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When I Look At You
I held my breath. My father just stared at me and then looked to the ground. I never saw my father so...upset. Not even when his parents died. "What is it?" I said. He has to tell me something. "Please dad say something! I need to know how she is." I had it with the hospital. I need to know now. My beautiful, sweet Bella is in the room across from my fathers office and it took everything in me not to go in there. She is dead. I know it, but he needs to tell me. I need it to be confirmed.
"Edward, she....she is not breathing." I took a huge breath for the information I had been waiting for. "But not dead." He said not dead. Not dead? Could that even be possible? If she is not breathing then she must be dead. Thats what dead means. Not breathing. I know I should be happy right now but...it makes no sense to me.
"How could that be?" I whispered.
"Well she is in a coma. The amount of blood she lost was extreme, but she could fight it. The reason she slipped into this coma was because she had some brain damage. It looked like it was cause from banging her head on something. If we get someone to operate on her head she might have a better chance of living, but it is a risk. A procedure such as this is very hard to do. Some people never come out of a coma like this and if they do they have some brain problems." He did not say she will die. He said it was a risk and she might die and have a bit of brain damage. That maybe so, but it is better then her being dead. We still have a chance at this. Me and her. Forever. I nodded my head and tried to hold back the tears. I will make sure she will survive this and that we will have the happy ending we deserve.
"May I see her?" I could not even hear my own voice.
"Yes." He walked me out of his office then stopped and then stopped me. "Edward, if she does not make it please, for your mothers sake, do not do anything stupid." He was talking about me killing myself. I could not make that promise. I will not live in a world she does not live in.
"I promise." I lied.
He nodded and let me go in without another word. I closed my eyes and prepared myself. I opened the door a little and peaked my head inside. The only sound was the beeping that came from the machine that was keeping her alive. I opened the door all the way and stared at her. She looked like a sleeping angel. Even with the tube on her neck she was my angel. Her eyes were closed but her mouth was open. It made me laugh a little because she always slept with her mouth a little open. Slowly, I walked over to her bedside. I got the chair and brought it closer to the bed. I took her small, fragile hand in mine and cried. It was my fault. Everything was my fault. If I did not look at her the way I did everyday then Mike might not have hit her. It was so stupid of me to go over her house to see if she need someone to walk with her. Of course, Mike will take her to school! It was because of me that she was in here. That is what hurts. I put her life in danger and even though I wanted to protect her the only thing I did was put her into more danger.
I would never make that mistake again. "Bella," my voice broke a little. I moved a piece of hair out of her face. "Bella you have to wake up. I can't stay on this earth without you. Please. Don't go." I broke at the end. I couldn't take it anymore. I had to let the tears fall. I cried for a long time. Every time I looked at her the tears came. When the tears silenced I stayed in her room till visiting hours were over. I kissed her cheek and looked at her one last time before I left. "Night, love." I whispered.
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I went home, but could not sleep. I walked into my music room. This was a place for me to into and relax. My parents knew that music was one of the loves in my life, so the gave me a room for it. A baby grand piano right in the middle and surrounding it was a million copies of music. On one side was my favorite copies then the other was the ones I played for family occasions. That side also held my music. I only wrote music when something happened or something hit me. But now..now I was using music to help me. It was like a safety blanket for me. It helped me.
I sat down at the piano and ran my fingers across the keys. I felt safer. I hit middle C and let out a breath. From then on the music came pouring out of me. I made this by thinking of Bella. It was her song. I wrote it down and tried to perfect it. It was a sweet and loving song. It was just like her. "Bella's Lullaby" I called it. It was a song I will play for her when she woke up. To let her know I will never leave her again. That she will be mine forever. I played it over and over again until I heard someone walking downstairs. "Edward?" It was Alice.
"In here, Alice," I whispered.
"What are you doing up?" She asked with a sleepy look in her eyes.
"Couldn't sleep. To many things going on in my mind. How about you? What are you doing up?"
"Same. Sleep is not my friend tonight." She looked at the sheet music on the stand and eyed me. "What are you working on before I interrupted? It sounded beautiful."
"Oh I..." I never liked telling my family what I was working on. They would always bother me about it. Especially Emmett. He would call me a girl because I loved to write music that he called "girly music". He never like the classics. "Um just something to keep my mind off of..you know."
She nodded. "You mind if I look?"
I shook my head.
She sat next to me and read the music. She couldn't read it so it was funny. "Will you play it?"
"Sure."
I played the song for her, but never looked at her. I could tell she was crying. She knew what and who it was about. Bella was like a sister to her, so of course she would feel pain. When I finished I hung my head and began to cry with her. She put her head on my shoulder and tried to stop, but me crying just made it worse. When we were finished our crying she looked at me with love in her eyes. Alice was the best sister a guy could ask for. Even though she was one annoying pixie, she had her loving moments.
"It was beautiful, Edward." she whispered.
"Thank you. I just hope she hears it." I hung my head again and almost cried at the thought of her dying and not hearing it.
"She will, Edward. Your Bella is a little trooper. She can make it though anything. Just believe in her and your love. Trust me." She said with a twinkle in her eye.
"How do you know, Alice? How do you know she can make it though it? I can't lose her. If I do I...I don't know what I will do."
"Don't you dare talk like that, Edward Anthony Cullen! I promise you that she will get though this. And if not you have to promise me that you will not to anything crazy. Please."
I just looked at her and shook my head no.
"Please! For me. Lie to me if you have to, but say it!"
I paused for a moment and nodded. "I promise."
"Thank you." she said.
"We should get some sleep. I have a lot to do tomorrow."
She nodded and kissed me on my cheek and went upstairs. I breathed in and out and closed the piano then put the music on the shelf where I could find it. I shut the lights and walked upstairs.
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