes, "You guys are so stubborn."
"Well sorry but when my HUSBAND sleeps with his ex girlfriend, yeah I will be stubborn and slow to forgive him."
"Well one of you has to be the mature one and say something and it's probably not going to be Edward."
"Why should it have to be me? I only kissed another guy, he fucked another girl."
"He's scared that you turn him down. You know how he is." I nodded my head.
"Seth! Ready to go?" Sam standing there waving to Seth.
"Sorry, Gotta go. I'll see you on stage. Enjoy the show." He gave me a quick hug and left to go to the stage.
I took what Seth had said into consideration and stood up to throw the rest of my sandwich away and ran to the stage.
I found Edward, "Hey, Good luck tonight."
"Thanks." he said nodding his head and smiling. Seth smiled at me and then I waved bye to them before leading the kids to the soundstage to watch the show.
The show was going really well, they sang their usual songs including the one they always sing for the kids. Everyone seemed to be having a good time and then the lights went low until there were spotlights on only the three of them.
Edward put the microphone to his mouth and began talking, "The next song we're going to sing is a song that we wrote when I was nineteen and it was never released or played anywhere." I tried to listen harder wondering what song they could be singing. "We wrote it for a friend of ours and it's about a girl that is lost, confused and doesn't feel like she is good enough for anyone. She's perfectly imperfect and all she wants is her happy ending, she's caught in between of a beautiful disaster."
The music started playing and Edward's voice rang through the building, "she loves her momma's lemonade, hates the sounds that goodbyes make, she prays one day she'll find someone to need her, she swears there's no difference between the lies and compliments, it's all the same if everybody leaves her, and all the magazines tells her she's not good enough the pictures that she sees makes her cry" I've never heard this song before and I can't help but wonder why.
"She would change everything, everything, just ask her, caught in the in between of beautiful disaster, she just needs someone to take her home, she's giving boys what they want, trying to act so nonchalant, afraid to see that she's lost her direction, she never stays the same for long, assuming that she'll get it wrong, perfect only in her imperfection, she's not a drama queen, she doesn't wanna feel this way at only 19 and tired, yeah" Something about the music, the lyrics felt like it was talking directly to me but I'd never heard it before. Without even realizing it tears fell from my eyes.
"She would change everything for happy ever after, caught in the in between of beautiful disaster, she just needs someone to take her home, she's just the way she is, but no one's told her that's okay, she would change everything, everything, just ask her, caught in the in between of beautiful disaster, she would change everything for happy ever after, caught in the in between of beautiful disaster, she just needs someone to take her home, she just needs someone to take her home" When Edward finished the song everyone became screaming and clapping including me with tears in my eyes and everything.
Then Edward spoke again, "I hope you get your happy ever after," and when he said it, it looked as if he was looking directly at me, only making the tears fall harder.
Sorry that this chapter is so short. I was going to write more but after I wrote the last sentence I figured that I should stop it there. It seemed more powerful. The song is called Beautiful Disaster by Jon McLaughlin, the original lyrics say "she doesn't wanna feel this way at only 17", but I changed it to 19 to make it fit Bella better. Bella knew the song was directed towards her, especially the line, "she gives the boys what they want"This was a long note, I probably should have explained those things in the story but oh well. Let me know what you guys think!