Brooke'

February 4th

"Sweetheart I got you're parents on the line" Dr. Scott breezed in shortly after Nathan came inside. Groaning I took the phone which she had on speaker my voice was even raspier than usual as I croaked out a forced "Hello?" My breathing was weak at best laying my head on Nathan's chest my heart just wasn't in this conversation but I tried.

"Brooke what the hell are you doing? This is a new low even for you I have never in my life met a more selfish ignorant opportunistic bitch in my life"

I wish I could say I was shocked that my mom instantly thought I was lying but I wasn't. "Cancer Brooke really? Are you that lonely and desperate for attention that you had to get Deborah to lie for you?"

Dr. Scott took it off speaker as she started to talk fast to my mom explaining to her that this was real and I was very sick. Every word felt like a blow to me I felt myself sinking down a long dangerous hole. My mom was yelling so loud now we didn't need a speaker.

"Well you wanted her as your daughter Deborah congrats she's yours we're washing our hands off her, will fax over the forms relinquishing our parental rights, Brooke I just wanted you to know, I never wanted you to start with the only reason we didn't abort you was the shame it would bring to our families. I should of done it because you have brought nothing but shame to us. Deborah good luck with her as far as we're concerned we don't give a damn if she lives or dies"

Nathan wrapped his arms around me as I felt my chest tighten. Dr. Scott hung up turning to me I felt her arms wrap around me as I started to shake tears fighting to break through. She rubbed my back apologizing over and over for bringing that to my life. I felt her kiss my forehead as I heard someone yell for her. She sent Nathan a look as she rushed out.

"That was harsh" We heard a voice break through wiping my damp face Nathan spoke first as I l turned my head towards where the voice had come from feeling depressed. "Who's there?" He asked the curtain opened revealing a teenager around our age, wearing hot pink shorts a black tank top long raven like hair flowing to her mid back. "Sorry didn't mean to interrupt just excited to finally have a roommate" I heard an accent "Where's you're accent from?" "Oh I'm glad you noticed I'm from Ireland" "My name is Sophia Grace O'Dylan I'm fifteen"

"Nice to meet you I'm Nathan Scott" "Oh I know honey we all know who you are star player of the Tree Hill Ravens" I laughed poking his side feeling him blush.

"This is Brooke Davis my best friend, so how long have you been a patient here?"

"I came in on Friday" Sophia answered coming over towards my bed we motioned for her to sit down.

Sophia smiled as she replied her eyes checking Nathan out. "Hardest part of this shit is the reactions you'll get from family and friends my own brother told me I was acting out for attention, granted he's only nine but it still hurt, I mean why would anyone want to go through this hell?"

She squeezed my hand as I tried to fight like hell to keep the depression down. I felt Sophia's hands start to gently massage my shoulders. At first I tensed up who was she to touch me? I had no energy to fight her though.

"What are you doing?" Nathan instantly became like a bull dog she laughed

"Just a little massage one effective way to stop depression is to be touched if someone feels loved the body reacts positively"

I had to admit that after a few minutes I did feel less down, even my breathing seemed to ease up. I felt myself drift off.

"I love you B. Davis"

Peyton where was she? I spun around searching frantically my chest catching as I caught a glimpse of her blond curls bouncing as she raced away laughing calling to me "Find me B. Davis hurry!" Come on legs move I tried to follow her I couldn't move. What was wrong with me? "Come on Brooke you're the girl I've been waiting for, don't you love me?" "Yes Peyton yes I love you!" "Than hurry up slow poke I won't wait forever" Closing my eyes I willed myself to move, I pulled at my legs, I hit myself. Nothing happened tears poured over my eyes. I could smell the coconut of her shampoo lingering teasing me. Laughter who was laughing? I started to spin but I couldn't move pain hit me hard I felt myself blacking out.

White lights blinded me laughter woke me who was laughing? Why were they laughing at me? Wait why was the ceiling staring down at me? Faces blurred in my hazy line of vision they were the ones laughing. Who were they? Why were they laughing? What did I do to piss them off? "Brooke loves Peyton..Brooke loves Peyton, Brooke is a Dyke" I could hear the chanting now I wished I didn't. "Kick her! Hit her!"

Fear consumed me why couldn't I move? My vision was getting clearer now I was on the floor in school. Why wasn't any of the teachers helping me? I was tied to the damn floor my legs spread eagle, my skirt hiked up my legs were spray painted with viscous slurs lesbo on my left slut on my right. I saw Mrs. Ally look at me with shame as she spit on me. I couldn't speak someone had gagged me. "Make her pay" I knew that voice who was it? My head was spinning again I felt myself blacking out as I felt each blow from each foot, every fist as my world went black I saw the face "Payback is a bitch watch your back slut" Haley.

I was in a different room now a train station? No an airport? I heard engines, I heard whistles, everything was happening so fast. Laughter again but it wasn't kids. Who was laughing? "How stupid is she? She actually thinks we wanted her? God I must win an academy award I played the role of daunting mommy for years, damn I am so happy to be free of that ball and chain! Gin and tonics on me! Mom? Was that her? A male's voice called back "Well no one will ever accused us of having a genius for a daughter, we could always say she was adopted than it's not our genes" I saw their figures dancing happily onto the airplane waiting for them as they clicked champagne glasses. "Mom! Dad! Please don't leave me I'm sorry I'll be smarter cleaner, I'll be quieter, prettier, I'll do anything please!"

"It's too late Brooke your time is up"

Who's voice was that now? Why were all these voices haunting me? My head was spinning I couldn't focus everything felt so out of reality was this a dream? Was this April fools? Why was everyone leaving me?

Goodbye Goodbye Brooke we bid you

Goodbye! Give me a G..Give me an O..

Bring It to an O and a D

Lets hear it For B Y E

Quinn...Bevin...Theresa, Gage no it couldn't be why were they cheering goodbye? Why couldn't I catch them. My breath was coming in short painful gasps.

"Brooke I'm still waiting where are you?"

"Peyton?"

"Yes B. Davis hurry up I won't wait forever"

I saw her a vision of pure beauty in her little red almost see through dress holding white flowers her hair braided around the top of her head she looked like an angel with a halo. Wait was she standing at an alter? No! No Peyton you can't marry him. He's not right for you! What year was it? Where am I? Why can't she see me? Am I dead? She looks older, she looks happy she's laughing. Did she forget me? Is she mad at me? Where am I? Why god why can't I get to her? She's moving smiling wider she's getting closer to the figure. My heart is beating way too fast I can't breathe. Visions of my life with Peyton flash by my eyes we were at a party we were dancing wild laughing drinking, she's holding me tight as we grind, god I was sooo so drunk, I couldn't even stand, she carried me to her room her bed. I laid there awake all night holding her exhausted but too scared to sleep, scared of this moment ending. I needed to feel her heart beat smell her sweet pineapple breath.

We were in a car her dad's but she was driving her hair blowing back as she's laughing pressing harder on the gas, I'm standing up arms extended out am I drunk? The music is blasting I'm screaming as she's trying to pull me down we almost crash but she grasped the wheel yelling at me, I fall into her lap tears of happiness falling she's hitting my back yelling at me not to do it again, she calls me crazy girl her crazy girl.

We're younger now chasing fireflies laughing tackling each other no were by a campfire roasting marshmallows of course I tried to get mine to burn faster it falls off I scream and cry. Stomping my feet she laughs at me rolls her eyes her fingers shove hers inside my mouth.

"Will you Peyton Swayer take this man to be your lawful husband will you promise to love honor cherish and stick together through sickness health good times and bad?"

"No! Peyton No please!

Everything is spinning again I yank harder I feel something rip there's wetness, on my arm I don't care I don't look I run. I have to stop her my lungs burn my legs hurt my chest is burning I feel sick. I keep running I have to stop her.

"Lucas Scott, we have been through so much together. And despite how confused I've been or lost I might've gotten, there was always you finding me, and saving me. You deserve to be adored, so that's what we're going to do. Your baby and me, we are going to adore you for years to come. I am so terribly in love with you, and I always will be."

Lucas what in the bloody hell? Why was she marrying that loser?

P O V: Nathan's

"Brooke wake up!" "Brooke wake up!"

"No Peyton no...please don't….Peyton please don't you can't please wait up I'm here"

"Brooke wake up honey you ripped you're IV Sophia get a nurse she's not waking up!"

She was thrashing so hard her hands violently ripping her IV line out blood was pouring down her arms. I've been trying to wake her up for five minutes every since I saw her start to turn swatting her hands moaning in her sleep. She was so pale sweaty, I could hear her gasping. I was worried sick what was going on with her? Why was she screaming for Peyton?

"Peyton I'm sorry please don't leave me, Peyton I love you damn it Peyton...NO!"

She shot up so suddenly her own body wasn't sure what was happening eyes filled with fear mind not entirely awake as she looked around gasping. My arms engulfed her rocking her rubbing her back as Haley, Bleue my mom and Quinn all raced in just as Brooke suddenly gagged vomiting everywhere "Get some water Quinn she'll need to rinse, My mom yelled right to Bleue as Bleue finished yelling to Quinn "Her heart rate is way too fast we need to calm her down, Give me 3 mg of Adencor"

Haley pulled me off Brooke gently but firmly she fell back on to the bed body tense as my mom grabbed her injecting her arm with adencor a drug to help slow her heart-rate. Haley pulled the curtain shoving us both on Sophia's side. Sophia stood up helping Haley to pull me back. I didn't want to leave her but I had no choice. My own heart was beating so fast I couldn't stand any longer.