A/N: Okay, here it is, a little early. Hope you enjoy it.

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JPOV

I was sick of worrying, not knowing where she was, if she was ok. I was sick of sitting here trying to rack my brain to figure out how to fix this. People mess up all the time. Granted I fucked up big time, I would do anything to fix what I did, but she had to let me try.

I spent all this week trying to call her cell, she hadn't changed her number and that was a good sign in my book. The not answering it however made it very difficult to try to meet up and work through this. I knew if she just gave me some time I would do whatever I needed to do to fix it.

I was glad I had a few friends in some high places here on campus because now I only had one thing left to do. She refused to answer my calls, to call me back, so I had to go to her new place.

My friend Paul worked in the University admissions office and would be able to look up Bella's change of address information.

I made my way in and saw Paul sitting at the front desk; the building was empty at the moment so I would have plenty of time getting my info without getting Paul in trouble.

"Hey man, have you gotten Bella's new address for me?" I asked once I got to the counter.

"Yeah, here. What the hell is going on with you two anyway? I mean this is Bella; you two have been friends since birth. How did you fuck up so bad that she refuses to tell you where she is living?"

"Paul, not now, I fucked up huge time man, but I can't fix it if she won't talk to me. Now she will have to. I am not letting her throw all these years together down the drain or out the window over a stupid mistake."

"Whatever man, take care of yourself."



"I will, thanks for the help. I owe you big time." with that I left.

I was going to go see Bella sometime this week. I needed to plan this out so I don't ramble on and then not get to the point. Bella most likely wouldn't be giving me too much time to plead my case and I needed to make sure I got everything out. She needed to understand that I was sorry, that I needed her in my life.

I also had to make sure she wasn't hanging out with that jerk off from the courtyard. I would never have a chance to speak to her if he was around.

I made my way to my car and my phone started to ring. I dug in my pockets and pulled it out and flipped it open.

"Hello?"

"Yes, I am looking for a Jacob Black please." the woman on the phone said.

"This is him."

"Mr. Black, my name is Dr. Evans, I need you to come down to the hospital, it's important."

"What is happening? What's wrong?"

"I'm afraid I can't discuss this over the phone Mr. Black we need you down here as soon as possible. Can you make it here?"

"Of course, I'll be right there."



I flipped the phone shut, jumped into the car and sped towards the hospital chanting over and over…Please don't let it be dad, Please don't let it be dad, please don't let it be dad.

BPOV

"Home sweet home." I said as I walked through the door of our apartment and threw my bags on the floor.

I walked over to the couch and plopped down, throwing my head back and closing my eyes.

I felt the cushion next to me sink and then Edwards's warm arms wrap around me and he rested his head on my chest.

"It is good being home, I have missed this place." his arms tightened around my waist. "It has the benefit of no Emmett."

I had to laugh at that.

"Hey, he means well Edward; he is like a big teddy bear."

"You just wait; he is breaking you slow, trying not to scare you off. He gets worse, much, much worse."

"I think I can handle him. If having to deal with Emmett is all I have to put up with to be with you, then it is well worth it." I placed a kiss in his messy hair.

"Ok, let me up, I am starving and going to go see what we have to work with."



"I don't think there is much. I can run to the store and pick some things up for today and tomorrow until we feel up to making one large trip."

"You sure? I am sure we can fix up something." I said as I searched the cupboards and the fridge. "Maybe not." I said with a frown. We had a stick of butter, some milk, and a jar of jelly.

"Well, I will run to the store then. Make a list and while I am gone you can unpack." a smile formed on his face.

"Oh, jeez, thanks Edward." I said playfully swatting at him. "Just what I wanted to do, unpack all our stuff."

"You are more organized than I am Bella, it will be faster if you do it." I just shook my head.

I made a list of a few things that we would need to get through the next few days until a big time shopping was needed. With a semi-over the top kiss Edward was on his way and I grabbed the bags pulling them back to the bedroom.

I had been in the bedroom for fifteen minutes tops when I heard a knock at the door. Edward wouldn't have been that fast at the store I didn't think.

I reached the door saying "That was fast." as I opened it.

Fear immediately washed over me as I was standing face to face with the one person I never expected to see here, at my home, my safe place.

"Why…Why are you here?" I asked, my voice trembling as I took a few steps back.



Jake was standing there, in my doorway, of the home I shared with Edward. He found me, how did he find me…no one knew where I was.

"Jake you have to leave, please Jake you can't be here." I started to shut the door but his huge hand came up to stop it.

"Bella, I have to talk to you. This isn't about me Bella; I think you need to sit down okay. What I am going to tell you, you need to be sitting down."

I hadn't noticed until now that his eyes were all red and puffy.

"Jake, what, what is it…Spit it out."

"Bella." his chin was trembling. "Bella, it's…dad, my dad…he…he is gone Bella. Dad died."

All the wind was knocked out of me everything started to blur and I felt like I was going to be sick. I kept stepping back, not believing it. I felt my back hit the wall and I slowly slid down the wall shaking my head. The pools of warm liquid started to pool in my eyes, and my body started to shake violently. This couldn't be happening; my one last tie to anything resembling a family was now gone for good.

"Bella, are you okay?"

"Jake, I'm going to be sick." I stood up and ran to the kitchen and launched myself at the kitchen sink, heaving the contents of my stomach into it.

I felt Jake come up behind me and pull my hair back out of the way.

"It's ok Bella, it will be alright." his voice sounded like that of a broken little boy.



"Jake how?"

"It was a combination of all the problems he has had. His body just gave up Bella, he wasn't in any pain they said, he went in his sleep. He was taking a nap and Sam went to wake him up and he was gone." tears started to flow down his face and he put his head in his hands.

It was silent for a few moments and we just stood there…across from each other not speaking. I couldn't seem to stop the tears and my mouth tasted horrible. I ran some water washing my mouth out when he spoke.

"Bella, I am so sorry." I froze.

"Jake, not now."

"Bella, I haven't seen my father in weeks. If his death has taught me one thing it is to say what you mean while you can. I may never get the chance again."

I stood facing away from him. I didn't want to look at him while he did this.

"Bella, I am so sorry for everything I have put you through. I know it will never be anywhere close to enough. I can't ever take back what I have done to you. I was so foolish to even think I could. I am a horrible person for thinking you were blowing it out of proportion I am so sorry. I will never be able to show you just how sorry I am, but I need you to know. I feel like I took Billy away from you in the process and because of me neither of us got to say goodbye. If it weren't for me we would have been there…We would have seen him more…But you stayed away to protect him."

I was crying again, he was right; I was never going to see Billy again. I had kept my distance and he had worried about me because I hadn't been around. Now I wouldn't ever see him again.



This caused me to cry harder.

"He loved you as if you were his child Bella. He always talked about you and he was so proud of you. Always know that, to him you were his daughter."

"I know Jake; I loved like he was my father."

We stood there again in silence not knowing what to say when something hit me.

"Jake, how are you here?" I asked looking at him confused.

"What?"

"How did you know where I was Jake? I never told anyone where I was living now."

His head dropped and he was looking at the floor.

"Bella, it was just another stupid selfish move on my part. I called and called trying to get you to talk to me but you wouldn't answer. I had enough, I wanted to talk to you, so I knew someone at the school who gave me your new address. I am sorry, and I am not. Sorry I did it, but without it you wouldn't have found out about dad. At least not until much later. I thought you should know."

"Jake, I don't know what to say. I should be mad, I guess I kind of am. But without this I wouldn't know about Billy so I guess what's done is done."

"I won't come here again, I promise. I have said what I needed to say on the subject. With dad dying now, I can't keep hurting you. I know that I have put you through hell Bella, I won't do it anymore. I have said my peace on the matter. I just wanted you to know about Billy and that is it, I won't bother you again."



Him saying that sent a wave of calm over me and I was glad he was finally going to let me go. He was going to move on from this just like I had planned to.

"Thank you Jake, it means a lot to me."

"No problem Bells, I should be going anyway. I am going to call you with the information on the funeral and all ok. I have to get home; we have to start dealing with all the arrangements."

Tears started to flow again at the thought of Billy no longer alive.

"O...okay, Jake, I...I will talk to you then."

"It will be okay Bells." He leaned in and gave me a comforting hug. We held onto each other for a moment, both knowing that this would be the last time we would have the chance for closure, to say goodbye.

A loud crash was heard from across the room and both our heads snapped to the direction of the noise.

Edward!

"WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS!" He shouted.

"Edward, calm down." I said walking towards him. "This isn't what it looks like."

"You mean you weren't in the arms of the sick fuck who raped you?" A mixture of pain and anger covered his face.



"Edward, let me explain, it's not what you are thinking just let me..." he cut me off.

"I was so stupid, so stupid wasn't I. How could I have even believed anything you said? You were right the first night. I knew nothing about you. I must not have learned anything about you… god. How could you do this?" His voice cracked.

"Edward." I said walking towards him with my arms out.

"Don't touch me, don't fucking touch me. I'm so fucking stupid; it was too good to be true. Like you could ever love me, I am nothing but a failure and you would rather be here, with this asshole than with me." He threw the letter at me, I picked it up and read what it said then looked at him.

"Edward, you know I don't think that, I could never think that. I love you, please let me explain, please just listen to me. I love you Edward I wouldn't do anything to hurt you ever." my tears were flowing freely.

"You don't love me Bella. If you loved me you wouldn't have let this scum into our home. You wouldn't have been in his arms. I am over it. I. AM. DONE."

I was sobbing so hard I could control it. "Edward please just listen."

"Hey, you know, you can say whatever you want about me but she is telling the truth man, there wasn't anything like that happening." Jake tried to speak up.

"Don't you fucking talk to me... Get the fuck out of my house. Both of you... NOW!" I couldn't believe this was happening.



"I'm not leaving you Edward, not until you talk to me, until you listen. If you want me to go after that, then I will."

"Fuck it, I am done, I am done even trying anymore." with a pained expression he gave me one final look and then stormed out of the apartment.

"Edward NO!" I went to run after him getting to the door as the elevator closed.

This couldn't be happening.

A/N: Okay, what did you think?? Next chapter is in EPOV and this is just the beginning of the drama, there is more to come. Please review. We'll see you soon :D