Okay, I know that you all want to kill me, most preferably painfully,
and I know that I deserve it. But I am SO sorry and I'm not going to
bore you with a bunch of excuses that you could care less about.
I just think I lost my mojo for this story, and before you go insane,
I WILL BE CONTINUING! I just need motivation.
SO! With that in mind, I want to dedicate this chapter to KaitlynA14,
aka, Kaitlyn :) She made me realise that I REALLY needed to
update, and she was so cheery about it. It's my GOMH fans that
really make me happy :) And I hope that a lot of you haven't
given up on me. THANK YOU KAITLYN!
More at the bottom:)
All of my super duper Edward love,
-causewerewolvesdontsparklexx
ENJOY!
Chapter 21.
BPOV
Deep breaths Bella. Deep breaths. I kept chanting to myself.
"Bella, you're going to walk a hole in the floor. Just calm down." Alice said, not helping. I stopped my pacing and looked at her as if she was insane.
"Calm down? Calm down?" I practically yelled at her. Alice sat there, unmoving.
"Yes. Now, sit down, it's time to do your hair!" She squealed, grabbing my arm and dragging me towards her en suite.
I knew that I was strong enough to break her hold, but I was too nervous to think straight. Jasper had been working hard to keep me calm, but it just wasn't working. My dress trailed along behind me, and I wondered how Edward was doing. Was he as nervous as me? I doubted it.
It has been seven months, we had to delay the wedding because we found a Johnathan's scent near the house, we tried to track him down, but we couldn't. I had forced Alice to put the wedding back six months, which she regretfully agreed to, and the time had flown by incredibly fast, and there had been no sign of Johnathan at all. I finished school, and refused to let Edward take me to prom, graceful or not graceful. After Aaron had found out about my engagement to Edward, he told me that he loved me deeply and said that as long as I was happy, he'd be happy. The thought of him almost made me burst into tears. I still loved him, and I felt like a monster for doing this to him. All I seem to do is hurt people. My thoughts were broken off when I felt Alice stop tugging on my arm. Alice had been in full swing on wedding arrangements, and I often wondered why I let her do this. We walked into the bathroom, and I gaped at all the products sitting on the shelves.
"Alice..." I started to complain, but she just unleashed the full force of the puppy dog face on me. "Alice..." I groaned again.
"Please." She whispered, her bottom lip trembling. I threw my hands up in exasperation and huffed.
"Fine." I said, she squealed again and forced me to sit in the black cushy chair.
"Close your eyes, I want to see your face when you look at yourself for the first time." Alice said, her face lit up in excitement. I obeyed and closed my eyes. Might as well give Alice her fun.
"You seem more excited about this than I should be." I said, my voice coated with anxiety. Alice giggled and I heard her pick up a hair straightener.
"It's okay to be nervous Bella, Edward is on the verge of a panic attack. Emmett is trying his best to calm him down. You're fairing much better than he is."
The thought of Edward made my heart flutter. "I am?" I whispered.
"Yes." Alice said quietly.
Soon enough I felt the familiar tug from the hair straightener. All I could do was sit there and think about what I was going to do in just two hours. My stomach churned again just thinking about it. I was getting married today. Married. To Edward Cullen. In two hours, I would become Mrs. Edward Cullen. I grinned at the thought.
"Stop fantasizing about your wedding night." Alice teased. I blushed.
"That was not what I was thinking about, but thanks for reminding me." I said sarcastically, trying to cover up the insane amount of anxiety. I didn't fool her.
"You love him right?" I nodded. "And he loves you. It's only natural." She said comfortingly.
"Okay, great Alice. Shut up now." I said. She laughed and continued to pull and style my hair. The image of tonight was stuck in my head. I had no idea where Edward was taking us for our honeymoon, he was keeping it a surprise. I was even more jittery now, all these thought were making me so insane. Just keep breathing Bella. Breathe. In. Out. In. Out.
The heat of the straightener disappeared.
"Rosalie." Alice called. I heard Rosalie start to ascend the stairs. Within half a second, Rosalie's footsteps had entered the bathroom. "Okay, you know the drill. You do the hair, and I do the makeup."
"How do you want her hair done?" Rosalie asked, her delicate fingers picking up bits of my hair. I had grown closer to Rosalie after the passed few months. After she told me her story, I felt that I understood her better, we started talking at night a lot, when Edward was away hunting, and she'd come with me when I needed to feed. She would always help keep a lookout for Johnathan, but all of the Cullen's believe that we scared him off. I though otherwise.
Charlie had taught me how to fight, it took a while, but I finally succeeded. I could now beat Charlie and Aaron in a full frontal attack, while Edward would sit back and worry like crazy. I'd told Edward a million times that I could take care of myself, he didn't have to worry.
"Just make it look pretty. I'm trusting you." Alice said, a clear threat in her voice if Rose failed to do my hair just right. Rosalie laughed softly.
"Of course Alice." She said, a grin in her voice. Soon after, I heard the blow dryer start, and felt the familiar curler roll my hair around itself, Rose shaped my hair in the form that she wanted. Soon after I felt powder being applied to my face.
My thoughts wandered back to Johnathan. It seemed a bit too good to be true. If we really had chased him away, why did I feel so strange? Edward has told me plenty of times that he won't be coming back, it's been so long. But that seems just like his nature. I know that I was probably freaking out, after all, he did almost kill me. But I was always on edge. Whenever the Cullen's needed to hunt, I'd always go with them, and call Charlie to sweep the area as well. Edward thought that it was all highly unnecessary, but I finally convinced him to go along with it because it would give me peace of mind.
Charlie had told me more about us, Guardians. He told me that we each had a specific power. Mine was to produce force fields, when I asked him how he knew that that was my power, he said that that was his power, he could tell what power Guardians had. Aaron had the power of persuasion, Johnathan was resistant to any power, and Ethan could inflict pain on someone, but it was all mental. I shuddered at the memory.
"Bella?" Rosalie asked quietly.
"I'm fine." I responded. "Can I open my eyes now?" I asked hopefully.
I heard Rose giggle and Alice sigh. "Not yet." They both said.
A few minutes later, the tugging and curling of my hair was done, and Alice told me to open my eyes. Of course, they spun me around so that I couldn't look at myself in the mirror. My eyes opened and I saw Alice about three inches away from my face, mascara in hand.
"Don't worry," Alice said, taking in my expression, "it's waterproof." She grinned and I rolled my eyes. "Now old still." She said and applied the mascara.
I was finally allowed to see myself. Alice was grinning like an idiot, Rose was smiling softly, and as I was spun around, and faced myself in the mirror, my mouth fell open.
My hair was wound up in a bun on the back of my head, all curly and bouncy. There was a flowered tiara across the top of my head, and the hair in front of it was straight. I had soft ringlets running down the side of my face, shaping themselves around.
I had a soft pink tinge to my cheeks, I would no doubt make up the rest of the red later. My eyelashes looked full and long, while a soft red lip gloss was applied to my full lips. There was also a small hint of blue eyeshadow, to match the colour theme of my wedding.
"We'd better get ready, you'll be okay by yourself?" Rose asked me. I nodded.
"Sure."
They flew out of the room, leaving me to my thoughts. I wanted to go to Edward. I grinned and started to stand up, when I heard a menacing hiss from Alice. I groaned.
"Please?" I said, already knowing the answer.
"No! Do not make me come there and tie you down!" Alice said quietly, but still deadly. I huffed and sat back down.
"I miss you." I sent to Edward.
"I miss you too. Why is Alice making us do this?" He thought back.
"She wants us to do this 'traditionally'."
"I want to see you." Edward thought sadly. I sighed.
"I know, I want to see you too." I called. I heard his laughter from downstairs.
"I love you." He said tenderly. I smiled.
"I love you too. Are you as nervous as I am?" I asked him quietly.
"Apparently, you are doing much better than I am." I heard him chuckle and I giggled. I heard two sets of footsteps.
"Bella, we're coming in now." Alice said as she ran into her bedroom. "Edward, shut up and get ready, you have half an hour."
Alice and Rosalie stopped in front of me.
"What do you think?" Alice said, twirling.
My mouth dropped. Instead of Alice's normal spiky hair, she had curled it, and it now hung loosely around down to her chin. She also had blue eyeshadow. Her dress looked amazing on her, as was expected. She was wearing a strapless royal blue dress, that stopped just above her knees. It had a large bow on the bust, that trailed down to her waist. The hem looked like it had been scrunched up.
I dared my eyes to look at Rosalie, and I almost fell over. Her blond hair was straightened, and it cascaded down her back and stopped at her waist, her dress was also royal blue and strapless. It was a wrap around and was tucked into her bust. Of course, she looked gorgeous, and she only wore blue eyeshadow, to match Alice and me.
"You look gorgeous, of course." I said, feeling insecure. Alice sighed.
"Bella, you look beautiful, you are beautiful. Edward is going to die when he sees you. You out shine anyone here in beauty, how come you have no idea how gorgeous you are?" Rosalie said to me.
I turned to look in the mirror. This was the first time I saw myself in full. The dress really was beautiful, and I could tell that I looked beautiful, I could tell that the dress flattered me and my now existing curves. As my eyes trailed down my body, I smiled.
"Thank you, so much." I said to Alice and Rosalie as I flung myself at them and hugged them both tightly.
"Shall we get you married now?" Alice smirked. My eyes widened as they flew to the clock. 4:50pm. I had ten minutes. My stomach twisted and turned around and around. I felt like I was going to be sick.
I swallowed. "Okay." I managed to gasp. Rosalie laughed at me.
"He's waiting for you." She said to me as she grabbed my hand and Alice grabbed my other.
"Oh!" Alice said suddenly. "Be right back!" She spoke quickly, and darted out of the room, only to come back three seconds later with a small piece of cloth in her hand. I gasped as I saw what it was.
"Alice, no!" I groaned, Rosalie laughed loudly.
"Bella, you have to wear it!" She whined. I took in a deep breath. It'll make her happy. So I held out my hand in disgust.
I felt the vile piece of cloth land in my palm. I opened my eyes and treated the garter as if it was a dead mouse. I slowly put my foot through and slid it up my leg until it reached halfway up my thigh.
I blushed.
There was a knock at the door, Alice's face scrunched up and called the person in.
The first person I was was Aaron, looking completely amazing in his tux, his eyes locked with mine and I smiled sadly at him, soon after my dad came into the room, looking uncomfortable in his suit. I laughed and he huffed loudly.
"You look very handsome dad." I said, while trying to contain the giggles.
"I look stupid." He grumbled. I laughed louder.
"No you don't, now come here, let me fix up your tie" I said to him. I was aware that someone was watching me, and I glanced out of the corner of my eye to see Aaron starting at me, his eyes piercing. I looked back to Charlie, who was now looking at me.
"Bells, you look beautiful." He said before grabbing me and twirling me around. I giggled.
"Thank you dad, Alice, can you fix up his tie please." I said. I saw Alice nod as she and Charlie and Rose left the room, giving Aaron and I the privacy we needed.
"Thank you for coming, it means the world to me." I told him as I wrapped my arms around him in a tight hug.
"I told you, anything that makes you happy." He said softly into my ear. A strange noise escaped my lips. "Hey, hey, Bella. Shh. It's okay." He calmed me, rubbing his arms up and down my back. "You look absolutely beautiful. Stunning. Speechless. I've never seen anyone so beautiful in all of my life." He said.
I continued to sob, I did not need his comfort. I pulled away from his embrace, and kissed him lightly on the lips.
"I'm so sorry. I'm so, so sorry." I whispered to him. Aaron hushed me.
"There is nothing to be sorry for. I love you, I want you to be happy, even if it's with a vampire." His smile was sad but sweet at the same time. I just brought him into my arms again.
"I love you." I whispered. Aaron sighed.
"And you know how I wish that it was enough." He kissed my forehead. "Just be happy. Have a happy life. Enjoy your life. Just know that I will always be here for you. Always. Whenever you need me, just call me, and I'll be there." He kissed me again and let me go as he started to walk towards the door.
"Wait!" I yelled and I ran to him, jumping into his arms, and I kissed him. I kissed him hard. He responded immediately, until a few seconds later, he pulled away and stared into my eyes.
"It's time for you to get married." He smirked at me, and I smiled weakly back.
He placed me back on the ground and walked out the door, just to turn back to me in the door frame.
"He's lucky to have you Bella. Love him, love him for the rest of your life, and I hope he does the same for you. You truly are the Guardian of my heart." And with that, he turned out of the room and out of my sight. All I could do was stand there.
I don't know how long it was, seconds? Minutes? I felt Alice slowly tug at my arm.
"Bella? Bella, it's time to go now." I nodded, and my complete sadness was replaced by anxiety, again, but I was somewhat excited as well. I'm getting married. To Edward. The man, well, vampire, that I love so much it hurts.
I only had happy thoughts of Aaron now. Maybe he would find someone else? I hoped with all of my might that he did. He deserved someone who could love him like the way I loved Edward.
I descended the stairs, my high-heels clicking on the wood. Charlie was waiting for me down the bottom, Alice and Rosalie stood in front of the giant wooden doors that opened to the Cullen's backyard. Charlie hooked his arm through mine, and I was elated at the thought that I would be able to see Edward. Alice had broken us up last night, she said it was bad luck. I gigged at my soon to be sister.
I heard the familiar tune start, and the doors opened wide. Rosalie and Alice stepped out, holding their bouquets. The setting sun made the whole backyard orange. The only guests here were the few vampires and Guardians that we knew.
My heart starting thumping even louder as the Wedding March began to play. Charlie placed the veil over my head.
"Go get him tiger." He winked at me, I laughed.
And then we took our first steps into the orange light and onto the blood red carpet, stretched down the middle. I took in all of my surroundings. There were blue streamers and flowers everywhere, the seats were midnight blue, I saw my blubbering mother in the front row as all the guests stood up to watch me walk slowly down the aisle. The Cullen's back yard has been transformed into a majestic chapel. Alice had done a fantastic job.
My eyes trailed up the rows of people, to the one person I was here for. Edward. He gazed at me and I stared right back. My eyes traveled all over his body. I almost stopped walking at the sight of him. He was absolutely dashing. His tux was a deep black, making his pale skin stand out, and his honey eyes blaze. I couldn't look away, even if I wanted to try. What I wanted to do was run to him and never let him go.
I finally reached the end of the aisle, and Charlie handed me over to Edward.
"Take care of her." He said. Edward nodded.
"Of course Charlie." Edward said. I sighed, a day without Edward was one day too long.
Edward led me up the end of the steps and we stood, hand in hand, in front of the minister. I gazed into Edward's eyes the whole time, hardly aware of anything surrounding us.
"You look stunning." Edward breathed. I smiled.
"So do you." I whispered back. He grinned crookedly.
"Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today, to celebrate the unity of this man, and this woman." I didn't hear much after that. All I could do was stare into the eyes that I loved, that belonged to the person I loved more than I thought I was capable of.
I finally snapped out of it when the minister said my name.
"Isabella Marie Swan. Do you take this man to be your lawfully wedded husband. Who you will love and cherish for the rest of your days?"
"I do." I whispered softly. Conveying all the love I had into those two small words as I placed the gold band onto his finger. Edward's eyes glistened as they looked down at his hand.
"Do you, Edward Anthony Masen Cullen, take Isabella Swan to be your lawfully wedded wife. Who you will love and cherish for the rest of your days?" The minister said in a deep voice.
Edward's eyes softened as he whispered the two words I would cherish forever.
"I do."
My heart broke out into a sprint and I grinned at him so widely that my cheeks hurt. He took my hand gently and softly pushed my small gold band onto my ring finger, where it would sit forever.
"I know pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss the bride." He told Edward.
"Gladly." Edward said and lifted the veil from my face and pressed his lips softly to mine. I locked my arms around his neck, and he tightened his grip around my waist. The small audience broke out into thunderous applause. As we broke apart, grinning like idiots at each other.
Edward's eyes grew wide and he glanced down at my thigh. I blushed as he looked at me with a wicked glint in his eye. He bent down, never loosing my gaze, grabbed my calf, and lifted my leg up. My face was no doubt as red as it could go.
Edward lifted up my dress so that it was around my thigh and grabbed the garter with his teeth and he slowly slid it down my leg. Emmett was booming out in laughter, no doubt at my face. Edward finally reached my ankle and then took the garter off of my body and threw it into the woods.
"Well, well, well," said a voice I instantly recognised and a growl began to rumble in my chest. "This is a lovely surprise."
I turned to see Johnathan holding my garter in his hands as he emerged from the forest, with six other red glows in the distance. Johnathan had returned, and he had brought friends.
Hhaha, SORRY! I know everyone hates cliff hangers!
I hope everyone enjoyed that! I really need
to get some mojo back for this story. So,
this is where you guys come in. If you feel
like it's been a long time since I have updated,
for example, 2 weeks feel free to kick my butt
in a PM. You guys are my rock :)
Once again, big thanks to KaitlynA14,
and every single one of my reviewers and
readers. I love you all :)
Please review :) I love it when you do :)
ps, I've got Bella's hair and Alice and Rosalie's dresses
on my profile if you wanted to have a look.
All my love,
-causewerewolvesdontsparklexx