Chapter 21: That Feeling When
AJ woke up to the sound of someone shifting around in the chair next to her bed…AJ rubbed her eyes and sat up slowly to see Punk knocked out on the chair. He looked worn out…he looked just flat out exhausted with today's events. First a huge argument between them that alone took some emotion out of her.
Then to have the birth of Christian added on to the overflow of his emotional and physical exhaustion… AJ couldn't help but feel so bad for everything. But at the same time she was still so pained by what had happen between him and Layla. Punk broke her heart but she couldn't just tell him to go away this time they had a child to think about now.
"Ms. Mendez" a voice said with a whisper
"Oh my goodness" AJ whispered as she saw Christian being wheeled in his small bassinet he was beautiful.
"I noticed that daddy was taking a nap so I was quiet…here is your baby" the nurse whispered placing Christian in her arms.
He was beautiful…it was just beyond amazing how much love AJ felt for him…and he hasn't even been in this world long. The nurse left to give the new mommy a moment…AJ felt tears well up in her eyes; he was the splitting image of his father.
The same eyes that captivated her heart with one simple glance from Punk…her new baby boy had. AJ held Christian close and placed kisses on his tiny hands and forehead. AJ looked over to Punk he was still sleeping…of course she knew he wanted to see his son so she began whispering his name so she wouldn't frighten Christian.
"Punk" AJ whispered softly but he was still out like a light.
"Dang it…hmm let me see" AJ whispered to herself looking around for something close by
"Ohh…let's wake daddy up huh baby" AJ said finding a small hospital booklet and tossing it at Punk's sleeping form.
"Ahh what happen…what" Punk said his eyes wide open darting back and forth.
"I'm what happen…I thought you might want to see someone who just joined me a while ago while you were snoozing away" AJ replied with a soft smile.
"Oh…hey there's my little guy" Punk said walking over to AJ and his brand new baby boy
"Want to hold him daddy" AJ whispered with a smile
"Oh…gee I don't really know how to" Punk replied nervously
"Well you're going to have to get used to it dad…I'm sure he's not going to want me holding all the time" AJ replied softly carefully handing Christian to Punk.
"Oh wow…you're a handsome one alright guess you got my looks huh" Punk whispered as he held Christian close.
Punk was surprised…the love he had for this small fragile creature was indescribable, he felt like he could never love anything more than this beautiful child in his arms. Punk glanced at AJ…she looked tired but she was still breathtaking.
"Thank you" Punk whispered softly
"For what" AJ asked with a quizzical look
"I know I hurt you and I know that this probably won't change things between us…I made a huge mistake and for that I'm so sorry" Punk replied sadly looking into his son's bright green eyes
"So what are you thanking me for then" AJ asked once again still confused
"For letting me be here for this moment and for letting me see my son even though it might be the last time I see him because of my stupidity" Punk replied trying to hold back tears
AJ felt like a shard of glass just struck her in the chest…she knew this was so hard for Punk; to see the birth of his son, but to feel the fear of not being able to see him again. AJ bit her lip she didn't want to cry not now.
"I have to step out for a bit…I need some air" Punk whispered his eyes getting red from holding back tears
AJ took Christian from Punk and held him closely.
"You both look great together…if I died right now this would be the last thing I'd want to see" Punk whispered standing by the hospital room door.
AJ smiled sadly and kissed Christian forehead
"I love you AJ…I love you both with all my heart and more and I always will just want you both to know that" Punk choked before walking out the door.
Once Punk walked out the door AJ broke into tears…she cried like she had never cried before she never knew a heart was capable of breaking so much. Punk walked into the waiting room to find the whole entire locker room was there…every single superstar.
Punk opened his mouth to say something but the words just wouldn't come out…next thing he knew Punk felt the sobs coming out. He hated this…appearing weak in front of people, for fear of someone coming up to ask him what was wrong he walked out of the hospital before anyone had the chance.
"What just happen" Kaitlyn asked softly getting glances and shrugs from everyone who was just as lost as she was.
Punk got into his car and just let it all out…a scream first and then the tears came
"Damn it…Damn it" Punk sobbed banging in the car steering wheel…Punk was so lost and empty he just felt like there was nothing he could do…and he hated it.