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Summary: "So why Tokyo?" She knew the answer but she wanted to know it from him. "No extradition." "So you're a regular cowboy? Bet your mama's proud." She replied as a joke and saw him smile as she swept her bangs from her face. "She is." Han had a thing for motorcycles, leather and pretty girls a long time before Giselle came around. Based on the song "You and I" By Lady Gaga, named after "Mama's Don't let your babies grow up to be cowboys" By Willie Nelson and Waylon Jennings. Spoilers for everything from Better Luck Tomorrow (where Han Lue is introduced to the criminal world) to all five Fast and Furious movies. So if I ruin it for anyone…sorry!

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Playlist-
Dancing with Tears in My Eyes – Kesha
Jar of Hearts – Christina Perri

Chapter Twenty- One – In which fear is conquered

Who do you think you are?
Running around leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're going to catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?
-Christina Perri

Sure enough, after Jules had parked her bike and walked up to her apartment she spotted someone sitting outside the door. Taking a deep breath, she already knew who it was as she stepped up to the door and he scrambled to his feet.

"Hey JJ."

"Only my family call me that. What are you doing here Jordan?" She asked and started to unlock the door, typing in the security code and letting him inside.

"I don't know." He replied, walking in and Jules threw her bags on the kitchen floor and unzipped her jacket turning around to face the steely grey eyes of Jordan as he stood a metre from her.

"I'll tell you what I know – you left Tiff at the altar and next thing I know you're on my doorstep." She tried to keep her voice level.

"Tiff and I…" he started but trailed off.

"Tiff and you what? She wasn't the one? You got on a plane and flew to Tokyo because you realised Tiff wasn't the one?" She practically screamed in his face.

"Yes, because it's you Jules, it's always been you!" He shouted back and Jules froze.

"No, no, no. This isn't happening." She muttered as she paced the kitchen back and forth.

"It's happening Jules. I'm here." He said holding out his arms and she slapped them away.

"You can't be here. " She hissed and Jordan laughed slightly.

"Jules…"

"You cheated on me you asshole!" she screamed at him.

"It was a mistake, I was scared." He pleaded and Jules scoffed at him.

"You were scared? I was pregnant with your kid and you went and slept with my best friend!" She shrieked. "And then you and her almost got married. Did you think about what you've done to her? Leaving her at the altar in front of all her friends and family? Your friends and family?" She saw the realisation dawn on Jordans face.

"But Jules…"

"Don't but Jules me you prick. Get out." She ordered, pointing to the door unable to deal with him calmly right now. Holding his hands up in surrender he nodded.

"I'll come by tomorrow when you've calmed down." He said quietly and headed towards the door.

"Fuck off!"

Jules looked at her phone again. Still no calls from Han. She didn't know whether to be happy or sad that he hadn't tried to contact her. After all she'd been the one to break it off. But that had been before she'd actually seen Jordan and all the pain had come back. All the pain that she'd tried so hard to supress with drugs and alcohol not so many months ago, that Han had had to drag her away from.

Taking a deep breath she reassured herself that she needed to do this alone. She had to deal with Jordan alone. First she had to check that Neela hadn't lost a few brain cells since she'd last seen her. She waited four rings before Neela answered.

"Did you fall and hit your head?" She asked before her cousin could even ask her how she was.

"Hi Jules, look, I know I should have called."

"There shouldn't have been a need to call. What are you doing?" She asked pacing her bedroom.

"Takashi apologised. I mean, we've both changed. It was bound to happen. I just ran at the first sign of change. I'm sorry for worrying you." Neela replied and Jules sighed. She couldn't really hate her cousin for being young and in love.

"It's okay Neels, you could have called is all." She replied softly.

"Were you at the school today?" She asked and Jules sighed.

"Twink got into a fight. I had to pick him up." Running a hand through her hair Jules stopped pacing and sat down on her bed. "I've got some things I have to do so I have to go Neela. Be careful."

"Thanks for calling Jules. You too." Hanging up Jules went for a shower before crawling into bed and pulling her laptop on her lap and going through the company's schedule for the next week.

She tried to sleep sometime after twelve but it never came. The events of the most turbulent three days of her life rolling around in her head all night wouldn't let her. She suddenly wished she was at Hans where at least he would let her yap his ear off until she could sleep.

The next day was a hard day for Jules to get through as she ran around the city picking up items and buying fabric before running back to her work building and helping Joanna. They had to organise another show downtown for the following week and organising the models to walk in the show. And Jules day only got worse when she saw who walked through the doors in their tight jeans and polo shirts, designer handbags hanging from their arms.

"Oh, you still work here." Lolita said looking Jules up and down.

"Yep, surely do." She snapped back and led the group of three models over to the rack with their dresses on them.

"I thought you went back to Australia or something." Sweeping her long blonde hair over her shoulder Jules took a deep breath and faced the girl.

"I went home for a few months. I've been back for awhile now. Now, can you three get dressed so we can start rehearsals?" With as much dignity as she could, Jules stalked off towards the rest of the girls.

"Jack is better off without you." Lolita added causing Jules to pause momentarily, much to the chagrin of the girls with her.

"Well believe me, I'm a lot better off without all of you. I hope you're really happy together in your drug fucked little world. But if you want to pay for that nasty habit of yours Lolita- put the damn dress on and stop fucking around." She snapped before heading off again. Satisfied that the blonde was well and truly put back in her place.

By the time she fell through the door it was late and she knew she was in for another restless night as she stripped off and climbed into bed.

The following day as she walked into her building after going down to the nearest coffee shop and getting a cappuccino and a muffin Jules heard someone walk in behind her and sure enough by the time she reached her door, Jordan Porter had reached her.

"Hey Jules." He threw her a smile that used to be heartstopping. His steely blue grey eyes smiling with them as he stuck his hands in the deep pockets of his faded Levi jeans, the sleeves of his white button up shirt rolled up to his elbows. She could understand why she'd liked American Jack now- they had an uncanny resemblance.

"You have five minutes before I call someone to kick you out. Got it?" she said and opened the door, letting him in as he nodded and walked in, taking a seat on the couch. "So, what're you doing here?" She asked, after shutting the door behind her and walking into the apartment.

"I thought marrying Tiff was what I wanted. Then when I got up there and she was there, realised that it wasn't her I wanted." He said and Jules' eyebrows shot up. "All I could see was you. And I realised it was always you. I only cheated on you with her because I was scared. You told me you were pregnant and I freaked out. I wasn't ready for kids." He said and Jules shrugged, trying to remain calm.

"That doesn't excuse what you did Jordan." She replied.

"No, I know it doesn't, but I'm so sorry Jules. It was wrong and I hurt you and I know that." He looked up at her with glassy eyes. "Please forgive me Jules." He begged and Jules shook her head.

"I don't know if I can, Jordan. You really hurt me." She replied, trying to hold her resolve against his sad grey eyes.

"Please Jules, I'll never do that to you again. I want to marry you and have kids with you back home." Jules shook her head, the tears finally breaking free.

"I might be able to forgive you Jordan, but you and I are never going to happen." She choked back a sob. "We're not going to get married or have any kids!"

"Why not?" Jordan begged.

"Because I can't have kids Jordan! After I miscarried the doctor told me I can't have kids." She sobbed and wiped bashfully at her cheeks to get rid of the tears. Jordan was on his feet straight away and walking towards her, and she let him pull her into a hug.

"I'm so sorry Jules." He said into her hair and she sobbed loudly. "You should have told me."

"You shouldn't have fucked Tiff." She replied and Jordan nodded, leading her over to sit on the couch.

"I'm sorry Jules." He said, his arms still wrapped around her and Jules nodded into his chest before pulling back.

"You have to go back to Tiff, Jordan. You can't just leave her at the altar like that, it's not right." She looked him dead in the eye. "The Jordan I fell in love with all those years would never have done that."

"But I don't want Tiff…"

"I don't care what you want Jordan, this is about making things right. What you did to Tiff was way worse than what you did to me. You publicly humiliated her. You need to fix whatever damage you left. You've got to stop running from your problems." Trying to get the message through Jordans thick skull was like trying to hammer concrete.

"You always knew what was right Jules." He said quietly and Jules nodded.

"It's time you listened to me Jordan. Running from me didn't help you feel any better, believe me, running from Tiff is a whole different load of shit. She is going to kill you if you don't go back." He nodded and she sighed, brushing her hand across his cheek gently. "Don't ever tell her you came here."

"I won't."

"Good." Jules nodded and Jordan pulled away from her.

"So you still with that guy?" he asked and Jules shrugged.

"I'm not sure. There's been a lot going on in the last few days, we're just taking some time to sort our shit out." She replied and watched him nod slowly.

"I'm part of that shit right?" Jules nodded.

"Yeah, you are."

"Did you tell him about me?" He asked and Jules nodded. "Did you tell him I was here?" Jules shook her head at this question.

"It's better that way- believe me." She insisted and Jordan took this as his turn to nod. "I'm happy here Jordan. I don't regret what we had, but I'm not going back there."

"So I don't have a chance?"

"Not a chance." She laughed and Jordon nodded, standing up and looking down at her.

"Thanks for being honest Jules. It means a lot."

"Next time you should just call, flying to Tokyo was a bit extreme." He nodded in recognition and made his way towards the door.

"I'm sorry for what I did." Jules nodded.

"Go and find Tiff." And he was gone. Jules fell back into the couch and sighed. She couldn't believe it had been only three days since she'd last seen Han. Three days and she'd faced up with what she had to, plus a few more including Lolita who was apparently sleeping with American Jack these days.

And finally after all of that Jordan Porter had walked out of her life. Tears streamed down her cheeks as she finally really cried since she'd left Australia. Brushing the tears away she realised that right now there was somewhere else she should have been.

She changed out of her heels and dress and pulled on her jeans and a t-shirt, pulling a knitted green cardigan on and grabbing her purse before going towards the door, thankful that it had become dark since she'd gotten home and hailed a cab.

Still wiping her tears as she paid for the taxi, Jules climbed out of the vehicle and made her way into the garage. It was dead silent and she was about to call out when she saw Han come out onto the landing and spot her standing there wiping at her moist eyes. He came down the stairs quickly and started towards her, only stopping when her reached her.

Without a word Jules wrapped her arms around his neck and started to sob again, glad to have Hans arms wrap around her tightly and pull her into him.

"I'm so sorry." She said between sobs.

A/N: Their fight was very short lived I know- review!