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Chapter 21: Beautiful War
Beautiful War - Kings of Leon
"Everybody's been here least once before
We've been here more
Your heart breaks
Rolls down the window
I've seen it all go, come back around
And I've heard the sound
The tip of your tongue
The top of your lungs is doing my head in
I say, "Love, love don't mean nothing
Unless there's something worth fighting for."
It's a beautiful war"
"No..." Harrison gasped.
Olivia nodded as she laid down on his bed next to him. They were both lying down fully clothed staring at the ceiling on Harrison's bed.
"I don't even want to think about it."
"I mean you might not be pregnant. You took your birth control with a pill that could effect it. And then you had sex once with faulty condoms."
"It wasn't once Harry."
"How many times Liv?"
"I don't know. We used about maybe 10 or 12."
"Pardon me?" Harrison choked.
"Probably more. I don't know." Olivia sighed.
"You mean to tell me in the span in a few days you had sex 10 or 12 days with Professor—" Harrison stopped himself. "No. I don't want to think about that."
"Like I said, I can't think about it."
"What are you going to do?"
"I don't know. I don't think he agrees with abortion."
"So you're going to have a kid?!"
"I guess." Olivia swallowed. None of this felt real at all.
"I can't believe this."
"Stop." Olivia spat. She truly couldn't believe it either. She felt as if everything around her was spinning rapidly out of control.
"Boy or Girl?"
"Boy I guess."
"I think you'll make a good mother Livvy."
"Harrison I'm 23. I can barely take care of myself... Look at the mess I'm in right now. There's no way I can bring a child into this."
"You'll figure this out." Harrison smiled. "You know I'm always here for you."
"I know." Olivia smiled. "But think about it Harrison, what am I going to say?"
"About what?"
"The father..."
"You could always say its me—"
"No, I can't. That might work while I'm pregnant. And then I'll give birth to a biracial child and it won't make sense."
"What about Fitz?"
"Can you imagine if it got out that Stanford Alumni got one of their students pregnant? Gerry would kill me himself."
"Who the fuck is Gerry?" Harrison laughed.
"Fitz's estranged ego maniac father."
"Estranged father?" Harrison sighed.
"He's the reason why Fitz and Mellie are together. He's trying to get Fitz to marry in the right circle."
"Your life sounds like one big soap opera Liv."
"Tell me about it." Olivia sighed. "When did everything get so out of control."
"Come here." Harrison sighed as he wrapped his arm around Olivia. She rested her head onto his chest.
"Enough about me, hows Carla?"
"She's good. I really like her Liv."
"And does she like you back?"
Harrison nodded smugly.
"Then go for it."
"What?!"
"Break up with me and date her."
"But what are you going to do about—"
"I'll figure it out." Olivia smiled. "I can't ask you to sacrifice anything more for me. Especially as there's no way you can be my baby daddy." Olivia laughed.
"Did you really just say baby daddy?"
"I did." Olivia laughed. "I'm serious though Harrison. I want you to be with her. No more hiding out in your bed. You can't put your life on hold because I got myself knocked up."
"I'd better be a god father."
"Obviously." Olivia laughed as she sat up. "I'd better get going."
"Okay." Harrison sighed getting up with her.
"The second I start to waddle, you tell me." Olivia teased as she got up from the bed and left.
Harrison and Olivia joined their group of friends at their lunch table later that day.
"I don't want to hear anything about it." Harrison said sitting down. "Olivia and I are no longer together."
Quinn, Abby and Huck gasped all at once.
"Why?!" Abby panted. Quinn nudged her in the stomach telling her to shut up.
"We broke up. People break up." Olivia said.
"But why are you so calm?!" Abby protested. She couldn't believe this.
"Because we were best friends before and we will remain that way." Harrison said sharply. He was tired of Abby's constant prying into everyones business.
"Are you okay Liv?" Huck asked.
"I'm fine Huck." Olivia smiled.
"Nice... Is no one going to ask me if I'm okay?" Harrison said sarcastically.
"No." Quinn shot up. "You probably cheated on her. What did you do?" She scowled.
"I did not cheat!" Harrison fired.
"He didn't cheat." Olivia said. "We just decided it would be best for us to go back to being friends."
"Really? And did you decide this before or after you decided to plaster Olivia's neck with love marks?" Abby spat at Harrison.
"Abby you know what go fuc—" Harrison began to say getting up.
"Stop it you two." Olivia said intervening. "I have to go. I just thought we should tell you guys." Olivia said before getting up and leaving the building.
"Where have you been?" Fitz said as Olivia entered his house.
"I went for a run." Olivia sighed as she hung up her sweater at the front. "It helps clear my mind."
"You're all sweaty." Fitz said. He couldn't help but admire her amazing body. She was standing before him in capri jogging pants and a sports bra. Sweaty or not she looked absolutely incredible.
"I know." Olivia sighed as she tried to fan herself.
"Come here." Fitz smiled as he beckoned for her to come over to his stool.
Olivia walked over to him and wrapped her sweaty arms around him. "I probably smell like a gym bag."
"You do." Fitz laughed as he cradled her face and kissed her. Olivia kissed him back as she wrapped her hands around his neck. Their kiss was short lived as Teddy entered the house causing them to pull away.
"Hola." Teddy smiled.
"Teddy." Fitz growled. It was the first time in a while he had kissed Olivia and it was too short for his liking.
"Hey." Teddy grinned as he walked towards them.
"Hey Teds." Olivia said still facing Fitz with her arms around him leaving her back to him.
"Liv." Teddy smiled as he walked by. His eyes scanned her body up down and back again before taking a seat on the couch.
Fitz could have sworn he just saw Teddy check Olivia out but he decided to leave it.
"Well." Olivia sighed. "I'm going to go shower." Olivia said giving Fitz a quick kiss before going up the stairs.
Teddy's eyes diverted as he watched Olivia's hips sway as she moved up the stairs. Teddy then got up and moved to get something to eat.
Fitz completely caught that and was now 200% sure of what he saw. As soon as he heard the bathroom door open and close he pounced; pinning Teddy to the wall. He grabbed the front of his shirt with his fists.
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?!" Fitz snarled. Fitz was slightly taller than Teddy however Teddy was in the Navy, therefore much stronger and buffer.
"WHAT THE FUCK HAS GOTTEN INTO YOU?" Teddy barked.
"WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU STARING AT OLIVIA'S ASS. I SAW YOU DO IT TWICE." Fitz spat as he tightened his grip on Teddy's shirt.
Teddy smirked. If he wanted he could have pinned Fitz to the floor and beat him until he was black and blue. However he just refrained allowing his brother to shine.
"DO YOU THINK THIS IS FUCKING FUNNY TED?!" Fitz snarled. The veins in his neck were practically popping out.
"Relax." Teddy sighed. He had no desire to fight Fitz over something so stupid.
"WHY ARE YOU CHECKING OUT MY GIRLFRIEND TEDDY?" Fitz boomed. Fitz clenched his fists tighter on Teddy's shirt.
Teddy had some self composure unlike Fitz who was a complete hot head. However he knew the exact things to say to rile people up. Fitz was beginning to piss him off and he knew exactly what to do.
"Did I not already tell you she has the perfect ass." Teddy sneered. He was beginning to get angry.
"EXCUSE ME!" Fitz roared as he banged Teddy into the wall.
"I'd love to get her on her on stomach." Teddy spat.
Teddy was getting a rise out of Fitz and he liked it. He had no intentions of hurting him with his fists so he might as well use his words.
Fitz backed up formed a fist and lunged it at Teddy. Unfortunately for him Teddy caught it almost instantly.
"You don't want to go there." Teddy growled crushing Fitz's hand. He released his hold on the fist before storming out of the house.
Fitz stood there enraged as he watched Teddy leave.
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"Where's Teddy?" Olivia said coming downstairs finding Fitz sitting down on the couch alone.
"Fitz?" Olivia said confused as he ignored her. She sat beside him and turned to him. "What's wrong?"
Fitz continued to ignore her and stare ahead of him.
"FITZ!" She boomed as she turned his head to face her.
"Teddy's gone." Fitz spat.
"Why? What happened?"
"He basically told me he wants to fuck you." Fitz growled.
"What?!" Olivia said shocked. "But—"
"But nothing." Fitz hissed.
"Who's Ramona Fitz?" Olivia said trying to puzzle together what was going on.
"Teddy's ex." Fitz snarled turning his head around.
"No... No no no." Olivia said shaking her head as she realized what was going on. "Where is he?" Olivia said getting up.
"I don't give a fuck where he is." Fitz spat. "He can go to hell."
Olivia shook her head before going to the front putting on her shoes and heading off into the night.
"Teddy!" Olivia cried running over to him. Finally after an hour of searching she found him coming out of a bar off of campus.
"Liv." Teddy sighed.
"What the hell is going on!" She said pulling her SUV up to him.
"Nothing." Teddy said as he got in the car.
"What happened between you and Fitz Ted? He's gone fucking ballistic."
"He's being immature." Teddy sighed.
"Do you want to tell me your side of the story Ted? Or do you just want me to piece together what I think is going on right now."
"Try me."
"I think you miss this Ramona girl. Whoever she is. And I... I must be the first girl to listen to you or
take the time to get to know you after her. So you're trying to look for her in me." Olivia said.
Teddy swallowed hard at her words while continuing to look out the window.
"Teddy I'm not her. Trust me, I know exactly how you feel. I did the exact same thing with my friend Harrison. I tried to convince myself he was Fitz when Fitz cut me off. But it's not the same. You still care about her don't you?"
Teddy continued to remain silent.
"Teddy..." Olivia sighed. Suddenly her phone started to ring; Fitz was calling her.
"You should probably get that." Teddy spat.
"It can wait." Olivia said ignoring the call.
"Olivia I really don't want to talk about this." Teddy snarled.
"Just tell me. Do you still love her?"
Teddy ignored her.
"Teddy please." Olivia sighed.
Teddy turned to her and nodded.
"Its not over then Ted. Love will always find a way back. We'll get her back."
"It's not that easy Liv. She hates me." Teddy said turning to face the window.
"We will get her back." Olivia said holding his hand. "Do you trust me?"
Teddy nodded his head.
"Okay then." She sighed. "Now lets get you home." Olivia said as she reversed and drove off into the night.
"We're back." Olivia said as she walked Teddy inside Fitz's house.
Fitz walked out from the living room to stand opposite to them in the hallway.
"I've been calling you non stop..."
"I know. But I was busy." Olivia sighed. "Anyways I'm going to go now. You two please talk it out. I'll call you later." She smiled before leaving.
"I'm sorry." Teddy spat.
"For what?" Fitz growled. "For burning holes in my girlfriend's ass or saying you want to get in her into bed."
"Both." Teddy sighed.
Fitz nodded. "Ramona isn't it?"
Teddy nodded. "Its always her."
"Where is she Ted?"
"San Diego maybe LA. I truly don't know." Teddy swallowed. "She could be anywhere."
"Are you done trying to sleep with anything that walks? Are you finally ready to try again with her?"
Teddy nodded. "After seeing you and Olivia. I guess it slapped me in the face with what I could have. What I should have."
"Lets go find your girl Ted." Fitz sighed as he walked over to his brother. They shook hands before embracing quickly. They both walked back to the living room as Teddy hung his arm around Fitz's neck like usual.
The next day:
"5 minutes and then we start studying again." Olivia said. She had finally began helping Fitz start studying for his BAR exam.
"5 minutes?!" Fitz laughed. "You're more strict than me!
"The only reason its 5 is because I have to pee." Olivia laughed. "Otherwise there would be no break."
"You're a cruel cold hearted woman." Fitz sighed as he lied back on his bed.
"Yes but you love me anyways." Olivia smiled straddling him. She peppered his face with kisses.
"Unfortunately." Fitz teased as he kissed her lips. Intiatally intending for it to be a brief kiss, however it turned into an expression of passion as they both deepened the kiss allowing them to savour each others tongues. Olivia slid her hands down his chest and Fitz sat up placing his hands underneath her shirt. He crept his hands up and underneath her bra. Fitz teased and pulled on her nipples making them hard causing Olivia to gasp into his mouth. Fitz moved his lips to her neck begging to kiss on her weak spot.
"We can't." Olivia panted as she ran her fingers through his hair.
"I know." Fitz breathed through his kisses on her neck.
"So stop." Olivia moaned as she ground her hips into his lap.
"I can't. You know I can't." Fitz panted as he pushed her onto her back. He worked his way down to kiss on her lower stomach.
"Nope. Nope." Olivia panted getting as she rolled them over and got out of his lap. "We can't." She said scurrying into the bathroom.
Fitz looked down at arousal in his pants before sighing and lying back down. He knew she was absolutely right. Because of his faulty condoms, they could be pregnant. He closed his eyes and breathed deeply for a few moments.
Before he knew it Olivia came out of the bathroom with a strange look on her face.
"Did you wash your hands Olivia?" Fitz said raising his eyebrow.
Olivia shook her head.
"Well can you?" Fitz teased.
"I..." Olivia choked. "I just got my period."
"What?!" Fitz said jumping up.
"I got my period." Olivia said again not even being able to process what she was saying. Her and Fitz were so certain she was pregnant that hadn't even considered that she might not be.
Before Olivia knew it Fitz had her in his arms rubbing her back. Olivia wrapped her arms around him exhaling for the the first time.
"Oh my god." She sighed.
"We're not pregnant." Fitz exhaled.
"We're not pregnant." Olivia breathed.
They hovered in that embrace for what felt like ages before Fitz finally broke the silence again. He lifted Olivia up and sat her on the foot of the bed.
"I want you to listen to me. I very much want you to be the mother of my children. But I think we can both agree, the timing wasn't right." He breathed.
Olivia nodded as she took her hand in his.
"I can't wait for the day that I have kids with you. But when that day comes, I want us to be married." Fitz smiled.
Olivia eyes began to water. She had absolutely no idea he thought of their future in the same way she did.
"I'm going to marry you Olivia Pope. I want you to make an honest man out of me. Because I see us married, living in a house along the beach with 3 kids and a dog." Fitz swallowed.
Olivia was unable to hold back her tears. "I love you." was all she was able to choke out.
"I love you." Fitz said pressing his lips to hers tenderly.
Through the next couple of days Fitz, Olivia and Teddy worked tirelessly to find Ramona. Through phonebooks, facebook, twitter any type of social media they could find. Gerry had done an excellent job in making sure it would be near to impossible to locate Ramona. Thereby making Teddy miserable forever.
"Teddy!" Olivia shouted looking up from her laptop. "Is this her?"
Teddy jolted up from his chair. He raced over to Olivia to find a picture of a group of girls standing outside a restaurant with Ramona at the end.
"That's her! That's Ramona." Teddy said shaking his head unbelievably.
Fitz looked up from the couch as he had dozed off to sleep. "What?" He said groggily. "Did you find her?"
"Yes! Come over here." Olivia sighed.
Fitz made his way over to the computer to see Ramona with a group of friends on the screen.
"How did you find it?"
"It took me a while but women know exactly how to track down things. Especially on the internet." Olivia smiled.
"When was this taken?"
"3 weeks ago. Apparently she's living in LA now."
Teddy swallowed hard as he felt a pit form in his stomach.
"Teddy?" Fitz said looking at him. "What do you think?"
"I think she hates Fitz. I don't even know what to say. I don't even know what can be said."
"You'll think of something Ted." Olivia smiled.
"You're going to LA. You have to find her when you go." Fitz said.
"Will she even want to see me? She could be married for all I know. Its been ages."
"You'll never know unless you try. You'll continue to regret this for the rest of your life." Fitz sighed.
Teddy nodded. He knew what they were saying was nothing but truth. But still, he was scared.
Later that night Olivia and Fitz were lying in bed tired from all of the searching.
"I don't think so." Olivia smiled.
"Fine two boys and a girl." Fitz laughed stroking her hair.
"They'd gang up on her!" Olivia laughed.
"If we have two girls and a boy they'd dress him up and put makeup on him."
"So what do you suggest?"
"2 of each." Fitz grinned.
"You are out of your mind. I am NOT having 4 kids."
"Why not?!"
"I'd sag to the floor! Theres no way so just forget it."
"You are ridiculous. I want 4 and you want 3."
"Actually I want 2." Olivia laughed. "Twins preferable so I only have to through labour once."
"So selfish." Fitz teased.
"I'd like to see you push out 4 kids." Olivia spat.
"You see I'd love to but that's not how nature intended it to be." Fitz smiled. "I'll just hold your hand."
"And I'll scream at you and blame you."
"I can't even imagine how feisty you're going to be pregnant."
"Pardon?" Olivia laughed.
"When we first met I didn't know if you were going to yell at me, call me a bastard or shove your tongue down my throat."
"I didn't know half the time either." Olivia blushed.
"Do you remember the first time you came over?"
"Of course." Olivia laughed. "I never would have imagined that having sex with you would turn into this."
"Me either." Fitz said. "But I'm glad it did."
"So am I." Olivia said kissing his chest.
"So how do you feel? About officially not being pregnant."
"I love you." Olivia said. "But I'm relieved. The timing was wrong and I'm only 23, there's so much I want to do with you before we have kids."
"Like what?" Fitz smiled.
"I want to go to Paris with you." Olivia blushed. "I want to do all of those cheesy romantic touristy things couples do."
"You're adorable." Fitz laughed.
"Shut up." Olivia blushed. "By the way, I have something to tell you and I don't think you're going to like it."
Fitz frowned. "Just tell me."
"I've been thinking and I think we should stop having sex until allergy season is over."
"You're right... I don't like this." Fitz groaned. "When does allergy season end?"
"I don't know." Olivia sighed. "Hopefully in a few months."
"A FEW MONTHS?!" Fitz barked.
"Yes." Olivia said.
"A FEW AS IN 3 OR 4!?"
Olivia nodded.
"You have got to kidding me." He spat. "I won't last a week."
"You'll be fine." Olivia smiled. "Besides we can still kiss."
"Outline this for me. What are the do's and don't's."
"We can kiss but that's it."
Fitz exhaled loudly. "What?! WHY!"
"Because then we'll get tempted to do more so we're keeping it PG."
"How about 14A?"
"PG-13." Olivia sighed.
"What the hell is the difference?" Fitz laughed.
"PG-13 has sexuality. 14A could include nudity." Olivia laughed.
"We have to remain clothed?!" Fitz gasped. "You know what, I'm going to bed. Goodnight." He growled turning away from her and getting into the bed.
"I love you Fitzgerald." Olivia laughed.
"Yeah yeah me too." Fitz teased.
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