"And you're not going to go talk to her?"

"She just needs time to be alone, Lionblaze," says Jayfeather.

"Did you see her out their? That is not the face of someone who needs to be alone!"

"No I didn't." Jayfeather says simply. There are a few minutes of awkward silence.

"I've never seen her like this. She usually bounces back quickly from things." Jayfeather still doesn't say anything. "Well she needs to be with her mate. And if her real one won't man up and do it her fake one will." With that he walks out of the den leaving Jayfeather alone in the dark.

…Warriors…

"Hey," I look up to see Lionblaze at the mouth of the entrance. "I just wanted to see how you're doing." He gives a nervous laugh. "You don't look so good."

Why is he here and where's Jayfeather? Oh well, I guess I can settle for Lionblaze. "I'm not good. You heard; I'm a murderer and don't say that you understand me cause you don't."

"Who are you kidding," he walks closer into the den and moves into the nest with me. On any average day I would have hit him upside the head with a tree branch. But this isn't an average day. "I killed ShadowClan's deputy. I know exactly how you feel."

"But I can't get it out of my head. That she-cat screaming at me." I burry my head in his soft belly fur.

"She was just angry." He didn't know what else to say.

"And it's not just that. After that I thought of all the wrong things I've done."

"Like what?"

"Let's start with an easy one. Falling in love with a medicine cat. I think that is like number one on what not to do in the warrior code."

"You can't chose who you fall in love with."

"Well you and Heathertail were a lost cause anyway." I murmur to myself.

"What?" he asks in surprise. He lifts his head up to look at me.

Did she just say Heathertail? He thinks.

"Nothing. But anyway, not just that. I also caused the end of you and Cinderheart. It's all my fault."

"It's Jayfeather's fault to you know." I look up at him in surprise. "He's a medicine cat; he should have known better. And I could have said no. I could have chosen to not help you guys out. Then my love problems would be fine. See we're both messed up."

At least you never ran away from home. Leaving no explanation. At least you never lied to your friends and family about not just who you are, but what you are. I miss them.

"Is that all that's bothering you? Cause so far we're two for two."

I almost smile.

"I guess I'm missing my friends and family of my old life." I look over at him and he seems surprised. I guess I never willingly talk about my past. "They loved me and it's not fair that I left without any explanation."

"Well… we're your family now. I mean where would we be without you?"

"I'm sure you can find anyone else in this clan to be leader."

"But you're the one who beat the wolves. You can do anything."

I give a half laugh.

"Ha, I felt that." He says "That was a laugh."

"No it wasn't." I say completely laughing in between words.

Finally we stop laughing. "Lionblaze?"

"What?"

"Thank you. For everything."