My limp body gently fell to the sandy bottom of the sea. Woah, I was a long way down.
The water was nearly black down here; dark, slithery fish swam past me as my eyes began to loose focus. The salt stang.
Did it usually take this long to drown? Maybe it was because I'm not weak and human. Not like Mia. Who could die so easily.
Was she going to die now?
Because of me?
Well it was because of her I was here now, at the bottom of the ocean, dying. Wishing so many things had been different.
That Mia never had cancer. Thet Jacob had told me about our love sooner. That Mum and Dad never argued, and I saw Grandpa Charlie a bit more. Maybe that would make my life better.
My short, short life.
I'm only 11. Why does everyone else get to live longer than me?
Its not fair.
Its not fair to leave Jacob like that. Or Mum or Dad, with no goodbyes. Its not right to leave Mia, alone and ill, without her best friend beside her.
Its not fair on me having to die for it.
I don't want to die.
And suddenly I realized that. Was is too late? I could feel my concience slipping away ... but I held on. Summoning my last strength, I pushed myself up slightly. Come on Nessie. Do it for Mum. I kicked my legs and propelled myself up a foot. Do it for Dad. Another foot. Do it for Jacob ... I swam up another three or four feet. Do it for Mia.
I was nearly there; the water was now bright blue. I could see it. I could see the sky ...
Oh.
But now I'm falling back down. The pain is like a thousand knives, stabbing me everywhere. The air has ran out. So has my time. I did try, Mia. I tried. So I lay back on the sandy floor, slipping in and out of darkness. I was nearly there ... I wrapped my fingers round the heavy locket round my neck and everything seemed a tiny bit less scary. A tiny bit.
Its nearly over. I can feel it.
Mum?
I can almost see my mother's beautiful face, and her dark hair billowing in the sea. And my Dad, so eerily white. And now Jacob, so beautiful and angelic it hurt. And Esme and Carslile and Emmett and Alice and Rosalie and Jasper. And Mia ...
"I love you," they all mouthed in unison. I managed a smile, though now the pain was almost unbearable. The water was like ice on my weak skin. Everyone I love is here. And the pain might still be here, but they're here too.
My eyes forced themselves shut as my the weight of the water crushed down on me harder. Goodbye world ...
And when I thought it was all over, and the pain almost finished, someone grabbed my arm. They pulled me up and up as I flashed between dark unconciousness and cruel painfull reality.
And all of a sudden my head broke the surface; I opened my stinging eyes and breathed. Air.
I was out.
I was alive.